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2004 19 February :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: AFI i forget the name of the song i just downloaded it lol
DANNY CARY IZ SOOO FUNNIE!!! ahahaha i love him... im feeling this in my british accent... itching my left nostril ahaha. danny cary iz my new best friend.. im thinking about starting a notebook with him.. i havent had one with n e body since jared and that wuz a walla go.. it wuz rly good until i lost it grr. i talked about ryan all the time and i wish i could read wut i used to say...hmm
well i didnt go to first or second period today.. i just didnt feel like going... and well my mom iz convvinced that bcuz im so stressed im getting incredibly ill...
o yeah.. shez so random shez talkin bout how im getting a lil fat and then she told me she had a dream that i got pregnant... and rick got me pregnant.. er yeah but hez moving to baker county... grr and i never talk to him n e more... ne hoo she wuz going on about how nice rick wuz and how nice hiz parents were and she goes tellin me "y cant u go out with guys like rick alyssa?" i can not stand her..
*biology* wuz soooooooooooo boring... but i wuz rly loud.. and i yelled at alton across the room to wake up.. hmm yeah i wrote a note to ryan and emily gosh SHE IZ SOOO FUNNIE. i laughed so hard cuz shez tender like the baby back ribs at applebees... lmao u just had to be there... we did a review and we have a worksheet due...
*lunch* well lunch wuz ok i wuz feelin kinda sick... emily hung out with aj and i ate lunch with ryann, sarah, carlos, rico and jesse... hmm rico iz takin to me to caberet and we had to "talk" cuz well people have loud mouths and keep telling him i have been saying nothing will happen between us and i didnt want him to find out that way...
*algebra* wuz boring and we reviewed the rest of the fcat practice.. and i wuz the only one to get number 10 rite and so i demonstrated lol... i felt stupid tho... hmmm yeah but mr allen iz so weird.. like one minute hez koo and funnie like he said to aaron "yeah u need to give me that paper and the cap u were throwing around..." i dont knoe how he saw... but then he said "iz there n e thing else i need to take from u aaron?" and i said "yeah hiz pants" lol.... haha and then mr allen goes " well u mite want off alyssa but i certainly dont!" and everyone iz goin "OOOOO" lol but then he gets all bitchy... weird. he left us out late after the bell rang too..
after skool i saw rico and i got my ticket from him and he gave me a rly rly long note and now i have to talk to him and he said that if im lying to him to not hurt hiz feelings i shouldnt.. so ya
i went to dance.. cuz i missed monday and im not going 2moro cuz of caberet soo... it wuz ok.. well at first it wuz but i didnt do so good cuz i wuz startin to feel worse and my hips hurt so bad i need to go see the doctor but i dont have time to go down to ocala... ms jenkins left at like 6:10 and we were gonna teach ourselves until the end of class at 6;30 but then mr jenkins tought us.. and he iz so funnie but he scares the shit outta me... he gave us this weird combination and then he had to do it like 6 times accross the floor and he kept calling me glue cuz my pirrouettes at the end suck and he said i looked like i had glue on my feet... er yeah but then the sub came in late and it wuz alrdy time to go but he held us late for 10 minutes ... we did this rly long grande allegro combo it wuz so long and there were like 15 soteshas... and he wuz yelling at us for not traveling and i wuz bout to pass out and i wuz bout to get into a sotesha and hez like come on now hit me and i did and he wuz surprised ahaha hez like "o well ok GOOD" lol... then he made us do 16 echappe jump combo thing and hez telling me to jump higher and i wuz but it wuz hard when ur bout to throw up... lol er finally it ended and i wuz dripping with sweat it wuz so nasty that never happens... but i felt like my lungs were gonna collapse i couldnt breathe it wuz scaray... in the car i almost threw up and then we got home and i sat in the car and cried and i came into my room and went to sleep... i had a dream ryan wuz online and then i wake up and itz 8:30 and i didnt eat and i have a paper due 2moro and a bunch of homework so i wuz like o shit... then my mom iz telling me im staying home and i rly didnt want to but she sounded so serious so i wuz like ok wut the hell.. i called emily and i just go off the phone with her..damn itz 10:40 lol my mom wuz yelling at me and then she slapped me and i bit down on my tongue and itz bleeding... shez such a bitch shez telling me i should go to skool now... but im not i didnt do my paper and i ate gonna be up till 12 doing it soo... yeah i guess im just staying home 2moro im sure everyone will miss me. not. jonet iz thinkin bout staying home too and my new friend alex iz takin the day off soo... but at first i wuz afraid that if i didnt go to skool they wont let me to caberet but then again how will they knoe... i guess itz just that if u dont go to skool taht day u cant to rehearsal or u cant preform... and if u dont go to rehearsal u cant perform either... which sux but n e wayz... i wuz supposed to get my pocahontas costume from katie walters but i havent seen her and i wuz supposed to get it alrdyy... we have dress rehearsal monday and then tech rehearsal or maybe iitz the other way around but i need to get it soon... cuz concert starts on this thursday with a inskool performance for da kiddies and then we have 2 nite performances thurday and friday...
