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2005 8 July :: 3.31pm
:: Music: Happens All the Time by Cold
lyrics
I still hang on every word
in the world of faded memories
where your still in love with me
I can see it in your eyes
you look as if your martyerdom has lost control
I must hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my faith in you
I cant hold on
this happens all the time
I still find my way to you
If a dreams all that I've got
then I wish you're in a fairy tale
where you're still in love with me
I could see it in your eyes
the look as if your hero fell and lost his soul
I must hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my faith in you
I cant hold on
this happens all the time
I still find my way to you...
To you...
To you...
To you...
I must hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my faith in you
I cant hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my way to you
That would be for me
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2005 5 July :: 6.30pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: All That I've Got by The Used
yeah so i havent talked to ryan in 3 days...
and im kinda worried i dunno maybe not as much worried as i wish i could talk to him cuz yeah. i called him like a bajillion times yesterday and i called him sunday buttt no answer and no call back. i called his moms cell phone yesterday to wish happy birthday cuz it was her b-day but she didnt pick up so i left a message lol yeah so i kinda have a feeling.. that they went on a road trip or out of time unexpectedly. today is also his moms day off and 2moro she has to go back to work so ima call him again 2morrow hopefully he'll pick up... but yeah
yesterday i hungout with ryann and kayla and matt. we slept over kaylas saterday and then went to the beach until about a quarter to 1 and then went to ryanns house and hung there for a bit and then ryanns mom took me to matts house at 5 cuz ryann was late for work. but yeah i hung out at his place till bout 11 at ate dinner and watched tv and stuff.
but now i'm rly rlyrly bored and i wanna talk to ryan sOoOo bad and i rly wanna go to the beach 2moro but no one to go with and no one to take me so yeah
<3
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2005 5 July :: 6.14pm
:: Music: Cater 2 U by Destiny's Child
lyrics
[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Baby I See You Working Hard
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud,
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
Don't Know If I Need To Reassure You, My Life Would Be Purposeless Without You (Yeah)
If I Want It (Got It)
When I Ask You (You Provide It)
You Inspire Me To Be Better
You Challenge Me For The Better
Sit Back And Let Me Pour Out My Love Letter
Let Me Help You
Take Off Your Shoes
Untie You Shoestrings
Take Off Your Cufflinks (Yeah)
What You Want To Eat Boo? (Yeah)
Let Me Feed You
Let Me Run Your Bathwater
Whatever You Desire, I'll Aspire
Sing You A Song
Turn My Game On
I'll Brush Your Hair
Help Put Your Do Rag On
Want A Foot Rub? (Yeah)
You Want A Manicure?
Baby I'm Yours I Want To Cater To You Boy
[Chorus]
Let Me Cater To You
Cause Baby This Is Your Day
Do Anything For My Man
Baby You Blow Me Away
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want Just Let Me Cater To You
Inspire Me From The Heart,
Can't Nothing Tear Us Apart
You're All That I Want In A Man;
I Put My Life In Your Hands
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want, I Want To Cater To You
[Verse 2 Kelly]
Baby I'm Happy You're Home,
Let Me Hold You In My Arms
I Just Want To Take The Stress Away From You
Making Sure That I'm Doing My Part (Oh)
Boy Is There Something You Need Me To Do (Oh)
If You Want It (I Got It)
Say The Word (I Will Try It)
I Know Whatever I'm Not Fulfilling (Oh)
No Other Woman Is Willing (Oh)
I'm Going To Fulfill Your Mind, Body, And Spirit
I Promise You (Promise You)
I'll Keep Myself Up (Oh)
Remain The Same Chick (Yeah)
You Fell In Love With (Yeah)
I'll Keep It Tight, I'll Keep My Figure Right
I'll Keep My Hair Fixed, Keep Rocking The Hottest Outfits
When You Come Home Late Tap Me On My Shoulder, I'll Roll Over
Baby I Heard You, I'm Here To Serve You (I'm Lovin It, I'm Lovin It)
If It's Love You Need, To Give It Is My Joy
All I Want To Do, Is Cater To You Boy
[Chorus]
[Bridge Michelle]
I Want To Give You My Breath, My Strength, My Will To Be Here
That's The Least I Can Do,
Let Me Cater To You
Through The Good (Good)
The Bad (Through The Bad)
The Ups And Downs (Ups And Downs)
I'll Still Be Here For You
Let Me Cater To You
Cause You're Beautiful (You're Beautiful)
I Love The Way You Are (You Are)
Fulfill Your Every Desire (Desire)
Your Wish Is My Command (Command)
I Want To Cater To My Man
Your Heart (Your Heart)
So Pure Your Love Shines Through(Shines Through)
The Darkness We'll Get Through (So Much)
So Much Of Me Is You (Is You)
I Want To Cater To My Man
[Chorus Out]
That would be for me
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2005 5 July :: 9.45am
:: Music: Ohio is for Lovers by Hawthorn Heights
spare me just
3 last words
i love you
is all she heard..
