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2004 4 March :: 7.37pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Playing Favorites by The Starting Line
i knew today wuznt gonna be a good day...
well it all started out when i found out i got my period today... o joy
and THEN my mom took me to skool today which iz once in a blue moon now but today iz her day off... and i brought my new fav cd to listen to... u knoe to relax and all. itz rly rly good... itz called Punk Goes Acoustic... itz one my fav cds other then ocean avenue (yellowcard) and then the dashboard confessional cds and that mix i burned with the new blink182, phantom planet and lost prophets... but n e hoo the cd can be kinda depressing but ive been listening to a lot of sad songs lately... but n e hoo it got onto the 7th track (playing favorites) and all of a sudden my mom turns it off.. and i wuz like wut the fuck wuz that for.... and she said all these songs are all sad about missing people but most of them rnt... and she said she doeznt want me to listen to it so i can sit in the car with her and cry... and i start laughing cuz i wuznt even crying shez so weird.. my dad likes the cd... well then it got bad and she started yelling at me and she goez "see what did i tell u?" and of course i wuz crying bcuz of how hard she makes my life and she didnt even understand but i did call her bitch rite to her face and that felt nice... lol... so i cried a lot of my make up off and then i wuz rly pissed when i got to skool and i didnt wanna talk to n e body and i said sumthing mean to emily and dropped my stuff and walked off...
but n e way first period wuz rly boring and 2 other classes were moved into the cafeteria with us bcuz the 10th graders had their fcat thing and the classrooms were being taken up and we also didnt have n e bells until 3rd period... but yeah coach rivera just tells us about 2 projects due next week.. fuck..
dance in 2nd period wuznt all that bad actually.. it wuz kinda fun...
but in the dressing room i wuz rly quiet and these other gurls were talking about their boyfriends and yeah o gosh... so i didnt talk to n e body and jonet wuz all "wutz wrong alyssa? i hate seeing u so sad like this all the time now..." i didnt say n e thing and then she told me "the gurl hoo always made everybody feel better and helped em out iznt there no more.." sumthin like that.
3rd wuz crap as always... i have a 94.1 in that class tho i wuz so HAPPY! tahtz my worst class i wuz so excited lol and i told ms bhomik that i love her bcuz i have an A and shez like " yes... sum people like me i do not knoe but other do not... yes.." it wuz so funnie... ahahaha we did worksheets and watched a movie and reveiwed a test. our final iz monday... grr
lunch wuz boring it wuz kinda quiet... i ate with ryann and jesse.. it went by rly fast too... i dont remember wut we talked about i think it wuz me throwing food at people all the time and then jesse walked me back to class... but i wuz looking for rico cuz chris wuz tellin me all this stuff and he asked me y i wouldnt go out with him lol.. and then he said rico so that i still wont talk to him... but i wuznt talking to him bcuz HE wuznt talking to me and EVERYONE wuz always saying how mad at me he wuz... but i didnt find him
algebra wuz dull we reviewed for our final on monday and my grade haz dropped rly far.. it used to be a 98 and now itz a 94.4... i wuz like wow.. thatz my lowest in that class so far.. i think itz bcuz my quiz average iz a D
and my test average iz a low A... so on the final i have to get an A other wise my grade will be a B... and i dont plan on losing my 4.0 on one of my best classes..
after skool i saw rico comin with a bunch of other guys and i pulled him aside and he said he thought i didnt want to talk to him n e more and i said i did cuz i miss him and stuff and then he sayz "well wutz there to miss?" and oo he wuz making me mad and hez like "well it never seemed like u wanted to talk to me cuz the other u turned around saw me and told ryann to hurry up and come on... and i wuz gonna say hi" but i rly didnt do that he just came out of no where and i didnt knoe wut to say... but after that rico just walked off.. i dont think we're gonna get throo this
emily called me and told me that my mom went to their house today while we were at skool and they were talking about us.. and my mom wuz telling theresa all this stuff about emily that she didnt knoe and so emilys mom got all mad that she didnt knoe as much stuff as mine did.. but thing iz i tell nothing about emily to my mom... and then my mom haz the nerve to talk about ryan... and how broke up and then how rick rly likes me and how she wants us to go out... i rly think my mom listens to my phone conversations whenever possible... i cannot stand her.. she getz mad when i dont tell her stuff but she even gets more mad cuz i tell her stuff that she doeznt think iz goood or appropriate for me to be doing.. so she goes all out on how im not allowed to do stuff like that...
dance wuz horrible i felt like i didnt knoe wut i wuz doing... which iz rly strange considering ive done it for 10 years... it wuz very bad except for my foutte turns.. amazingly better o yeah and my tonde du quise too.
