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2004 30 March :: 5.42pm
:: Mood: funnie
:: Music: Ruthless by Something Corporate
ahhh
well letz see.. um sunday i got a new outfit at JCpenneys but my mom called me fat and i started crying in the dressing rooms cuz none of my old size fits (5) so now im a 7.. and not very happy about.. so im taking control!
yesterday wuz a very slow day... i went to dance cuz my mom wouldnt let me help out at the DA auditions.. but dance wuz actually fun. and i actually thought i did good. it wuz a miracle! we didnt have ms jenkins.. ms tammy thought cuz ms jenkins had to be at DA and it wuz a good class. Danny thought most of the center exercises.. and well there wuz this one petite allegro/grande allegro combo that i did not understand at all but o well... my soteshas were perty nice...
i started crying again yesterday when i read sumthin and i got rly sad.. ive been crying a lot lately over things... weird..
i fell asleep studying for that stupid biology quiz... it wuz like 9 when i fell asleep and i woke up at 11 sumthing and started talking to muh dear ryan online and then i had to go cuz i still had a lotta hw left and i went to bed at like 12 but i couldnt fall asleep no matter how tired i wuz... so i started talking to the moon and thought bout ryan.. er.. i dont remember when i fell asleep.
today wuz um wwweeiirrdd... like no one came to skool... the white white cafeteria wuz empty... gym wuz boring we talked about marriage.. but jay tole me to meet him after class... and so when the bell rang we were walking outta class together and hez like "u should prolly knoe by now with everybody talking that i like u" and i wuz like "yeah.." and then he continued "i rly wanna ask u out..BUT... ive been talking to alot of people and well they all say u still have strong feelings to that ryan guy..rite?" "yeah.." "so i dont wanna.. well... u knoe.." and i wuz like "yeah i understand." and then i didnt say ne thing else and there wuz this big silence.. and i said i had to go... i think he wuz kinda hurt by my response cuz i didnt rly say n e thing to make him feel better cuz emily came and talked to me about it in 3rd period..so i feel kinda bad about that... cuz we used to be rly good friends... and then when i went out with aaron instead of him.. we didnt talk as much but we still talked.. and then when i went out with ryan we stopped talking all together...
and then in 2nd peiod jonet-net told me bout sean. tisktisk i need to put that boi back into place.. hes acting like sumbody else.. cough.. yes he cannot treat my gurl like dat... but she wuz also talking to me about jesse... cuz she talked to this gurl hoo said that jessie would not stop talking about me yesterday and he even got a tardy so he could look for me....and me and him never talk n e more i havent seen him in a couple dayz and he didnt come to skool soo... yeah i feel bad.. i think im hurting all these guys feelings.. 2nd period wuznt all that bad it wuz fun at the end when we did improve... hehe
3rd period we had that dern quiz... i dont think i did that bad.. but everytime i think i did good i fail it soo... yeah... i rly need to get started on that ecology project but it iz so damn hard! ah it makez me wanna ssccrreeaammm. emily kept bugging me about puttin eyeliner on her and it wuz getting rly annoying. especially when she tried to do it herself and gave her self one heck of a messed up eye. ahaha. eyeliner looks werid on her n e way. she doeznt need it.
in 4th period we had a quiz i didnt knoe about and next class we have a test. grr... it wuz perty boring. i started writing a note to ryan with my eyes closed and it looked rly funnie especially when i started drawing.. lol but i dont knoe where i put it i think i left it in class...
the bus ride home wuz perty boring... i let kelly use me as a pillow and he fell asleep and then i feel asleep... achel didnt ride da bus today. *tear* walking home wuz nasty cuz sum guy wuz mowing the grass beside the road and all this dirt and pollen wuz everywhere and i wuz sneezing like crazy. and then i climbed over all these rly big tree branches..
but i gotta go maybe i'll my bio project... nnaahh...
tahtah
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2004 28 March :: 12.07am
:: Music: Ruthless by SOmething COrporate
"Crashing Down"
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Is anybody here to find me
I thought I had you
But then I lost you
And nothing seems to be ok
Maybe that’s when you let go
My world is crashing down
My ears don’t hear a sound
Everything seems so bad now
When you’re not around
Why can’t we just go back
Through the ripples of time
When I was yours
And you were mine
Now I just think back to all the words
we left unsaid
The things I should have told you
Now swirl around in my head
And I feel so alone
And I feel so dead
My world is crashing down
My ears don’t hear a sound
Everything seems so bad now
When you’re not around
Inside everyday seems like a rainy day
This sun isn’t coming out tomorrow
Hold my head down
And sing the sorrow
Maybe I fell too hard for you
Because now I find myself on the ground
Face down
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i started writing this poem today... itz not finished tho.. i think it sounds like a song...
