Well, needless to say, a lot has happened since I last posted.

First of all, my journal suddenly changed...hmm, i wonder what loving best friend would do that for me...Brianna, DUH! Hehe!

Lately, things have been quite...well...all over the place really. I haven't had time to see my friends. :( I miss them. Especially Brianna. I've had so many awesome times with that girl and i love her almost as much as I do Kevin. (Man I hate danglin'! Inside Joke hehe!) Kevin and I are IBO's now. Woot! We actually pulled Chad Menefee on as a partner, too. We're way excited. We've already turned a profit in the first month! So needless to say business is great.

Christmas is coming around obviously and I'm happy to say that I'm really in the holiday mood. It's been really fun so far. Except for the fact that I miss my mom sooooo very much. I'll admit it. Putting up the Christmas tree with Kev and Lee and Amie made me cry thinking of how my mom and I would always do it together. It's my first Christmas without my parents, and for some reason I'm taking it really hard. But other than that, the holiday prospect is generally positive!

I do have to be mushy though. Sorry! But I'm just blown away with the relationship Kevin and I have. It's everything I've expected from a marriage and more. We really love taking care of eachother. And with the whole Christmas without my mom thing. Anytime I've cried all he does is say, "Aww, babe, come here." And pulls me into a loving embrace and comforts me. Tonight he even suggested that we take a trip to visit my mom tomorrow, which was the sweetest thing. I just can't say enough about him!

So for everyone that I'm sure would eventually find out from the wonderful Cedar chain of gossip what I'm about to say, I'm saying it now so everyone can get their damn facts strait. I'm sure everyone knows about me not graduating last year. And I'm sure everyone frowns on that and whatever, but really, I don't care. You have absolutely NO idea what I've been through, and I'm not about to go through the whole list because I 1) That would take to long, 2) I don't want to relive everything, and 3) I don't feel like I should have to; just knowing that it's out of character for me not to have graduated yet is reason enough to know that there's more than what the "gossip chain" thinks they know. *deep breath* Ok, so why I just went over that, you ask? Well, I'm going back to school. To Cedar alternative. Yep, livin' it up with the rejects with the weird ass rainbow fucking walls. Now that I have a HELL of a lot more stable life, I'm going back. I'm sure there are those that are thinking, "Alternative? What, is she crazy?" No actually, I'm sane, thank you, and I'm doing not only myself good but others as well. I know that if I went back to the High School, I'd be kicked out by lunch time for kicking peoples asses that had the audacity to step out of line and make some mean ass comment about me being there. I swear to goshness that I wouldn't hesitate to sock anyone that has a comment about it. Which would also interfere with my work, which I don't have time for. At the alternative, I really don't give a rats ass what they think of me, or what they say to me. I've got a fucking mission and it's going to get done. Plus, the regular high school is all caught up in this he-said-she-said bull shit and who's with who and who's doing what and all the nonsense that really doesn't matter in the real world. It's shit that clouds the mind and dulls the senses. A place where the jocks date the cheerleaders because thats whats done in the movies and their girlfriend is a really easy piece of ass so it doesn't matter if she's annoying as fuck. A place of scandal and drama. And I don't mean the class, I mean the kind that people create because they haven't got a fucking thing better to do with their time. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying alternative is going to be like a slice of heaven, trust me I'm not that naieve. Atleast the people there don't care about all that sugar coated bull shit. They'll be too busy swaping drugs to give a shit about what I'm doing. So even though that was long winded, it was something I needed to get off my chest. So there. I said it.

Well, I'm gonna quit here tonight. Maybe more later.

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