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2006 7 October :: 1.10 am
:: Mood: Better than earlier..
:: Music: "Snap Ya Fingers"- Lil Jon
Icons..
I found some more icons that I really liked... so here they are..... they made me feel a little better.. maybe they'll work that way on you too!
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2006 6 October :: 4.14 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: "Get Up"- Ciara
My feelings..
Journal,
Crying is the only thing that's constant nowadays... I feel like I'm going to be seen as either really pathetic or like I'm looking for attention or something by the way I'm always crying... But honestly, I don't mean to be. It's like I feel so empty. It literally feels like my insides have been cut out. The only thing I've noticed that's better is I'm talking to people less just to get my work done in school. I don't do anything when I get home from school. I don't hang out with anyone except for lunch and things like that.
I'm so stressed out. Like always, I'm freaking out about colleges. I want to leave Homestead already. I want to see frikkin Alyssa & it's only been 2 days. I haven't really been eating... maybe I should be. I don't know.. I've just been really upset lately. =[ I think tonight I might be going to the movies w/ my dad or to the bowling alley w/ a few friends. I need to get out or something. If I stay at home I'm going to cry myself to sleep again. Maybe I'll work on my Rubik's Cube a little more.
Well, I'm going to go.. I think I'm going to look for more icons.
I love you baby. More than anything. & I promise that I'm always going to love you. I can't wait till I can see you in December. I'm going to get you a good present! You'll see!! =] We can do it my love. Don't listen to anyone and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
[Until the day I d i e]
[I'll spill my ♥ for y o u]
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2006 4 October :: 9.17 pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: "What A Sight"- Matchbook Romance
Crying..
Hello journal...
I thought I'd handle it better.. but I mean, how good could I take it? My girlfriend.. who I love with all of my heart.. moved today. The past 2 days I helped her pack with her mom and her brother.. it was ok then.. but today when she left, damn, I don't think I've ever felt a feeling of emptiness so strong before.
This morning was fun though because Alyssa and I went to breakfast w/ Javie, Bryan, DJ, Danielle, and Alfonso. =] Those are some funny people! lol.. but anyway... back to what I was saying..
Alyssa left a little before noon. They dropped me off before they went on the road and when she was hugging me and saying goodbye, she was beginning to cry but I stopped her. When I walked into my house though.. the tears started to form. It's going to be so hard without her here. Especially because we're going to try to work out our relationship long distance. I know what everyone thinks when they here long distance, "Never going to work." I mean, I tried long distance with Mike.. but I didn't know what I was getting myself into then. I know better now and I know what not to do. I just really hope she can do it. She was starting to scare me about it because today she told me she was having a little doubtfulness.
I want to be with her so much. I really love her. More than I think she comprehends. I hope she can withstand it. =\ I told her if she loves me as much as she claims to, then she can do it. I know that I'm not going to do anything stupid.
I'm going to see her a few days before Christmas though. I've already talked to my dad and he said he'd send me up there and I'd stay for a few days. =] I'm so excited! It's going to be soo cold though! As a native Floridian, 30 degrees is like, freezing, hypothermia, weather. lol It might be as little as 10 degrees or lower there at that time! I might die... but atleast I'll see Alyssa! hehe
Well, had to get that off of my chest... I was crying too much.
[i l o v e a l y s s a]
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2006 1 October :: 9.42 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: "You Can Be As Loud As The Hell You Want"- Avenue Q
Been Awhile..
Hello!!
