blah blah blah
6th hour was the best
i needed that
jess and dusty and i just hung out in his car till school was over, and then the day went on and it kind of sucked
i think i had a fever and i was really tired
stupid meeting thing
eh.
whatever
becca and i talked a lot today it was really nice
to talk to someone
grr.
i'm sick of being a confidential.

Because fate works both ways...fate works both ways...
I'm sick of all this indecisiveness.

We can wait for the wind to blow or give me a look so cold it gives me chills and ends the summer war. My eyes roll around and over again.
I haven't seen any of my friends all weekend. I feel like a hermit.
I want someone to come over and play nintendo with me and talk.
I've been stuck at home all day. I even took a shower. Now that's saying something. lol.
And I can't play that much because I'm starting to get blisters on my fingers. gross. but not too bad yet. maybe that's why they've hurt.
Oh, and i've come up with a saying for life. "Everyone's a hypocrit."
And it's very true. very.
It also annoys me that when i say something, my grandma has to butt-in and say "Anyway..." gah. Like nothing i say even matters. But i love my grandma.
And dad and i were fighting again over something so dumb, but it took forever so i didn't call ryan back for a whole hour or so.
Stupid complications. I suppose everyone has them though, right? But i'm getting sick of it all. I need to get out.

This song has been stuck in my head all day long...
But i stayed up till 1:30 this morning learning how to play tons of tabs, including this one. haha. And then, if that wasn't enough, mom came in to wake me up to tell me that they were leaving, 8 am, to go to work, and I jumped out of bed and started playing some more! ahh. And i find myself talking to Walter and telling him goodnight as i tuck him into his case. hahaha. Wow. I'm so weird. But yeah, the fingertips on my left hand cannot feel anything, it's like that sensation you get when your foot falls asleep or something, that's what my hand felt like all day.
I went to a lot of places today, went to get some more picks and I got a Nirvana book. I learned "All Apologies", the whole thing. I'm working on "Rape Me", so i can play it for Jessi. hahah. :-P
I had to babysit tonight too. Ah. Yes, so i'm quite tired. Quite. But all i want to do is play. I'm so addicted.

yay
Walter finally came today!
:-D
I am very pleased.


+===(=0|) hehe. guitar. hehe.


I was thinking, today was a Friday, yet it wasn't a lazy friday like i was hoping it would be (like all the others). I got my report card today.
(
A-...BST
A....English
A-...Civ
A-...P&A
B+..Alg. II
A-...Span. III
)
I'm happy, i've been working really hard. I had to play along because my dad didn't think i knew about the whole guitar deal thing. hahaha. Gosh i'm in a great mood. I hope the plans this weekend work out and all. That'd be fun.
Anyway, I'm off to go play :-D

"Being grown up, isn't half as fun as growing up, these are the best days of our lives...the only thing that matters is following your heart, and eventually you'll finally get it right..."
I'm building the relationship with my parents that i've always wanted. I actually talk to my dad now. Mom and I actually spend time together. And I smell good. haha.
And she made good dessert tonight.
This song is good. I can see the headlights of cars outside. Even the noise from them is relaxing. I walked my pups today. They're funny.

And...
you hate me.
which is all the worse.
when i'm trying to find what's wrong with me.
when i don't know if it's even my fault. But when i know it's definetly not yours.
when all you could do was be there for me.
when all i can do is love you
when all i want is you.
when. . .
you hate me.

Courtesy of Ryyan. :-D
Thank you for the most magnificent cd Ryyan.
very very cool.
Today was a wonderful day. Everything was great. Such a lazy day but it was wonderful. Except in 5th hour when i popped my knee out of it's socket or whatever. Jess and I ended up skipping most of 6th hour to get an ice pack and walk. We walked to those big windows and just stood there looking. I love those windows, out of the whole school, those windows are pretty. Especially when it's lightning out. It's beautiful. I went home and later on, I went to Jessi's. Then I called Josh but he wasn't home I think I bugged the crap out of his mom but she was so nice about it. haha. Then Crystal called and her and Matt came to pick us up and we went back to his house and watched "Seven" and 7th Heaven. lol. Mom let me go out and just go have fun, it was great. She didn't even care what time i got home...
Such a fun-filled day.
Hey Ryan...what's going on with Prom???