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2005 2 July :: 10.32pm
:: Music: Feel Good Inc by Gorrillaz
yeah so like im bored
again
ryan came over todai which was sweet and he came over last night for dinner too and that wuz sweeeeeeeeet as well
we're doing alot better which is good. hes been rly sweet lately which i'm liking. but uh yeah i wanna talk to him but he never called me after we took him home soo yeah. aw my poor baby he slipped and fell on my porch cuz it was raining so much. and he cut his ankle so i had to put a band aid on it. and hes all "i dont use band aids i let it heal on its own." and i was like ah ah. but yeah i think im gonna go watch tv
<3
T
to the
I
to the
G-E-R
grrr
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2005 1 July :: 1.12pm
:: Music: B.Y.O.B by System of a Down
i'm sOoOooOo bored
ah our car is broke and so my dad just wants to get another one and i was like helll naw we cannot afford a car rite now... so yeah. i am very bored. and i wanted to sleep over kaylas house last night cuz i miss my kayla and i wanna see her hair but ya knoe mamma said fro some reason i ont even knoe. and now im bored out of my eyeballs. wanna see ryan but i dont knoe if thats gonna happen as soon as i want it. he got suspended from work for a week bcuz of the other day and the town center and he was mad at me so he wouldnt let ryann take him home so he walked all the way from southside to arlington. 6 hours.. in the pouring rain i was soo worried and so upset but theres nothing i can do about it now... im gonna go watch tv
<3 yOu
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2005 29 June :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Free Yourself by Fantasia
its hard to act like i dont care at all
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2005 28 June :: 3.59pm
:: Music: Blowers Daughter by Damien Rice
and so it is...
just like you said it would be
That would be for me
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2005 27 June :: 6.23pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Snowden by The Doves
i'm sooo friggin bored out of my eyeballs
ive done like nothing all day cept clean and watch tv and find people on myspace. i found out alot of people that knoe these others peoples that knoe these others peoples and its just amaaazzzzzzing. not rly but ok.
and how bout ryan is mad at me again. which then puts me in a pisssy mood and i jump up every time the phone rings hoping its him but then i get super disapointed when its not... and he wont answer when i call, and he wont return my messages i feel like i left a bajillion of em when i knoe i havent. but yeah i dunno how we can be doing so good and then not. it could be something i say and it changes everything and sometimes i feel like i'm walking on broken glass when it comes to him and i knoe thats not how it should be. especially now we've been together for so long... 1 year 8 months and 2 weeks... and i love him more then anything i've ever known.... he's all i think about... thinking about him at night is the only thing that can get me to sleep at night and hes whats gets me out of bed every day and ahh craziness. i just wanna talk to him... golly
im out
<3 yOu
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2005 20 June :: 3.14pm
:: Mood: bored
i miss ryan
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2005 20 June :: 2.56pm
im soOoOo bored.. heres another dumb survey
I've kissed someone....
on the cheek.- yes
on the lips.-yes
on their hands or fingers.- yes
in my room.- yes
in their room.- yes
of the opposite sex.- yes
of the same sex.- no
a little younger than me- no
a little older than me.- yes
with brown hair.- yes
with curly hair- yes. :)
with blonde hair and blue eyes.- no
with red hair.- no
with straight hair.- yes
shorter than me.- yes
with a lip ring.- no
with a tounge ring- no
who was drunk.- no
while you were drunk- no
taller than me- yes
who was high.- no
in the morning.- yes
right after waking up- yes
just before bed.- yes
late at night.- yes
who I really didn't want to kiss.- nope
who was going out with someone else. - never
on a bed.- yes
two people at the same time.- no
right after you've kissed somebody else- no
in a graveyard.- no
against a wall. - yes
at a show.- yes
at the beach. - yes
who was/is a good friend.- no
in the rain- yes
with an std.- no
in a car/taxi/bus.- yes/no/yes
on a plane. - no
in the movies.- yes
in a bathroom.- no
in the dark- no
on a roof top- no
under water- no
while you/they were driving- no
who was a complete stranger- no
at the park- no
in a shower - no
while people were watching- yes
in a different state- no
in more than 3 different states- no
at a national monument- no
That would be for me
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2005 18 June :: 1.25pm
Body: SECTION 1 ABOUT YOURSELf
+ Known as: alyssa
+ School: douglas anderson school of the arts
+ Style: hmm i dunno
+ Fears: heights and losing the ones i love
SECTION 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Cheated on someone? never
+ Been Cheated on? not that i knoe of..
+ Fallen off the bed? plenty of times
+ broken someone`s heart? i think so
+ Had your heart broken? yeah
+ Had a dream come true? possibly!
+ Done something you regret? at first but not n e more
+ Cheated on a test? yeah in ms bhomiks class in biology haha
SECTION 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? orange tank top with my suga mama minnie mouse pj pants
+ Listening to? the tv
+ Chatting with? mimi
+ Watching? i have no idea
+ Should REALLY be doing? cleaning but i wanna talk to ryan
SECTION 4 DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? yup
+ Like anybody? i love ryan
+ Smoke? never
+ Got a pager? i did haha now i have a cellular
SECTION 5 FRiENDS...