That would be for me
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2004 27 March :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Not What It Seems by Something Corporate
ok where did i leave off...
o yeah ok well this gurl (she wuz like 19) owned the car and she wuz gettin on my nerves and i wuz saying shit to her and she had to call her daddy.. and he took awhile and then they had to call the police to file an accident report... she wuz a dumbass.. n e way i thought we were gonna not be able to go cuz none of the poeple got there yet.. so AJ's mom offered AJ's dad to take us.. only they had a car that seated 5 including the driver... and we had 7 including the driver.... so 4 of us were in the back.. and i wuz too close to AJ then i wanted to be.. haha and then rachel sat on ryann's lap in the front.... after awhile we got to UNF and well i cant understand directions and we had to buy these tickets from kelly borg's mom cuz she had tickets and emily needed a ticket and she wanted um austin m. to go... mm yeah... so she had 3 and sold us 2 and gave us one.
the line with all the cars were rly long to get to the parking area so sumbody suggested we walk and so we did and peoplez were yelling at emily... with her dumb ole hat make her head look like jimmy neutron... and we got to the entrance and we started seeing people we knew and the first person hoo came up to me wuz nicole geovanni.. she looked so different! very pertay! i miss her! AJ saw a bunch of his middle skooler darnell cookmaners...and we had to wait for austin too wuz supposed to be on his way... and we started seeing alot of people and we sold athe extra ticket for only 15.. o well yeah the tickets sold out.. and alot of people thought sumthing corporate and yellowcard couldnt do it.. but i believed they could!
after awhile we saw matt obrero, danny cary, his sis, alex orr, a bunch of people.. and those guys hollering at emily .. one of em came up to her and once they asked her how old she wuz said 15 and then he walked off... ahahaha i laughed so hard. and ryann wuz like "emily! wut did u do that for?! u never tell guys ur real age!" hahahaha
it wuz 8:30 and thats when the show wuz supposed to start and my brother and AJ went in a walla go and then finnally austin showed up and we all went inside and all these gurls came up to austin hugging him and stuff... and then emily, rachel and ryann had to go peepee so i stayed and talked austin bout sum stuff...
we got in and we were trying to make it to the front and we made a change and i wuz at the front and we got perty close pushing throo.. but then this guy said we could stand there cuz of the people sitting down... so we got out of there and then we saw lisa cannaly and after awhile we all got split of and it wuz just me and ryann... so we made our way towards the front of the side by the speakers and blackalicious was playin and i felt bad for them bcuz a bunch of people were booing and nobody would cheer from them.. but a lot of people dont have a variety and dont listen to rap.. darn howleys... ahahaha n e hoo we met up with kristie andres and then when something corporate started we bumped into sarah porter and cassie gibson (i hadnt seen her in 4ever i've her since 1st grade) there wuz this guy beside us hoo kept smiling at me it kept freaking me out... and kristie asked me if i knew him.. but i didnt.. never seen him b4 in my life... it didnt take too long for mosh pits to start.. and most of em were ok i didnt gett pushed back that much until there wuz this one and i got pushed all way on someone's lap and i had like 3 people on top of me and i couldnt get back up... sarah porter wanted to go croud surfing.. and lisa bumped into us again.. she had just come down and she said guys were putting thieri hands in her shirt.. it wuznt that big of deal i guess.. she didnt care.. so ya and i wuz scared at first i didnt want to do it.. sum peez got droppedn and then we convinced kristy to do it and we got these guys behind us to lift her up and they dropped her after we got her up but then she got back up so it wuz all gravy... her phone fell out but the guys behind us found it hehe...after awhile they got me to go up and lisa said i would rly regret it if i didnt do it so i gave them my phone and my flip flops (i didnt get to put on my sneakers at home) and i went up! they almost dropped me but they caught me and they threw me up rly high and it wuz sooo much fun! i'm glad i went for it.. when i got to the front the security guard pulled me over the rail so i could get back to my peepz and i screamed i love u to something corporate and i think the guitarist heard me cuz he smiled.. either that or i wuz seeing things...but croud surfing wuz awesome! my first time! lol..
after lots of jumping and getting my feet stepped on something corporate finished and i rly like them they were awesome. the lights turned on and it wuz break time and i wuz soo thirsty! we found sarah again and kristy went to go call her sis and then i met a guy... he wuz kinda around sarah and he introduced himself to me.. hiz name wuz seth (i hate the name, my brother, seth mallard and now this one..) and i told him i wuz 15... he wuz 16... me and ryann started to walk off to get sum water and hez like "can i come with ya'll" and i said "sure y not" and we were talking he wuz ok.. he went to first coast high.... he wuz a freshman.. and a lil too country if u ask me.. u knoe how them northsiders be yo. he wuz kool tho i guess.. he wuz rly nice.. a lil friendly.. er he put hiz arm around me and his hands just seemed to drift places lol... we were waiting in line and we were talking and gosh he wuz so country! he had chewing tobacco ahahaha...he said he wuz drunk... i could smell it... he asked me if i had a boyfriend and i almost said yes but then i said no and he asked me if we could "hook up" but i said "uh no"... after awhile he got kinda annoying and ryann pulled me outta there and he said he would find me later and tole me too look for him and not to forget about him... i never found him again tho... o well. emily said i shoulda given him my number...
rite oke welll finally yellowcard comes on and it wuz soooooooo great i love yellowcard! i think ryan woulda enjoyed it too but hiz mom and him got in fight... soo yeah... but everyone wuz going crazy during yellowcard and there wuz all this moshing and everyone wuz singing alot and i sang everysing song on the top of my lungs... so then all of a sudden i had a cough attack it wuz rly weird.. but n e hoo it wuz outta control! woohoo! lol we met up with emily and danny so that wuz kool... a lot of people were getting dropped...while they were croud surfing. emily never went she wuz too chicken cuz austin scared the crap outta her.
