:: 2004 23 March :: 5.55 pm

My puppies should've been named Bonnie & Clyde. I think I will change their names.

2 -finally spoke up | Say something!

:: 2004 23 March :: 5.42 pm
:: Music: Sloppy Meateaters- Escape

Say something!

:: 2004 22 March :: 10.04 pm

Yes this is the story of my life...
Gabe says:
how old are you again?
Hilary says:
almost 17. . .
Gabe says:
oh ok
Hilary says:
haha. yes there. it's stupid. i say that and everyone goes "oh god forget it"

Say something!

:: 2004 22 March :: 5.34 pm

I won't feel better until i know. This book is so good. I can't put it down. I love jumping on trampolines. It makes me feel like a little kid again. I want to have a really stimulating conversation about something. I feel like I'm writing pretty randomly today. Oh yeah, I like permutations. They make a hell of a lot more sense than anything else we've been learning. Yay for actually knowing what he's talking about. Yay.
Alright I'm done now.

1 -finally spoke up | Say something!

:: 2004 22 March :: 5.10 pm

I don't know . . . I might have some really awesome breaking news...

Other than that, this day has been good. Pretty good. I told my mom all about everything that happened and she told me she would talk to my dad. She told me thanks for sharing. I started to cry. It was so hard to tell her. But it's done now. And things are looking brighter. I hope so. I want it to be. Wish me luck.

Say something!

:: 2004 21 March :: 8.37 pm
:: Music: Mi6-Stupid Little Things

2 -finally spoke up | Say something!

:: 2004 21 March :: 7.47 pm

Doesn't anyone know that fish are meat. Hello. Fish. Meat. Same thing.

3 -finally spoke up | Say something!

:: 2004 20 March :: 10.13 pm

I do miss you.

Say something!

:: 2004 20 March :: 10.11 pm

There's no need to look to deep, I'll just never go to sleep...
I felt your body as I remember
Put me to shame when I was through
I put you down inside myself
But you manage to do it. You always do

Did you know you missed the point of dreaming
When you said you needed more and more
You ended up with less

This time I have you with me
I pulled you out when I got up
I beat your pretty face
I will make this one real

Everything wet; pillow with tears
Sheets with sweat. I'm tired
Do it when I'm here

2 -finally spoke up | Say something!

:: 2004 20 March :: 9.25 pm

In a perfect world...
I want to live in an apartment full of art. I want to be surrounded by paintings and photographs. I want to open my window early in the morning before the city wakes up and listen to the sun rise. I want to walk down the sidewalk in a wool jacket and a hat to the nearest corner coffee shop full of posters and music and art. I want to sit there and read. I'd go to the park and paint other people and watch couples on a blanket in the grass trying to figure out what they're saying. I'd go back to my apartment and fall back on my bed and stare at the ceiling for hours listening to the music coming from the room next door. I'd paint and paint and paint and paint and paint.

But that will never happen.

Say something!

:: 2004 20 March :: 8.24 pm

fighting urges.

2 -finally spoke up | Say something!

:: 2004 20 March :: 8.10 pm

Last night was so fun. Jessica and I went to see Starsky and Hutch then we snuck into Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind. I highly highly highly reccomend both. Eternal Sunshine was so good. I love it. It makes me sad. It's a beautifully made movie. Today was fun too. Sarar and Jessar = box buddies. Yes indeed. I had to feed my aunt's fish today. Hm...she said they had 5. I only counted 4...


Uh oh.

4 -finally spoke up | Say something!

:: 2004 17 March :: 2.13 pm

I wish I could get out of this daze. I've been in it for a long time. I hate to be in this little world where coming home is the least pleasurable thing of the day. I


delete delete delete delete delete delete


I think I'm happy... How do I really know?

Say something!

:: 2004 14 March :: 8.07 pm

The world is sleeping. I am numb.

3 -finally spoke up | Say something!

:: 2004 12 March :: 7.09 am

way too early

Say something!