Die young and save yourself

Die young and save yourself

:: 2003 9 November :: 8.10pm

okay okay.

FRIDAY.
~ saw Gregory Luke right after school <3
~ senior recognition night SEE!

~ game vs. Boca we WON! exciting game, 41-37 was the final score, it was supeeerr close. scary.

okay. this is when it begins to suck.
*after the game, Greg and I went to Dennys on Linton & Federal. i ordered a cherry coke and buffalo chicken strips. I get the stuff, cut up a piece, feed it to greg & take a bite myself. I took a bite and was all like "man, this doesn't have the same consistancy of chicken" I begin to analyze the chicken only to find that its completely raw! i spit it out and got the waiter. He went to take it back or whatever and I told Greg i wasn't in the mood for chicken anymore so he went and told the guy to get us a caramel apple crisp. It was okay. the guy brought our check and what they did was subtracted the apple crisp from the price of the chicken (which was more then the crisp was alone) and i was like "wtf." wouldn't you think that i should get it for free i mean they tried to kill me w/salmanila for Gods sake. So i ask to see the manager and hes a total douche bag and this fucking big ass black bitch next to me is all obnoxious so greg was all pissed off and was like "fuck it, lets go" and we just walked out. ANGRY!
will never go back to dennys on Federal & Linton or Federal & Woolbright ever again.

SATURDAY
ummmm woke up around 10, ate breakfast, practiced bassoon & went over to Gregs.
We made cookies & chilled. Went to the mall & he got a haircut (its okay... a little short for my taste but its all Elvis-y now.) Went to Petsmart and saw kitties for adoption, got bitched out by the lady "young adopters are the worst, they have babies and return the cats". alright. um. gregs dad made an oober good meal & we just chilled. I ended up staying the night so that was cool.

oh man. we went to see TIMB at One Cup at a Time last night! it rocked. It was some girls sweet 16 so it was kinda improv like a jam session but mad props to us!! MINI BLUM was there! that made me mucho happy :0)

SUNDAY
woke up early & stared at Gregory sleep kissing him all over till he woke up. went to church con his padres & his dad made us kick ass pancakes. after church we hit up the boynton ale house and greg lost $10 in pool. oh. and his removed uncles girlfriend (ditzy blonde bitch) said that i looked like i was 12. i wanted to tell her to eat shit and dig her stupid blonde head up her ass. went back to his house, watched tv and his dad made kick ass home made pepperoni balls and pizza. i went home then.

gregorys coming over in a couple hours to bring me cake :0) thats all for now.

4 Spoke | You can't make me talk!

rockon14

:: 2003 9 November :: 12.36am
:: Music: 3AM by Matchbox 20

I'm going home this weekend. My daddy's hopefully taking me to see URINETOWN!! I am soo excited. I have the coolest daddy in the world...ever! I'm gonna try and get together with Larua too. I haven't see her since graduation when she went with my family to go and eat. I miss my Laurs!

I think I've memorized my letter. It's filled with such nice things. I love nice things.

I've been chattin' it up with Tim a lot lately. I have to find him a girlfriend so I can get $20. This will be the easiest $20 I've ever made. I love easy money...ha...that was funny.

Parks gave me a big thing about my not eating the other day. Says he's worried about me...worried about what might happened if I keep going. I told him the only reason I ever eat anymore is because he tells me to. Food is such an annoying thing. He'll understand that when I get to the size I want to be. I can't stop anyway. I've come too far for just giving up like that.

Feeling light is amazing.

You can't make me talk!

rockon14

:: 2003 7 November :: 2.35pm
:: Mood: light

She said It's cold outside and she hands me my raincoat
She's always worried about things like that
She says It's all gonna end and it might as well be my fault
She only sleeps when it's rainin'
She screams and her voice is strainin'

She says Baby
It's three AM I must be lonely
When she says Baby
Well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it

She's got a little bit of somethin', God it's better than nothin'
And in her color portrait world she believes that she's got it all
She swears the moon don't hang quite as high as it used to
She only sleeps when it's rainin'
And she screams and her voice is strainin'

She says Baby
It's three AM I must be lonely
When she says Baby
I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it

She believes that life is made up of all that you're used to
And the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days and days
She thinks happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway
But outside it's stopped rainin'

She says Baby
It's 3 AM I must be lonely
When she says Baby
I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it

You can't make me talk!

munkysaurus

:: 2003 6 November :: 9.14pm
:: Music: U2 - In God's Country

Mom got sick and died, Dad got sick and died, Sister got sick and died, Pastor got sick and died, I got sick and became alive...
Dearest of dear Mr. J,

One of the customers comes in about once every two weeks. Everytime he grabs his tray to sit down, he slides a little piece of paper across the counter. One time it was just a small pieace about the size and density of a business card, another was sort of a brochure. They both blantantly speak of Jesus and god stating very simplistic facts. Neither of them say come join us at (insert religious: convention, meeting, joining, gathering).
I have a specific take on religion.
Anyway, I keep them. Not because of the religious content. But, just the fact that it strikes me as a selfless, flattering act of humanity.
If you were a cashier at a fast food franchise, you'd understand. It goes beyond that, though.
I'm sure that's what he's trying to impose on me. I'm a sucker.

