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2003 8 October :: 11.47pm
:: Music: get it together-midtown
so good thing john's called me back...no really, i'm SO glad...
boys, the (u)necessary evil.
homecoming is in three days. sarah and posse come in town tomorrow. is allie ready? that would be a solid hell no. going to julian's after...should be fun. hopefully, if not then i'm going to lil's. i think i'll end up there friday night as well. lil's that is.
getting my hair dyed tomorrow. a lovely golden blonde with black and red highlights. should look good..err..i hope so...
cheers.
"i'm the king of the castle, you're the dirty rascal."
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2003 4 October :: 2.00pm
:: Music: cigarettes and chocolate milk-rufus wainwright
ursuline's homecoming was last night, and ya know, it was actually a really good time. saw a lot of old friends, danced, sang...all good fun. nick was erica's date...dear god, he is beautiful. snagged a dance with him too, not too shabby eh? the shy one unleashed. ok, no, not really. but i was floating for that one song. went to bo's after the dance...nothing too exciting there. random people kept showing up, which was fine. no one i knew, but most of them were pretty people. and hey, it's always nice to have something to look at. so we left bo's, took the fellas' home and went back to laura's. spent the night there, came home, and now i'm here. might be seeing zach and adam today. how bout them apples? two boys in one day. hah! we'll just have to see what happens...
cheers.
" i could be lugubrious with you."
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2003 28 September :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: for nancy-pete yorn
so guess what i found out today. it's my fault that we left the house and my dad. yep, that's right, because of what I wanted, we left. thanks for the memo mom!
on a happier note. i called john yesterday. i finally got some nerve, who would have thought? i asked if he would want to go to the pete yorn concert with me (one of my current loves) and he seemed genuinely interested. he's going to call me later this week with the final word. i really like this one. i don't know what it is about him, there's just something that i can't stop thinking about. i don't know if i like this vulnerable effect being in like has on me. not so sure i'm a fan. this could turn out good tho. maybe i should look at the brighter side of this particular situation, it would be a good change of pace.
ursuline's homecoming is friday. veilie asked me to go with her. should be fun. she'll probably be the funnest date i've ever had.
summit's homecoming is in two weeks. still dont have a date. bum.
that's all i got. oh, for anyone that reads this, never tell someone they're undecisive. ever. that is all.
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2003 15 September :: 5.32pm
last week was just bad news.
sept. 11.
johnny cash died.
john ritter died.
i got sick.
failed a test.
argh. on the upside, i finally got around to buying the new dashboard cd. puts me in a good mood. i'm not so sure if i'm a fan of this new jazzed up "hands down". the acoustic version off the so impossible ep is one of my favorite songs, but i don't know if i like it this way or not. hmm...
homecoming is in less then a month. i need a dress, shoes, and a date. ready...go!
went up to tcs today. ah, the college school. as much as i hate to admit this i absolutely adore that place. neither sarah webster or judy were there today tho, kinda bummed me out. but i hung out with jeanne and john. they make me happy. saw caleb liberman. holy mother of god, he is gorgeous. pretty sure it shouldn't be allowed seeing as he's still in freaking middle school...but jeez. the kids a looker, to say the absolute least.
sigh, i have a biology project that needs to be done. i didn't have school today so i really can't complain too much on the subject. i really do like school this year. i like being with my friends again. classes are good, and homework really isn't that bad. i just have no tolerance for it. i really should get doing that...tune in next time.
cheers!
"read me the letter baby, do not leave out the words. stories and cigarettes ruined the lives of lesser girls."
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2003 26 August :: 9.18pm
one week down, and you know it's goin pretty well. i like it a lot there. we had a "fall sports kick off dollar dance" last friday...lizz, lauren and i went. it was fun for the most part. we just laughed and danced and didn't care. went over to tommy's sat. night with the girls. sonny was there. he's so much fun. i'm pretty sure lauren has a thing for him, which hey, can't say i blame her. so we watched orange country and jay and silent bob strike back, and attempted to play pool. it was a good time. well homework is calling...till then. cheers!
"I'ts ladies night at the bar and she smokes a mans cigar. i guess she's dying, oh well.
i dont give a fuck about your dignity, thats the bastard in me."
