"Thinking's hard - let's just kill it!"
okay so wtf is a runtime error? xanga is just being weird.

so yesterday was love! Chris came over and it was loads of fun, we talk about.. well.. shit.. i dunno.. lots of things XD He had the BRIGHT idea of walking down to country fair. IT WAS FREEZING! but on the way back it wasn't that bad, i bought a cream cheese danish and a bag of wint-o-green lifesavers that i've already inhaled n.n

today lana came to visit with her baby, she was cute. she liked me, but weird enough most babies do O.o my mom said she was a really cute baby but to me babies all kinda look the same o.o they're going back to russia to visit relatives (lana's mom, etc) what fun!

so i talked to my mom a little and sometime in the future nisai is going to teach me some japanese, and i may get lessons from the internet... i told her i wanted to be an exchange student and she was all "omg no that's too long! -____-" XD i'm going to changer her mind. i swear it. i mean, i know, don't get me wrong, i'm totally lucky stars for getting to go ONCE. but i don't want that to be the end. dreams don't end that way, and i'll be damned if i let that happen to mine.

mom's making steak for dinner ^.^ yummi

damnit, i wish i'd get over this cold! somebody just kill me XD!!

Okay so. Teh band kids have embarked to florida, by bus. HA. Even my plan ride to Japan won't be that long xDD And we have convined dearest Krystal to come visit us in art! ho ho!

So i brought the pie thing home, and i was just like to my mom: "I TOLD you i had it taken care of :P" and she got pissed but i don't care xDD i told Mrs. Tharpe about it and she was like "Jeez! It's not like i would have done anything with it, plus you called me -- twice." so i told her i didn't know if i did it right the first time and she told me it was hard because you have to wait for the recording to finish but, heh, i didn't, i just punched in the extension right away xDD So like yeah. I felt triumphant :D Once again Brooke escapes punishment and disaster!

Btw, Ryan Nichols is like totally awesome, we have fun in computer class and health! Listening to PENICILLIN today and distracting him from his work ^_^

I'm totally looking forward to this weekend, simply because of the days off, and i'm not going to my dad's so i don't have to go anyway, and that's the great thing about it. I'm just going to sleep ^_~ (unless something better comes up, but what's better than sleeping? ha. thought so.)

BUT. I DO have to babysit tomorrow - - ;; Maybe something will come up and i won't have to. That happens, you know.

Btw, how am i ever going to roll up a million roses? _-_ it's going to take me forever... I only have like 41,000 something... not nearly enough >.< damnit

Nova is cool. I made her up, and she's totally awesome. She's got superpowers. But, all teh people in her story do. But Nova is my favorite ^^ (shhh, don't tell the others o.o)

PS. I hate it when people advertise their problems like it's some type of badge of honor. nobody thinks your cool because you go to therapy. You're not cool if you WANT to go to therapy. Shut the fuck up.

So. I did have plans for saturday, but sadly neither chris nor als could come. But i guess it's just as well since i'm krank (sick), and i don't think i would have enjoyed my company, and they would'nt either, and i don't want to go infecting anybody now do i? Aber ich still went out with mein vatti und wir went to go eat somewhere, und wir went to get movies :D Mein Vatti said ich should have something to do while being krank. So ich got Mirrormask*, Speak, und JU-ON.

Mirrormask was amazing. simply supurb. Ein of mein lieblingsmovies by far. Speak was spitze auch, sie stayed pretty true to das buch aber sie left out some parts, und sie changed a few things, aber it was still klasse. It made mich cry : ( JU-ON was toll auch, much scarier than the amerikanisch version, aber the amerikanisch version did have more backstory, aber it focused more on one character than the original. the original was a whole string of deaths of peole who entered the haus. It made mich see images of the lady wann ich went to sleep, and ich heard the japanisch people talking in my head, it was a whole druggy effect, scary but entertaining, ich weisse nicht how much of that time ich was actually sleeping

Bist du like mein incorporate deutsch? XD

NEWS BULLETIN: some madchen just called on the callwave asking for Ashley O_O. Und. ich forgot. MONSTER RANCHER EVOLUTION. COMING IN APRIL. BITCHES!

