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2003 6 September :: 12.13 am
Wow. I'm excited. Life seems really good right now. Really good.
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2003 5 September :: 6.38 pm
Wow. I was just asleep for an hour and a half and I feel like crap now. People say when you don't get enough sleep you should skip sleeping altogether or else you'll feel even worse. Well they're right.
I'm waiting for my mom to get home. Yeah. Well. I don't know anymore.
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2003 5 September :: 3.25 pm
so... Everything is screwed. hm.
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2003 4 September :: 10.34 pm
:: Music: Trail of Dead
Hm. I know I'm supposed to let it find me but I'd rather not. You know. Maybe I can just see it and "accidently" trip across it...I miss having someone to spend my time with and talk to and everything. I guess I just feel lonely. You know how everyone else is just like "Oh yeah, I love not being attached I can go out and party and blah blah blah." I don't know...i've done that and it just doesn't feel right at all to me.
But anyway. Blah. School tomorrow. And I am going. If I skip too many days it becomes a habit...
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2003 4 September :: 12.13 pm
eating mini-wheats out of a box and doing trig. trig sucks. trig sucks. trig...sucks.
I want a hug. :-(
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2003 4 September :: 11.56 am
Please tell me I'm not wanted
To take this handgun to my eyes
And watch my cells start to rise
The flesh now starts to break as the
Bullet enters like a snake
Through one side of my head
And out the other one
And now I know
And we will see
And now I know
And we will see
And I'm too scared to live tonight
And I'm too bare to shed my plight
Please tell me I'm not wanted, Please tell me I'm not wanted.
Watch the bones rip through my flesh
A catharsis of my own distress
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2003 4 September :: 10.32 am
crap. i stayed home today. crap.
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2003 3 September :: 8.11 pm
My back hurts from being contained in a curled up position on the cold bus this morning. I tried to sleep. I did try. My eyelids were hanging like a...well i don't know. but anyway. Today has gone fast. Now it either looks like it's about to rain, or it's just dark.
Either one I'm completely fine with.
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2003 3 September :: 3.41 pm
You are a complete asshole.
I'd like to say I hate you, but I don't. And I don't want to stoop to your level. Obviously you'll never understand. Or even take the time to listen.
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2003 3 September :: 3.37 pm
I wish it would rain. Don't you?
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2003 3 September :: 3.17 pm
And today WAS a good day. A really really really good day. I had a really good day. :-) That is all.
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2003 2 September :: 9.59 pm
:: Music: Trail of Dead-Another Morning Stoner
Grr. There are times when things just suck. And I know they suck. But I can still tell tomorrow is going to be a pretty good day. Even if things suck today. Tomorrow will be different. And things, they suck, but i'm still in a really really pretty good mood.
Oh, did I mention things suck right now?
"What is forgiveness?
It's just a dream.
What is forgiveness?
It's everything."
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2003 2 September :: 9.53 pm
Looking back in time
Through verses set in nursery rhyme
At oil painted eyes
Of muses left behind
I swear I know not why
Those eyes have always left me dry
She stands with arms stretched out
Towards the mountains & the clouds
Oil painted eyes
Blind yet hypnotized
I swear I know not why
Those eyes have always left me dry
...How near, how far, how lost they are...
I've rendered every line
Every contour of a muse's eye
Painted in my eyes mind
On canvases of time
I swear I know not why
Those eyes have always left me dry
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2003 2 September :: 6.33 pm
I learned to play the song that inspired me.
Do you know how good that feels? :-D
And...I am...*sigh*...going to homecoming.
I want someone fun to go with.
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2003 1 September :: 10.06 pm
And I'm trying to pretend
Oh in wanting life to end
That I am not another stupid
Little teenage fucking whore
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