Yeah, it's been awhile.. sorry.. I've been really lazyy.. Anyway... school is blah... I don't have to go to school for the next 3 days because monday is teacher's planning and tuesday and wednesday are FCAT retakes.. ((I'm cool and I passed!!)) lol.. yeahh... Alyssa's leaving again.. moving back to Michigan.. & this time, she can't come back. It really sucks because now we're together and we're going to try the long distance thing because we REALLY want to be together. It's going to be really, really hard and I know that no one really has any belief that it's going to work, but I don't care. I really love her and I want to be with her. =] We should be selling the house soon too. I can't wait to leave! As much as I'm going to miss all of my friends, I need to get out of Homestead. It's really a hell masked with landscaping and buildings. =P Ahh, it's really cold.. I'm going to get a sweater. lol
ok, back.. well, I gave my only invitation code to Alyssa because she said she wanted a Woohu again.. hehe now I can read her thoughts.. hmmm..... lol
I think I'm going to write tomorrow... but I'll leave some icons!!
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[love] you till I die
Gina
I ¢¾ Alyssa
-My Love-
-My Life-
-My Everything-
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2006 14 August :: 8.47 pm
:: Mood: listless
First dayy back..
ok... So today was the first day of school... ahh I'm officially a junior! I love it! But anyway... it was so hectic today.. I didn't even get to school until about 7:35 which I was extremely mad about.. Tomorrow I'm going to get there before 7 though so I'm glad.. I actually drove to school.. so cool but so frustrating at the same time because of traffic. I had to pick my cousin up and take him to school, and then I picked up Alyssa and was on my way to same old South Dade.... ended up leaving my lights on in the car all day, so when I come outside to turn the alarm off and leave.. I don't hear a beep. I try opening the door and it's unlocked. Then, I put the key in the ignition and try to start it and NOTHING HAPPENS! Gosh.. that was the scariest thing ever... Alyssa was right next to me and she kept asking, "Are you doing it right? What's wrong with it?!" lol So, she tried and she was like.. "..oh" =P So I start to cry because it's not my car.. it's my aunt's and I had to pick my cousin up from school.. I call my dad crying. lol Saying "Dad! The car's not starting!" And I found out the lights had been on... My dad was going to get one of his coworkers to drive over to the school and give me a jump but my friend Javie, thankfully had jumper cables!! lol... so after that my day was pretty good... except for the fact that I was freaking out that those bastards in the office COMPLETELY ruined my schedule.. giving me Honors American History instead of AP.. giving me AP Physics instead of Honors.. and Not giving me chorus!! I skipped my AP Physics class just to go to chorus.. I don't flippin care... that's my future they're messing with!! ugh.. I was so mad... and then they gave me some Leadership Skills Development class... I didn't even know my school had that course! =[ but yeah... I already had homework for my AP English class... but my teacher is sooo awesome! =] well.. i think that's enough for the day... I'll try to write tomorrow!
i'll [love] her always & forever
{g i n a}
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2006 12 August :: 12.00 am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: "One More Sad Song"- The All-American Rejects
And All That Jazz..
So... bored.. looking over my mom's house.. gosh, I know I shouldn't but I think I'm going to go over to Alyssa's with Barbara's car.. eek.. I'm pretty scared though.. what if something happened and I got caught by my dad or in an accident or something... that would suck! But I'll risk it for her.. =] But yeah... school starts monday and I'm soo not looking forward to it.. I was a few days ago.. but I just got that whole "I hate school" feeling. lol The only cool thing is I get to see Alyssa, Chorus, and I can drive to school..that's about it.. Some people came over to look at our house before I left to my mom's... they seem really interested in buying it.. gayy... =[ Can't do anything about it though...
I went to Wal-Mart today w/ Alyssa and bought stuff to make bracelets! I'm so excited!! =]
Yeahh.. I think I'm going to get dressed and go over to Alyssa's for a few minutes.. so I'll write a little later...
"Just get dressed, don't do this.."
--"Number Five With A Bullet" Taking Back Sunday
[love] a l w a y s
that g i r l
i -l o v e- her
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2006 7 August :: 7.32 pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: "Gomenasai"- t.A.T.u
Those icons....
=] yay! Thanks to Ashleigh I know how to do the read more thing.. so Icons ahoy!!! lol
Read more..
But yeah... I love me some good icons.. lol ;] well, write later!
[g i n a]
i l o v e a l y s s a
2 i pretty much |
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