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2006 16 February :: 1.32pm
:: Music: Californ-i-a by Yellowcard
so.
monday-- work
tuesday-- work/sick/ no valentine
wednesday--sick/ glamour shots with the girls/ prom dress shopping/ panera
today-- sick/no school/mona lisa smile/ tears/ called in sick for work
so on one note i would just like to mention a finding.
i think it is quite intriguing how you can say the same thing, to like almost 3 different people and expect no one to notice?
is it not genuine then?
are you trying the same concept with them to see which has the best outcome?
maybe you're so unoriginal that you cant think of different things to say, to explain how you feel.
or maybe the feelings arent really there and you are just fooling yourself to think that they are.
maybe, you say to one, what you say to the other hoping the one can replace the other because they hurt you so badly.
i just found this really interesting.
i will have further look into it.
♥
That would be for me
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2006 16 February :: 10.45am
a poem by a friend
I remember the FIRST time I met you
You had me from the start,
I remember how I FIRST wished
You would take me from the heart.
I remember the FIRST time holding your hand
And never wanting to let go,
I remember the way you made me feel
From the FIRST time we said hello.
I remember the FIRST time I hugged you close
And how I didnt want it to end,
I remember the FIRST time I kissed your lips
Even though you were just a friend.
I remember when I FIRST dreamed of you
And woke up still half asleep,
I remember I laid back down
Just to try to get back to sleep.
I remember the FIRST time I held you close
I hoped it had a meaning,
I remember the FIRST time I tasted your kiss
Inside my body was screaming
I remember the FIRST time I thought I lost you
I cried so many tears,
I remember the FIRST time I thought you hated me
I was filled with so many fears.
I remember the FIRST time I hadn’t seen you in a while
My heart began to race,
I remember the FIRST time I tried to forget you
My mind just wouldnt erase.
I remember the FIRST time I saw you
I dont think ill ever forget,
I remember the feelings Ive always had for you
Since the FIRST time we FIRST met.
That would be for me
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2006 12 February :: 8.50pm
:: Music: Wish You Were Here by Incubus
"is it dark yet?"
"yes."
"i like the dark."
"why?
"because, its quiet."
That would be for me
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2006 12 February :: 1.31am
so the oc on thursday... yeah that was amazing.
i cried... it was so sad i totally did not want johnny to die.
so basically i am in love with the oc and i'm totally mad that the next new episode isnt until march 9.
what the hell is up with that?
last night was fun, i hung out with my peoples. lindsey is hilarioussssssss. josh was being retarded and then jonet slept over it was sweet.
we chilled and then went to walmart and then lol we sat in ryan's driveway because i wanted to see if his room light was on so i could see if he really got kicked out or not. but he he really did, so he wasnt there.
butt then there was a fire like 2 houses down from his and there were like 3 firetrucks and 2 ambulences and all the police cars so we got blocked in his driveway. and i had to pee like really bad so he just sat there and watched and then josh asked the firetruck blocking us if they could move a tid bit. but the fire wasnt that bad, and everyone was ok so it was all good.
tomorow i have to go to down melbourne for my aunt's birthday but i dont really feel like it lol.
i really want to see ryan, he called me finally today but we only talked for like 5 minutes so i dunno. oh but yeah he got kicked out and lives with his uncle now...
im tired.
♥
That would be for me
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2006 9 February :: 6.51pm
can you look me in the eye
and tell me
that you're happy
now.
ooo ooo ooo
That would be for me
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2006 8 February :: 9.30pm
so don't go worrying about me
it's not like I think about you constantly
so maybe I do,
but that shouldn't affect
your life anymore
That would be for me
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2006 8 February :: 6.16pm
:: Music: The Ocean by Mae
so today was early release, which made today a relatively ok day.
i got home and went straight to sleep. woke up at 4, called work, they didnt need me to come, so i went back to sleep and woke up at 6.
i am ridiculously tired... and i have the worst headache.
ive been feeling really weird lately like im not even here.
like i cant tell the difference between being awake and being asleep.
it weird.
but i definately do not feel well... im hoping im not sick.
i have so much homework its insane and i really need to get on that.
i have a physics test tomorrow and i'm freaking out.
ahh.
oh and im definately no doing anything on valentines day this year.
again.
♥
That would be for me
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2006 7 February :: 7.38pm
:: Music: Echo by Incubus
ew,
i cant even look at it,
its so ew.
makes me want to cringe actually.
makes me sick to my stomach.
its just the thought of it
makes me want to r u n
right
back
to
you.
♥
That would be for me
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2006 7 February :: 7.25pm
:: Music: Rough Landing, Holly by Yellowcard
[ 4 months from the day ]
That would be for me
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2006 6 February :: 11.07pm
:: Music: City Of Devils by Yellowcard
i dont want tomorrow to come...
That would be for me
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2006 6 February :: 4.58pm
:: Music: Bound To Happen by THe Spill Canvas
lyricssssss
I used to know you like the back of my hand
Until today you held your place
Now you're shifting like the sand
Your chest would heave with pride if I were spoken of
'Till tonight I never knew the difference between comfort and love
Although you're sleeping right next to me
Well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream
leading a life that is finally free
of these endless nights and countless fights that turn us into
who we hate to be
This is so difficult for the both of us
I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us
Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game
All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing -
nothing will ever be the same
I used to hold you like it's all that I had
Now begins the falling out, we are like a passing fad
Your mouth would crack a smile if I were spoken of
'Till tonight you never thought
you'd lose this epic battle with love
Although you're sleeping right next to me
Well, it feels like you are wide awake in a distant dream
leading a life that is finally free
of these endless nights and countless fights that turn us into
who we hate to be
And this is so difficult for the both of us
I know we tried so hard, there's just no hope for us
Well it's more than a shame that we lost to this game
All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing -
nothing will ever be the same
For what it's worth, I've always admired you
I always thought that we could make it through
Now look what time can do
It took our masterpiece we built and broke it in two
I always believed in you
I always loved you
That would be for me
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2006 5 February :: 9.14pm
:: Music: The Truth by Staind
my mom wouldnt let me go to a super bowl party with the pacsuns
and that made me sad.
lol oh anywayssssss.
dont feel like going to school all this week,
blah
tomorrow is my induction thing for nhs and i dont feel like going my mom is making me go...
i feel a cold coming, yeah that definately suckssss.
so what you dont know how to call me anymore?
♥
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2006 5 February :: 9.06pm
:: Music: All Hail The Heartbreaker by The Spill Canvas
sweet lyricssss
I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise
But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far
I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
You are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel
But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are
I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin
I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up
So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker
That would be for me
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2006 5 February :: 7.03pm
:: Music: Miss Delaney by Jack's Mannequin
it was you i was thinking of.
That would be for me
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2006 5 February :: 12.42am
:: Music: All Hail The Heartbreaker by The Spill Canvas
well i guess now i know how you really feel.
i knoe now what were lies and what was the truth.
i have to admit i'm surprised
i never saw it coming even though i know i should've.
you decieved me
and i fell for it.
at least now my thoughts arent left to wonder.
♥
That would be for me
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