Lately it's been busy. Holy crap my backspace key just got stuck and it deleted everything.
I went over to Becca's a couple days ago, we watched A Clockwork Orange. It was quite interesting and strange. Then she came over yesterday and we watched About Schmidt. It was a quite depressing movie. I cried a lot about it and came to the realization that there's something about death I can't deal with. Yet, no one I have been closely related to has died in my life yet and hopefully not soon. It was just a movie and yet it makes me sad. Anyway, we went with my grandma and shopped and bought some cool insence and stuff. It was fun. But I haven't felt very good the past few days. Jessi got the letter I sent her :-) That made me really happy that she liked it. It was really good to hear from her today and I'm really glad she's feeling better. Great, right when I get sick she gets better! Isn't that the way...hah. :-P
Then I just got home a while ago from a family birthday party at this park somewhere. I played with my cousins and had fun and stuff but I felt like crap. So after everyone had cake mom and I left early. But I'm feeling a little better now. I'm going to go get some new books. Oh yeah, and at the party my step-cousin's mom came by to "see her ex-husband". She wasn't invited. But she just so happened to get a new sportscar as well. Isn't it odd? "Oh, he's not here? Okay, I have to go now. Bye everyone!"
People like that bug the crap out of me.

the difference.
now you're choking on your words that follow me to sleep,
wide awake and I can't feel it.
~

I have nothing to talk about. Other than I may start a fire in my room from all these candles. But it feels nice.
I am a boring person.
:-P

Shatterday
I spent all day cleaning my room. Total demolition. It looks great now though and I am happy.

hey...
Yes...I don't feel good...
I went shopping today and I got a couple good cds-

~Vendetta Red- Between The Never And The Now
~Count The Stars- Never Be Taken Alive

I figured out something I want to be when I get older, I want to interview bands and hang out with them and stuff. It's just fun to do that stuff. Really fun. :-) I think it'd be cool to do that and make money. But I am shy when it comes to asking questions. I don't want to ask them things they get asked a million times, you know? "So...what's it like to be on stage?" I guess that's a good question...but something like "So...you like playing music?"
That sounds like something they've probably heard a TON!
I don't know, that is one of my ideas for a job besides culinary.
My mom said it's the pills I'm taking that are making me sick, so now I have to cut down to half a pill, so really it'd be a whole pill a day. Anyway...
Vendetta Red is cool. "When they're cursing your name you'll be falling apart."
Boy Sets Fire is playing again tonight. Hehehe. I wonder if they'll be at Alex's house again, that'd be cool. I should find a way down there and visit again. hahaha. They probably wouldn't remember me. But Nate remember meeting me and he was way drunk. I wish I could drive. I love Grand Rapids. And I hate people. I love the old buildings and the coffee houses and the vintage stores and the brick streets and everything. Some people are really friendly and hardly anyone is really close-minded. I like it. Anyway, I'm ranting and blah blah blah. I hope Jess feels better. I wanted to go over there and make her some soup! :-)

hahaha. My wonderful night!!!!!
I had the BEST NIGHT EVER!!!!!!!
Tonight a gang of us all went to the Boy Sets Fire concert. It was supposed to be in the Rosa Parks Circle but twas rained out. So it was moved to The Intersection, which was good. It was awesome. Awesome Awesome Awesome. That's not even the end of it.
I wanted my cd signed. haha. :-) So I went back to Robby's car to get it. Casey came with me to walk back to get it signed. But the bouncer wouldn't let anyone go back in, so I just told this lady all I wanted was to get the thing signed, so she told the guy and the guy told me that they would probably be out with the press. So we snuck out this door, and looked to our right, sure enough, big yellow rope blocking a crowd of fans. And we were on the other side!!! We ran into 2 other guys heading toward the crowd and asked them if there was any possible way to meet them, they told us that no one would stop us. So we went. We went up to their tour bus and I asked this guy (we'd later find out his name was Alex), we asked him if we could get it signed and he said sure, but everyone on the bus is naked. so the driver gets out and talks to us and he's really fucking awesome. First they send out Josh and he's really nice. Then later on he asked us if we wanted to get on the bus and hang out. So we got on and the Alex guy got on and everyone was sitting down and I talked to Nate, the lead vocalist, and he was really nice too. He kept that John Deer hat someone gave to him. haha.
:-) :-)
And after that, the Alex guy told us he was having a party at his house and the band was going to be there, he told us directions and stuff and said that we'd better show up.
So we ran back to the car but stopped to talk to these other guys too. They were really friendly. haha

We told Jess and Robby about it, but we were way too hungry first so we ran to BK and hung out there for a while. Then later on we went to the green house. We got inside and this awesome awesome guy named Garrett was there, and everyone was really friendly, (they did have a keg) so yeah, everyone was really friendly. hahaha.
None of us drank though. I met a lot of people tonight. We were all sitting in this circle and Nate was telling us his funny stories of how he walked in on the bus while Rob was jerking off. hahaha. Yeah...so....haha.
I don't know if i should've said that but oh well. After this other guy gave us the grand tour of the house, we ran into Alex again upstairs. hehehe. he's funny. He's so nice. Went back downstairs and the guy showed us the rest of the house. He had a really cool mohawk. We sat back down on the couch and I swiped a pair of purple aviator glasses. This guy named Drew sat down too and he was...well...he said I could have those glasses. They had cats running around all over the place and this one guy had a squirt gun. The guy who showed us around the house tried jumping over our couch, because it was blocking the entrance, and all of a sudden WAM he hit his head on the ceiling and fell. RIGHT ON MY FOOT! . . . and spilt Drew's cup all over me...eck. My shoe was covered in beer and my foot hurt too. Oh well. Anyway, the rest of the band hadn't showed up yet and we had to leave, sadly. But we're going to visit them again. It was so cool. Drew held my hand and I forgot I was still wearing those glasses. Hahaha. They were broken too! hahaha. Oh well. I had a lot of fun tonight and meeting the band was really awesome.
:-D

Imagine heart, I disappear...Seems no one will appear here and make me real...
The world is too depressed and vain.

On a lighter note, lately I've come up with a really awesome idea. My mom is almost saying yes. Now all I need is some money, a bungee, and 2 rabbits (preferebly black). Nah, scamp on the last two. All I need is money. blah blah blah. Pretty soon I'm leaving to go get Becca. Fun :-)
This week has been busy. Sunday night I ended up spending the night over there and got home at about 6:30am. Now I have to go pack. My parents don't even know me by name anymore. They call me "kid" because they never see me. Hahaha. That's okay though. I've grown accostumed to it. (sp?)
Anyway....bye.