[(Hold Me For All Time)]

:: 2004 19 December :: 6.55pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: killers - killing me? [their new song]

my weekend!!

lol just fyi.. this song im listening to is jimmys fave song, he wants to download it for me haha..

well well haha.. my weekend... actually, lemme even back it up a little further to wednesday.

so wednesday im talking to jimmy about how im coming out there this weekend and yadda yadda.. so we keep talking n hes like "yea i have to go to a play with my family on saturday. we go every year around christmastime" so i was like "well that sucks" lol. and he goes "well tara was supposed to go with me this year, we had a ticket for her, but now that she's not going [cuz they broke up] do you want me to see if i can get you the extra ticket and u can join me" so of course i was like yeaaa lol. so i was all happy that day cuz he invited me to go.
: D

thursday im talking to him and he tells me that the ticket that was going to go to me was given to his neices friend, so theres no ticket so i cant go unless the friend backs out.. very saddening
: (

theeeenn friday i went out to eat with my aunt, and i was talking about how i really wanted to go to the play and meet his family cuz maybe if they liked me he'd change his mind about the age thing n stuff.. soo she was like, if its meant to happen it will no matter what, and im just in a foul mood cuz i really like him and really wanna go to this show with thim and his family. so i get home from lunch and im talkin to him about it again, and he tells me that somebody else backed out of the play and theres an extra ticket. soo of course my frown turns upside down and i told him im still up for it. 1 problem - i have to be in shirley, at uncle joes, by 8am.. whatta bitch!

saturday morning i wake up at 613am and john brings me to the isle. we go to uncle joes and jimmy is the only one up. we get inside and then me and jimmy leave for the train station and john goes back home. so we're in the car freezing our asses off tryin to find this train station. so we finally get there and get to the ticket place where u buy ur tickets to meet up with his family, jim goes to get the tickets but he forgot his wallet in the car lol. it was mad funny, he ran so fast to get it lol. poor kid. so we get the tickets, and yes he pays for me.. and we get to the train, whatta close call gettin on that train lol. a split second later we wouldnt have made it -- no lie. so we get on the train n me n him sit together n we're talkin to his neice megan and her friend amanda, they were cute, always wanted "uncle jimmy" it was so adorable lol. so we get to penn station and jim gets a bagel n then we start walkin.. a lot hah. we get to carmines to eat and we had to get split up into 2diff tables cuz our party was too big. so it was me, jimmy, jimmys dad, his mother, 2 sisters, and brother in law. WHOA lol. so his sister jen in the middle of dinner goes "danielle, can i take a picture of you and jimmy" lol i was nervous i dint know what to say.. so i let jimmy handle it, and he goes yea take a pic and leans into me and we take a pic. [ahh lol sigh aww. <33] we kept givin each other these looks, i cant xplain the looks/smiles or the feeling i get, but its something. theen after dinner we keep walking to toys r us and me n jimmy go sit down by a bunch of elmo dolls lol, we talked for a bit, tried to make a plan for the rest of the night and sunday. after toys r us, we walked to the show, we got in, and were tryin to get to our seats when suddenly i feel jimmys hands go on my hips and hes holding me by my hips so gently makin sure i know where im going n he dont lose me, omg i thought i was gonna die lol. so we get to our seats, n of course we're sittin together, n the show was AWESOME. omg billy joel songs are great, it was really a good show. after the show we were gonna go see the tree, but we were all maaadd tired.. so we didnt. so we start walkin back to penn and me n jimmy r ahead n he goes to me "you know, this would be nice, if they werent here" i kinda giggled cuz i didnt know how to respond to that rofl. soo then we get to the station n jimmy wants a shake so we go to haagen daaz n get shakes for us. we get on the train n its a longg ass ride n we get back to ronkonkamo station n say our goodbyes. his family was soo nice and i think they liked me. so i hugged all of em goodbye and me n jimmy left. we went to aunt patties and hung out for a while then i went to aunt dees so we could have a talk, n then we went back to aunt pats. when we got there rob n jim were sleepin, so i woke them both up, i started massaging jimmys back n he goes "ahh, yess.. this is the best way to wake up, good wake up call" lol i was like yea im the best haha. so we went to get mudslide mix n then we came back to the house. we played texas holdem .. 8 people,i got in 3rd suckersss lol! woot woot, it was between me uncle joe and jimmy.. uncle joe won..so then the boys opened up their gifts, they LOVED the shirts whicfh really made me happy.. and jimmy used his shot glass lol n my family got wasted haha. jimmys the new whiskey boy!! during the game me n jimmy did that smile/flirty/these looks/innocent touchin n flirtin thing.. n then i went back to aunt dees. rob n jimmy got mad i didnt sleep over there haha arent i loved.. im missin details from the day, but this is long enough ha.