but im gonna go now.. im feeling sick
fuck this damned life
i feel like ****** ****** but im not going to cuz i keep promises.. cough
tahtah
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2004 3 March :: 5.15pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: Away To The Heart by Noise Ratchet
wow.... i have a lot to say... by im not... cuz im just not...
but i cried myself to sleep last nite... after i got off the phone with ryan i just stared into space... i wuz trying to watch one tree hill but i couldnt rly get into it... it wuz kinda a boring episode.. when i mom came in she knew i was upset about sumthing but i just went into my room and cried in a corner and then i read sum things and it made it worse not better... i went to bed at 10:20 but didnt fall asleep until like 11;30...
today wuz dull... and so wuz yesterday and monday also.... the F-ing CAT iz over... thank the lord... it wuz so easy this year... no writing just bubbles and gridded response... we dont even take science this year... but friday we have the NRT to take
blah. this week has had such pretty days... this is my favorite kind of weather! today wuz all sunny and stuff and i wuz like YES!! cuz i wuz gonna lay out... u knoe get rid of my paleness... but right when i got home it got cloudy... badbadbad.
when we got to 3rd period ms hughes let us out to lunch early and it wuz weird cuz all of the lunches overlapped and stuff... i mostly ate with mimi and will *Cough* and jesse... i think mimi needs to put will in check... yeah and everybody has been coming up to me asking me about jesse... hez a junior.. and ive only started talking to him a couple weeks ago... but yeah word iz he likes me and he wants sarah linear to hook us up... er... i wuz so tired.. FCAT got me exhausted.. but OO OO!! there wuz a problem in the math one with my name! iznt that just so kool? i never see my name in n e thing... it wuz called Alyssa's banking acount or sumthing.. it wuz rly easy but there were a lot that i couldnt get... like this florida square mile one with the water and non water and stuff... in 3rd period we just watched this rly said movie about an english boi living in south africa... in english we read a story and answered questions more boring...aaron kept telling me ive been looking weird lately.. like rly depressed or sumthing... i wonder y. but hehe me and jamie had quite a conversation about flexing certain parts... ahahaha
the bus ride home wuz perty boring... just stared out the window this morning and walked rly rly slow walking home.. it took me like 25 minutes and it usually takes me less than 10... i would take itty bitty steps and then stop in the middle of rode and stare at the sky or soak up the sun.. lol.. yeah and all this senior citizens were looking at me with the strangest faces....
but yeah boring... today wuz just rly slow... rico still wont talk to me. i dont he ever will this time. all the other people he stopped talking to he'z friends with again. except for me... and itz funnie sumtimes... cuz i'll totally forget hez not talking to me n e more and that we're not friends so when i see him in the hall i'll accidently walk up to him and say something... but then i walk away bcuz i remember... yeah he hates me...
sumbody told me jeff likes me... thatz impossible..
o gosh this morning on the way to skool out of no where my dad asks me about me about rick...
he says "so wutz up with u and rick these days alyssa?"
i said "um nothing.."
"r u too going out?"
"no.."
"well y not?"
"because"
"because"
"because"
yeah... im talking to ryan and he sayz im acting weird... but how else am i supposed to act when itz like this? i k noe he can not say that he haznt been acting weird ... bcuz he doez all the time and it hurts me but i try not to say n e thing
maybe im acting weird cuz of that dog treat i ate earlier.. yes i ate a dog treat for the first time in my life... u usually hear people saying that when theyre like 5... but i wuz talking to rick and i wuz hungry eating sum cheezy poofz and then i said "hey im gonna see if this dog treat rly doez take like peanut butter" cuz well in da box it had assorted flavors and the newest one said it wuz peanut butter. and well i ate it and it rly tasted nothing like peanut butter... at first it tasted like paper... and then after awhile it had like tha worst after taste ever... i wanted to try the bacon flavor maybe that one would be better i dont knoe... maybe
well everyone thought i wuz crazy
im gonne go now i dont rly feel like typing
itz just a sad sad life..
o yeah jared said the poem i wrote wuz rly sad... and it gave him chills when he read it.. i wonder if ryan read it....
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2004 2 March :: 6.07pm
:: Mood: i dont knoe my mood today..strange and confused
:: Music: Over It by Rufio
Here'z a poem i wrote during F-ing CAT... boring az hell i'll write more when im done with all this homework...
im not sure wut i should title it az...
