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munkysaurus

:: 2004 18 February :: 1.04am

I thought the world was round...
For Valentines, I got her a box of Dots/Hersey Kisses/M&M's...
I'm such a fucking retard. I had all these elaborate schemes with confetti made from a crudely materialized form of love. I choked. So, she got candy. bleh.

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plainmornings

:: 2004 14 February :: 11.28pm

envy me for I have been graced with the Godly sounds of Modest Mouse<3

it was soooooooo wonderful x a bagillion & a half!! Muchas gracias to Josh/Eric/Taylor/everyone else <3<3

got dumped in Miami & did the whole UM honor band thing. It went well I guess besides crappy music and bad players. The other bassoonists were cool (and cute lol) so it was all good. <3s to Chris & Eun Joo who made 2nd and 1st chairs!!

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Alfred Reed was at our concert tonight!! We all got autographs and pictures, it was obbber cool!

going to Orlando tomorrow. busy. bye.

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Rockon14

:: 2004 14 February :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Where do you go

THE BIG 19 part 3

This isn't really a "part 3" but I've found this song that reminds me of my birthday toast. It's called "Where Do You Go" Here's to liberation...

Where do you go
When you walk out the door
When you get in the car and turn on the motor
And drive down the driveway
And finally finally go
But where, that's the part I don't know
But I know there's something out there
Something more than this

You head for the nearest highway
You go for the closest toll
You get on some six lane
Eight lane, ten lane and you roll
Although you don't know where you're going
Still you roll
And you know there's something out there
Something more than this
Somewhere there's a door that is open
Somewhere there's a room that is warm
Somewhere there's a light that they leave on every night
Just in case you're afraid of the storm

So you drive to the end of the highway
And you look for an exit to take
There are names spinning by that you're dying to try
But you're frightened to make a mistake
And so you let the moments slip past
You run out of gas at last
And you think to yourself
There must be something out there
I know there's something out there

Something more than this
Something more than this



To find this song go to http://gavincreel.cjb.net

It's under Harold and Maude the musical

It's worth listening to

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rockon14

:: 2004 14 February :: 4.54pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: I'll know when my love comes along

THE BIG 19 part 2

I had my "birthday gathering" (as I like to call it) last night.

The first place we headed was Jillian's (of course.) It was just me, Melissa, and Nick. Sam couldn't come because he had some sort of uncle in town or something to that nature. When we got there Melissa showed me the cake she bought me. It was a Lord of the Rings cake. Ahhh...it was sooooo cool! It had Frodo and Sam and a Bag End and everything! It was the coolest cake ever!! Brent was our server. He asked me how old I was. Evidently he didn't know that I'm only 19. He thought it was my 21st birthday and he was gonna buy me some alcohol. But since I'm only 19 he didn't buy me any alcohol....the only thing I could think was "damn...should've lied." He did give me some sort of something drink....i dunno what it was...but it was tastey. I let Melissa order my meal, which turned out not to be the best idea. She ordered shrimp. You see I don't like sea food, because my mother and I used to eat sea food, and I don't like my mother. Melissa wants me to like sea food, so she ordered shrimp, but it was bad shrimp, so it didn't work, and I didn't get to eat it, unfortunatly. Next they brought out the cake. Melissa arranged 19 candles and started to light them. I was like "These flames are getting really high! I should blow some out before it becomes a major fire hazard!" The thing is...they were those trick candle that you can't blow out. So before you know it they're melted down a bit and my cake is pretty much on fire. I started freaking out, but being the quick thinker I am...I had a plan. I started blowing on each candle while picking it up and then I threw it in my somthing drink. That seemed to work and finally we got all the candles out. There was a lot of smoke and we drew a lot of attention. Lucky for me, the cake was okay. Everyone ate some...even the servers. Later on in the night some things made me sad and I had to take Melissa in the bathroom and talk about it. When we came by out we passed by Brent. Before I got the chance to walk by he picked me up and yelled "Happy Birthday!" But the thing is, he kinda picked me up really low, so he was sort of grabbing my ass and his face was all up in my boobs. I screamed and when he put me back down I said, "Wow, you completly got a face full of boob." Evidently this hurt his feelings or something and Melissa said I was mean, but he yelled happy birthday right in my boobs! I mean they were like vibrating and I felt I needed to mention it to him. We had a tattoo meeting, I think we have come up with what I'm going to get. My tattoo is my birthday present from Melissa. I sometimes like to believe that Melissa is just crazy, because next she's like "You should try and pick up Brent. If you don't you don't get your tattoo." With my tattoo on the line....pshhh of course I'm gonna try and pick him up. It didn't work out too well. I just sort of ended up dragging him across the floor. It works out much bettter when he picks me up...because I'm smaller. So after that we left and went to Melissa's house and watched Back to the Future 2. Sam stopped by for a little and had some cake. After the movie Nick drove me home.

This is what I wanna know... why was there so much fire during my birthday?