this guy tried to get onstage to stage dive and he wuz gonna get kicked out... but ryan key didnt like that so sean, alex, ben and ryan were yelling with the police back stage while LP wuz playing da drums and it wuz funnie but after awhile he got let back it we just had to not do stuff like that...
the started to play "only one" and that song has a lot of meaning to me... and it wuz supposed to be their last song... and it wuz like 12:15 and the song ended and they left. nobody wanted the show to end and we started yelling encore and then everytbody started chanting yellowcard rly rly rly loud and we did the little bleacher stomp thing and after while we got them to come back out and they kept saying how awesome we were and ryan went on about how we were such a great croud and how much they loved coming back home to jax.. AJ and his cousin and his co's friend (VIP) jason cuz jason knew them since they were 13 and they got to go up on stage during the last songs and got to meet them all and he said he tried to find me and bring up but he couldnt find me.. but it wuz all good.
after the show ended i had a hard time finding everybody... ryann got her arm signed and nikki got her hat signed by LP the drummer. i think thatz wut they said... it took me awhile but i got everybody... rachel and emily got something corporate shirts but i didnt cuz i lost sum of my money when i went croud surfing.. i think...
so we went home... dropped AJ off and then me, rachel and emily pigged out on chips and dip and ice cream! mmm yummy. we talked awhile... shared our stories and then we watched tv and i fell asleep at 3 sumthing. i wuz soo tired and my feet were killing from getting stepped on and not sitting down at all....
but it so glad i got to go it wuz so much fun.
today wuz boring. it wuz my dad's b-day tho. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! i wuz mean as hell to him to... i talkd to ryan...online.. i wuz in a ok mood and then i got rly sad... mm yeah..
but im gonna go
later
o yeah and thanx for posing az ben harper AJ.
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2004 27 March :: 12.33pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: Veiw from Heaven by Yellowcard
WOW!
yesterday wuz like the worst and best day ever... seroiusly..
started out with my contacts... i kepy rubbing my eyes and then one of my contacts ripped so i only had one.. and i could see worth crap...
k well i kept getting into trouble... in health we did this thing on friends.. on like our very best friends... the one hoo would save ur life and and get in trouble with u and stay with u whenever... and well i said i didnt have n e best friends and i used to but it wuz emily and i said i didnt like her n e more cuz she wuz annoying and she read it.. ahaha and then i wrote i love u bitch on her arm... funnie.. but i wuz playin around...
in dance we had ms giles and we were doing this weird thing.. but hardly n e body wuz there cuz a bunch of people left for the romeo and juliet feild trip for mr prices classes.. but im not in it.. soo ya...
then in 3rd period with ms bhowmik.... ah i got in trouble... stupid bitch. ahaha first me and emily got brittany in trouble and she had to move and then i went to go get sum tissue from marshay cuz of allergies and all.. and i wuz talking to him and andre.. and maybe i wuz being loud? i didnt think so but next thing i knoe ms bhomik iz yelling at me to sit in the back of the class.. and then i started arguing with her cuz i couldnt see.. with out my contact and all and she didnt believe me for awhile but then she let me sit next to john and sunny and i wrote ryan a note when we were reviewing for our quiz...
during lunch the cafeteria wuz totally empty. me and kristy and aaron and emily went to go get free cake in front of the theatre by the fountain. cuz of this poetry thing everybody had to do.. sum contest i ono.. but i got a big ole piece and then gurl iz like "r u really gonna eat all of that" and i wuz like "uh yeah..." and this other gurl serving wuz like "wow thatz sad" and i told her "screw u". i wuz looking for jesse but i couldnt find him.. in the cafeteria i ate with ryann and kristie and then ryann called the truble twins over to where we were sitting and i ate lunch with them i wuz like omg it wuz soo kool! hehe.. i get rly weird around them i dont talk at all.. but they think im sum weird little chinese freshman gurl.
n e hoo in algebra i wuz talking with micheal a lot and mr allen got mad and then he got mad when i went and started talking to garrett roberts when i got my tissues.. so when i asked him to move to an empty seat closer to the board with the answers on it for our home cuz i couldnt see he moved me there permantly. and itz in the front row! oo i wuz so mad! i like my group... now i sit next to lamar, greylyn, ally iz behing me, aaron iz diagonally behind me and i m closer to jonet.. "re united once again" lol..
at 3 sumthing the bell rang to go to home room.. cuz it wuz report card time! ehhh i wuz anxious to see wut i got... and i got straight A's again no one can believe they think im so stupid... now all i need iz to get all A's again for the last quarter and i can get cable in my room. woohoo. itz gonna be hard tho. and i wont have to take n e of my finals cuz of my a's.. i thought that wuz kool.
my brother iz failing tho and he doeznt wanna believe it that he doez have enuf points to pass sum of his classes and hez gonna need to get all A's next quarter and that aint gonna happen.. and i've been telling him that hez not gonna pass and iz gonna have to repeat 7th grade and i have been telling my parents that all year,, and they wouldnt believe me until now.. so hez in trouble for that..