+ Who is your best? hmm .. yeah i have more than 1
+ Who do you hate? hmm i dunno nobdy i guess
+ Who is the shyest? uh aj prolly
+ Who is the most talkative? ryann
+ Who is the cutest? kristie
+ Who laughs the most? prolly me and ryann
+ Who have you known the longest? mimi
+ Who have you known the shortest? uh aj
+ Who do you miss the most? kayla and kristie cuz she's leavin 2moro for 5 weeks
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? yeah
+ Do you trust your friends? yeah
+re you a good friend? i'm not sure i try to be
+ Can you keep a secret? if its a good one
SECTION 6 THE LAST PERSON YOU...
+ Hugged? ryan <3
+ Kissed? ryan <3
+ IMed? on my phone.. prolly aj
SECTION 7 PERSONAL...
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? boyfriend! <3 ryan <3
+ How many times have you fallen in love? twice
+ Love your family? most of the time
+ Love your friends? duhhh
SECTION 8 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: the notebook or moulin rouge
+ Song: echo by incubus
+ Group? matchbook romance
+ Store: i dont have one
+ Ice Cream Flavor: strawberry
+ Fruit: orang
+ Candy: starburst and gummie bears
+Holiday: valentines day
+ Day of the Week: thursday
+ Time of day: evening
+ Color: pink, orange, teal, green, and yellow
+ Name for a Girl: dont have one n e more
+ Name for a Boy: aden
+ Quote: "haha i laugh"
SECTION 9 DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs? yeah
+ Like to give kisses? to ryan
+ Like to walk in the rain? yeah but kissing is better
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black
+ Like to travel? for the most part
+ Sleep on your side, tummy or back? side or tummy
+ Have a goldfish? they dived out of their bowl and stuck to the curtain and died
+ Ever have the falling dream? like a bajillion times
+ Have stuffed animals? many
SECTION 10 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Smoking: yucky
+ Eating Disorders: yucky
+ Suicide: makes me sad
+ Summer: love it
+ Tattoos: can be cute but i dont like a lot
SCTION 11 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? depends on the person
+ MTV or BET? mtv
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? 7th heaven
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? silver
+ Chocolate or flowers? both duh
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? both
+ Stay up late or sleep in? BOTH
+ Hot or cold? hot hot hot
+ Sun or moon? sun
+ Left or Right? right
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? 1 best friend
+ Mustard or ketchup? mmm makes me want a hotdog real bad
+ Spring or Fall? spring
+ Happy or sad? happy
+ Wonder or amazement? wonder
+ McDonald's or Burger King? they can both be good and gross
+ Mexican or Italian food? mexican i lloovvvee mexican food!
+ Lights on or off? ..off
+ Candy or soda? candy
+ Pepsi or Coke? diet coke with lemon
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2005 10 June :: 1.13am
:: Mood: confused
i dont fucking understand
what the hell
am i doing
wrong
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2005 7 June :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Brighter Than Sunshine by Aqualung
i saw my chikaboo todai.
we went to the beach for an hour with his mom but then she to do this thing at 2 so she dropped us off at my house and we chilled and then went to publix and i made a mess of macaroons. haha
i had fun
k well i'm tired and i'm talkin to him so i'ma go lay down
and hearts
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2005 6 June :: 12.46pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: attack by 30 Seconds to Mars
ahhh shit is sOoOoOo scary
i was so scared last night i couldnt even sleep
but n e hoo i havent been writing lately... my computer is still screwed i cant be online on my computer for more then like 10 minutes and then it goes wacko and breaks down. but yeah i'm at kaylas house. slept over last night with ashton, jenna and of course kayla. i smell like friggin barbeque.. its sOoOo annoying cause of ashtons fire thing in her yard. but yeah...
i really wanna see ryan i havent seen him in 1 week and 2 days. but it feels like freaking 3 weeks. and he wont see me till the 14th (our 1 year and 8 month anniversary! yay!) cuz my mom read his journal that i have and read a walla go wut he said " today we took to the next stage if you know what i mean *wink wink*" but yeah my mom freaked out so ryan said we souldnt see each other for awhile. and even tho the other day my mom said she rly liked him and thought he was a good person and all that.. he still wont and he actually was gonna see me todai and go to the movies but my dad had to go to st augustine for some crap i dont even knoe so no one could take ussss... suuuxxxxxxxx
i got a new cell phone.. my other one dies it wouldnt even charge n e more. i spent like 10 dollars downloadin stuff already my dad is gonna get mad cuz i'm not supposed but o well.
and... o yeah i might get a job at nero's lenny is supposed to call me next week if i get the job.
but i'm gonna go watch spiderman 2 with kay and jenna now
so peace
<3
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