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2005 10 April :: 4.07pm
:: Mood: angry
i am so pissed rite now its not even funnie
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2005 10 April :: 11.33am
all i ever think about is this
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2005 9 April :: 1.05pm
...i LoVe HiM sO mUcH...
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2005 8 April :: 9.44pm
---MY ANGEL MY FRIEND---
by: RGB
I never thought that I would find
a friend so great and a friend so kind
I look up to you in every way
'cause I learn something from you every day.
Without you I don't know where I'd be
but you're still here, friends with me
you deserve so much more than I can give
but without you I wouldn't live.
You've given me more than money can buy
and for you I'd give my all and I would die
This feeling I feel gets stronger every day
hoping not to screw it up, I constantly pray.
I know we have our problems every now and then
but once it's fixed our friendship is better times ten
and I want you to know that I truly do care
even in fights when I say things that aren't fair.
You're an angel from God up above
and I'm thankful for your understanding love
because when you're around everything seems right
and for you, until the end, I will fight.
It doesn't matter what you do or say
because you'll be my friend anyway
I know the real you that's down deep inside
and in you, I'll always confide.
Thanks for being the friend you are
you're my best friend, an angel by far
everything in you is an inspiration to do great
and you'll be loved by all cause that's your fate!
So never stop being the real and wonderful you
cause God shines through in all that you do
and whenever it seems like I'm never there
remember this: I love you and I'll always care!
That would be for me
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2005 8 April :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: sickly
:: Music: Be Yourself by Audioslave
todai wasnt a very good day
in 1st period, in chemistry i didnt know what the hell was going on im so lost. and like b4 everything was so easy.. but not no more.
and then like in 2nd, 3rd and 4th period i was like feeling really delirious...
and like i ono todai was just like a weird day and me and ryann are in a fight because shes always going around telling me and a bunch of other im such a horrible person or wutever.. and its pissing me off. i could handle the first 3 times but its like every freaking day .. and it was rly starting to get to me so in the dressing room todai she did it again and i snapped and i yelled at her. and then after school she asked me if i wanted to hang out with her like nothing was wrong but im still kinda mad at her.. cuz i love her and everything but she doesnt need to go around saying that like im not supposed to upset to get about it. and she told me to get over it.. but im not. soo yeah im dont like it we're fighting but yeah
then after that i saw aj and we talked.. im glad we're talking now at least. hes still mad at me, but its ok i completely understand.
jared raped me on the bus lol haha jk ive always wanted to be a teenage mom. haha no but yeah the bus drived switched around our route so now the whole thing is backwards. and usually mines the 2nd to last stop so it would have been the 2nd stop.. but we have this new bus driver or what and she said john reynolds wasnt a stop. and i was like what? o hell naw that has been my stop for the past 2 friggin years. so i had to get off at riverton and i had to walk to 15 minutes to get home. and before it took like 5. 15 min mite not seem long but it is when ur rly tired. and i was like ah ah that is too long for me. so i ono what im gonna do...
im just rly not in a good mood and my back hurts.. i wanna talk to ryan
<3
**QuOtE oF ThE dAy**
"go for it, follow your heart... do what it takes to make you happy"
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2005 7 April :: 7.29pm
gracias.. pero no puedo
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2005 7 April :: 6.03pm
:: Music: Easier to Run by LP
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to run
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
It's easier to go
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
That would be for me
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2005 7 April :: 5.44pm
i just broke down
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2005 7 April :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: contento
:: Music: running away by hoobastank
ahh.. i went to school for nothing lol. buts its cool cuz i got to talk to my homeboys during 4th period. we had a interesting convo.
n e hoo... ryan never went to that gurl kims house... maybe he was never planning to... i ono he texted me during 4th period
Ryan: I love you and I miss you and thats why i wanted to see you'
Me: I did too but I didnt want you to come over that time because my mom wasnt supposed to gone long. and then my mom left for 2 hours and i was all alone, and i texted you and you were mad at me..
Ryan: no i was so tired and i went all the way over there for a cookie. An my leg is feeling bad again so once i got home i went right to bed. I'm still tired my legs hurt from my dang push cart.
Me: aw im sorry
Ryan: I even had publix write on a cup cake "i love you" and i stuck a candle in it and i left it where i asked you out for the first time like three houses away from yours. probably not there now cuz its rainin but yeah.
Me: aw im sorry its my fault...
Ryan: no its not yours. I just took it apon myself to come over. But i should have listened when you said you didnt want to see me.