on the bus ride home i wuz talking to rachel da whole.. bout making out *teehee* but her definition iz different then mine.. herz iz french kissing for a long time and mine iz well.. a different definition.. lol..
when i got home i wuznt feeling too well and i went to sleep and my eyes got swolen... and then rachel came over... and then emily came over. and i had not idea wut to wear to the concert... the halter top i wuz gonna weear looked funnie so i just wore this orange t shirt ryann gave me... and then ryann came over.. and then we were running kinda late until finally we leave and we go to pic up aj and and ajz dad and my dad start talking and i wuz like dad we rly need to leave and so he started pulling out of the driveway and the peez down the street were having a party and there all these cars parked on the street and my dad hit one of them.. and at first we thought it wuznt a big dent. but it wuz huge. it looked like the car got into a bad accident.. and it wuz a ugly little car n e way.. and we're all like just go hit and run hit and run! lol.. but we didnt and my my dad got outta the car and then the gurl hoo owned it came out and all her lil boyfriends too oo and she wuz bitchy i wanted to slap her....
ima write the rest later im gonna stop for now
tahtah
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2004 24 March :: 6.01pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: My Band by D-12
i have had that stupid song stuck in my yead all day with eminem and i got like the whole class singing...
i havent been writing bcuz well i havent been rly feeling up to it.. i keep having these allergy attacks and i cant breathe to well and my eyes are as dry as sand and my contacts last for like a week maybe 2 now.. dere supposed to last a month but fuck that... uh 2 day wuznt all that interesting.. i presented my time magazine in health.. put on my pointe shoes... in dance.. and i hadnt done pointe in like 2 months... we had concert and then i made up a bunch of excuses... uh i didnt show cuz i wuz sick.. and well theyre rly small now... and that sux ass and i dont knoe when i'll be able to get new ones.. but i spilled my drink in my back pack so they got all wet and i convinced ms jenkins to let me take them off... but next time i get a half credit and 2 half credits is a letter grade... soo..... ya...
biology wuz boring.. we have this big ecology project coming up and im screwed.. itz rly hard and i havent even started... today tho we were talking about how we missed mr banks... i love mr. banks lol... and how we wished he tought biology instead of jayita. (ms bhowmik)... lunch wuz boring.. cept when krisitie realized that a rat got into her locker and in her lunch and ate her pretzels.. but that wuz after she ate the rest of her lunch.. it wuz sooo funnie! ahahaha.
in algebra we did a bunch of reviewing the new stuff we're learning itz e z az hot pie... polynomial stuff... i did the homework he assigned for tonite in class... o yeah and well he confirmed sumthing i thought... or sort of knew when i realized her matched hiz cell phone cover with his outfits... and well peez in muh class u knoe wut i mean... and my group keeps hatin on them irish... and nick keepz making fun of me... the peruans in the atlantic ocean.. *tear* but then there are those cubans on lock down.. and david kay bein 1/8 or a "speck" of puerto rican. lmao. funnie stuff. well i guess u would have to knoe wut im talkin bout to think so...
i have to go tho i feel like im gonna die and i gotta do sum stuff for rachel to sleep over on friday.. and i think ryann iz too. after we go see YELLOWCARD! woo hoo
byez
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2004 20 March :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Echo by Trapt
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
(Asking why)
I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
(Asking why)
I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind
Do I expect to change, the past I hold inside,
with all the words I say,
repeating over in my mind,
somethings you can't erase, no matter how hard you try,
an exit to escape is all there is left to find.
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside
(I know I always loved you)
So I close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside
Do I expect to change, the past I hold inside,
with all the words I say,
repeating over in my mind,
somethings you can't erase, no matter how hard you try,
an exit to escape is all there is left to find.
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside
(I know I always loved you)
So I close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside
That would be for me
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2004 13 March :: 2.12pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Dont Wanna THink ABout You by Simple Plan (cant believe i like i this song lol)
LMAO!!!!!! ahaha i love messing with people...ahaha i wuz laughig so hard when i read this thing.. and ah it wuz funnie.. i ono ok maybe i'm being a little mean.. but i think i have a rite to be with everything that has been goin on.. well no.. nevermind no one ever has a rite to be mean to ne body.. but n e hoo yeah i did sumthing and said sumthing just to see sumthing and well it worked and i wanna tell emily... hehehe only she would would get a kick outta it.. and ryann but ryann doeznt knoe the whole story...
well i think my daddy iz gonna get the yellowcard tickets and i'm taking emily.. but grr my brother haz to go. that sux booty... my dad iznt going tho.. soo ya im excited
um lets see.. wut else.. hmm i wuz gonna say sumthing but i forgot o well. today iz perty boring.. 2moro im going to the mall... well i want to cuz i wanna see alex but then im going to the miss jacksonville pagent and im sleeping over at ryann's
ok tootlez
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2004 13 March :: 1.23pm
Away From The Sun by 3 Doors Down
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I missed the life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again
I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't tell what I've done
And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
That would be for me
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2004 12 March :: 9.04pm
:: Music: Love Song by 311
no matter wut i'll always love u and that hurts..