well im hungray and im tired i guess ill go now...
That would be for me
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2004 18 February :: 7.53pm
"Love Song"
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
That would be for me
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2004 18 February :: 6.21pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Comfortable by John Mayor
hmm well today wuz ok.. except i thought my toes were gonna fall off this morning cuz it wuz so damn cold...
*ethnic* WE PRESENTD OUR DANCE! the three pink flamingos ahaha and we had lil costumes and programs and everything ahaha. it wuz our final grade for the 3rd nien weeks... we got a A- it wuz koo
*dance* b4 we started class nicola wuz showing everybody the note micheal gave her throo sum other gurl and he gave her a CD and he folded up a pesos bill into 2 hearts and it wuz so sweet but it made me rly sad... i tried not to think about it.. we were good this glass we hardly talked but i hurt my hip rly bad and fell to the floor and scared everybody... but it scared me too.
*lunch* we were on a funky sched today and A&B were combined for 1st lunch (my lunch) and C&D for 2nd lunch... it wuz 15 minutes long too.. but it wuz perty boring... rico stoppd by even tho it wuznt hiz lunch and well he told phillip that ryann thought he wuz hot and she got so mad o gosh...
*world history* me and ryan were late to class and the whole class stared at us and ms hughes wuz kinda mad but she didnt give us a tardy she iz so strange... but shez rly kool... we watched a movie called the gods have gone crazy or sumthin i ono but it wuz perty funnie. i wuz kinda falling asleep tho.
*english* well it wuz a rly long class and at 1:35 they called us to the gym bcuz we had to get our courses for next year...i wuz like wow this year went by SO FAST the 3rd 9 weeks in over in less then a month... and fcat iz like in 2 weeks aahhh... SCREW FCAT itz so retarded. well here are the courses im taking next year... i got out of individual dual sports and psychology cuz im in dance so i get an extra dance class o joy...
-DANCE 3A (for both days)
-Dance Production Tech
-American Musical Theatre
= Chemistry 1 Honors
= Geometry Honors
= English 2 Honors
= Spanish 1
o JOY! lol i think next year will be hard... this year wuz kinda easy... well er kinda i ono veryone says chemistry honors iz rly hard and u have to study ur but off and im bad at that o well
after that we turned em in to da bookroom and da lady wuz a biatch but it wuz all good me and emily just hung around and talked to everybody nobody wanted to go back to class... jeff said i wuz a mexican er... yeah and we walked by ricos class and da boi wuz sleepin tisktisktisk... welps i had fun we didnt go back to class till 3 and almost everybody else wuz back but hoo cares... we did sum story thing and then the bell rang.. i have a lotta homework in this class grr.
the bus wuz boring but when me and emily walston got off we walked with cliff to darlow and then by the firehydrant on the sidewalk iz the ryan hearts alyssa thang and i showed emily lol and then were talkin bout sum stuff and makin fun of the fort caroline kids that we always see walkin home... therez thiz one gurl hoo iz kinda chubby..well rly chubby and she haz poofy white blonde hair and she wuz sooo weird she looked down and walked by rly rly fast like she didnt want to be noticed or sumthin... emily said she auditioned for lavilla and i said she would fit rite in lol thatz mean... but i said hey to kamar and he wouldnt rly talk to me and he just walked back rly fast and when i asked him wut wuz wrong he just kept goin and said nothing and he looked sooo sad i felt rly bad and i wanted to knoe wut wuz wrong but ggrr... i asked that gurl michelle if she knew but she said no... o well
OMG! ok well yesterday i wuz craving hot chocolate and the first time i burnt the milk and it overflowed and then the second time it overflowed and i wuz talkin to emily m... and then today i wuz talkin to her again and made me sum soup and then I BURNT THAT TOO and then i made sum hot chocolate and i wuz like "ok i wont mess it up this time" but of course i did and it got all over the place and almost made the smoke detector go off but grr i gotta go homework iz calling ahhh.
