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2005 10 October :: 12.51am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: angel by amanda perez
sleepless night
That would be for me
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2005 7 October :: 7.10pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: The Sun and The Moon by Mae
lyrics
wasted time.
i can not say that i was ready for this.
but when worlds collide,
and all that i have is all that i want.
the words seem to flow
and the thoughts they keep running.
and all that i have is yours.
all that i am is yours.
ohh...
painted skys.
i've seen so many that cannot compare,
to your ocean eyes.
the pictures you took
that cover your room,
and it was just like the sun
but more like the moon.
a light that can reach it all.
so now im branded for taking the fall.
ohh...
so when you say forever,
can't you see you've already captured me.
iloveyou ryan i really do
That would be for me
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2005 6 October :: 4.26pm
:: Music: We Will Become Silhouettes by The Postal Service
"I've got a cupboard with cans of food, filtered water,
And pictures of you and i'm not coming out
Until this is all over
And i'm looking through the glass where the light bends
At the cracks
And i'm screaming at the top of my lungs pretending
The echoes belong to someone
Someone i used to know"
-- The Postal Service
ah
sick today so i stayed home
well yeah i didnt want to go to school anyway
didnt finish any homework
and i missed ordering my class ring today
again
oh welll ill just go to their office in baymeadows and do it
i signed up to take the psat yesterday
so wednesday i take it
and i get to miss dance yesssssss
but saltwater is gonna get mad cuz ill be missing her class
and we still need to fix up our piece for childrens concert
its kinda like a mess
<3
That would be for me
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2005 5 October :: 8.13pm
what the hell
That would be for me
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2005 4 October :: 9.00pm
:: Mood: no
:: Music: Breakdown by Mae
lyrics... i love this song
"It's magic," she says to me.
My hand to her waist as she approaches sweetly.
It's enough when I see that look in her eyes.
It's enough for me to paralyze.
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
Well, nothing feels good being under the gun.
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
"It's tragic," she says to me.
A song in the air, we're together floating.
What I miss everyday since our goodbye
was enough for me to realize.
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
Well, nothing feels good being under the gun.
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
Is it ever gonna come?
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
Well, nothing feels good being under the gun.
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
So take care what you wish for, for it may come true.
But that September sky, how it whispered, "I love you."
But I couldn't take it,
any longer, no I couldn't stand.
But the night brought sparks
and the sparks brought flames.
And you had to be sure
this wasn't one of those games.
But I'm gonning to show you
if you could just give me tonight...
Tonight...
"It's fragile", she says to me.
The hair in her eyes, she removes it smiling.
There's a wound that I know this song could mend,
A step in time for us will never end.
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
Well, nothing feels good being under the gun.
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
Is it ever gonna come?
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
Well, nothing feels good being under the gun.
Oh, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
I'm waiting, for the breakdown.
I'm waiting, for the comedown.
I'm waiting (she says it's magic)
for the breakdown (I'm floating weightless).
I'm waiting (she says it's magic)
for the comedown (here comes the breakdown).
That would be for me
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2005 4 October :: 8.37pm
"falling in love under painted september skies
entranced by the look in your eyes
and how quickly time had passed since then
i cannot say we were ready for this
seasons passed
and running back to you
is something i never failed to do
remembering painted memories
swept me away
how could we know where would end up
remember the night
you told me you would hold me and never let go
so far
i know it shows.
how could we know where you would take me
paint the time
when you whispered you wanted this.
i need this."
-- JC
That would be for me
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2005 4 October :: 8.33pm
:: Music: Misktakes We Knew We Were Making by Mae
~*~ QuOtE oF tHe DaY~*~
"we made plans to be unbreakable,
love was all we knew.
no insurance for the unthinkable,
blindly get us through.
we've been searching for a lifetime,
short as it may seem.
riding on the fumes that spark us,
while igniting dreams.
mistakes we knew we were making.
mistakes we knew we were making.
don't think about chances we're taking,
mistakes we knew..."
--Mae
today was not such a good day
i have so much homework i havent even started because im so upset
and so stressed
and today's my moms birthday
and im sad cuz we got into the huge fight last night and i was bawling and she was being so mean
and i didnt say anything to her on the way to school
and then she picked me up from school and has ben nice all day.
and ive been a bitch.
and it makes me sad.
i miss ryan
<3
That would be for me
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2005 2 October :: 4.40pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: The Sun and The Moon by Mae
~*~ QuOtE oF tHe DaY ~*~
"So when you say 'fovever'
can't you see?