That would be for me
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2004 12 March :: 8.13pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Firewater by Yellowcard
hmm..
well i ate dinner..and after awhile i wuz like "im going to ryan's church next friday ok?" and he thought i wuz meaning ryann.. like the gurll RYANN... but when i told him hoo i meant he wuznt so sure... but after my use of my convincing techniques i got him on the brink of saying yes.. he just said he had to talk it over with my mom.. and i wasnt even thinking of asking him if i could go back out with ryan again but sum how it did... and of course well my dad had a lot of things to say about that... a walla ago.. like a rly long time ago.. my dad said that when i get another boyfriend (thiz wuz rite after josh) my dad had to aproove of them.. u knoe make sure they're worthy or sumthing i ono.. and well he said he doeznt think sumbody hoo lied to me like ryan did iz going to be sumone hoo u can keep a relationship with and doesnt want me to get involved with ryan like that... and hit me hard...i ono i got rly sad again.. but i can just see him as a friend i guess..with benefits haha. and then he started asking me y i couldnt go to ricks church instead or go out with rick.. and i wuz like umm.. ask him that lol no i didnt say that
n e hoooooo im not feeling too great.. my allergies have been killing me all week it rly sux i feel miserable aaallllllllllll tha time...
YELLOWCARD returns home to Jacksonville with Something Corporate Friday, March 26 at UNF Arena. Show starts at 8:30pm and is open to everyone. Tickets are $10 for UNF/FCCJ students and $15 for the general public and are available through Ticketmater or the UNF ticket box office.
yeah my dad said i can either go to the yellowcard concert or phantom planet... but i dont knoe i cant just choose one! ah itz hard and it sux.. but he says i should go to the yellowcard one.. cuz phantom planet will be at jackrabbits on a wednesday...
well im gonna go now
tahtah
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2004 12 March :: 7.18pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Away From The Sun by 3 Doors Down
well.....
today i went to the mall with nicole, emily, and ryann... it wuz a perty good time.. i didnt get n e thing tho cuz i didnt see sumthing that i just had to have... ryan got a rly cute outfit tho makes her look H-O-T-T hotthotthott. lol.. n e hoo after walkin around we went to the food court and we got fried rice and orange chicken from panda express, pasta salad and garlic bread from sabarros, and chicken nuggets, waffle fries and lemonade from chik fil-a.. and we all shared it. it wuz rly yummy. then nicole got a phone call from this 17 year old guy named gabe and he said he wuz near regency and he wuz gonna come by... so she got all excited and started hyper ventilating.. haha not rly.. but she saw gabe and hiz friend will (niocles ex) coming in and she started freaking out.. so i guess she thought thiz gabe guy wuz hott stuff and that he wuz all that and a bag of hot fries.. but well he wuznt as cute as she made him sound.. will wuz ok.. he wuz cute i guess.. i dunno im not rly in to the stoner type...
but then ryanns mom dropped me off at my house and emily and ryann were gonna go sleep over at nicoles...
hmm nothing else very interesting.. i tried talking to ryan but that didnt go so well and o yeah i talked to ricks girlfriend, jacqui...
herez the convo just cuz im bored and dont have n e thing else to say...
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:35:06 PM): hey
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:35:42 PM): hey
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:35:52 PM): whatcha doin?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:36:06 PM): nuthin rly i just got home
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:36:18 PM): from where
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:36:22 PM): the mall
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:36:46 PM): oh cool beanz
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:37:00 PM): yeah
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:38:03 PM): so howz squirt lol
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:38:24 PM): what do you mean?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:38:36 PM): u knoe crush... squirt..
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:38:38 PM): random
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:38:40 PM): nevermind
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:38:46 PM): okay
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:38:47 PM): ha ha
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:40:25 PM): lol yeah...
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:41:58 PM): so baby wutcha been up to
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:42:26 PM): ok this is his gf
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:42:36 PM): and i really dontlike girls sayin baby to him
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:42:51 PM): um
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:43:01 PM): well u dont have ne thing to be worried about..
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:43:18 PM): ok
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:43:20 PM): im sorry
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:43:26 PM): im not tryin to be a bitch
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:43:35 PM): but i jus dont ike
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:43:35 PM): it
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:43:40 PM): ya knoe, ur a chik
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:43:49 PM): yeah i get u gurl
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:44:09 PM): iighty
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:44:09 PM): lol
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:44:45 PM): ya
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:44:55 PM): so u at hiz out or r u just investigating lol
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:45:02 PM): hiz house*
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:45:19 PM): no he doesnt care if im on his sn
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:45:25 PM): hes out of town
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:45:36 PM): o where iz he at
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:45:43 PM): he went camping
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:45:54 PM): oo yeah thatz rite in atlanta with hiz folkz
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:46:04 PM): thatz koo
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:46:28 PM): yep yep
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:46:40 PM): so he says that u n emily are like two of his really good friends
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:46:42 PM): thats cool
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:47:17 PM): yup
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:48:34 PM): we havent rly talked in a while until recently thoo
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:49:03 PM): y not?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:49:43 PM): i ono he said he wuz rly busy and tuff ya knoe with skoo and u and stuff
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:49:47 PM): but itz all good
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:49:59 PM): lol..