That would be for me
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2004 17 February :: 8.54pm
:: Mood: blah
''Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love''
"I just remembered that time at the market
You snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And drove down aisle 5
You looked behind you and smiled back at me
Crashed into a rack full of magazines
They asked us if we could leave
Can't remember what went wrong last September
Though I'm sure you'd remind me if you had to
Our love was comfortable and so broken in"
"If you're cold I'll keep you warm
If you're low just hold on
Cause I will be your safety
Oh don't leave home"
"Oh how quiet, quiet the world can be
When it's just you and little me
Everything is clear and everything is new
So you won't be leaving will you"
''There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be''
**Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you**
That would be for me
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2004 17 February :: 5.04pm
:: Mood: VERY HAPPY!!! (iz this a first?)
:: Music: You and I Both by Jason Mraz .. i have had this song stuck in my head all day its driving me ccrraaz
whoa
wellllll...... i didnt home till 10:30pm last nite cuz i went to kristens house with jonet to work on out flamenco piece... I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!! lol... kristen is a very funny gurl i laughed so hard... and aw the necklace sean gave jonet and soooo pertay. jealous. lol. kristen drove us to starbucks and every time i saw a white suv looking vehicle i wuz oohh god ITZ MY DAD! lol but i didnt get caught.. yeah my parents r a lil u knoe.. bout me riding in my friends DRIVING VEHICLES.
well lets see...
*health* today emily didnt come to skool she wuz sick but after i get online i have to call her and tell her about my walking home experience hehehe... well we had a test and i totallt forgot it must be a first and i failed cuz i didnt knoe n e of it but hoo cares...
*dance* we had modern with ms giles and i sat out for half the class cuz my ankle haz been hurting so bad lately...
*biology* well.. i wuz horrible without muh babygurl emily! and she missed ms bhomik trying to explain sumthing to me... well iwuz being rly rly loud today and she asked wut r the siimilarities in amphibians and i yelled "THEYRE GREEN!!" and well yeah ms bhomik is so funnie when she wuz trying to explain to me that all amphibians arent green... i tried not to laugh rly hard... but oo i got to tape aaron crosby's mouth shut!
*lunch* well...... rico wuz um yeah being rly affectionate today i dont knoe y!! GRRRR that boi iz driving me crazy! i wuz bout to say "um no hands off son" aahahahaha!! but i just kinda kept pushing him away... o yeah it wuz perty boring except when carlos wuz spitting his drink at everybody.. INCLUDING ME! but o gosh this wuz hilarious... carlos wuz wearing those pants that snap together at the side and ryann ripped one side well...all the snaps came off on one side and his pants were almost all the way down it wuz soooo funnie and all of his smiley face boxers to showing ahaha and everytime he tried to get his pants back togeth it wouldnt work and they kepy fallin down farther... but finall after 10 minutes he got him self together. and rachel wont rly tell wut happend with her and taylan... hmm rayray and taytay sitting on a rooftop.... k-i-s-s-i-n-g!!!