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Me, I thought you were perfect
Even though I knew
you were not the epitome of perfection
I still thought you were perfect
And when I was with you
It felt perfect
No matter what anybody else said
It felt so perfect
just to be right next to you
And I’ll never be able to forget
What it felt like to be with you
To hold your hand and walk in the sun
To stand next to you or be in your arms
To hug and kiss you
Or our endless conversations
And our inside jokes
Now I guess I’ll just put away these memories
and lock them in my heart forever
and play them back in my head
like a movie
Just for me to see
Other times I’ll wonder
Why I always have to watch the rain fall
and listen to the saddest songs
about how much I miss you
Wondering if you feel the same way too
Now when I look back
To how it used to be
Something comes over me
And everything becomes so blurry...
I thought what we had was perfect
Even though I knew
It was not the epitome of perfection
I still thought it was perfect
Despite what everyone said,
about how we shouldn’t be together
I never listened
Because if you just put me and you together
and forget all the mistakes and details
It didn’t just feel perfect
It was perfect.
***
That would be for me
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2004 29 February :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Love Song by 311
well today i wuz rly sleepy... like rly rly sleepy i just wanted to go in my bed wrap me around my covers and not wake up again... but i woke up at like 8:30 and then went back to sleep and didnt wake up until 11:52 am lol when rick called... and then at 1:30 he came over cuz my mom said that she didnt want to take me n e where cuz i wanted to hang with muh gurl ryann... rick just left tho. we just hung out... started to watch monsters inc. but my mom shooed us outta the house and we walked around and talked for awhile. saw liar kamar at hiz house workin in the yard.. with a FORK LIFT! o buddy... they were doing sumthin with cuttin down them trees.. i suppose. then we came back in and stayed in my room... he read muh online journal and i wrote him a note.. then we did stuff on the computer... and thatz bout it. i wuz rly tired and feelin rly out of it... and my mom kept talkin to rick i ono wut wuz said cuz she would always call him into the other room so ya... and i rly wanna talk to emily rite now but she wont pick up n e of her phones and i have this booty paper to do and i rly dont wanna...
i just called ryan but it rang twice and went straight to the voicemail. im about to call again...o wait i think we're bout to eat... i'll call him afterwards cuz i rlyrly wanna talk to him...
tahtah
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2004 29 February :: 12.03am
Verse 1
Boy I never knew I could feel
The way I felt, when I felt
They way you were feelin me baby
I'm so out of control
Everytime you look my way
I realize more and more
How much I adore those pretty eyes of yours
I'm helpless baby
What I want to know is
Are you willing to try
Can you love me for a lifetime
Or just one night ohh
Chorus
Baby I love you
Love You
Baby I need you
Need You
I gotta have you
I gotta have you baby
Cant be without you
Be without you
Baby I love you
Yea
Baby I need you
Need You
I gotta have you
I gotta have you baby
Cant be without you
Verse 2
Blessed and Cursed on the same day
The day that I first felt the power of you
Inside of me
Such a strong feeling
There comes a time in everyones life
When you know that everyone around you knows
That everything has changed, your not the same
Its a new day
Oh what I wanna know is
Are you willing to try
Try to be more meaning to this than what meets the eye
Chorus
Ohh I love the way you kiss me
Baby please
Im about to loose my mind
Ohh talk to me
cuz Im beggin for you and Im down on my knees
Baby I know your the one that I need
...Baby I love you...
...You know that I need you...
...Gotta have you...
...Cant be without you...
...Baby I love you...
...You know I need you...
...Gotta have you...
...Cant be without you...
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2004 28 February :: 10.57pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Healing by Jagged Edge
well so much to write... and well im not gonna write every last details to the past couple sayz... but itz been so hectic
*thursday*
well the very first preformance... in the morning aahh it wuz so hectic... but i alwayz knoe the first one izthe best for me... i dont knoe y but i did rlyrly good... and so we missed 1st and 2nd period wuz the preformance and we were number 5 so we got done well b4 the end of 2nd period... but we werent about to go to 3rd so me and ryann told marina to tell hughes that we had to stay after and clean... but then well mrs hughes let the class out 15 minutes early for lunch so we were like "well they would get let out early when we skip.." lol and then katie says we told hughes we were prolly skipping.. o that made me so mad... so we went back after b lunch...
