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2004 16 June :: 7.18pm
blah.. finally cut my friends list down, getting rid of the people who didn't pay to keep their journals and the people who i have not talked to in over a year. Its funny, it seems as if the only two people who still regularly write in their journals are Lauren and Amanda.
i need college to be here now :0/
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rockon14
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2004 15 June :: 8.53am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Avenue Q
Crazy kids don't sleep
That's right...and I'm one of them.
I was thinking that last night/this morning while I was not sleeping. I was like, "Man, I bet you only crazy people don't sleep at night! Wooo, it's so fun to be crazy!"
Okay, don't think I'm completly off my rocker.
I had full intentions of going to sleep last night...and at a reasonable hour too. It's just that I got to reading this book, and of course I got so wrapped up in it that before I knew it the time was 2:00 AM. I figured it was about time for all good little Bekie's to be fast asleep so I put away my book and got into bed. Instead of going straight to sleep I turned on the TV, mainly just so I could see how to get back to my bed and make sure I didn't trip over any of the books that are piled up all over my room (yes, I'm a big dork.) But while flipping through the channels I found that "When Harry Met Sally" had just started and I've never seen that movie. So I became ingulfed and stayed up until five watching that. Next thing you know it's 5:00 AM and my parents are up. At this point I really had to pee, but I couldn't get out of bed because my step-mom has this lovely habit of finding something to yell at me about anytime she sees me. I had to wait a whole freakin' hour and fourty-five minutes before I could get to the stupid bathroom. After that I wasn't really tired so I did this TV workout thing which was so awesome.
Now it's 8:40. I'm gonna try and stay awake for the rest of the day...but I'll probably end up falling asleep in trivia. Oh well.
Now let's see...my computer's been down so I suppose all my lovely people would like an update.
What have I been up to?
Oh yeah,
Big news, I cut off all of my hair last week. I almost cried. I have this emotional attachment to my hair. Sam and Nikie were there with me when I had it done. It usually takes me forever to settle into a new hair style but I'm already satisfied with it. I was in need of a good change. It's so refreshing...changing things.
And that's about it. Other things happen...but I haven't slept in a long time...so I'm most likely not going to remember them now.
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2004 8 June :: 2.05am
Synonyms for procreation?...
Sigh...
Her...
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rockon14
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2004 5 June :: 6.41pm
:: Mood: crappy
I <3 Hobbits!!
Just wanted to give a quick update!!
I've been out doing all sorts of things this past week.
Tuesday after trivia Sam and I drove all the way to South Carolina just for the hell of it. We found trucker heaven. There was a topless bar, where truckers get a discount, a KFC, and a place to wash your truck. We had so much fun that we think we might take a few days off for me him and Melissa to just drive up to Maine and visit Becky and Casey. That woudl be so super cool. Road trips are so much fun.
Last night I went to see the third Harry Potter movie which kicked major ass, ever if they did leave a lot out. Melissa and I stayed the night at Amber's and had a super fun girl's night. Today we went to this art gallery and I met more of Melissa's friends. We all ate lunch and they were super nice.
I'm at Melissa's place right now. I think later on we're gonna head out with Amber again.
I'm on such a LOTR fix right now. I got the third one and I'm just like *drool for hobbits* all over the place. Everyone should know and love LOTR. I want a "Frodo Lives" shirt. I would be the coolest girl in the world if I had one...
Seriously.
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2004 5 June :: 3.18pm
I smiled, and little pieces of me walked this way and that, passing right under my nose...
Work time.
Smoke time.
Is it really, seriously, unattractive/denerving to find a guy who smokes. I feel like a convicted felon from the middle eastern 17th century. Everytime I light up. It's like, jeez, at least I'm not a cardinal of the Vatican, fucking bending little naked boys over. So I could snort crack off their asses. Are you going to chop one of my lungs off with your scimitar, huh, fuck brick! sigh...
I have to go to work pretty soon. "She'll" be there. I shake like I have palsy every time I see her. I can't help it. I loved her... But, I don't get it. How do I make people hate me so much. And, I'm not being a rere about this whole situation. It's like, every friend I've had I've driven away by some means. It's weird. And really deturring.
New Friend: "Hey, I like your hair."
Me: dancing around like a maroon (the white boy or something) "Thanks, what's up?"
New Friend: disqusted "Holy shit dude, not a DAMN thing."
Whoa, is ME?
See ya, J-unit...yoi yoi...cough*
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2004 4 June :: 1.32am
I loaded my shotgun with eminems, and proliferated his ass with chocolaty goodness...
Um, dearest and...deepest?, Mr. J.
My love life is a like a Offspring song. Go ahead listen to one. Yep, that's right. Pretty fucked up in a shrieked, grab your balls octave kind of way.
I don't understand girls. I don't think they understand themselves. It's like, bigotry aside, over there in a shady corner, off, off you go, girls act like they know everything about another.
Now, that may be a opinionated, biased statement. It's true though. They walk into shit like they're the calrone. That's fuckin' right, I said it, Calrone!
But, the unoffended, I assure you. Guys are no better.