*algebra* hmm well we jus did this thing with fcat and my brain wuz slow... well it wuz perty boring... mr. allen kept getting annoyed with my lil group u knoe and them omg ALI! aaron R. gave her the blue heart candy that said kiss me.. only rachel got it out of her desk and then it wuz on the floor and it wuz filthy and then aaron threw it to ali and SHE ATE IT!! i laughed so hard
*bus 324*
it wuz rly boring... my contacts kept coming off and so then my eyes got rly irritated and all my make up came off and i wuz like "well fuck it itz not like im seeing n e body important(ryan) or sumbody i would want to look good for(ryan) so i put my purple contacts on... and well i got them last year just to try and then i switched to clear thank god cuz i look so BAD with them.. i like my eye color .. it had taken alwhile but i like the color.. now if only i could like the way the look... well n e way and well most people didnt notice.. and sum were like wow u look different.. n e hoo i wrote "ryan" on everysingle window on my bus and it took me forever cuz i did it backwards and all and then patrick goes and ERASES them! i wuz like o no boi... hmm blake wuz trying to get me to smile..but i wuz like "no blake" and he asked me y and i said "cuz i dont think im gonna be able to see ryan again..." when i got off the bus i walked to the yellow firehydrant where ryan wrote "ryan loves alyssa" in the cement since i got let off on time and i didnt rly want to go home... i smiled...it just looked to so perfect..but then i started walk back and i couldnt get "you and i both" out of my head and i wuz thinkin bout ryan... and then all of a sudden this DRIVING VEHICLE honked their horn and scared the shit out of me i jumped and then i landed on my bad ankle and fell in this funnie kinda way... and of the course my shoes were not helping cuz i thought i wuz staying after skool with jonet and kristen...BUT ANYWAY i got to my street and i saw that weird girl michelle (at least emily walston stays shes rly strange) but she had a couple more people then usual and kamar wuz hangin back... well i wuz like "hmm maybe ryan iz walking with the pack this time" i thought i saw him but i wuznt sure cuz my purple contacts make it fuzzy and they were dry and all so i just kept walkin.. and then i heard my name called and i thought i wuz hallucinating but then it happened again and i turned around and ryan wuz up the street... and OMG i wuz sooo HAPPY!!!!!! ah now i didnt want to look like a freak so i didnt jump up and down and scream lmao no i dont think i would have done that... actually... lol maybe. WELL he looked AS CUTE AS EVER! he iz just sooo sexay hehehe.. BUT GRRR he kept making fun of my contacts and i knoe i looked bad.. i dont need to lie to muhself but of course it just my luck when i see him i am.. well out of sorts i suppose u could say... we talked and stuff and i gave him 2 hugs and i wuz bout to cry cuz i missed him so much but i wuz so happy that he wuz rite there in front of me... and well i didnt jump on top on him and kiss him all over like i wanted ahaha u knoe put them restraints on muh self... but n e hoo i didnt rly didnt want to get in trouble.. bcuz i dont want things worse then they are so i headed home and he went back to FC cuz he the manager to the gurls soccer team and they got practice... i told kelly on the bus to tell ryan sumthin and then kelly said "well i'll er.. try" so i started heading home and he just had to see me walk off.. grr i hate it when he doez that but o well i couldnt stop looking at hiz adorable face. when i got closer to my house i called jonet and told her all about it wuz so excited cuz i never thought i would see him.. especially not today since i wuz sad that i missed him so much today.. BUT i did and i havent stopped smiling since and when i got home i sang You and Me Both on the top of my lungs and well ok now i need to calm down. simmer down now. k welll
adios amigos
That would be for me
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2004 15 February :: 10.23pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Dont Leave Home by Dido
"first..
i would have ur room filled with roses with out u knowing to show how much i love u.
then i'll take u out to dinner to show u how much im sorry
then i would give u ur favorite candy to show u how sweet i am"
That would be for me
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2004 15 February :: 4.41pm
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: Sidewalks by Story of the Year
im tired
lol i woke up rlyrly late today.... at like 12:40. i got my phone back...i took a shower and got dressed and stuff and i wuz like "im going for a walk" and my parents get all up on me askin me hoo im meeting and stuff... and they were yelling and i walked off.. and my dad said i had to do the dishes... but n e way i wuznt plannin on meeting n e body... i knoe my mom thought i wuz meeting ryan... i gotta still write that letter..my brother wuz at dane's house with aj boorde and i decided to head over that way with muh dog.. and i walk up to danes house and all of a sudden he comes out with all this popcorn and my brother and aj chase him.. retarded but the popcorn wuz good.lol. they went into the empty lot by the river and i kept walkin and then kamar wuz comin on hiz mongoose bike.. lol.. we started talkin and we started walking together and i had a lotta fun! we walked alll over the place for like 2 hours... we passed a bunch of guys on their skate boards and they looked soo funnie.. kamar kept makin fun of them..it wuz hilarious... hez a funnie piece of work. well we talked for a long time and then on this one street there wuz this cute little dog and i wuz like "aw how cute" and then it comes and attacks my dog! it wuz so funnie cuz the dog wuz like 4 times smaller then bailey... but then bailey started hyper venialating or sumthing it wuz strange.. after awhile he walked me home and then he rode his bike to the store cuz he wuz hungray. well rico just called me and im tired... i gotta call kristen cuz we need to work on our dance. i wanna go sumwhere tonite hmmm
well tahtah
That would be for me
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2004 14 February :: 11.53pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys
*yawn* im sslleeeeeeeppyy...