during the nite preformance it went perty good too. my parents came but not very many people showed up...a lot of my friends hoo said they would come didnt... and well i hoped they would come on friday... but i had a lot of fun. i love all my friends... o i saw robbie again for the first time since the last day of skool last year. hiz voice got so deep! and he got taller too. aw i missed him so much... O GOSH and james williams came he looked so different with out hiz glasses! and hiz braces were off... aaww he stilled chewed his gum the same exact way.. aww i missed him too. it wuz good to see em again. o yeah and brittney klutz too AAAWWW
*friday*
well again another morning concert. i didn knoe until thursday nite but.. yeah... it didnt go as well as the day b4 actually i messed eup rlyrly badly but i guess itz still gravy. we missed 1st and 2nd again of course for the concert but this time there wuz a tornado drill at 9 so that threw us off and we had to rush everything... including warm up which by the way i wuz feeling very painful soreness.. lol.. but we were number 4 this time and so we went to go watch the show and then after a lil dr penney made all the dancers leave cuz the bell for 3rd period would ring soon.. so we hung around the dressing room... and we got all the dancers in my biology class to not go and just skip... and then if we did go back go after d lunch.. so we did that and most dancers went back to class cuz others did and then would look bad so we had a, b and c lunch and it wuz perty awesome... cuz i wuz sooo tired... so me, amy, katie a, sydney, erin and nicola skipped... funfunfun! lol i dont skip either so yeah... and then in c lunch i walked around with jesse and we were just talkin and stuff and hez like "aw alyssa u skipped... thatz bad.. badbadbad.. cuz once u start itz hard to.. and if ur gonna do it at least do it at the end of the year when u dont do n e thing n e way..." but he shouldnt be talkin he skips like everyday.. lol but all of us went back after c lunch.. and everyone kinda knew we skipped.. well not every one.. but when i told ms bhomik we had childrens concert.. but she didnt rly believe me.. she wuz like "noo... i knoe u were supposed to be back by 11:30" and i wuz like "um r u sure? i dont think so cuz we had to clean up and stuff.." but we didnt written up or n e thing so... and all they did the whole class wuz take notes and we knew thatz all they were gonna do.. and so when we got back we didnt do n e thing cept talk so it wuz kool.. and 4th period wuz HILARIOUS i laugh a lot in that class now... it wuz soooooo boring tho... and i wuz rly tired.. i havent been sleeping at all lately... and the concerts made me exhausted...
but that nite at the concert i wuz SO HYPER.. gosh it wuz rly funnie if u saw half the crap i wuzx doing... everybody around me wuz laughin and giving me strange looks... ahaha but last nite wuz rly emotional last nite too.. like ALOT of peez were crying and every wuz stressed out and we were all exhausted... so we all snapped.. and i wuz getting rly aggravated cuz my make up would not go one rite and i washed it off and re did it like 3 times... and finally i got it to look ok. stage make up iz so hard... grr.. well the dancing wuznt as bad as this moring but it still lwuznt as good as thursday well for me at least. aaron said a bunch of techies were making fun off me cuz in the dance im pochahontas with this little dress and in one part im bent over for ahwile and he said they were all pretending to smaack my ass and grap and stuff... er yeah... well nobody came for me *tear* at least not the one i wanted to.. but o gosh i saw LYNA! she looked so beautiful! i missed everyone so much from last year... *tear*
*today* well last nite i went to bed rly late.. like 1 and i wuz so exhausted i passsed out the minute i hit the bed. so this morning when i woke up it took me forever to get out of bed... i woke up at like 9 or 8 sumthin and didnt get out of bed till 10. but i had to wake up early to clean up cuz my aunt and uncle we coming here. and i just found out the day b4 which so pissed me off.. cuz i wuz gonna make plans u knoe.? cuz when i stay home i get all depressed and eat a whole bunch and i get all sad about ryan and stuff so i just mope around and watch tv.. and well fcat iz tis coming wekand thats always stressful.. cuz if we dont pass this year they take away one of our fun arts area classes and make us take a fcat class so we do "good" the next rtime. cuz if we dont pass 10 grade we dont graduate and i dont knoe if we take 11 or 12th. but if we dont then we gotta keep taking it till we pass. and that sux.. n e hoo ok so ive been so streessed out and ive been freaking about it.. and i wuz just rly mad this morning and going crazy and telling everybody i wuz gonna kill myself cuz my parents would let me do n e thing.. but then rick called.. and well i talked to him online last nite for the first time in forever.. and he wanted to do sumthing with me and emily.. cuz well hez been neglecting us lol i hadnt seen him since august.. so i thought he forgot about hiz dear ole friends alyssa and emily aka starfish and dory. lol. but he wanted to do sumthin like bowling but emilyz mom wuz being mean and so she wouldnt let emily go since she slept over rachels friday nite... had fun with hurley jared. cough. lol... so i wanted to see rick and i didnt want to just be with da family so he came over at like 3:30 and we hung out for a lil bit andhe met every body and my dad showed him hiz GEEEEETAR collection lol... aammaazzzinnggg... well soon after that we left to go to pizza palace but we walked around san marco for a lil while but then we headed to pizza palace and it wuz so funnie i could not stop laughing.. and my aunt and uncle thought he wuz rly funnie they rly liked him... lotz of inside jokes were made.. "tear streaming down my face" ahahahaha.... and my brother lmao wuz staring at this lady with this big ole thong hangin out the whole time ahahaha... after that we all headed out and my brother wuz caught un screwing the lids to the saltand peppa shakers and my mom got soo mad ahahha... we went home and then me rick looked in da paper to see wut movie we could go and dirty dancing havana nights wuz playiun at 7:35 and i wanted to see that so we went and i said goodbye to my aunt and uncle and my dad took me and rick to regency.. the movie wuz ok... not as good as the first one... i kept like falling asleep i wuz tired and rick prolly thought it wuz boring.. but i wuz soo hyper.. when i get tired sumtimes i get like overly hyper it wuz sooo funnie... lmao ELEPHANT! squirting the blues rasberry icee. and rick with his beautiful man bag. hehe. i had a rly good time. rick iz so kool ive missed him... AND HE EVEN SPOKE JIBBERISH WITH ME! hahaha.