Anywho,
workin lots. smoking lots. wish I wasn't smoking lots. Canada sucks.

Oh, and:

Hey, November, how the hell've you been!
Thank ya,
D-bag/

1 Spoke | You can't make me talk!

rockon14

:: 2003 6 November :: 5.19pm
:: Mood: fantastic
:: Music: I see a Rive from Urinetown

Today I feel light. I think I know why. It's an amazing feeling...light.

I was chattin' it up with Sheldon the other day and her called me Bekster. As crazy as it sounds, I get the biggest kick out of people calling me that. I makes me feel like laughing.

I get to go back to therapy tomorrow. Yay. I don't wanna go. I don't have any problems so I don't really see why I went in the first place. I'll just go and let them tell me there's nothing wrong and get it over with. Such a waste of time.

I got a letter today.

A wonderful letter.

Someone asked me, "How are you today?"

"I'm fantastic."

fantastic

i don't get hungry anymore

You can't make me talk!

plainmornings

:: 2003 5 November :: 7.01pm

** basics **
Name:: Vivi
Nickname:: um... Vi-ster, Giraffe!, Kitty(not to be confused with MY kitty haha), sweet girl
Location:: mouth of the friggin MOUSE, Florida
Gender:: sweet sweet lady :0P
Birthplace:: Concord, Massachusetts
Birthstone:: ummm i think turquoise
Birthday:: 12.20.85
Sign:: ummm Sagitarrius & OX on the chinese zodiac
Righty or Lefty:: righty
Screenname:: picsxstarsxdream
** your looks **
Height:: 4'11 & a half :0P
Weight:: um too much.
Shoe size:: 7-8 depends
Hair Color:: black although i've been told many times its not really black but dark brown.. sorry.
Hair Length:: its all crazy, getting long
Eye Color:: dark brown
Size:: size of what?
Glasses:: only the emo kind :0P
Braces:: no sir
Piercings:: ummmm belly button and ears i guess
Tattoos:: i'm pending
** fashion **
Where do you shop:: whereever i have free money :0)
What do you usually wear:: t-shirt and jeans
What kind of shoes do you wear:: i have over 50 pairs of shoes... i <3 my tie dye chucks though
Do you wear a watch:: used to. (Official time keeper :0p)
Color you never wear:: i'll wear anything really... i'm not too fond of like senior citizen grey though
Color you wear at least once a week:: probably green or pink or blue or everycolor
Something you wear everyday:: my necklace
Do you wear make up everyday:: generally
Make up essential:: depends when and how early i wake up :0P
Most cherished piece of clothing:: my turtlesaur shirt. <3 twins <3
You wouldn't be caught dead wearing:: biker shorts.
Do you wear belts:: no
Do you wear hats:: no
How many pairs of shoes do you have:: a bazillion ... over 50
** music **
Favorite kind of music:: i like everything i guess more emo/indie stuff
Least Favorite:: i really can't take "gangsta rap"
How many CD's do you have:: not too many that i've bought, many that i've made
Last CD you bought:: oh dear... i'm trying to remember but its not coming to me... maybe Hail to the Thief?
Whats in your CD player right now:: ummmm the Postal Service
Do you download music:: i used to until Kazaa went crazy
** Favorites **
Color:: all of them... purple, turtlesaur green, orange, pink, red etc.
Number:: 1,7,8,9,11,12,20
Season:: winter or spring
Ice cream:: oh dear. i can feel the fat already... mint chocolate chip i suppose
Website:: yo no se
Quote:: "Go directly in the direction of your dreams, live the life you've always imagined" - Thoreau
Store:: i probably spend most of my $$ at Express
Band:: Beck :0P ... any many many others
Singer:: Jolie from the Rocking Horse Winner
Rapper:: Outkast
Group:: um... Simon and Garfunkel :0P
Song:: Smashing Pumpkin's version of Landslide
Movie:: not fair. Being John Malkovich, Secretary, Amelie, American Beauty, Donnie Darko, Empire Records, Vanillla Sky, Sliding Doors, and a bazillion more
Actor:: Johnny Depp
Actress:: Liv Tyler
Kind of movies:: movies that you come out of thinking "WTF just happened!"
Place to be:: laying in bed with Greggy poo
Time of day:: 9pm :0P
Clothing Brand:: whats with all the clothes!
Animal:: kitty <3 puppy & baby kitty & elvis & Miss.Kitty aka Princy & gatito
Food:: i really like food like a fatty.
Holiday:: no preference i don't think
Shape:: star, heart, circle
Restaraunt:: i have lots of these too... the french place on Federal & Yamato, Melting Pot, La Casita etc.
Fast food place:: Taco Bell, Checkers, KFC
Boy's name:: Shane, Keith, Luke
Girl's name:: Elsa, Rainer like Rainer Maria lol i duno, others
Word:: wow.
Month:: December, June
Candy:: twizzlers, gummi bears
** love and relationships **
Sexual Preference:: i admit it. i like the cock :0P
Boyfriend or Girlfriend:: boyfriend.
Crush:: like i'll crush you up
Do you believe in love at first sight:: i don't know
What do you look for in a guy/girl:: the whole package, looks, personality, smile, compassion, chemistry
Best physical feature:: HAIR! heh , eyes, lips, smile
Best hair color:: i like darker colors i suppose
Best eye color:: anything thats not shit brown like mine :0P
** randoms **
Do you paint your nails:: ummm toenails
What color is your tooth brush:: silver i think
What's on your desktop:: nothing special, haven't set preferences on new computer yet :0)
Do you like roller coasters:: absofreakinglutely love them!
Do you do drugs:: ummm i'm taking a prescription for a sinus infection?
Are you a virgin:: a girl unblossomed me didn't she? oh wait.. that was Jessica :0P haha
Do you have any pets:: my love, Miss Princy Kitty Elvis & Baby Kitty ;0P
What time do you go to sleep:: probably earlier then you.