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:50:01 PM): o ok
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:50:13 PM): yeah
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:51:19 PM): soo how long have u known him
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:51:48 PM): since like the first couple months of 8th grade
DieingToLiveNOFX (4:51:56 PM): o cool beanz
IzntLifeSo JUICY (4:52:07 PM): yup
yeah thatz it. i knew it wuznt him but i wanted to see if she would try to pose as him.. yeah but n e wayz i didnt go to dance tonite.. but im rly bored and now im wishing i did... o well i gotta go eat
tahtah
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2004 11 March :: 8.13pm
:: Music: One Thing By Finger Eleven
One Thing Lyrics
Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line
Chorus:
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something
I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time
Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds
Repeat Chorus 2x
Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds
(Twice)
Repeat Chorus till end
That would be for me
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2004 11 March :: 7.38pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: One Thing by Finger Eleven
I haven't rly been feeling like writing lately in the past couple days... nothing too exciting has been happening..
monday nite rico called and we talked for 2 hours and it wuz rly good cuz i missed him so much and we were laughing.. well actually i wuz was laughing a lot.. he can be so funnie... we didnt talk tuesday tho cuz he told me not to. he said he still had "issues" with me...wednesday we talked a lil and he actually gave me a hug.. 2 hugs.. and it wuz a very big step... and then he told me he missed me... then today he said he had to talk to me and i had to meet him at the fountain after skool... i wuz perty much mute after 2nd period and he asked me wut wuz up but i didnt say n e thing.. n e hoo he told me that sarah linear gave him sum rly good advice and told him not to be so selfish just cuz he couldnt have wut he rly wanted (me) and that he shouldnt just blow off a rly good friendship bcuz of that.. and then he told me that the reason (or at least one of them) y he got so upset and stuff wuz cuz he practically fell in love with me.. and all i could say wuz "oh".. tonite he wuz going to district at terry parker for chorus, and then he'z leaving for the bahamas.. hez going on a cruise (lucky duck). but yeah i think he thought i wuz rly mad at him cuz i didnt rly talk..
uh well today wuznt the best day.. yesterday wuz perty good tho.. but today.. um yeah i dont rly feel like typing it all up but hardly ne body came to skool... after 2nd period i went mute (i wuz feeling rly rly sad and i bout cried like 4 times) and didnt rly talk to ne body except for 1 word answers and o yeah i told jamison to shut the fuck up and i told him he needs to go to the gym and work out.. perty mean... everybody wuz asking me wut wuz wrong and it wuz seriously rly anoying... i think i hurt a bunch of people's feelings cuz i didnt talk to them when they were trying to help me out and talk to me... especially glen.. and i walked right passed jared.. i didnt even realize he said sumthing to me until 5 minutes later...
but yeah today wuz the last day b4 spring break... we didnt do ne thing rly except for we had yoga iz first period and we had a final in world history.. i got a 58... outta 60. lol..
i think when we get report cards i might be able to have straight a's again this quarter... but if i dont thatz cuz i would have a B in health... i dont do very well in that class.. o well. o yeah and yesterday everybody wuz making fun of me cuz i got a 78 on my math final and i wuznt happy about it... i never get Cs.. always D's and A's.. lol.. i still have an A in that class.. itz just a 92.8 now tho..
um letz see wut else... o yeah everybody has been coming up to me asking about jesse (da junior) and a lot of my friends r telling me to go out with him.. a lot of my close friends to... but uh.. i dont think so...
o yeah and sarah kept asking me about jay too.. cuz word on da street iz he likes me again lol.. but i couldnt go out with jay.. no.. hez changed.. i almost went out with him but then i chose aaron crosby over him.. whicch now i dont knoe y i went out with aaron.. but yeah and after that jay never rly talked to me as much and we grew apart..
but 2moro im going to ryann's house and emily and nicole lopez are sleeping over tonite so they will be there 2moro too... but i have to get my room clean first so i gotta start on that in a minute... i think im gonna call ryan b...in a min. or so... and i think..im hoping.. to be able to go to teens with jonet next friday... hopefully.. and then i can meet sean.. finally..
but im gonna go now..
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2004 8 March :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Splash Water Falls by Ludacris
i had that song stuck in my head all day...
well i havent been rly feeling like writing much lately... and i had a rly crappy day.. but let me start with saturday
saturday
well i woke up early and talked to ricky a couple times but i wuz cleaning most of the day and then i went to go lay out but the sun kept going away and there wuznt much progress...
but later i went to the movies with rick... we say starsky and hutch at 7:15 and it wuz soooooo funnie! ahaha i could not stop laughing.. it wuz rly good. but er muh darn foot... it fell asleep and kept snoring in itz sleep during the entire movie and it wuz cramping and stuff.. it hurt! finally it woke up at the end of the movie.. but itz brother arnold fell asleep rite when bobby woke up...