then today i woke up at like 950 and txted jimmy cuz i told him last night id wake him up today. so i txtd him n he wrote back n told me to get ready nd he'd be over to pick me up in 15min. soo i got ready, sure nuff he picked me up in like 15min n we were off. we went to the bank first, but they were closed so we went to get breakfast, i got a bagel.. yumm, he got eggs on a bagel lol. yumm too. then we ate and went back to the bank, he did what he had to do, and then we looked for movie times. we went to the paintball place so we could drop a few things off to robbie n jared. after that we went to island16 [movie theatre] n saw oceans 12. he saw it already, but i didnt so we went. but doode, that movie constantine looks soo sick i gotta see it. soo yea, we went to the movies n then he dropped me off at aunt dees. it was retarded tho cuz i was supposed to leave the isle at 3, which is when jim dropped me off, but we ended up stayin til like 430 whcih sucked, cuz i coulda been w/ jimmy instead lol. at 430 we went to aunt pats to say bye and i saw him again so my heart fluttered, i got butterflies and a HUGE smile n we kissed on the cheek n said goodbye, n imma come back there on sat or sun and stay for a week which will be AWESOMMEE!! ill get to see jimmy everyday when hes not working!

but yea, the thing that gets me is jimmy always pays for EVERYTHING. hes paid for everything everytime we're together. its really nice but i feel terrible, so i always try to whip out some cash..

its so much fun hanging out with him, but it always sucks having to say goodbye, its not fair that we live so far. but my family keeps telling me not to worry about it uz they think jimmy likes me but he's just being respectful n yadda yadda. idk if he likes me, but i sure sure sure hope he does... ill wait, as long as i know im waitin for somethin solid. my fam tells me he likes me n things will happen a relationship will blossom, but damn man. lets get in blossoming season or something, this is killinggg meee lol. but i gotta go bc im gettin bitched at. ill update more later.

<33 - i only wanna be with youu - <33

Did the sun just come out or did you just smile* at me <33

: D :-p : D :-p : D
i cant stop smiling. im so happy when im with him, its undescribable

oo .. n he wore AF BOTH days
idk if u know what im talkin about
but it means something rite laur?

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heartsbroken

:: 2004 19 December :: 2.44pm
:: Mood: annoyed

grrrr ... i got erik a jersey for chirstmas and idk if its gunna fit him ... when i look at it it looks really big now! but i had the guys at the store trying it on and i guess it looked ok but they werent the same size as him ... im gunna be so mad if it doesnt fit him cuz its no refunds or exchanges but one of the guys said if it doesnt fit i can bring it back and get the right size but when i went to pay for it the guys said no exchanges... i hope it fits him or im gunna be sooo pissed...

ill update about my weekend later

-michelle-
<3erik

:: 2004 17 December :: 6.35pm

well, i have just been up and down with updates these past few days but im back to this..
: D

plans are back on!! i only hope i can get out there in time, imma cry if i cant. this is sooo important to me.. i hope i can make it out there by 8 .. please dont let me down john

its funny how things work out . . .
: D
hope i can keep that face on til monday!

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:: 2004 16 December :: 10.33pm

should've figured.. just should've figured

: (

when is something going to go my way? things are not lookin up..

and fyi -- that was the most retarded thing you could've done whether you were kidding or not. it was dumb and started a problem over nothing.

sure, we made plans for when he gets back, o12 .. wallyball.. whatever, its still not the same. i just want to make plans and have them follow through.

had a good talk with mike today ~ that was fun..

i cant stand how good he makes me feel, i cant stand how much i liike him, and i cant stand that i have no idea what hes thinkin..

:: 2004 16 December :: 6.24pm
:: Mood: ehh
:: Music: Golden Girels

hehe

Mike<33

hmhp

lemme taste lemme taste that tounge ring

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:: 2004 16 December :: 5.26pm

it cant get fucked up, the plans cant get cancelled.. im too excited for that to happen. my grin last night was from ear to ear
: D :D : D :D : D

aaanywho, when ur not lookin for guys, they sure do pop up haha. i only hope he becomes one of them. ill update when i know the definite plans. x's n o's

ciao bellaz! `';``'`;Danielle';``'`;

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:: 2004 15 December :: 11.35pm

if you could only see the grin on my face!!
: D

*sigh* i am sooo head over heels...

id think that was a sign?