You've already captured me."
--Mae
hmm well
i went shopping yesterday with kristie and i got my first shirt from hollister lol
and some other stuff
and some pretty stuff
and chik fil a it was yummmy
then kayla came and picked me up
and uh yeah scary lol ;)
and then we went to her house with jullianna and we tried to watch that movie for history
the last of the mohicans
but we got into like the ifrst 5 minutes and we just couldnt watch it
so then we talked some
and did some physics but not all of it
and i wasnt feelin too good i had a migraine
and i prolly shoulda slept over
but my mom said no my rrom wasnt clean
but i didnt feel good any and i had a bunch of stuff to do
but yeah
i ended up not getting much done today
i cleaned my room
and my bathroom
and i did my math hw
and im bout to start history cuz i have sooo much
i have that packet, the book work,the movie and the the paper, and i have a chap 6 quiz so i gotta study for thatttt.
josh wanted to hang out today and i wanted to go to forever 21 so we were gonna go to the mallll.. but my mom had her open house thing and couldnt take me or anything and his mom was gonna but they were at mary's all day soo its cool.
ryan still hasnt called me im guessing hes in orlando.
but last night at kayla's he called and he was being weird he sounded like he was in a really bad mood.
and my call got lost at like 10
and he never called me back and i couldnt call him cuz i cant call his house that late and he doesnt have a cell phone anymore so it just really sucks.
i like never talk to him anymore
it makes me sad.
and even when we do talk.. i feel like we're not really i dunno
i love him so much...
i hope he calls me
<3
That would be for me
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2005 2 October :: 4.01pm
:: Mood: ehhh
:: Music: The Ocean by Mae
lyrics... i love this song
am i alone in this?
never a night where i can sleep myself till day.
we must try to figure it out, figure it out.
it won't be that easy.
we lost it somehow.
you come over unannounced.
silence broken by your voice in the dark.
i need you here tonight
just like the ocean needs the waves.
oh, the night becomes the space that's somewhere in between
what i feel and what i'm told.
sitting on the shoreline trying to figure it out, figure it out.
to find out the meaning and reach it somehow.
you come over unannounced.
silence broken by your voice in the dark.
i need you here tonight
just like the ocean needs the wave.
fall around me now,
like stars that shine and brighten the way.
i need you here tonight just like this night it needs the rain.
the season has changed.
the wind, it moves colder now, colder now.
the clouds are raised,
the rain it falls harder now, all around.
you come over unannounced.
silence broken by your voice in the dark.
i need you here tonight,
just like the ocean needs the waves.
so fall around me now.
just like stars that shine and brighten the way.
i need you here tonight just like this night it needs the rain.
over unannounced, silence broken by your voice in the dark.
i need you here tonight,
just like the ocean needs the waves.
just like the stars that fall around me now.
That would be for me
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2005 30 September :: 8.01pm
:: Mood: ugh
:: Music: Never No More By Aaliyah
~*~ QuOtE oF tHe DaY ~*~
"And when i see you
I really see you upside down"
-- DCFC
welll hmm
i was supposed to go out to eat with ryan tonight
he called me today
finally
but i guess we're not going anymore cause his mom is out of town
and hes staying with sheryl
and he never got ahold of her so yeah
whatevvv.
after i wasted all that time getting readddy
oh well
so now im bored
and i want to do something
<3
That would be for me
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2005 29 September :: 4.41pm
:: Mood: yucky
:: Music: Tisbury Lane by Mae
~*~ QuOtE oF tHe DaY *~*
"Remembering, everything,
about my world and when you came.
Wondering, the change you’d bring,
means nothing else would be the same.
Did you know, what you were doing, did you know.
Did you know how you would move me well,
I don’t really think so."
--Mae
ahh todai was alright
except i just realized i lost like 3 pages of notes that i need to do that physics hw. and im gonna die. i hate physics i dont understand anything. chemistry was so much better to me. im so taking ap chem next yearrrrrr
but uhhhhh
yeah so how bout ryan never called me yesterday and he was on line and imed him and he never said anything back.
so i was like heck no im not gonna call him then
and i want to go out to eat with him 2moro night.
he better call me today or i will be highly upset
tonight is kaleidescope.