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2003 18 August :: 5.10pm
:: Music: if only she knew-o.a.r
first day of school. new school, people, classes, teachers...new everything. it was a good first day tho. found all my classes, met some new people. my lunch shift is excellent. most of the usual suspects and a few other favorites all have it with me. i'm liken this being- able-to-wear-whatever-i-want-to-school thing. and co-ed schools are always a good thing. i think it should be a good year. lets certainly hope so.
cheers.
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2003 11 August :: 1.30pm
:: Music: cheating-jettingham
orientation is in a half hour and i'm sitting here in a bathrob with a towel wrapped aroud my head turban style. i don't really want to go, to say the least. i mean the new school part is kinda cool...i'm not going back to hell next year, and a co-ed school will be nice. sigh, i don't know. i guess i'll have to go to see what this is all about. i get my schedule today too...yikes, i start in a week...too soon if you ask me.
well, i guess i should get ready or something...pictures get taken today...hoo-rah.
cheers.
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2003 7 August :: 12.10pm
back home again and wishing i wasn't. mexico was absolutely wonderful. i really, really don't want to be home right now. i'm in a different home now as well. mom and i moved into the villa, so last night was my first night staying here. it's nice, but really weird.
sigh, i have about 800 things i need to do today. my summer is pretty much over...who wants to go back to mexico with me?
cheers.
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2003 30 July :: 12.57am
:: Music: cold-stupid girl
i leave for mexico tomorrow. i'm really excited. it'll be a nice little get away. lizz is running around furiously trying to finish packing...we have to be up and adam in 5 hours...blah. it'll be worth it. i'll tell you all how it went when i come home, because i'm sure you're all DYING to know...
cheers.
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2003 23 July :: 6.17pm
do you ever feel like people are mocking you?
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2003 20 July :: 10.40pm
:: Music: miss you love-silverchair
back home again. wyoming was absolutely gorgeous. beats the hell out of st. louis. stayed in a mansion for a couple days. free of charge mind you. i'm so glad my daddy's boss is rich. went white water rafting, knew more then the guide and probably could have done a better job then he did, but whatever. it was fun. beau and i were really cool most of the trip. he helped me play poker because i'm quite possibly the worst card player ever. he also agreed to be my pool partner even tho the only balls i ever get in are the 8 ball...or a ball for the other team. we won anyway, thank god he's good...he seems to be good at everything...hmm...
got a new journal. it's very pretty. the one i wanted was the beautiful leather handmade one...but it costed over $100...so i got the $12 version instead. i also got a pair of boxers to add to my collection and a nice hoodie. i also went to a bob dylan concert. the poor guy has completely snorted, smoked, tripped, and injected himself retarded...but it's dylan, the guy's a legend. ended with all along the watch tower, one of my favorites, and before that was like a rolling stone so i was a happy girl. bought a shirt of some crazy old hippie man. it's so chill...tye died...i adore it.
we went took a tram to the top of one of the tetons and watched paragliders (sp?) for a while. that's one of the coolest things i've ever seen, pretty sure. you get a parachute and run of the side of a mountain. i could have done it had we gone a day earlier, but we left for my dad's bosses the next day so...not to mention it was $200. i got a firm promise from beau that we would go next time. i smiled not only because i would go paragliding...but because there would be a next time. this crush is ridiculous. i've known the kid my whole life, he's actec like an older brother to me for as long as i've known him. it's just creepy that i have any sort of attraction towards him. but, then again, if you saw the guy i think you would understand where i'm coming from. he's highly intimidating...but, i'm also very easily intimidated. it's weird, i thought he had always seen me as the annoying little sister that he had to put up with is whole life...but we were cool this trip. i could justify it with saying we're both older or whatnot...which, i'm sure is part of the reason...but i don't know. the comfortabless was just cool. anyway, i should get going. i need some sleep...hasn't happened in a while.
"i'm a cult classic, not a best seller."