well i talked to ryan on the phone tonite and it made me sooo happy! well the first time he wuz acting kinda weird.. and well u knoe and then he kept doing that ok thing where hez ok to everysingle think i ask or say and that got on my nerves... but when i called him back it wuz all good and i love him sOoOoOoOoOo MUCH.... more than n e body will ever knoe... oo i talked to his mom.. she said that she wanted me to be honest with my parents (and i have thatz y ive been gettin in so much trouble) and she said she wuz sorry that everything had to turn out the way it did and she wuz rly sorry.. she also said she missed me! i thought that wuz cute... but gosh i wuz sooo happy i got to talk to ryan today... on valentines day!
oo yeah we were talkin rite and well we have this twing where he haz to sing me twinkle twinkle little star and well he haznt yet he keeps making all these excuses or over a month... but n e hoo he said a few days ago he wuz outside lookin at the stars and he thought about it and he sang twinkle twinkle little star... i thought that wuz sooo CUHUTE! just like him lol he haz the cutest voice...
lol well n e way i think we talked for like 3 and a half hours the whole day... amazing.. but i can call him when i can.. and ryans mom doeznt want him to give me hiz new cell number cuz im "forbidden" to talk to ryan for now... im plannin on writing this rlyrlyrly long letter to my parents... and for the past 2 weeks ive been trying to write one in my head but ive had so many damn things to say i cant word it rite... but it has to be RLY GOOD and rly rly convincing for it to work so it mite take awhile. im also gonna need sum help with it u knoe...
but i gotta finish cleaning... the minute my mom came home she started yelling at and took both my phones bcuz she said i wuz good for nothing cuz i didnt clean while she wuz gone... wut a bitch. ill get my phone back 2moro tho.
well tahtah
I LOVE RYAN!
That would be for me
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2004 14 February :: 1.44pm
:: Mood: wut do u think
Running by No Doubt
Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side
Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I've fallen
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated
Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up
Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated
Running
As fast as we can
I really hope we’ll make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated
::*tear* wut if we alrdy have...::
That would be for me
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2004 14 February :: 11.01am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Running by No Doubt
UNHAPPY VALENTINES DAY!
i mean er happy valentines day..
i talked to ryan online a walla go which made me happy.. he liked my gift.. i wuz hoping he would.. but he had to go and said for me to call him if i can.. i guess i can? lol i prolly will later.. but im afraid to call his house i ono his mom imtimidates me sumtimes...
earlier my uncle harry called from washington dc (LMAO i just yyped winn dixie when i meany washington dc im so strange).. he wuz talking to me about abuela... shez been having all these anxiety attacks and stuff and her blood pressure is rly bad... so he wuz talking about her coming to live down here since she cant live alone n e more and he said hez all for it... abuela cant live with aunt carol cuz she lives out in the middle of no where in this brand new house in pennsylvania... and abuela iz always blaming stuff on aunt carol... and my aunt cesi doeznt want to deal with her along with fact that she has a crazy baby. uncle harry and aunt maggie r too busy and theyre trying to have a baby... i dont think uncle joe or uncle ceasar r quite cut out for that... so uncle harry thinks that she could come down here and help out and stuff but i dont knoe... i love abuela and everything but shez crazy sumtimes.. and my mom cant stand here sumtimes either cuz whenever she used to come stay down here for the whole summer or sumthing my mom would get very aggitated. but now my mom works so it might be different. i hope so.. but i dont knoe abuela might not even want to come down here.. shez loves the snow and she loves new york.. so i ono. and my aunts and uncle might disagree too cuz they might want her so far away. i ono
but rite now im bored of my mind... im talkin to danny and jeff.. hoo thinks no one likes him which is stupid and not tru.. my mom just left and she wont be home till rly late and same with my adad... earlier this week i thought maybe i could do sumthing today with one of my friends like ryann but now i cant... wow this is gonna be a long day...