but im not going
i kinda want to but i realy dont feel like it
besaides tonight is the night
THE OC woopwoop
you knoe i love me some oc soo
so much homework
gotta bounce
<3
That would be for me
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2005 26 September :: 7.14pm
:: Mood: gosh
:: Music: Diffrent Names For The Same Thing by Death Cab For Cutie
"You may tire of me as our December sun is setting
because I'm not who I used to be
No longer easy on the eyes
but these wrinkles masterfully disguise"
--DCFC
i didnt go to school today
i didnt get much sleep.. didnt go to school till quite late 2:30 maybe or 3.
so i got in the shower and got dressed and then decided i didnt feel like going
cuz i didnt feel good and im on my period
blah
lastnight i went to target and got a much needed new stereo.
iloveit.
except i hate the remote. its a circle.
it reminds me of an alien's ufo.
i hate aliens
they scare me.
i tried to start my paper for ms saltmarsh's class
i got to one page out of six
which i thought was good
but its due wednesday. and its 60% of our grade so its like pretty much important but its so gay. im stressing. i dont even knoe what im going to do for my presentation. im thinking poster board but im not sure. i still have 350 pages in that gay ass book.
ah i hate schooool.
and last night i got the death cab for cutie cd. PLANS. its pretty sweet. i listened to it all last night and all today.
ahh so much work to do
and the weekend seems so far away.
i dont knoe whats going on with ryan
i think i annoy him.
<3
That would be for me
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2005 25 September :: 5.50pm
:: Music: Love Is The Key by Sade
*~* QuOtE oF tHe DaY *~*
"You treat me badly
I love you madly
You've really got a hold on me."
-- The Beatles
just got home from ocala
we drove down there at 10:30 to eat brunch with the family at the hilton as always. at "arthur's". but anyway it was ok. nothing excited as usuall but they did have good sausage.
just started my period today so im not in a good mood.
always explains why i was so emotional last night at my party.
which was fun for the most part
i love my friends
ryan wont take me to homecoming
he says hes going with his friends
even though i asked like 2 weeks ago and he told me he wasnt going and he didnt want to go cuz he hates dances.
and then last night hes all "you never asked me to take to homecoming. what do expect me to tell all of the girls that want to go with me?"
but of course its just as "friends"
not like hes allowed anything else anyway
i asked him like 5 times and he said
"oh i guess i wasnt paying attention"
so i dont knoe
josh said i could go with him if i wanted
but yeah last night
coolnesssssssss
ryan "surprised" me and came to party
and yeah
i dont like surprises
but im tired and i got a but load of homework
so
peace<3
That would be for me
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2005 23 September :: 6.49pm
:: Music: No Ordinary Love by Sade
lyrics
I gave you all the love I got
I gave you more than I could give
I gave you love
I gave you all that I have inside
And you took my love
You took my love
Didn't I tell you
What I believe
Did somebody say that
A love like that won't last
Didn't I give you
All that I've got to give baby
I gave you all the love I got
I gave you more than I could give
I gave you love
I gave you all that I have inside
And you took my love
You took my love
I keep crying
I keep trying for you
There's nothing like you and I baby
This is no ordinary love
No ordinary Love
This is no ordinary love
No ordinary Love
When you came my way
You brightened every day
With your sweet smile
Didn't I tell you
What I believe
Did somebody say that
A love like that won't last
Didn't I give you
All that I've got to give baby
This is no ordinary love
No ordinary Love
This is no ordinary love
No ordinary Love
I keep crying
I keep trying for you
There's nothing like you and I baby
This is no ordinary love
No ordinary Love
This is no ordinary love
No ordinary Love
Keep trying for you
Keep crying for you
Keep flying for you
Keep flying I'm falling
I'm falling
Keep trying for you
Keep crying for you
Keep flying for you
Keep flying for you I'm falling
I'm falling
That would be for me
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2005 15 September :: 6.23pm
:: Music: Saints and Sailors by Dashboard Confessional
*~* QuOte oF tHe DaY *~*
"Please tell me you're just feeling tired
cause if it's more than that I feel that I might break
out of touch, out of time.
Please send me anything but signals that are mixed
cause I can't read your rolling eyes"
--dashboardconfessional
ahh ok this whole party planning thing is not working
i dont knoe what was going on with me in dance todai
i couldnt lift my leg for my life
and we didnt make it in for klaidescope
and i couldnt stop laughing in history
and i dont knoe whats going on with ryan but i really want talk to him
and yesterday was our 1 year and 11 months anniversary
and the oc comes on tonight
and im super excited
if it was as good as last week ill be happy
cuz last episode i cried at the end
it was quite depressing
but i have a lot of homework i need to attend to
<3
That would be for me
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