n e hoo after da movie we walked out and we were just hangin out and i wuz the blues rasberry elephant... i actually got people this time it wuz rly funnie... i squirted this one lady's foot and she wuz like looking around and i wuz trying to hide behind rick.. hehe
but i ran we walked around and i started to analyze people... but then rick goes "o hey i knoe that kid, thats my friend!" and so hez like trying to hide himself from hiz friend "billy" so he could come up behing him and push him... er yeah. at first i thought "billy" wuz a rlyrly ugly gurl... lmao cuz hiz hair iz rly long like past his shoulders and itz red... but it wuz a guy... hiz actuall name iz tyler.. but he went to kona with rick and "billy" iz hiz skate name.. i actually knew him from stephen..and he had this friend rite.. hoo wuz wearing this quickysilverish hoodie lol and wuz trying to hide behind hiz hair.. and i said to myself "gosh he looks familiar" but i couldnt see hiz face and then I SAW!!! and ahah guess hoo it wuz.. STEPHEN DESORBO!!! ahahahaha and i wuz like "aaawww ssstteeepppphheeennnn!!!!!!! come here!" but he wuz like running away from me... cuz well he hates me and i said "aw come on! gimme a hug! sstteeppphheenn!! gimme a hhhuuggg!" hehe funnie stuff but i couldnt catch up to him and he said to rick "dude get her away from me" and rick tried to pull me back... i thought it wuz rly funnie.. i hadnt seen stephen since the summer of 7th grade when we went out.. and well er he doeznt look that much different.. same ole... but i lookz a lot different.. at least i think so.. and well stephen iz alwayz saying bad stuff about me saying how ugly i am... but then when he got home he got online and he wuz acting rlyrly weird.. and apologizing for all this stuff and saying he couldnt say sumthing cuz it would mess everything up and i didnt understand at all and he sayz "i knoe u dont.." but yeah strange... n e hoo ricky'z mom took me home and she brought one of the doggiez... it wuz so cuhute!
sunday
sunday wuz all about me and muh gurl ryann! i woke up extra early and got rdy to leave to go to her house cuz we were going to the beach! i wuz soo siked i've been wanting to go to the beach since the last time i went last year in like july.. so it wuz the first time i would be to the beach this year.. yupyup.. i got to her house at like 11 and then we left for the beach soon after that.. i had a lot of fun.. we just layed out and talked cuz well i rly need to get rid of my paleness.. and it wuz such a pertyful day with lotz of sun! o yeah and we saw brandon (hez a 8th grader at lavilla) he wuz with sum kids and they were all trying to surf on the dinky butt waves... plus the water wuz 58 degrees... and me and ryann went in a couple times but not much past our knees cuz it wuz so damn cold my feet went numb... after laying out for about an hour and a half we got hungry and we walked over to joe's crab shack cuz we were at jax beach. but i never go to jax beach i usually go to atlantic or neptune beach.. n e hoo we went into joes crab shack but they said it would be a 40 minute wait and we were like erm no.. cuz her mom wuz gonna pick us up soon so we could go home and then to the mall.. so we thought about going to sneakers but we rly didnt feel like it so we went to mario's pizzeria. it wuz perty good. after we ate we walked over to the surf shops and they had loads of rly cute stuff but we didnt get n e thing...
once we got home we changed and then we headed over to the mall.. and after awhile i got sum stuff... i got shoes at old navy (weird tho i usually hate old navy) and then an outfit at styles... it rlyrly cute.. ryann says itz bright and im trying to decide on whether to where it wed or thurs... but im leaning more towards wed and i dont knoe y... o yeah and i got mimi'z birthday present and a necklace at gadzooks... but they have so much cute stuff but i only brought like 60 dollars.. so ya knoe. i got home at like 6 and then i went staright to doing my health paper that wuznt even due today.. and i started to study but it wuznt going to well.. and then ryan called and that wuz rly kool cuz well he haznt caled me since... well when we broke up. it wuz rly nice tho.. i miss him alot.. we just talked about random stuff and he actually called me house after we got "disconnected" and haha i wuz calling him a chicken cuz he wouldnt call my house earlier.. it wuz all good until he kept bugging me about letting me study.. after we hung up i tried studying but i couldnt concentrate at all... and after i talked to emily..grr...
so i just went to sleep cuz i wuz rly tired and felt like crap.. startin to get sick.
today
wuz rly boring but my tan showed up today! lol im not really tan.. but im tanner then i used to be and well tahtz sad.. but i plan on goign to the beach a lot over spring break.. but ry ry da lobster showed throo too.. hahaha
but in first period i felt like real crap.. we watched radio.. well rest of the class did i didnt cuz i heard it wuz rly sad and i wuz alrdy sad enuff... i tried studying for biology but i couldnt concentrate my mind kept wondering and all these different things were going throo my head.. and well a coupld of people have drowned.. and no longer on my craft..
in dance ms jenkins didnt show up so we got split up and i went to ms mock's class.. which wuz boring and retarded. i didnt like that class at all.. it wuz easy but retarded and ms mock dances so weird shez kinda bad...
biology we had the test and i think i got maybe a C on the test.. or a D i ono there were only 17 questions but there were questions that we didnt rly go over and stuff soo ya... but we went to half of C and all of D lunch cuz ms bhowmik promised sydney and nicola d lunch.
lunch wuz kinda dull.. i wuznt with emily at all and jesse and ryann were talking about me to the trumble twins and omg they were so embarrassing they were telling them that i wanted to "holla" said jesse to them and they thought i wuz sum chinese gurl! aahhhh i looked so stupid... and they never talk to freshman ryann iz the only freshman they knoe other then jeff's friends... justin and brandon r juniors.. and now they think ima freak.. great.