well i better go get started on my romance movie marathon.. lol
tahtah
That would be for me
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2004 13 February :: 9.07pm
:: Mood: discontent
:: Music: Good Riddance by Greenday
He walks through the empty halls
Slowly he takes each lonely step
The security guard asks him where he's going
He says to himself " I dont know"
But really he says "To the bathroom"
and the security guard just walks away
He reaches the bathroom and creeps in
making sure no one is there
And when he knew he was all alone
He reached for the knife he snuck into school
Slowly he let the knife kiss his bare skin
And the blood trickled down his hand
He pushed him self up against the wall
Hit his head slammed against the plaster
Squeezing his eyes shut
Because he didn't feel any pain
He was to used to it now
It was only an itch
But it was relief
He wished he could have felt pain
Other then the internal torement he had felt for so long
Everyday it struck his heart like the knife like the one which struck his wrist
But now he had to go back to class
The teacher would have thought he was smoking
He wiped the dark red blood with a paper towel
And covered it with his sleeve
No, this boy isn't crazy
No, this boy doesn't need therapy
No, this boy isn't going to kill himself
He, just like everybody else is trying to find a way to deal with life
Some people do it by screaming
Sometimes crying
Others write in a journal
Some write a story
Some even do it by drawing, running, talking, singing, dancing...creating
Today this boy lies all alone
Today this boy got dumped
Today this boy's heart died
What is today?
That would be for me
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2004 13 February :: 8.33pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: Sorry 2004 By Ruben Studdard
HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13th!!!
friday the 13ths arnt usually bad for me.. they r either rly good or sumthing weird/interesting happens... well yesterday sarah told rico i missed him and stuff and he called me on the bus to tell me we had to talk... and i wuz like damn rite we do..lol..WELL this mornin i got to skool like a couple minutes b4 the first bell which iz later then usuall and danny carey gave me a rose!!! AW HOW SWEET! no one ever gets me roses... lol well yeah but then i got stuff from ryann and amy and jonet... i gave her candy and ryans gift so she could give it to him today... i hope he doeznt hate it lol but n e way... rico came up to me b4 i went to ethnic and he had a bag and he said "this is for u" and he said he wuz sorry and stuff and that we had to talk... he gave me a big ole teddy bear holdin a heart and then chocolate hearts... he wrote me a card too that explained sum stuff i guess.. but he had a lotta explainin to do! he walked me to class and i gave him a hug and i rly missed him... we were good friends... so we're startin over and i remember the first time he talked to me.. it wuz b4 i went out with aaron a think... a walla go but he yelled i think ur cute... yeah it wuz retarded.. today we were on a short bell sced. cuz we had an in skool black history preformance in the theatere... during lunch colleed wuz flirtin with emily and and aj came to sit by us... i hope him and emily get togetha...but aaron bought half of my data match... we took this survey and they spelled my name alyssa passane lol...pasta! well here r the results
::9th graders::
guys
DANNY CAREY
NICK HAWKINS
JOHN STRICKLAND
ZACHARY MCCAULEY
PATRICK BASS
KIRBY KRILL
PETER KIM
BRAD COATES
TONY ELIAN
CJ KOVARIK
PHILIP LOGAN
DEVIN PASCHALL
MAX WILLIAM
JONATHAN MITRICK
girls
MARRIELLE MAYSHACK
CAITLIN MORAN
ASHLY POTTER
EMILY MATCHETT
KATHARINE BEVILL
RACHEL CHALMERS
EMILILY WAY
KADISHA ROBINSON
SANIECE ANDERSON
MONEQ SCOTT
TRACY DAVIS
SARAH CONKLIN
JESSICA WATKINS
LAURA FULLER
CHRISTEN CROLEY
::older peoples::
guys
MARC GIBSON -10
MICHAEL EMMERT -10
LOUIS MCGEE -10
JOHN NEAL -10
ANDREW BENRENS -10
JAMES MCCART -10
HECTOR GONZALEZ -12
ERIC BELL -10
TRAMAYNE LOWERY -10
JAMIE RISERMANN -10
NICK PALMER -11
AJ ROGERS (emilys aj lol) -10
MATHER SCHEMER -12
TERENCE MCGRIFF -12
CHRIST NANNEY- 10
i dont feel like listin the girls too... since i dont knoe n e of them lol but yeah the gurls r ur most compatible friends and the guys r possible boyfriends but i dont think thats gonna happen cuz i love ryan. n e hoo we were rly late to 3rd and so ms hughes put us as liars on the board but even tho we were 15 minutes late after lunch she didnt make us get tardies.