after we dropped him off at 10.. my mom spoke jibberish back to me! it wuz soo kool! lol but she kept askin bout rick and when we got home i sang twinkle twinkle little star! but my mom and dad kept pestering me and asking if me and rick were an "item" and i wuz like "no.." but my mom went on about how much everyone liked rick and she said "well alyssa itz either rick or no one at all and im serious" er yeah.. im surprised she haznt alrdy made an arranged marriage. haha. well im gonna go im exhuasted.
tootlez
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2004 25 February :: 6.58pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: I Miss You by Blink 182
i just wanna cry...
gosh i hate my life... i wish it wuznt so yucky... this has been like the worst week... monday i called ryan finally i wuz so excited and i wuz bouncin off the walls i wuz so hyper... and well then of course we got into this fight thingy and he made me rly mad... he wouldnt say a word to me and im there askin him all this stuff and it annoys me soo much and i hung up and then called back later to make sure he wuz doing it on purpose... and he wuz and he wuz getting me so upset bcuz everything iz so screwed up and i started to cry and well i wuz crying perty hard and he didnt even notice... i guess i wuz silent but he wuz just sittin there laughing at the tv... tellin me im "emotional" well damn straight i am and itz not like itz a bad thing... i dont cry over little things...and emily and alex were talking to me and alex kept telling me not cry... cuz im too beautiful to cry (yeah wutever) and alex wuz saying how i need him to treat me like that and hez asswhole and i rly need to move on and emily told me i dont deserve wut hez doing and that im always tearing myself over him cuz we're not together n e more and she said i should try getting over him and then i started crying rly hard and it would just be too hard... but i rly love him and becuz i love ryan so much i forgive him for everything no matter how bad he screwed up and maybe i weak i ono... but even tho peez say i shouldnt take that and i shouldnt forgive him.. wut can i say i still do..
yesterday wuznt all that great either... the whole ryan thing brought my mood down.. perty boring day actually.. but then me and emily walston walked to the dollar store and publix after we got dropped off by da bus... so that wuz perty kool. i spent like 15 dolla at the dolla store ahaha where not everything iz a dollar...
and today.. well today wuz yucky...
*gym* we finished watching rudy and we were talking about the self esteem thing and emily and candy kept being stupid and i wuz laughing and coach rivera getz all mad at us and tells us to leave and said he wouldnt care.. but we didnt leave and then i wuz quiet but they were being rly loud so he tells all 3 of us to leave.. and well he wuz gonna quiz us on wut he wuz saying and put all the stuff on the quiz that we couldnt hear on it.. so i wuz like "thanx emily u just brought down my 4.0" lol but it wuz all good we apologized and he let us back in.. o but gosh thatz when stuff go rly emotional.. well he wuz talkin about how hiz mom kept telling him he would never make it to the U.S. cuz they were too poor and all this stuff and so he had to go to college in Puerto Rico.. but he made it and he went to college in alabamba after a few years and he had all this work and he didnt knoe n e english and he had to work play baseball and go to skool.. and he got rly emotional about it when he wuz talking about it and he started crying and o gosh like the whole class wuz about to cry... i wuz O GOSH mr rivera dont make me cry! and he told us to never give up on our dreams and dont let n e body tell us we cant do it and dont let lem bring u down or get ur way cuz if u work hard enuf u can do it... AAWWW
*dance* boring we ran our peice.
