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2005 9 August :: 11.43pm
:: Music: Breathe by Anna Nalick
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him
but
maybe I'll just sing about it
That would be for me
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2005 9 August :: 11.26pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: Til Kingdom Come by Coldplay
"its when im talkin to this girl i think u know her by the way her name starts with an a and ends with one and we just started talkin again and im happy when we talk and it just makes me just i dunno happy
its pitiful
im gonna go
i sound dumb
but thats when im happy so"
That would be for me
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2005 9 August :: 6.00pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Fix You by Coldplay
lyrics
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
High up above or down below
when you too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth
Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears streaming down your face and I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
That would be for me
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2005 7 August :: 11.46pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Girl by Beck
omggggg
schoool is tomorrow ive been dreading it the whole day.
in fact the whole summer
i should have killed myself tonight hahahaha
that way i could have gone out in sttyyllleeee
oh well
i rly dont wanna go
oh well
im talkin to josh on the line
im bout to get off in a bit and head to bed otherwise i wont be able to wake up tomorrow
and my eyes hurt
and how bout i wanted to see ryan on the last day of summer..
but that didnt work out. and i havent seen him in a week.
so no i gotta wait till next weekend and it suxxxx
i feel like i just wasted the whole summer
went by too damn fast
<3
That would be for me
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2005 5 August :: 10.33pm
:: Mood: i dunno
:: Music: I Still Believe by Mariah Carey
just sittin here...
ive been listening to all these old mariah carey songs for the past hour..
hmm yeah
i dunno
That would be for me
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2005 4 August :: 7.35pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Happens All The Time by Cold
yeahhh
i think ryan is mad at me cuz im going to the movies with jonathan and im not sure if its just him or not and i asked if ryan was ok about it and he said yeah. but i dunno
and then he was like "yeah i would never go out with another girl if it was just her and me alyssa"
buttttttt
i think hes upset about it. but i guess i would be toooo so i guess i cant say much
but he says trusts me and i wouldnt do anything so yeah
gotta blast
<3
That would be for me
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2005 4 August :: 1.43am
:: Music: Whenever You Call by Mariah Carey and Brian McKnight
the email josh sent me..
Alyssa i feel so bad about how i treated you and i hope you do forgive me and aren't just saying that to reconcile with me and make me stop feeling guilty. when i said that thing that i said... i didn't mean it at all and i wanna make sure that you know that 100%, for the past two years I've just felt like i did you so wrong because you would have never said anything to me like that and i hope and pray to god from the bottom of my heart that you can and will forgive me i mean i know what i said can't be just forgotten .. i hope we can get past it and at the very least become friends again because i cant hardly stand to not talk to you anymore. i just wanted to write you this because i thought well i know you deserved more than what i said the other night which was kinda of a half ass thing. so here it goes Alyssa since the first time i talked to you on the phone three years ago i haven't stopped loving you and when i said don't call i was under a lot of pressure for you to stop calling here and now i think the tension between me and that person has been resolved so i can finally feel at ease and relaxed trying to talk to you. i know that pressure is no reason to treat you the way i did and i just please please please forgive me Alyssa i cant take it anymore knowing that i treated you the way i did and not at least apologize to you.
ill always love you,
josh.
That would be for me
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2005 3 August :: 3.39pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: Time To Waste by Alkaline Trio
wow last nigh was crazy...
i talked to mimi and aj for awhile
and then i called both of my grandmas cuz i havent talked to them in forever
and then me and emily and aj talked till like 1:30 am
and i was about to go to bed... and josh imed me.
and yeah we talked for 4 hours till like 6:30
and it wasgreat to talk to him i havent talked to him since he told me to never call me again like a year ago and we cleared stuff up about why he never called me or told me to nevr call him again and he said he was forced to say that and it was complicated. i understand tho cuz his mom and mary hate me and yeah.
but a lot of memories came to mind
and he told me he still loved me and he'll always love me
and that he was sorry that he hurt me and yeah
i cried
That would be for me
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2005 2 August :: 1.35pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Echo by Incubus
i havent rly done anything in the past couple days but eat, read and talk on the phone.
i am finally on page 240 in huck finn. i am praying i finish todai.. its absolute torture.
last night i saw the trailer for the new season of the oc and im almost cried. no joke. haha yeah my eyes watered up ahahaha
i cant wait till the new season. damn it september seems so far away
my new favorite
Edy's turtle sundae icecream and special k cereal mixed in and sprinkled on the top. it is the absolute best.. mm m so good.
ok well gotta go im gonna go read at 2
ah i hate it
<3
That would be for me
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2005 2 August :: 12.06am
:: Mood: whhaattt
:: Music: Embers and Envelopes by Mae
okkkk
so me and jonet had a rly good talk
and alot things hit home with me you knoe
shes always a good one to talk to..
cuz i realize now that ryan takes me for granted sometimes
and i tried to talk to him about it but i dont hink he took it seriously i ono
but i love him and hey what can i do
and mimi is mad at me
and it aint make no damn sense..
but whatev
i gots me another damn headache
peace
<3
That would be for me
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2005 1 August :: 3.47pm
:: Music: Question! by System of a Down
yeah i was gonna update and stay shit i have to say
butttt
i dont much feel like it anymore
That would be for me
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2005 1 August :: 1.01am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: November by Azure Ray
how bout shit is friggin fucked up right now
so unnecessary
but stephen helped me out
which was interestesting.. considering everything.. and we hardly talk nowadays
but he was rly sweet
yeah im tired
whatev
night
That would be for me
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2005 31 July :: 11.40pm
:: Music: Bitemarks and Bloodstains by Finch
yeah you dont even know
That would be for me
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2005 31 July :: 10.55pm
:: Music: Til' Kingdom Come by Coldplay
sweet song sweet lyrics... yeah im bored
Steal my heart and hold my tongue.
I feel my time, my time has come.
Let me in, unlock the door.
I've never felt this way before.
The wheels just keep on turning,
The drummer begins to drum,
I don't know which way I'm going,
I don't know which way I've come.
Hold my hand inside your hands,
I need someone who understands.
I need someone, someone who hears,
For you, I've waited all these years.
For you, I'd wait 'til kingdom come.
Until my day, my day is done.
And say you'll come, and set me free,
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.
In your tears and in your blood,
In your fire and in your flood,
I hear you laugh, I heard you say,
"I wouldn't change a single thing."
The wheels just keep on turning,
The drummers begin to drum,
I don't know which way I'm going,
I don't know what I've become.
For you, I'd wait 'til kingdom come,
Until my days, my days are done.
Say you'll come and set me free,
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.
That would be for me
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2005 31 July :: 10.43pm
:: Music: Girl by Beck
its sooooo unnecessary
That would be for me
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