Eh, whatever, fuck you, fuck me, apethy.
*Insert another interjection
It's kinda funny. I've been thinking this shit for three weeks and I finally decided to bitch about it. And what do I get, a incoherent, hardly close piece of bowel release.
I've only kept a handful of contacts since I've been out of school. And now they're fading on me. I guess that's just one of the cards in the Milton Bradley game. And I know I'm really touchy, feely with the past. But, fuck, who am I going to have left?
Just a pen, pencil, and a scrap of paper.
"She's" gone. Mandy's lost interest. Ryan's moving to New Orleans. Corina was never close to me. Tara, either, besides the fact that we have some kind of awkward tension between us.
Work sucks, getting bitchy and itchy. If you don't know what I mean by that. Go see for yourself. Bitchy and itchy.
Geh, oh well...
Time to go shoot me some sheep-age. Nighty,
Dustin
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plainmornings
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2004 31 May :: 2.58pm
its funny how time and time again everything repeats itself.
i leave August 17th.
i still feel as if there are some holes that need patching up. things shouldn't ever be left this long unresolved... really, thats how you lose the people that you care about the most.
to end an old life, to start a new.
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2004 29 May :: 4.33am
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: Somewhere that's green
Funny Thing of the Day
While watching LOTR Return of the King....
Daddy: (looks at Gandalf who is ridding a horse) Is that a magician?
Me: He's a wizzard...his name is Gandalf
Daddy: Why doesn't his horse fly? If he's a magician he should be able to make his horse fly!
Daddy: (while watching Gollum) What's that little fart saying?
Daddy: That's the bad guy!
Me: No it's not.
Daddy: That's got to be a bad guy....that ones wearing black.
Me: No...that's Arwen...she's not a bad guy.
*Orcs enter on screen*
Me: Now those are the bad guys.
Daddy: Hey! Look at them! Those are some good lookin' fellers!
My daddy is too funny....everyone should watch LOTR with him...he puts a new spin on things.
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2004 25 May :: 12.12am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: The Real Thing
Okay...maybe not
The whole teacher thing is off. Ends up Nikie could get in trouble for sexual abuse or something to that nature...and he's "seeing" someone. Oh well...I still have to go to her class tomorrow and drop off gifts for the guy.
This got me to thinking...here comes another rant.
You know after years and years of never having a boyfriend and years and years of people saying "wait until you're in high school/ college" or "next year...next year...next year." Always the next guy to come along must mean something. He must be a least a little interested in me...but he never is. So I have come to the conclusion that I'm just going to be single for the rest of my life. I'm sick of trying and then just getting hurt more and more.
There must be something out there
I know there's something out there
Something more than this
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2004 24 May :: 1.10am
:: Mood: crazy
Teacher's Pet
My summer is so uneventful...*sigh*
I had all these amazing and wonderful things that were supposed to happen to me...all I've gotten so far are unhappy and crappy things.
Well, that not really so true now that I think about it....some good things have happened.
For example:
I'm a voice performance major, for all you lovely people who didn't know this already. My kid sister Nikie likes to sing too and really looks up to me, which is cool. I like to think that we get along pretty well, better than most sisters would. She had a concert last week, and she had been asking about me going for like the last month or so...and I was cool with it, until I found out it was in the middle of the day and there was no way for me to get there. She was pretty upset, but hey, what could I do about it. The day of the concert I woke up to find that my step-mom had the day off, so we went to Nikie's concert and surprised her. Man, the look on her face was worth it...she just looked so overjoyed to see me there. It really gave me a warm tingly feeling inside. After that she really wanted me to stick around. She had been talking about me staying for lunch for a while, so I figured that I might as well do it today. So even though I really didn't want to, I stayed and had to deal with all the little boys ranging from ages 11 to 14. They almost drove me crazy, but I got to meet all of her teachers and they were pretty cool...ends up Nikie has told me a lot about them.
So here's where I get to the good part...
When Nikie got home she immediatly asked me what I thought of Mr. Summerlin (her main teacher...you know I'm not even sure if that's this dude's name, but that's what we'll call him.) I was like..."Ehhh, yeah, he was okay." Ends up this guy is like 23, right up there in my age range, and evidently Nikie think's we'd make just the perfect little couple, and so she's been trying to get me to come to lunch so she could "hook us up." I found this overly funny, and told her that she should have really told me this before hand...so I could hit on him or something funny like that. She told our daddy and he thought it was really funny too. The next day she told her teacher, "You know, you should really date my sister, you two would get along really well...and then you can get married and have babies." She tells me he thought this was funny too...so pretty much we all thought this was one big mess of funny. Yes, until I told Melissa about it. She was like "23?!?!?! He's dateable!!!!" Nikie loaned me her yearbook and I showed Melissa a picture of him. She was like "he's kinda cute." So we have devised a plan that includes my number getting to him. It's really too much, and I would never ever do something like this normaly, but Melissa brought up a good point. If he doesn't even make the second move...it's not like I'll ever have to see him again. It's something daring...and I had promised myself I'd be more daring.
So here comes the more daring Bekie.
I just hope I don't regret this.
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