*biology* well we had the test and i failed cuz i talked to alex for like 3 and a half hours last nite until 10 and my mom got rly mad... and she yelled at me all last nite and then she yelled at my dad about me about how im so irresponsible blahblah im good for nothing and she will not believe a word out of my mouth... so i study for like 40 minutes and feel asleep on my book and then woke up at 12:30 and went back to sleep and then woke up 40 minutes late this morning... but n e hoo me and emily got in trouble and she got moved and no i sit to the big girl irma or maria but she scareres me she like towers over me ahhh itz scary..
*algebra* wuz perty funnie but nick wuz makin fun of me and my people *tear* and so it wuz this big ole thing wher ewe were rankin on eachother and i wuz talkin bout them ugly puerto ricans aahahhaha it wuz funnie i wuz jokin tokin around lol not all puerto ricans r ugly hehehe... but n e hoo it wuz rly funnie i couldnt stop laughing but mr allen gave us a new seating chart and so now im away from jonet and aaron r. *tear*
I stayed after skool again today cuz we had dress rehearsal..aww and all the lavillian dancers in preformance came cuz they're in it and er they tryin to act all better then me.. oo no hunnie. lol... my peice wuz over by 4 and i didnt want to go so i stayed and walked around and talked to muh homiez that stay after... and so did rico and he got me mcdonalds at like 4:30.. but um yeah he wuz a lil up in the air if u knoe wut i mean.. cuz well he wuz smokin sum stuff... not good not good... and well he wuz acting rly funnie and i couldnt help but laugh at him lol...but um yeah we had to have a serious "talk" and so he wuz telling me how much hez liked me (like 4 and half months thats a long time) and how hes tired of waiting and he wants to knoe if hez waiting for nothing cuz he doeznt wantwut happend last time to happened again cuz that made him rly mad and how he wanted to be with me... and then he starts telling me hez always doing stuff for me when im with him and he acts like im hiz gurl and even tho he shouldnt or doeznt have to or wutever.. and so he kept askin me and askin me if n e thing wuz gonna happen between us and i didnt want to say no but i wuznt bout say yes... so after saying i dont knoe for awhile he rly had to go cuz katie said tyler left without him and so he asked me one last time... and i said "no cuz i dont knoe wut i want ne more" and i told him i wuz sorry and i wuz bout to give him a hug and he goes and pushes me away and bust open the door and then ok this wuz a lil eh.. he knocks over the trash can and all the trash fell out and then he starts yelling fuck and hez punchin the lockers and kickin em and stuff... and he ran off... and well i guess thatz it folks.. i dont think he'll talk to me n e more.. cuz he wasted all of his time.. and i feel rly bad but wut can ya do ya knoe? o yeah and this little old man janitor had to clean up the spilled trash and i felt soo bad... and then i had to wait out side for my dad in the damn cold it wuz 52 degrees and it wuz raining and all i had on wuz my leotard and tights and sum capris and a tshirt... o yeah and this lil sweater thingy.. i wuz SO COLD i didnt get home till like 6... but yeah im gonna go now.. im rly rly rly tired and i have to do all my home work cuz i have no time thursday and friday with childrens and all... grr i totally forgot we had a in skool preformance... ahh im gonna die... we have an in skool preformance thursday morning for da lil kids and then one at 7;30 and another one fri at 7;30.. and im so tired... dance is so hard sumtimes...*sigh*
tahtah
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2004 22 February :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: funnie
lmao im talkin to alex on the phone ahahaha and he said "i wuz born in pennsylvania thatz y i have this southern accept see?" hahahaha
That would be for me
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2004 22 February :: 2.59pm
LMAO
kiwisunshine99 (3:36:13 PM): r u talkin to danny?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:36:30 PM): kinda
kiwisunshine99 (3:36:47 PM): DANNY CARY IZ SOOO FUNNIE!!! ahahaha i love him... im feeling this in my british accent... itching my left nostril ahaha. danny cary iz my new best friend.
kiwisunshine99 (3:36:53 PM): what bout THAT MISSY!
