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:: 2003 11 February :: 10.37 pm

hm...that's all i can think of for now, i'm tired...time for bed...
Slowly covered in silk and
Dressed in white
Hills draped and cotton-like
Smells cold
Nights are long and
Lit by a soft glow off the surface of the snow.

Drifts through trees and
Around corners
Through cracks and holes
And sneaks in below
Longing to be indoors
Safe and warm

Brightly suspended above and
Stuck there as if it mattered
Without them there will always be
The moon and sun
Yet no comparisons of eyes
And there would be no gazing.

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:: 2003 11 February :: 9.47 pm
:: Music: MM-Broken

Sometimes I'm so full of shit, that it should be a crime...
Operation Secret Mission complete! lol.
Ahhhhh, haha.
Hm....
A good sign of no school is when your parents don't think there's going to be any. Of course I'd be taking all that back around 7:40 tomorrow morning if we do.
Hm....Well.
Not a whole lot to say, as usual lately. I suppose I've just been in a particularly silly/great mood. But ouch, it sucks when you get grapefruit juice in a cut. Maybe i said that yesterday...well, i still haven't learned.
Anyway, later.

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:: 2003 11 February :: 8.26 am

I can't wait for spring. It kept feeling like spring the other day i have no idea why but then i looked out and saw a foot of snow. how depressing. I haven't gone snowboarding hardly at all this year.
I think i have to go now though so, later.

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:: 2003 11 February :: 7.44 am
:: Music: The Starting Line is in my head...

have you had enough? I guess so...
crap. now that i got on here i have to go. grrr. today is going to be a good day though, i can feel it. blah. who'm i kinding. lol.
=) school just sucks in general.
have a good day everyone.

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:: 2003 10 February :: 9.39 pm

'cause the movie that's called "life sucks" stars everyone...
So today didn't turn out so bad...
I'm still cold though. I hope we have no school tomorrow. I called jess's house to see if she's okay and her dad said he sent her to bed because she was, "a dead dog". Poor girl. I hope she gets better soon. He said she wouldn't be back tomorrow but maybe the next day.
Grapefruit is very good.
And so ends my night thus far.

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:: 2003 10 February :: 7.37 am

my toes are frozen and i can't feel my legs.
What a great way to start the day.
I hate winter.

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:: 2003 9 February :: 8.46 pm
:: Music: Symphonic Pink Floyd-The Great Gig In The Sky

well...
Today has been...
nevermind.
I went to my grandma's for lunch today. Whenever we go over there, there's always something that gets me thinking all day long. We always talk about politics. Or school...
I don't want to go to war. It's far too late to back out now though. Even if Sadam is brain-washing everyone...do they need to die? All the little kids who haven't done anything. If they were raised somewhere else would they be a better person? But, wouldn't it infringe on other's rights to kill them for what they believe in? Yet, not having done anything wrong except living there, and having no choice but to live there.
But then i saw something on the news this morning...The people were all crowded in the streets with big pictures of bin on them...okay, so...what to think now.
He's an instigator. And their hero. For doing what? They run out in the streets throwing candy and celebrating. Anyone can kill people. Anyone can kill "important" people...
why don't they just kill 'em all...
Stupidity causes violence, and violence causes even more stupidity. As well as raising hell.
Haven't you ever seen examples of this? One person doesn't like someone, and in return, they find out and start not liking them either. Or, maybe you've had that yourself. It happens.
Blah.
And this all ties in with school because it happens every single day. And it's incredibly a lost cause if you ask me. It does nothing and contributes to nothing, it's better off being forgotten.
So...anyway. Yeah. I'm in a rambling mood...terribly sorry.
Also on the news this morning, and did you know...We have all this homework due to Russia? Yes, right around the time Sputnik originated. Due to all the studies done, Russia was ahead and the u.s. had a problem with literacy.
And when the u.s. found out we were behind they decided they had to crack the whip to catch up. Of course...
And I know that the whole "not having homework" deal is never going to happen, anytime, at all...so i'm just going to stop wishing! AH! :-P
Okay...oh,
And pets lower blood pressure, it's been proven. I was about to give my dad a gag order because nothing he said to any one of us was very nice, and when we walked in the door and played with the pups, things were fine. everyone calmed down.
it was nice.
alright. i've covered pretty much everything...and all the while boring you.
haha. have a very nice night.
:-)


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:: 2003 8 February :: 4.34 pm

eh, i'll go play with them.
they're so cute, i can't resist! haha.