in english we went to the black history thingy in the theatre... it wuz ok.. most of the dances were good and carlos's wuz OFF THE CHAIN! lol the then there wuz this visiting artist called peru expressions... and emily iz like " um...this is ur culture?" ahahaha yeah but sum of the pieces were good and sum were boring and t he lady hoo wuz singing while the dancers were dancing sang in spanish and the only thing i could translate wuz peru expressions, look here, yes mister, lets go, move it faster and thank u very much buh bye... lol but marcel and andre r almost fluent and they couldnt understand a thing.. but yeah and i thought it wuz kool i guess.. but it had nothing to do with black history... and dr penney tried to say it wuz afro- peruvian or sumthin? i dunno... when we got back we did sum stuff and then we had a half hour of freeness. um yeah jamison iz a nasty freak... he lifted my skirt up 3 DAMN TIMES all the way!!! like all the way omg i got so mad and hes just laughi talkin bout my underwear and then we were in a circle with our desks and i had to climb over and jump off to get out and i did like 3 times and i flashed him twice on accident grr... well emily took sum pics ill see if i can get her to burn me a cd so i can put in on my site
but then rico walked me to my bus and we were talkin and we're kool now he said he didnt wanna screw up or sumthin cuz alot of stuff haz been happenin and his parents found out bout hiz uh biznazz...
on the bus i read ryans notes like 20 times and our bus wuz late...i got rly sad tho. we didnt get dropped off at my stop till 4:40 (which iz rly late) and ryan called me and it rang twice and then he hung up i dont knoe wut that wuz about.. but all this valentines day stuff iz making me rly sad cuz i dunno i wuz hoping that this valentines day would be perfect since like december or maybe even b4 that.. and i wuz think wut all we could do cuz it would be me and ryans 4 month too... and i thought that wuz so kooley.. but yeah 2moro im gonna be home all alone cuz my mom iz gonna be at work till 9:30 and my dad iz going to tampa. *tear* thatz depressing. that means all ill do 2moro iz watch sappy love stories and go online being bored out of my mind... grrr
well today in dance i wuz rly flexible i wuz amazing... i got my splits ON BOTH SIDES and my soteshas were amazing they were perfect splits and it wuz kool but my ankle rly hurts.... erin has ms tammy (my old bus driver) and i have her old one an she iz such a bitch.. she iz always yelling at her bratty little kids and shes rly mean... i miss ms tammy! so would always go "aw look there iz ryan" when ryan would be at my stop and i talked to her and she wuz put the radio on and stuff.. and erin said that today she brought balloons for everybody! i wuz like OMG I WANT SUM! she switched for a longer route tho... sux booty
well im gonna go..
o yeah colleed asked out emily but she said no. hez a junior from afghanistan hez nice and all but he can be annoying...
ok well tootlez
That would be for me
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2004 11 February :: 8.37pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: I'm Really Hot by Missy Elliot
well today wuz gloomy.. i mean it wuz rainy, gray, cold and just nasty... all nite i couldnt stop thinkin bout ryan cuz he sounded rly rly sad..on the phone yesterday.. and then i woke up a half hour late this morning... i think im getting rly sick it sux. i always get sick when i never get enuf sleep... today wuz perty boring... dance sucked... we worked on our childrens concert peice but my ankle iz screwed... in world history we took notes, watched a movie ( i wrote ryan a note and then went to sleep). lunch wuz ok... sean called jonet and it vibrated and i felt it on my leg it scared the crap outta me lol... i worked with sarah and talked to aj cough lol... and in enlgish we did sum crap i dont rly knoe i just talked to taylan the whole time... still no word from rico.. i hate this! i cant believe i miss him this much... but i do... weird huh?
on the way walkin home it wuz boring.. the whole day i stepped in like 20 puddles my jeans were soaked and i wear flip flops everyday now.. so it wuz weird... it wuz rly cold walkin home tho but i like my feet cold and here i am rambling about my feet... i kiccked a starburst wrapper all the way home and then threw it away lol. it wuz like SOCCER! ahahaha but yeah emily cant stop talkin bout aj and sumbodiez told meh they saw ryan at the convience store by walgreens with these slutty gurls ahahaha.. hmm yeah... ive just been talkin to peepz online... me and jeff and an interesting convo, jay haz a conflict lol and kira wuz just boring ok well ima go now
tootlez
:: and all this valentines stuff is makin me sad but i try not to let it get to me::
That would be for me
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2004 10 February :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: ugh
im falling so just let me fall
u dont have to be there to catch me
im still gonna fall
That would be for me
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2004 10 February :: 9.55pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Come Away with ME by NoRaH jOnEs
my tongue got burnt...