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:37:21 PM): yeah i dont like u n e more sorry
kiwisunshine99 (3:39:55 PM): dev jus caled
kiwisunshine99 (3:40:01 PM): aww
kiwisunshine99 (3:40:06 PM): i miss him...
kiwisunshine99 (3:40:07 PM): so muh
kiwisunshine99 (3:40:09 PM): ch
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:40:36 PM): o goody goody gumdrops
kiwisunshine99 (3:40:45 PM): whats ur problem
kiwisunshine99 (3:40:50 PM): mr grumpy gills
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:40:56 PM): ms bitch
kiwisunshine99 (3:41:06 PM): um ok
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:41:36 PM): lmao
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:41:37 PM): i hate u
kiwisunshine99 (3:41:49 PM): good
kiwisunshine99 (3:41:55 PM): that was my goal
kiwisunshine99 (3:42:00 PM): for coach rivera
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:42:02 PM): SCORE
kiwisunshine99 (3:42:04 PM): to get u to hate me'
kiwisunshine99 (3:42:12 PM): thank god i suceeded
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:42:21 PM): kool
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:42:25 PM): god iz good
kiwisunshine99 (3:42:28 PM): i tol him it wi=ould be tuff but he pushed me
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:42:30 PM): god iz great
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:42:36 PM): god made me look like an ape
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:42:37 PM): ahahaha
kiwisunshine99 (3:42:43 PM): its not dinner time freak
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:45:43 PM): soo
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:45:47 PM): wut iz for dinner
kiwisunshine99 (3:46:03 PM): y dont u go to church dinner at ur church n get away from me
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:46:18 PM): i dont go to church
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:46:23 PM): wut the hell iz ur problem
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:48:35 PM): i guess ur not my friend no more
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:48:39 PM): im going to tell on u
IzntLifeSo JUICY (3:48:45 PM): WWWAAAAAAHHHHHH
kiwisunshine99 (3:50:00 PM): whatever
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2004 22 February :: 3.01pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: after hours by Phantom Plant
*YAWN*
well alex texted me this morning at 7:30 to wake me up early today but i didnt get out of bed till 9:30... i did my biology worksheet but other then that i havent made much progress... i still have the venn diagram to do along with the comparison/contrast paper and itz soo grrr.. i hate this...
well i found out that i have rehearsal for tomorrow... yes thatz rite... hard to believe it but CHILDRENS CONCERT iz THIS WEEK! o gosh... im so screwed... ryann told me that tomorrow iz dress rehearsal... and well i dont have my costume... im pocahontas now and katie walters has one and i dont even knoe if it will fit... so i am like so screwed... our first performance is thursday mornin and i wuz supposed to almost have my costume febuary 1st... and well itz way past that time and i have no idea wut i am gonna do. AAHHH i hate this. hmm i just noticed im peforming the 26 & 27 (7:30 at DA theatre be there or be bare lol) and well the 27 (friday) will be a month from the day... gosh thats so long... i thought it would be over by now and i would be living happily ever after.
o well i gotta go do my homework.
tahtah
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2004 21 February :: 11.53pm
:: Music: So Simple by Alicia Keys
CABARET- dinner-show-dance
hmm well... where should i start.. .cabaret wuz soo well dramatic... well first we picked up emily and then we got there and it wuz a lil after 6 but it wuz ok... i looked like crap lol... and then ryann showed up and we got into line for our wristband things... the food wuz AWESOME! off the chizain lol er... it wuz catered by carrabas which wuz perty cool.. and the caterers were SO FUNNIE.. debating on hooz chicken wuz better... ahahaha... yeah well the dinner wuz all gravy it wuz perty kool and then me and ryann got all hyper on the lime sherbert lol... o yeah chance wuz there.. and so wuz adam wackro or however u spell that one and josie foster showed up too... chance looked sooo erm um yeah well letz not go there. *cough* gurlly *cough* lol... then we got into the theatre and ryann and rico got into this whole fight about sumthing rly stupid and he wuz getting all dramatic and he left and sat up with sarah linear.. and so for the rest of the show they were mad at eachother and emily thought he wuz a fuhreak.... the show wuz rly rly rly good tho.. and FUNNIE! haha i laughed so hard... and most people sang rly good too... so it wuz koo. well except for the spice gurl one. that sucked and this white gurl wuz scary spice and she did the sunless tanning thing to get her to look dark and she looked SO BAD lmao she looked like an oompa loompa it wuz so funnie... a lot of the songs made me sad tho.. and then at the end these gurls did HEY YA and it wuz perty funnie... andrea 3000.... well after that rico wuz nad at ryann cuz he bought my ticket and all and then he couldnt sit next to me.. but they r my friends too and i wuznt about to abandon them for him soo.. yeah. and then they got mad at me for staying around rico and when we got to the dance they wouldnt talk to me... and well i wuznt in the dancing mood cuz i wuz still feeling a lil sick and my 2 rly good friends were mad at me and it wuz RETARDED... but er i did dance with er rico and then i needed a drink cuz i felt like i wuz gonna throw up and then i wuz talkin to aaron about this whole thing... and then i sat out for awhile and then i went back for the electric slide and the played a slow song.. gosh... i rly didnt feel like dancing it wuznt quite my nite... but while i wuz sitting with nicole this strange senior guy wuz hitting on us and hez like wut skool do u go to?" and we told em we went to DA and he wuz like "damn r u serious? damn i never even seen u b4" and he threw hiz hat down and wuz stomping on it.. it wuz rly funnie... he didnt believe we were freshman and then he kept petting our heads now that wuz strange... but everynow and then i would dance and then i sat with ryann and danny for awhile and then "perfect" came on and rico dance with me and sang to me and that made me feel rly weird.. not like a good weird i dont knoe it wuz strange.. but he told everybody hez giving up cuz all my friends hate him and stuff soo ya. and then we danced to the last song again which wuz "good riddance" by greenday... and ya... it wuz kinda boring i ono it would have been better if i wuznt feeling sick and i wuz in a better mood... o yeah and tony man from the big ape wuz the dj and that wuz kool.