I've got a big closet =)
Lord Nikuru: I'm too lazy to clear out my closert.
Lord Nikuru: closet**
LeaveWhiteAsh: my closet just has close and some other stuff
LeaveWhiteAsh: clothes*
Lord Nikuru: lol
Lord Nikuru: Mine's got...
Lord Nikuru: A ton of junk.
Lord Nikuru: And clothes.
LeaveWhiteAsh: haha
LeaveWhiteAsh: my closet is too small for a lot of junk
Lord Nikuru: I've got a decent sized closet.
LeaveWhiteAsh: holly shit
LeaveWhiteAsh: i'm such a pervert
LeaveWhiteAsh: i totally took that in bad context XD
Lord Nikuru: Holly shit? lol, what?
LeaveWhiteAsh: 'i've got a decent sized closet'
LeaveWhiteAsh: such a perv xDD
Lord Nikuru: Clos.et...
Lord Nikuru: XD
Lord Nikuru: Wow.
LeaveWhiteAsh: yeah that was pretty bad
LeaveWhiteAsh: well, it didn't matter what word was at the end
LeaveWhiteAsh: it was just the
Lord Nikuru: lol
Lord Nikuru: I get what you mean.
LeaveWhiteAsh: "i've got a pretty decent sized" part that set me off XD
Lord Nikuru: "I'VE GOT A BIG CLOSET."
LeaveWhiteAsh: YES
LeaveWhiteAsh: XD
Lord Nikuru: But, yeah.
Lord Nikuru: It IS big.
LeaveWhiteAsh: XD
LeaveWhiteAsh: !!!!!
Lord Nikuru: :P

one two step, step by step
I'm so lyke totally updating!

The fountain. WTF. It's so stupid and ugly, and.. stoopid XD. It's just... sitting there... ugh... stoopit tacky fountain XD You may have brainwashed my family you shall not take me too xDDD

So, yesterday well, um, oh let's see, the freak was still sick so i didn't have to baby sit, starting to take a nap, Chris called me and we gabbed for a while XD He was going to come over but my mom couldn't give him a ride home, oh well, some other time. XD But i have to say our chats on teh phone are the best <3. Then when my mom got home i went with her to cash in some checks i had (two from babysitting, one from my saturday job, 123 dollars total :O) put it all in teh bank haha. I didn't have to work today, but my mom said more stuff will probably come up and it's probably gonna end up being a few saturdays a month and maybe stuff in teh summer. the we got my sister and then we went to the store and got movies, i wanted to get The Weatherman but they were out. so my mom ended up picking The Wedding Crashers and The Corpse Bride, i slept at home until around 1 when they put in the corpse bride, my sister made jess help her make smoothies (she was all bent on making them tonight, despite what other people wanted to do) they asked me if i wanted one but i didn't. We watched the corpse bride, then i slept more on the couch and eventually went to bed.

Today my mom is painting more of the bathroom (man she gets cranky when she's working in there XD) It's slowly turning purple, it will be weird, cuz this is the first makeover the bathroom had. I finally got to watch Ma Vie En Rose, though, hehe, for the colorful movie it was it was kinda sad. I felt so bad for Ludo the whole time ;;

that was all i did, just hung around otherwise.

the fountain is gay! >:O

BTW,

I realized that, in 10-20 years from now, i will look back at this journal and learn absolutely NOTHING about my life as a teenager.

Swing low sweet cherry
Make it awful
It's your life, it's your party, it's so awful
Let's start a fire
Let's start a riot! Yeah it's awful
It was punk
Yeah, it was perfect now it's awful

They know how to break all the girls like you
And they rob the souls of the girls like you
And they break the hearts of girls

Swing low, cherry, cherry
Yeah it's awful
He's drunk, he tastes
Like candy, he's so beautiful
He's so deep like dirty water
God, he's awful
You're lost, oh, where's your daddy -it's so awful

And they royalty rate all the girls like you
And they sell it out to the girls like you
To incorporate little girls

Hey, run away with the light
Run away its divine
Let's run away, yeah, tonight, and
We'll steal the light of the world

