I do not believe a long enough vacation exists.

Sorry for my dreams. I just didn't know. How long you would wait. It doesn't matter now.

Blah. I hate you.


The above statement was dedicated to my wonderful life.

Nothing new lately really. I am beginning to realize how much I hate school. I hate this year so much. I'm trying not too, but I felt like crying last night because I kept thinking about how much I just wanted to stay home, but knowing I couldn't possibly, made me really mad. haha. I am so stressed. I get headaches all the time now, especially in 4th hour.
I met a lot of really awesome people today. One's named Katie, and she's in my culinary class. another is named Ross, and he seems really cool, haven't really talked to him much, but he put an ice cream bar on top of a bus tire, so that was funny.
Well, I guess that's it. All I want to do is sleep.

Oh yeah
Good mood. Oh yeah. :-)
Blah blah blah blah blah.
I couldn't sleep last night. Stayed up till 4. Ever have one of those nights where you toss and turn thinking of things that happened to you a while ago? I wrote some things about all the people I've known. I also wrote a lot about things I can't express when it's light outside. You know, those times at night when you wake up with the words that describe everything, except you know you could never think of them during the day. For some reason...that always happens to me...So 4 in the morning and here I am sitting up turning my light on and off and on again writing and writing and scribbling. Anyway...blah.

But now the seasons past, and weary October approaches still knowing, it can see farther than the both of us...
And you said, when we are older...
Well that's enough to make me feel, alright when you're gone.
Never could feel this way before you.
Never understood how this would work
That's enough to make me feel alright forever.

Tonight was...complete. It was the best feeling in the world. It was great and so much more. I am so glad Ryan is back. I'm glad our group got together tonight. I'm glad we kidnapped him. And I'm glad they kidnapped me too. Because today was not a waste. It was complete. I agree with him. This summer is all about finding. And I found my true friends as well. And it feels good to know who they are. Listen to Rancid right about now. haha. As we were riding home, lyrics were running through my head----

"I want to feel this way forever...
Stop counting backwards from forever and just live it while it lasts. just live."

"And there you are asleep against the window pane just like always. You said you like to hear the rain sometimes. All I can do is tell you the truth. And oh my eyes will tell you the same."

Damn I forgot the other ones. But this is interesting I picked it up at Gold's. And it's really weird, because before I read the diary, I thought of the first lyric i posted "I want to feel this way forever" and how well it described my night, and then I read the diary and it said "I wish I felt this way forever." I know exactly how he feels.
Too bad feelings are only temporary. And too bad there are bad feelings too. Take the bad with the good. All in all...Tonight was great.