i went home with ryan and slept over and we had mint chocolate chip icecream and she fell asleep and i talked to alex and then we hung up and then rico called and it wuz like 12 sumthin and then we hung up but i couldnt fall asleep until 2. in the mornin like 3 people kept calling it wuz annoying... grr..
but today wuz koo we went to ryanns preforming group thing with a pagent and there were all these stuck up blondes... and then we went to sonic. YUMMY. lmao i jumped on the cord hahaha.. a walla later we left her house and saw confessions of a teenage drama queen. it wuz better then i thought it would be... but the gurls beside us were so ANNOYING and i wanted to cuss them out so bad but i didnt u knoe.
after that we went to ruby tuesdays at the avenues MORE YUMMY and i saw these bois that i always see at outer limitz.. but at the regency mall and they looked at me funnie.. when we were done eatin we went shopping and there wuz so much cute stuff but we didnt get n e thing... gosh shopping makes me feel so fat.. grr n e hoo they took me home *tear* i luv u ryann baby gurl! shez soo much fun lol
when i got home i called alex and we talked till 11:30 and then i had to go.. but we 3 wayed emily and it wuz sooo funnie i wuz laughing so hard. lol good times good times.
well i didnt rly write or say everything i wanted to but im tired and i have loads of home work to do.
i miss ryan so much i hate this...
tahtah
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2004 21 February :: 4.29pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Good Riddance by Greenday
hey im at ryann's and we're bout to go to da movies... caberet wuz eventful.. oo well we're leavin buh byez
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2004 20 February :: 1.41pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: White Flag by Dido.. just came on
i didnt go to skool today... i woke up like a hour ago and i havent rly done n e thing cept talk to muh babiez jonet and alex on line... *yawn* im still not sure wut to wear tonite... and how am i gonna do my hair??? im sleeping over at ryann's house with sarah linear and we mite go to the mall 2moro.. o crap i forgot to ask my mom for money o well... i slept perty good i had the weirdest dream with jeff and i wuz related to the ozzbournes and they let me stay in this rly big mansion nicer then the one on tv... it wuz perty kool dream we rode in this plane thing and we were flying upside down that wuz skary.. cuz the roof wuz clear and yeah.. lol and then there wuz a robot i put back together and jeff wuz in the house too it wuz weird...
well im just waitin for the day to go by i have a bunch of homework i dont wanna do.. grrr... at like 3:30 ill start gettin rdy so i can take my time... i hope i have fun... itz at 6pm itz dinner.. then at 7:30 there iz the show and then at 9pm there iz the dance.. i ono when it ends maybe 11?
o well hoo cares im gonna go watch sum tv and think about muh tiger cub ryan ahaha
tootlez
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2004 20 February :: 12.35pm
:: Mood: contemplative
If I Ain't Got You BY Alicia Keys
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people search for a fountain
The promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me a world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
That would be for me
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2004 19 February :: 11.35pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Tired of being alone by john mayor
What it is isnt what it was
How it seems isnt what it is
There's been a change,
when it comes to me
And there's been a change
when it comes to you
There is just so much that I want you to know
And I'm sorry you had to find out this way
But before this goes to far
I gotta let you know
I think I know whats best right now
Because I've been here before
And gave into some one for all the wrong reasons
I've been here before
Distance might make the heart grow fonder
But rejectection makes the heart grow colder
And I just don't want to loose you
But I gotta let you know
There's been a change
when it comes to you and me
It just got more complicated
I wish it was as easy as everybody is saying
There is just so much that i want you to know
So when I tell you
Promise you wont go
Just like one did
What it is isnt what it was
How it seems isnt what it is
But listen up cause here is how it goes...
That would be for me
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