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:: 2003 8 February :: 4.23 pm
:: Music: All-American Rejects

Can you help me find a way to carry on again...
Hm...I did nothing today.
Well, that's not true.
I slept.
And played with the puppies. And wrapped my mommy's presents.
It's her birthday today. Mom and dad are out working right now though.
Hm.
Not much to say...
I feel very congested. ahhh.
ah well. I can't go out in the kitchen and get food because i'll wake up the puppies and they'll start whining because they want out. Then i'll have to clean up their yucky stuff.lol. And i don't want to do that so i'm going to stay in my room. I'm not a very good pet owner. But hey, I'd be with them a lot more if they didn't have to crap and pee so much...
haha.
Well, now that i've talked about that...i'm going to go!
:::::::::::::-P::::::::::::

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:: 2003 7 February :: 11.37 pm

I've been contemplating this for a very long time...What mike was talking about with memories reminded me of it.
There was a poem when we read "A Seperate Peace".
I can't really remember it, but i think it mentioned something like, "nothing stays, not in murder, nor death..."
i don't remember, something like that. But i remember telling Miller that memories do stay.
And I started thinking, but what if there's a time when memories don't stay.
What about all the trauma victims who've lost part of their memory.
That'd be terrible. I was thinking about this for a very long time. There aren't any pictures for most of those times, how are you supposed to remember it if your memory is gone forever. But I think that nothing is fully lost. What if you've met someone who's changed your life somehow. Then you lost part of your memory. If you were to pass that person on the street do you think that you'd remember them at all? Even the slightest bit? Wouldn't that be terrible if you couldn't?
Well, now that i think of it, some people don't even remember who they are...that's terrible. :-( But i think that you'd have at least...something left...hopefully.
But i couldn't talk unless i was in that position.
And what if, even worse, you met someone you loved and they died, but you've lost all memory...
That contradicts my statement above of how "even in death there are always memories."
If a person dies, their memories live on in other people, but what if those memories that were only shared with one person..were all of a sudden, gone. For who knows how long, forever?
Gosh. I have either completed one or both of the following:
-confusing myself
or
-confusing you

well. i'm sorry if i have, i've just been thinking about it.

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:: 2003 7 February :: 10.46 pm
:: Music: UFB

They won't let us in now, cause we're all freaks...
yesterday's cares are no big deal
cause this will be laughing week...
hmph. my computer makes me mad.
and i think i'm finally going to do what Charlie has been telling me to do...


shoot it

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:: 2003 7 February :: 8.23 pm
:: Music: UFB

I got the -Ultimate Fakebook- cd tonight.
It's pretty good.
I am so sick. I wanted to go home so bad, why did i stay home tuesday when i'm much worse today...
Can't breath or talk and my nose hurts. As i said at the lunch table today...
"You guys, have you ever been so sickly stuffed up that your face is numb? i mean, i can't feel a thing!"
-"Uh, hilary, that's not good."
hahaha. well, that and my crack addict.
not butt cracks! haha.
I learned something new today...kind of scary considering my dad is the one who told me...
Me- "Wow, this cd has a lot of tracks..."
Dad-"Yeah, so does your arm..."

So that's what they call them...How does my DAD know that? He acts like i'm some heroin addict...

And oh, i saw the coolest thing today. Guy with a foot tall mohawk. if not taller.
Awesome!
So...and so ends my day. so far. mom and dad want me to watch a movie with them, and it's mommy's birthday tomorrow.

Well. later :-P

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:: 2003 7 February :: 7.39 am

And i don't need you to tell me what to think...what to think....
blah. I could tell it was going to be a bad day from the minute i woke up. More like second.
Feel...like...crap...

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:: 2003 6 February :: 9.44 pm
:: Music: Finch-Project Mayhem

Can't you, begin at the ending...
lala. blah.
anyway...
hm. finished watching Sorority Boys w/Jess today. Fun fun. Her parents were so bothersome today. WE WERE NOT LATE! OKAY!
argh.
I hate it when you rent a movie and then never watch it. It makes me angry.
I rented Sweet Home Alabama and never got to see it. gah.
ahhh.
I felt like screaming just because.
I was thinking about stuff tonight.
I have concluded that I hate teen life...angst...just everything.
I mean, the easiest way to live is to be happy. I love that feeling. And lately it's just been everyday. Every single day. And when you're happy enough all those dumb people out there and stupid things that happen don't seem to get to you as much.
I've noticed that when i'm grumpy everything...gah...gets on my nerves. but lately. nothing has and i'm extremely happy.
I guess the easiest way to put it is, if you don't have to live that way...then don't.
But that's my opinion. everyone will get crappy moods time to time, it's just not good as an everyday thing...blah, i'm talking like i'm some sort of f*ing psychiatrist and i'm definetly not...either that or i'm rambling...both? yeah. i have to go now...

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:: 2003 6 February :: 2.44 pm
:: Music: some kid is playing NFG...

haha.
Just got done with the test. Hey! Jenna is here too! Jessi and I are in the lab and Rebecca and Jenna are in the other room. We keep waving back and forth to each other. haha.
gosh. that test was odd. not like what we'd expected. But I'm glad i knew a little bit and i'm glad i studied civics this morning. That helped a ton. Hey...I had a quiz today too. And not much else happened today. Except..everyone seems to be sick right now. I was better and laughing in everyone's faces...and now, well, serves me right.
haha.
Not much to say. have to go. :-)
have a good day

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