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5 Spoke | You can't make me talk!

rockon14

:: 2003 4 November :: 10.03pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: Urinetown!

Laura is the coolest chick! Every boy should love her!

I told Laura I'd write an entry about her and so I"m doing it. Laura is one of my best friends. I can tell her just about anything (even what I put in that horrific letter of mine.) She listens to each of my tiny little complaints even though she has so much to deal with herself. She has such an amazingly big heart and has always made me feel amazing. One day I'm going to proclaim it Laura Day and we'll go out and have a wonderful time! Laura is also great because she understand the nautre of being a dork.

rockon1416: I LIKE A GUY WHO'S NOT EVER SINGLE!!!
TNChik9987: I LIKE A GUY WHO DOESNT WANT ME
rockon1416: SOOO
rockon1416: YOU DON'T KNOW THAT
rockon1416: YOU WAIT UNTIL I TALK TO HIM
rockon1416: I FEEL LIKE WE'RE VERY FAR AWAY AND HAVE TO YELL IN ORDER TO HEAR EACH OTHER
TNChik9987: ME TOO
rockon1416: LAURA...LAURA CAN YOU HEAR ME?
TNChik9987: YEP I HEAR YOU PERFECTLY
rockon1416: YAY
rockon1416: we are such dorks
TNChik9987: we stick with our kind
rockon1416: lol

See! Not many people can put up with my stupidity to that dregree.

Yay for Laura! Everyone should love her!

You can't make me talk!

rockon14

:: 2003 3 November :: 7.58pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: John Mayer mmmmm

I love Roberts Halls. That's right, you heard me. I fuckin' love it.

Sunday morning, 1 AM, the fire alarm goes off. I woke Alyssa up (she's going to die if there really is a fire...but hell, I don't blame her.) I'm half asleep telling her to get a sweater and her shoes. I couldn't find my stupid sweater so I had to wear the one Parks gave me, but whatever, it was warm. So we go outside and stand for 10 minutes. Of course...there's no fire. After the damn alarm finally stops we go back inside. The minute I get my sweater and shoes off the stupid thing goes off again. So we went back outside. Alarm stops, we go back inside...alarm goes off again. We stayed inside that time. I thought I was gonna loose my hearing. I don't know how Alyssa sleeps through that damn thing. I believe murder is okay when it's the dumbass who keeps on setting the fire alarm off.

I talked to Parks today. He's not supposed to be on the phone so we're planning times when he can call and his parents aren't around. I felt so uncomforatable knowing he had read my crazy letter. At least I think he read it. He was like "You said it got lost in the mail...so it's lost in the mail!" Yeah well now I know it's not lost in the mail. Damn mail. He said he's write me back, meaning I have to wait forever before I get the stupid thing.

I'm going to make Chris fall for Laura with my magical powers of love! It'll be great....trust me.

You can't make me talk!

rockon14

:: 2003 3 November :: 7.58pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: John Mayer mmmmm

You can't make me talk!

plainmornings

:: 2003 3 November :: 12.00am

Happy 20th Birthday my love.
<3

1 Spoke | You can't make me talk!