i just got back from the iCe CaPaDeS... or wutever.. and im exhausted... i only got 4 hours of sleep last nite trying to study but i said fuck it... and then i talked to ryan till after 11 online... it wuz weird tho... i ono everything is just so WeIrD... i didnt go to sleep till after midnite which is rly late for me on a weekday and then i woke up at 5...
today wuz kinda a bad day... we had to go to our arts area first and it was dance and all freshman had an africa class with ms schmid which wuz well entertaining and very stupid... we didnt have time to dress in back to clothes to go to first period so i just put on my skirt and left my leotard and tights and went to dance... mimi stole my shoes so i went barefoot lol and then i had to walk all the way back after tellin coach rivera wut happened... when we came back to dance level 2A (or 3A im not sure wut they call us) and 4 had a guest artist but the class wuz so short cuz of the arts thing... in biology we had that damn quized and i knoe i failed no joke....o well... i knew i should have just skipped... in lunch it wuz rly funnie we took a bunch of pictures... and im trying to get carlos to talk to rico for me but rico had a rlyrlylry bad day ttoday and everytime i try to talk to him i freeze up and just say hey but he never says n e thing back and that pisses me off... ali said that he wouldnt stop telling her how much he hated me... grr..
in algebra it wuz boring but it had sum fun moments... we never went over our very hard hw tho... mr allen gave us a letter telling us which class we should take next year cuz next wenesday during A4 all freshman go to this assembly about all the courses we should take... mr allen said i should take geometry honors next year... but there is no honors class but they r thinking of making one cuz freshamn, sophomore and juniors and sum seniors will be taking it next year and they need more teachers... but this means i cant take algebra 2 next year like i wanted... o well hoo cares.
The IcE cApAdEs wuz pertay fun... it wuz me, rachel, emily and nikki and we got there like a hour and half b4 the show started... cuz they lady that took us worked there.. it wuz at the arena.. i laughed so hard but then i cried during the preformance lol.. im soooo random.. it wuz they song so... Come Away With ME by Norah JOnes and i used to love that song and it wuz so sad i cried.. no one knew tho.. then i cried when they skated to Hero by Enrique... u all knoe that one.the ixe skating wuz soo pretty i love ice skating.. ever since i wuz 5 i wanted to be a figure skater but ive only been ice skating like 3 times and i suck rly bad.. i wish i could go again.... we saw emily's daddy and i talked to ryan.. well sorta i called him and we talked for like 5 minutes and i burnt my tongue on a hot dog. OUCHIES! i gave the phone to rachel and then emily cuz they wanted to talk and then while emily wuz talkin to ryan rachel goes and spits all of this sprite all on my face and it wuz sooo nasty.. it wuz a lot too..grr it got in my contacts and in my hair but it wuz rly funnie... i guess lol it just came outta no where... i went to the bathroom to clean off but when i came back emily said that she had to hang up cuz they couldnt hear eachother but she told ryan that i would call him back... i did and he didnt pick up... i wuz dissapointed cuz i wanted to talk to him so bad and tell him everything i wuz feeling but i didnt rly get the chance... and sumtimes i think i never will bcuz my mom keeps telling me hour im never seeing him ever again and i cry myself to sleep wishing it wuz how it wuz but no matter how hard i wish... it haznt come true... yet.. i hope there is hope lol... but yeah.. ive been sleeping with the stuffed doggy he gave me for christmas for the past 2 and a half weeks and sumtimes it makes me feel better and sumtimes it justs makes me feel worse... *sigh* this sux.. i guess this is always happening to me to teach me sumthing only i wish i knew wut it wuz so i wouldnt have to go throo it ever again cuz itz so depressing... well im out.. im tired
oyeah and i think there iz sumthin rly wrong with me cuz for like the past year and a half i guet this rlyrly rly sharp pains in my chest when i breath and itz so random but it hurts ALOT. i dont wanna tell my mom it will freak her out... it goes away after a couple days most times
i love u ryan
goodnite
"cOmE aWaY wItH mE"
Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song
Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies
I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come
Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you
And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me
:: this song makes me so sad.. i think im gonna go cry now..::
That would be for me
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