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2005 29 December :: 6.39pm
:: Music: Here With Me by Dido
well
i just dont knoe now.
there is just something about the way he moves
the way he moves me.
and that song.
something about the way it sounds.
his hands
his eyes
his smell
his touch
it reminds me of the time when i was happy.
but lets get back to reality here,
that was quite a while ago.
and then i read this thing.
all hope is lost
when you lied to me.
to my face.
but i said nothing.
there is my problem.
fear.
That would be for me
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2005 29 December :: 12.53am
:: Music: Everything Is Alright by MotionCitySoundtrack
well its been awhile.
havent been in much of an updating mood.
so ive kinda had a bunch of things bottled up inside.
first thing first.
christmas sucked.
again.
3rd one in a row, i swear i must be on a roll.
so.
lots of things lots of things have happened.
oh.
im permanant now at pacsun.
not just a seasonal anymore.
which is goodgoodgood! made me happy.
so.
next thing.
ok wellllllllll
you see.... hearing about you liek this reminds me of me.
and well.
i realized how pathetic it really is.
yes..
i was very very very pathetic.
i cried... everyday.. sometimes even more than once and it was so stupid of me.
i made excuses... for his excuses.
stupidstupidstupid.
i knoe now that i shouldnt have let it get to me like that.
my fault.
i knoe now.. that chasing gets me no where bcuz i will never be able to catch up.
i never really was a good runner.
i mean come on.
i walked the mile run.
so. i dont rly knoe where i will be going with this new epiphany.
things seem good now. at the moment. but i knoe very well that things will go back and i'll totally forget about this epiphany and these new beliefs.
cuz i swear.... love does crazy things to people.
makes them do ridiculously stupid things.
what can you do tho.
nothing.
cuz love always win.
too bad huh.
oh btw.
josh got me a white gold diamond heart pendant
and he might move to south carolina.
funnie isnt it best friend?
yeah.
its not.
ryan came over tonight,
it was actually good.
and yesterday too, it was good.
its amazing i swear.
tah tah for now
♥
That would be for me
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2005 14 December :: 6.34pm
:: Music: Tell Me Why by Cold
LuCkY fOuRtEeN
"tell me why you stole my life"
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hmm today was ok.
mmm we all went to moe's after school and it wass soooo good. their white sauce (queso) is sooo good.
i had a john coctostan mmmm delicious. i want some more.
had dress rehearsal for coffee house.
definately did not go too well.
ooh well.
josh came over.... his mom brough this lady to come see the piece of shit van.. but i didnt knoe about this...surpise
and yeah.
so we got to chill for a couple minutes. it was cool cuz i hadnt seen him for like a month.
yeah he definately is retarded.
but hes so funnie somtimes.
♥
That would be for me
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2005 12 December :: 6.47pm
:: Music: Wreck of The Day by Anna Nalick
uh....
idontgetit.
That would be for me
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2005 9 December :: 6.08pm
:: Music: One Wish by Ray J
i should have known better.
seriously.
its not like we havent been here before...
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ahhh today sucked
kinda
actually it was ok.
i had mr cunningham today!
i missed him. i really enjoyed his class but it made me feel like i was really out of shape. probably because i ammmmmmmm. ohmygaw i thought my legs were about to fall off. they hurt sooo bad.
hmm ok whats new whats new.
nothing.
i think i might be hanging out with ryan tonite but i ono.
oh and i have work tomorrow from 12-6. thats long.
o welllllllllllllll anyways.
i like cookies.
theyre really good.
like really good. like the sugar cookies. like the do not eat ozygen absorber packet that i gave to lindsey and told her it was sugar and she goess ooo i love sugar and she opends it and its black powder. ahahahaha she goes "oh my gosh its poison!"
aahahahahahahaha
yeah i need to shopping.
desperately.