I'll know when my love comes along

I won't take a chance

My love will be just what I need

Not some fly by night broadway romance

Until then I will wait

Until then I'll be strong

For I'll know when my love comes along

You can't make me talk!


rockon14

:: 2004 13 February :: 10.28am
:: Mood: enthralled
:: Music: Rent

THE BIG 19 part 1 2/13/2004
YESTERDAY WAS MY BIRTHDAY!

YAY!

Here's how it went...

My day started off pretty normal. Went to class, got the occasional "happy birthday." It was pretty good. I failed my history test completely. It was one of those things where I just sorta went "yeah...that answer looks good." When I finished my first round of classes I made a quick stop by the dorm room. Got a call from my sister and a overly horrid rendition of happy birthday from her. I couldn't chat long because I had voice lessons. When I returned to the dorm room again Alyssa and Ryan were inside and yelled "happy birthday" the minute I walked in the door. The next thing I know I'm bring sprayed with silly string. Yeah...I screamed...a lot. I got candy and a super cool punch bag thingy from Al.

That night I went to my Music App. class where I had another test. This is the class I share with Daniel and Darshena...we have good times. We all usually walk together back to the dorm rooms, but Daniel brought his car so he was goona give us a ride. He asked us to wait while he went to his locker. I'm chattin' it up with Darshena, when next thing I know, Daniel comes over with cupcakes. I was so overwhelmed I had to hug everyone in sight. It was sooo sweet of him! So we took the cupcakes outside and lit the candles. They all sang happy birthday to me and we ate the cupcakes. The best part was....Darshena decided to set her's on fire. Then I got a ride home with Daniel and Darshena.

Silly string

Punching Bag thingy

Candy

Flaming Cupcakes

This was like the best birthday ever



Tonight I have my shindig with my Lawrenceville folk...

so tune in for THE BIG 19 part 2



i <3 birthdays

You can't make me talk!


plainmornings

:: 2004 12 February :: 3.30pm

don't we all just LOVE pretentious fucks.

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plainmornings

:: 2004 12 February :: 2.13pm

Fucking christ.
i come on here for 3 fucking minutes and i swear a bazillion pop ups flashed everywhere. The quicker i Xed them out, the faster they came.

This is ridiculous.

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munkysaurus

:: 2004 10 February :: 6.13pm
:: Music: Nine Inch Nails - La Mer

Paper towel treasures...
La Mer

Et quand le jour arrive.
Je deviendrai le ciel.
Et je deviendrai la mer.

Et la mer viendra pour m'embrasser.
Moi vais chercher.
À la maison.

Rien ne peut m'arrêter maintenant.

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rockon14

:: 2004 9 February :: 10.21am
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Jason Mraz mmmm

Not really an update

I'm not really gonna write a lot. I've had another horrid weekend. There was another thing with my step-mom saying bad things about me. I cried, left the house, came back to the house and then cried some more. My sister cried because she isn't used to me crying so she thought I was going to kill myself or some crap like that. I've come to some decisions though and I'm happy about that at least.

So to make it short, last weekend is not worth writing about.

I'm happy again

And greatest of all....

wait for it....

wait for it....

THURSDAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

I can feel that this year is going to be so super awsome. I expect lots of hugs and kisses and showers of money....but I will settle for just hugs and kisses...ohh and happy birthday wishes too!

Life is good <3

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rockon14

:: 2004 4 February :: 2.25pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Jason what's his face

My weeked sucked

Yeah...it did.

Lemme fill you in.

Okay...first off my mom wanted to hang out with me...which is never cool. I took her to Jillian's. She was civil, even though she hit on Brent like he was the last male on earth. When we got into the car she went on about how God must want me to be a nun since I can get a nice guy to at least hit on me. She told me she couldn't figure out what my problem is.

My step-mom and I also had a blow out last weekend. She told me she's shocked by my behavoir. I'm hanging out with my mother at bars and I'm not even going to church anymore. It really made me mad because I do go to church and I wasn't at a bar. It's like she's trying to upset me. Well all she really did at that point was piss me off so after she left the house I cussed at the walls and threw things. The next morning was much worse. She never woke me up to go to church and there was just this collection of other crap and in the end I was crying so hard I could barely breath.

I called Melissa.

She and Nick came and saved me.

I am forever grateful for this.

They took me to Jillian's. I wasn't actually too fond of that idea because I was all blotchy and nasty from crying so much. When we got there Brent did one of those hug things where the dude picks you up. It was so crazy because I had just been thinking about how much I missed those a few days ago. I was so shocked at his ability to read my mind that I ended up hitting him (while i was still in mid air) and yelling "How did you know?????" I lost all ability of speach besides that. I stayed for like 30 minutes then left again. I gave Nick and Matt forehead slap/kisses and Brent gave me one more awsome hug. Then Melissa and I danced in the parking lot for a good ten minutes.

It was like the giant eraser of life came and took all my bad away.

My friends are soo awsome.

You know...I think I'm starting to back out of this whole tattoo deal. I mean I still don't know what I want and I want it in one area but then what if that gets all streached out and nasty later on in life. Geeeze! I dunno....I can't decided at the given moment.


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