Swing low, sweet cherry, yeah its awful
You're gonna ripe for the picking, it's so awful
You've got your youth
Don't waste your money
Yeah its awful
I was punk!
Now I'm just stupid
I'm so awful

Oh, just shut up you're only 16

If the world is so wrong
Yeah you can break them all
With one song
If the world is so wrong yeah you take it all
With one song

Swing low sweet cherry
Make it awful
hey bought it all, just build a new one.
Make it beautiful...yeah

hey popstar you look real silly, i wanna kill you now (kill, kill, kill)
Attention: Bis is the best power pop group ever. thank you.

wake up mind master mind
I'm bored. not wait, I'm pissed. When i'm bored i have nothing to do but be pissed. So which am I? Bored or pisssed? pissed pissed pissed pissed. it sounds funny when you say it too much.

Damnitkladsjflkadsjfldsajflsadj I promised my mom i'd clean my room today.. it is nightmarish in there, but.. wahh.. _-_ well i want it to be clean but i don't want to do it myself XD and i have to start my journal entry for people to people, and later start looking for a current event. Origami cranes aren't due till later :)

my grandma kidnapped me to go to wal mart, but she got me pocky (one box is already gone..) and more green nailpolish 'cos mine dried up (bastard..) i feel really guilty because she wanted to get me food but i passed and she wanted to know if i wanted to go to her house or mine and i said mine.. :{ damn that looks like a mustaschio. anyway, yeah, i feel really bad because i'm such a people pleaser. In fact, actually i first told her i didn't want to go to wal mart but i felt bad and called her back and told her I'd go.. : /

so who else has off for president's day? (stfu casey and als, i didn't mean you xDD)

everyone calls me crazy 6th beast
hmm.. so i looked over at the dog bed and expected to see Dakota there, that made me sad. I keep having dreams where he's around again, even though he's dead in the dreams, i still see him and touch him. Then i had a dream where he came back to life _-_ *sigh* It's just not the same without him here. But, at least, we are getting a baybay in the summer, another rotty, don't tell Jess though XD

So we are doing more career things in english class, and we got a book today. Did you know the number of job openings for a commercial artist per year in PA is 40? Pitiful. A photographer has more, but they get paid less :] They didn't even list fashion designer in there. It's hard to narrow down the choices. Can't i just do them all?

We made rainbows today in science class :]

My mom said i could save up for Sebring, but first i have to worry about saving for my trip. She also said that when/if i get him, i have to keep him in a display case when he's not in "use" ( >:D ) That's alright with me, he'll look smexy under glass XD

I'm waiting for my mp3 player to come and the anticipation is eating me from my toes up. >.< I wonder if my Jenny shoes have come yet xDD

I realised something, at least, i think i have. About personal things. One of my big drawbacks that i've found ( or choose to acknowledge) is that i lack serious motivation. I need something that makes me care, and inspires me. Where is it? I've realised also that when i talk about myself i feel like a liar.

I think that's it.. well.. yeah.. pretty sure? Did i miss anything?

i know i got the answer for ya baby
woah. did anybody else just watch that puppet thing on toomani? The dubbing was B-A-D BAD but the puppets were smexy XD

One, two, ready go

I'm tired of boys who make me cry
They cheat on me and they tell me lies
I want a love who'll never stray
When he sees other girls, he looks away
And if he never kisses me, well that's alright
'Cos we can just cuddle all night

Gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I don't really care that you are queer
Gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I never feel lonely when you are near

It'll be a great romance
We'll go shopping and buy tight pants
You don't care how big my ass is, just how fabulous my dress is

Gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I don't really care that you are queer
Gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I never feel lonely when you are near

One, two, ready go
You cry at movies, on our dates
Romantic comedies sure are great
But when you're sad I'll dry your tears
'Cos I'll always think that you are fierce

I like cigarettes, and that's no gag
But you'll always be my favourite fag
You'll always be my favourite fag
You'll always be my favourite faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag

My gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I don't really care that you are queer
Gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I never feel lonely when you are near
Gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I don't really care that you are queer
Gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I never feel lonely when you are near
Gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I don't really care that you are queer
Gay boyfriend, gay boyfriend
I never feel lonely when you are near