Me: I never said I didnt want to see you I just didnt want my mom come back and have you there. I'll make it up to you..
and yeah thats pretty much it i felt rly bad cuz thats all he did todai and yeah... but after school kristie and i ran all the way to behind the portables in the parking lot to her car and we got soaked. me and her went to keikos alterations on merrill to look at her prom dress after she got everything done to it. its different but its rly cute. then we went to mcdonalds.. cuz i was craving an oreo mcflurry. we went throo the drive thru and i saw ryan gave us our food at the 2nd window cuz he works the drive most days. haha shouldve seen his face when he saw me.. funnie stuff. he didnt rly say n e thing to me tho o well. n e hoo kristie got 2 apple pies and she didnt want the 2nd one but she looks at the box and it 2 holes on the side and she goes "what are the holes for? so you can smell it?" omg it was so funnie. and then she took me home and we went to see if the cupcake was still there but it wasnt.
i saw aj after school when i was at kierras locker talkin to alton and he just came up to me and asked me if i wuz riding the bus. i asked him if he wanted me to walk him out there but she said no and just walked off...
toots <3
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2005 7 April :: 10.35am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: 40 Kinds of Sadness by Ryan Cabrera
im at hoommeee...
ah yes it felt nice to sleep in this morning. ive slept a lot lately all i did yesterday was sleep and talk to ryan on the phone...
he texted me this morning at like 8 and woke me up and were texting for like an hour and a half or sumthin and it sounded like he was joking or whatever cuz he wuz saying stuff like he doesnt want me to be home alone or whatever and that sum1 better be home with me.. cuz he didnt want sum rapist to lay a hand on me.. and no one should be layin a hang on me except for him.. lol...and i said my mom was gonna take my dad to work at like 10 and he wuz like o ok well ill be over then to protect you and i thought he was school. but then my mom left a little b4 9.. and he was like o ill be rite over by the speed of light... and i was like nah thats ok.. cuz with my luck my mom would hurry up and get home fast.. and i wuz lookin pretty gross.. and then he was like wut the hell am i supposed to do now then im almost there.. and then he said o well i guess ill just go into publix and eat a cookie. but yeah and then he said he never went to school today he wuz just hangin out at fort caroline... but he didnt say n e thing for awhile and then he texted "that was loud" and i wuz like "wut was loud?" and he never answered me so i asked again he wuz like "it was to someone else dont worry about it" and then i said "i wanna know" and he said "my friend kim, im goin to her house to hang and watch a movie." and i was like "oh.. ok well ill let you go have fun" and then he goes all off on me and says "let me go? no fuck that im gonna go. you dont let me do anything. i do what i want" and i wuz like wut the hell y did he go off on me like that... i asked him what that was all about and he never answered me he just said "your mom saw me and i waved" and i asked him y he went off on me like that and he never answered me so that was weird. o well whatever.
i dont get it tho we were doing fine... grr
o well whatever im gonna go do sum geometry and then im gonna take a shower and go to school at like 1.
<3
**QuOtE oF tHe DaY**
"WiLL yOu StAy ToNiGhT aNd MaKe EvErYtHiNg aLrIgHt"
-- matchbook romance
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2005 6 April :: 8.16pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: lovers and liars by matchbook romance
todai was weird...
very tiring and i me and ryann went to rainbow after school.
i told ryan bout aj... hmm yeah.
im super tired now i think im gonna get off the phone with mimi and go back to sleep soon
<3
**QuOtE oF tHe DaY**
"And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to"
--LP
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2005 5 April :: 11.15pm
:: Music: My December by Linkin Park
im so sorry... please dont hate me...
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2005 5 April :: 5.14pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: Easier to Run by Linkin Park lol
ive been trying to listen to the linkin park cd aj made cuz i used to have this whole thing against linkin park lol. some of their songs annoy me, but for the most part theyre pretty sweet.
todai was so so. 1st period was boring, mr chic listened to our light cue sheet we had to do for hw like a million years ago but we havent seen him for awhile cuz of fcat and childrens. i just did it last nite tho lol. he said mine was good. of course haha. poor kristy went home she rly wasnt feelin well. i just sat around and ryan and me talked.. well not rly we were texting but yeah lol.
in 2nd period we actually had a real dance class lol. i havent rly had a real modern class for the past 3 weeks cuz of the concert... i sweated! but my knee still hurts rly bad from yesterday in dance when i fell on it.
in 3rd period in american musical theatre we worked on our dance to this song from les miserables. and me and ryann are doing the ketchup bottle for our scene for our final. its gonna be off the chizzain. but ms sides let us out when the bell rang and i hate it when she does that shit i cuz i had to get changed and yeah.
in 4th period.. boring yawn, english sux.
kristy was gonna pick me up at the first stop at walgreens and then we were gonna go to the alterations place and look at her prom dress, but her mom wanted to see it instead... so my mom picked me up instead and i gave ryan a wave when i saw him when he wuz at mac donalds.
and its killing me and it sux but im gonna go im talkin to mimi on the phone.
<3
**QuOtE oF tHe DaY**
"If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would"
-- LP
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2005 4 April :: 10.09pm
:: Music: Easier to Run by Linkin Park
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ARTHUR J!!!!
woopwoop
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2005 4 April :: 9.09pm
and i knew.. that you meant it
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