imaqinary
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2006 4 August :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: "I Can't Do It Alone"- Chicago Soundtrack
Seems like I'm always listening to Chicago..
Hello...
I'm pretty bored now because I came back from Alyssa's a little earlier... ((I slept over last night)) and now she's left for the weekend to Sarasota.. I have to go to my mom's this weekend.. :rolls eyes: ugh.. I'm so not looking forward to that.. But I just have to think, I'm not going to see her that much after we move anyway.. so I guess I'll see her 1 or 2 times before I leave.. Moving to Tallahassee is going to be way harder than I thought... having to part with everyone and everything I'd be leaving behind.. Alyssa.. My chorus girls and guys.. My regular school and other friends.. Mainly Alyssa though... she's everything.. Now that we're together, I feel like she's become my life.. she's more important to me than anything. I love her so much and it's going to be so hard leaving her... =[
Part of me though wants to get out of Homestead.. I mean, I'd be leaving a D school for an A school.. I'd be getting a car.. Better house.. My dad would be making more money.. & I could get a job and save up for college.. but it's going to be really hard..
Then the whole deal with Mike... we're not talking anymore because he feels that not talking will make me get over him easier.. I think it's a good thing in the sense that I won't lie to Alyssa again... & I will get over him because I can feel him being somewhat ripped apart from me.. like I'm shedding skin or something... kind of odd how someone that means so much to you one minute and the next be nothing to you...I think it's kind of sad.... and I did cry the day we stopped talking.. ((Tuesday?)) I cried myself to sleep actually... I was really upset because I felt like I was losing my best friend.. but I knew that it was necessary to me and Alyssa... but yeah.. enough with the depressing stories.... I think I'm going to write a little later because I have to put some clothes in the dryer.. =]
♥
Gina
i l o v e a l y s s a
love you
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