:: 2004 15 December :: 6.29pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: nikki

boys

I hate boys i have the choice of 2 wonderful guys n its sooo confusing i mean i wanna combine them but i cant n i dont wanna hurt either of them this is

shit-tay

Heather

:: 2004 13 December :: 9.06pm

okay, well last weeknd i didnt get to see jimmy because my aunt is a ---- lol. i dont even know how to describe that woman. but hopefully this weekend will be different.

friday after school my dads wife picked me up [cynthia]. we had a nice talk driving to my dads job, then we met up with him, he threw me some money, then we picked up my sister and went to mandees. i got two cuuute pairs of paints. ones a niice ass pair of jeans, and the other is blue cuordorouy pants w/ a ill belt. gonna be cute, i just needa get shirts! then we went out to dinner .. chinese!! *yumm* ... i slept at my dads house.

saturday i woke up and had french toast [not as good as the ones we had on our weekend lovie] then i helped cynthia get shit organized for her xmas party. yea, i did a lot of shit, then when everyone got there i was the butler of the party "can i get you something to drink" "would you like a refill" -- how about ... "get your lazy ass up and do it yourself" lol. after that my sister and her boyfriend took me to rent oceans eleven -- finally.. that movie was sooo ill forreal. then my dad took me home. went straight to bed after that.

sunday was one of the busiest days i swear. okay, so i wake up make my bed n shit so my aunt dont have a hissy fit, then i call lauren. me n laur meet up and we go to murder inc to ask a few questions about xmas presents. they were closed so we went back to my house.. at my house we started brainstorming for gifts for my aunt, we finally thought of something so we got all the materials we needed together lol. then john came home and he took us to roosevelt field mall, lemme just say, the car ride w/ me and my music and my geek dancin was great. soo we get to roosevelt and we go everywhere. we got aunt lees gift which is amazing. its a dangling heart picture frame thats 2sided and one one side is a pic of her n my mom on her wedding day, n the other side is of the most recent xmas they shareed together. so we blew up those pics and put them in the frame and got "together forever" emgraveed on it.. soo incredible. then we got jim,joe, and robs presents which is a shirt we got embroidered with their paintball team on it and their names on the team. they turned out nice as hell. got carlys, laurens, pauls, johns, shannons, leahs, alex's, jess's , dads n cynthias n more. im pretty much done with my shoppin cept i neeed a few more cards. then lauren came over after and we wrapped the gifts and started xmas cards, still not done tho teehee!

anyways, so ive been talkin to jimmy like everyday and its pretty great, he makes me smile and i love it. he dyed his hair chocolate truffle -- cant wait to see it haha. got my report card.. 84.5 average. sci - 80
volleyball - 95
english - 80
global - 70
lab - satisfactory
math - 95
government - 90
italian - 95

if i can bring up that global and english a lot, and try to maintain 90's and above in the rest, i could be doing really good.. i just really needa concentrate and be all about the schoolwork -- dont that sound fun??

so this weeknd was nik's party, and i wanna go, but im going to see my aunts, yea i could say no but 1.its my aunt, and she was mad at me and i dont wanna piss her off more 2.jims gonna be there and 3. i missed joes bday so i really should go see him..i just dont want nik to be mad at me!!

other than that i miss everybody and hope to talk to u soon. mel, heath and wick expect emails shortly .. very long ones. carly u never called back u crotch lol. but ill ttys. maddd luvv to everyone else, mich i love n miss u .. n i have a favor to ask!! xoxoxo

thats all for now, dont wanna write a book -- tata!

mom, i miss you soo much. please keep me strong, theres points where i just feel like breaking down, if i could have just one more hug . . .

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:: 2004 11 December :: 4.19pm
:: Mood: borED
:: Music: nothing

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ugh ohh..

:: 2004 7 December :: 7.16pm

R.I.P

MALKA MONK

6:00 PM-- 12-7-04

I LOVE YOU ADELLE JASON LAUR N MIKE IM SO SORRY UR FAMILY IS LIKE MINE!

THERE GOES #6

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:: 2004 7 December :: 7.07pm

i got a new diamond ring...holla!

id like woohu's new layout...way weird!

:: 2004 7 December :: 7.03pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: IM's

Happy holidays!

Happy Holidays

-n- Imma Jew

can't wait for the comments on this one!

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heartsbroken

:: 2004 6 December :: 9.27pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: frank sinatra- i wont dance

today was great
i didnt go to school today , my mom couldnt wake me up she was like shaking me and i didnt wake up cuz i took my med. thats like sleepin pills yesterday and i passed out. at 3 i went to the doctors that ive been dreading and got almost good news but i was there for more then 2 hours cuz there fuckin dumb.. they dont realize im 15 ! and dont pay my own insurance and cant legally sign the papers and were givin my mom a hard time about it.. then i went to practice and we learned the thing were doin and omg its gunna be soooo cool were doin it to Frank sinatra - i wont dance its sooo cool im up front for most of the show , i end up bein front and center for a while AND i got the part i wanted! i wanted to be on the rifle line cuz only 12 girls get it and the rest get flag and i got it! now i gatta work on so much shit!