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2003 8 July :: 8.06pm
:: Music: buddy holly-weezer
i never told you about warped tour now did i? well, to be honest, it was a little dissapointing. last year was just, incredible. and this year was kinda..eh. dont get me wrong, i had a great time but the line up wasn't as impressive, and i only met one band. my shirt from last year is completely filled with band signatures and i have pictures galore of me and different so and so's. meeting afi was pretty exciting tho. i will say, the ataris rocked my world and i have a new found love for the mad caddies.
in other news i went and saw my mom in showboat last night at the muny. dear god, it was hot. the muny is the largest outdoor theater in the world which is pretty cool. i've only done two shows with them, but it's still fun to say i've worked there. my mother, on the other hand started back in the 70's and has been on and off since. she works at different theaters all over town but this one is her favorite, mine too. anyway, joey was also in the show...ahh i think i'm starting to like this one, which is bad seeing as jarob and i are still "together". he asked for my number last night at the after party and gave me his. i can't decide if he likes me or is just wanting a friendship deal. who knows? not me. i guess we'll jus wait and see if he calls...
tomorrow is lolapalooza! we all know what that means...allie's seeing incubus!!! sorry, only a minor obsession i have. the distillers are playing as well which should be a reaallly good set. brodie armstrong is amazing. plain and simple. i wish i could scream/sing like that. i wonder how she does it...
that's all for now. i'm tired and have to clean. story of my life.
"...like what i happen to be wearing the day someone takes a picture is my new statement for all of woman kind."
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2003 5 July :: 10.30pm
Grafofoni Columbia which means your the fun one.
The What Vintage Painting Are You Quiz
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i have this painting...i've always been partial to it.
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2003 2 July :: 8.37pm
:: Music: closer-nine inch nails
yet again, i have managed to piss off more then my fair share of people. my mother thinks all i do is take her and dad for granted and i don't appreciate how much they do for me. i left the kitchen messy, that's how this conversation came about. lizz and jarob are mad because i didn't go to the movies with them last night. i had good reason. no ride, no money, and an angry mother. so sarah and lil came and got me. we went to clayton's and watched memento...a very, very good movie by the way. confusing as hell, but excellent. ray's been on the phone with her mother since tuesday night fighting over conor staying at their house. the tension is so thick in this house i'm pretty sure you could cut out little shapes. they're coming back over after dinner. i have no idea what we're doing tonight, but it's getting out of the house. that's all that matters, that's all that ever matters. so if anyone would like to take me in for a while, please let me know. i don't need much, honest. a little food, some water. all i need is a way to get out of here. out of this house, out of this town.
as of now i have no plans for the 4th. hooray for allie.
i leave for wyoming in a week or so. should be fun. as long as beau stays chilled out we should be fine. i hope...
well i have to go get ready. don't know really why tho. it's not like we're going anywhere special. probably lillian's living room like always. we'll sit there and stare at eachother and whine that we should be doing something. call a few people, well, only if we can reach the phone, maybe they'll come over or they'll decline the invitation and it will be a night like all the others. another one to put on the shelf. we always used to have some exciting adventure to go on. somewhere to go someone to see. sigh, what happened to those days? hell if i know.
tune in next time friends...
i wonder if anyone reads this...hmmm
"lets go find a roadside motel with a clerk who won't tell. days will turn into nights, nights will turn into days, weeks seasons and years."
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2003 30 June :: 4.40pm
:: Music: just sarah rummaging through her makeup bag
they're here. well, sarah is. conor left yesterday around 1. i didn't spend his last night here with them. instead, i went and saw charlie's angels with meg. why? well, i have my reasons...we'll just leave it at that.
they're getting ready to leave to go to the galleria, lil and sarah that is. allie gets to stay here and wait for the yard guys to show up and leave.
watching two girls try and get ready at the same time, with only one mirror, one hair dryer, and one straightener, is...um...comical? only when it's these two.
charlie hurley just im'd me. what the hell? we hate eachother. like, seriously hate. he's asking me what i'm doing tonight. maybe it's a joke. i'm sure it is...
it's june in st. louis, easily 90 degrees outside, and i'm sitting here in a long sleeve shirt under a down comforter freezing...what's wrong with this picture?
sigh. sarah's telling me to go take a shower so she can "play with my hair" i suppose it looks like i'm going on this shopping outing as well...ready set go...
"and that's what you get for falling again."
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