♥
That would be for me
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2005 8 December :: 9.04pm
:: Music: Tisbury Lane by Mae
yeah.
yucky day.
rain, cold, clouds.
not exactly a great kind of day.
but the oc was good... as it always is of course.
and im going to miss next week. its the christmakah episode.
my favorite. ooo my dad better tape it.
um yeah nothing new.
i think im going to rethink some things.
but i always say that i guess.
im fed up with school also.
yeah
♥
That would be for me
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2005 7 December :: 5.42pm
:: Music: Seasons of Love by Rent (cast)
today
is
two.
months.
That would be for me
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2005 7 December :: 4.23pm
:: Music: Wheel by John Mayer
hmmm
i think i'm liking this cold weather.
i havent updated in awhile i suppose.
i just have been too lazy... not rly feelin like it.
nothing new nothing new.
started work last friday and then sunday i hung out with rick and emily.
first time in a long long long time. i miss him. we had fun.
i didnt talk to ryan for a couple days because he got into a fight with his mom. again. and then he went to his uncles house and was just toooooo busssyyy to call me... yeah.
hmm.
oo i rly wanna learn how to play tha pppiiaaannnooo.
dootooodoodootoo dooo.
lol.
i think josh might teach me.
prolly not.
o well.
um today.
not so good day.
im stressed as usuallllllllll.
i hate dance. again.
i think i need a new order of body parts because i feel like i'm falling apart. my knees, my legs, my back, all kinds of bones. they just hurt like hell. and i have no freakin idea why.
i turned in my application for NHS today
and i voted to this years proms theme.
yeah anyways.
no luck with that todai. im over it. for real.
im rly need to clean my room.
but i think im going to go take a nap.
actually i rly need to do that history paper.
♥
That would be for me
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2005 30 November :: 6.22pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: St. Patrick's Day by John Mayer
im john mayered
Here comes the cold
Break out the winter clothes
And find a love to call your own
You - enter you
Your cheeks a shade of pink
And the rest of you in powder blue
Who knows what will be
But I'll make you this guarantee
No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
In the dark, on the phone
You tell me the names of your brothers
And your favorite colors
I'm learning you
And when it snows again
We'll take a walk outside
And search the sky
Like children do
I'll say to you
No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
And come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?
And we'll both be safe 'til St. Patrick's Day
We should take a ride tonight around the town
and look around at all the beautiful houses
something in the way that blue lights on a black night
can make you feel more
everybody, it seems to me, just wants to be
just like you and me
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
Come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?
And if our always is all that we gave
And we someday take that away
I'll be alright if it was just 'til St. Patrick's Day
That would be for me
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2005 29 November :: 11.05pm
:: Music: The Sun And The Moon by Mae
ugh.
i tried.
but it never works
it never does.
so now
if this is giving up
then im giving up
i should have known better.
we're been down this road before..
That would be for me
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2005 29 November :: 8.56pm
:: Music: Dont Forget About Us by Mariah Carey
yeah
me too.
That would be for me
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2005 29 November :: 7.30pm
:: Music: My All by Mariah Carey
how is it that you always give up so easily on me...
That would be for me
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2005 29 November :: 5.14pm
:: Music: Back To You by John Mayer
this song is stuck in muh head
back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late
over you
I'm never over
over you
something about you
It's just the way you move
the way you move me
I'm so good at forgetting
and I quit every game I've played
but forgive me love
I can't turn and walk away
back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
with your silhouette
should have smiled in that picture
if it's the last that I'll see of you
it's the least that you could not do
oh I will
leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
leave the light on
for me too
back to me
I know that it comes
back to me
doesn't it scare you
your will is not as strong
as it used to be
That would be for me
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2005 28 November :: 10.06pm
:: Music: The Sun and the Moon by Mae
its all physical isnt it.
That would be for me
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2005 28 November :: 7.07pm
:: Music: Echo by Incubus
hmmm.
this song.
theres something about it.
that reminds me about you.
and i dont know why.
hmmm.
That would be for me
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