algebra wuz rly boring and everybody wuz asking me wut wuz wrong.. we had the final on polynomials & exponents... it wuz ok i think i got an A.. there were only 25 questions tho.. but hehe aaron roberson wuz whistling sum song and ali goez "wut tv show iz that from aaron?" and aaron sayz "uh itz lil jon" and then she says "wut tv show iz that from???" omg it wuz sooo funnnie u would prolly have to have been there but everybody around us wuz laughing so hard especially me, micheal and jeseldia.. and jes iz like "gosh shez so white" and micheal goes "no shez just slow" yeah...
a walla go rico called me from hiz cell phone and actually talked to me but he went on about how it sseems like im avoiding him but i'm rly not... and he said it rly need to talk and hez gonna try hard to just be my friend cuz slowly hez getting over wut happened.. er yeah he said he would call me when he got home but hez online.. hez just away
but now im just listenin to muh cd and i skipped dance today rly didnt feel like going at all... plus im rlly sick.. i think itz my allergies i ono...
but im out
tahtah
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2004 5 March :: 5.14pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Letters to You by Finch
hmm.. well last nite at like 9 i went to lie down bcuz i wuznt feelin too good and i told my self i couldnt fall asleep cuz i still had a lotta stuff i had to... and my mom came in at 9:30 to tell me they were leaving to go see sum presidential canidate... well 10 minutes later i fell asleep still in y dance clothes and all and well i prolly have TSS now ahahaha.. i woke up again at 3:40 and i went to my computer and i saw ryan imed me at 12 sumthin.. ya.. but i wuz ffassttt asleep. and stephen needs to seriously stop sending me all those virus and shit to mess up my comp. it iz getting soooo annoying... but i surfed da net fer a lil while and washed my face and stuff and tried to go back to sleep but i never did and it wuznt till 5:30 when i started to and by then it wuz almost time for me to wake up... soo ya...
today wuz... kinda... blah... we had NRT until 10:15... which i ono if i did all that great... the english one went by real fast and i fell asleep.. and then we took the math and we only had 45 minutes.. but i couldnt rly concentrate... i kept thinking about rick.. and sum stuff emily said and i couldnt get it out of my head.. i finished the last question rite after she said time wuz up and a lot of people didnt finish.. itz wuz kinda easy.. it just took awhile .. it less then a minute a problem soo ya..
after that we went to first period and it wuz boring we watched childrens concert tho.. it wuz perty good i think a lot of my friends would have rly liked it if they had gone.. but u knoe.
next we had 3rd period which wuz strange but yeah it guess it wuz for to not be so late in the day... but we just watched that movie again.. the power of one.. itz rly sad
lunch wuz weird.. i ono it went by rly rly sllooww... first i wuz with mimi.. then i ate with nicola.. then i wuz by myself... then emily came by... and then i went to look for everybody outside and Jesse came by.. and he wuz trying to talk to me but i wuznt rly talking... i wuz kinda sad.. bout well the usual... i wuz just staring at the ground and jesse wuz just standing there and then rico came by and i wuz like "rico r u ever going to talk to me???" and he told me to hold on and went and talked to one of hiz other friends and david kay... and then rico came back after awhile and wuz like "well wut do u want? wut do u need to talk to me about?" and i said "well i just want to talk.." and he said "o well im going to go play badmitton so later.." and then he said sumthing mean i forgot and he walked off.. and Jesse iz all "u gonna let him treat u like that?" and i said "yeah" "how?" "im used to it.." "from hoo?" "other guys.." and so he went on this whole thing about how i shouldnt let n e guy treat me wrong and stuff and i wuz like i dont rly care n e more.. and so then he goez on about how i can i not care about myself... and how i get treated.. and then he said that he just cant stand to see gurls get treated like shit... but o well.. after awhile of silence he walked me to class...
next wuz 2nd period and i wuz praying that we didnt have to dress out cuz out periods were shortened.. and well nobody dressed out i wuz soo happy! lol we watched extravaganza... well we pretended... i wuz with ryann and we were talkin and laughin and stuff and landes jumps on top of me while im lying down and and he just stays there.. i wuz like oo no landes u best get off lol..
then 4th period came and i saw jesse again in the hall hez like poppin up outta no where these days... i see him all the time itz like he goez around looking for me... hmm but yea in english we just did this thing in our journals about wut we knoe about canada it wuz kinda boring but a lot of peoplez were rly funnie i laughed rly hard for the first time this week..
the bus home wuz kinda boring i sat with kelly and we ate twizzlers and i sucked the nots outta da twizzlers.. we were rly late i didnt get dropped off till like 4:40 and i wuz walking with emily w... and a bunch of these guys were staring at us and i wuz like "o gosh.." but one of em said my name and it wuz kamar and he called me over there and i told emily to go on without me.. so me and hiz friends talked for a lil while just stupid stuff and they were givin me these weird looks i ono wut wuz up with that but yeah.. kamar asked me wut wuz wrong and i told him i wuz on my period and then all hiz friends were like oo and started to walk off and then kamar said he had to go and gave me a hug and then i walked home with the other dudes.. boring.. but itz getting so hott outside i kinda like it.. beach here i come! lol
but now ryan iz acting rly weird and he wont tell me the whole story about wutz wrong and i rly wanna knoe so i could help him out and stuff.. but he signed off and yeah.. but he apologized.. for being mean.. hmmm yeah
im gonna go i have to get rdy for dance soon
tahtah
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