concrete, go smoke
my voice is all raspy and low and crackly and flemmy right now. i just called emjay, and i was like "hhh-e-e-e.yy." yeah. kinda like that. lol.
yesterday MJ called lindsay lohan and she picked up and she called him a der and said never to call again. i called like 16 people. mostly fruck you's and whatnot. lol. now i found seth green and stephen king. i feel like an idiot for not seeing it before. seth green is hott. eminem has a trippy number, yo. its like 776 7643. lol. i called deryk from sum 41. and his answering machine was funny.

schliess auf diese tur
i got my shoes today. they are so rad. oxfords own. im pretty sure theyre gonna be the next emo kid shoes. if not, who cares. at least i think theyre awsome.
tomorrow im going to chicago. ill be back on saturday i think. it should be fun. i burned 3 cds today. it took forever cuz my computer's a bastard.

RAWR
im so jealous, i wanna take a baseball bat and beat someone up. have you EVER fealt THAT jealous? i think not. kevin gave my brother tickets to taste of chaos. i wanna cry. its not fair. if someone doesnt get me tickets for that feb18 show, im gonna die of envy of his posession of those tickets. ill probably not be allowed to go, but...meh. i must.

circus, clowns!
friday was my dads birthday, and we had the thanksgiving dinner we didnt have last year. OMG it was so funny, my dad was blowing out the candles and he blew so hard, he blew part of the cake away!
i was at wal-mart, and i was getting new shampoo(garnier fructis. it smells so, so good) and then we were looking for cards for my dad, and she was holding the bottle and kept opening the lid, and the shampoo came out, so she had to go back and get another bottle, and she did it again, so i was like 'gimme that'. so i was looking at this card, and the bottle fell out of my arms and the entire bottle broke in half, and it got all over the aisle, and people slipped on it! it was glorious! and laurie stepped in it on accident, and she slipped and got white all over her black shoes, and we ran to the clothes aisle so no one would see that i dropped it, and i was like 'wipe it off on your pants' and some old guy was watching us. lol.
then last night we went to the circus. it was pretty gay. the clowns were ugly, and the chinese and trapese guys were wearing sequin tights(ew) and the guy kept saying annoying stuff to the tigers. oo! one tiger swatted at him, and tried to bite him. it was awsome. ryan fell asleep. and we got home at like 2 and i slept on the ground in my clothes cuz i was too tired and lazy to do anything, and i havent taken a shower today, or even changed.

No Skoking.
one time my dad was renting a jeep, and there was a sign on the windsheild and it said 'No Skoking' and then someone took a permanent marker and crossed out one of the Ks and replaced it w/an M, but they put it in the wrong place so it said 'No Skoming'.
im wearing sumthing on my wrist thats supposed to go on a guitar.

ruff!
im making cookies. it is taking almost exactly two days to make them. in about for more hours. its soo long and hard to make and i better not screw them up this time. last time i tried, they got runny all over the place. and they have..."espresso" in em. so far i have: 1 cookies done. i bet my sister already ate that one.
yesterday after church i went out to the treehouse and chilled. i had a big fluffy feather comforter and foam pillows and music and video games and a phone. it was so awsome. but this treehouse isnt as good as our other one in the philly. that one is actually in a tree. and it has stairs and a window seat and electric lights and electricity and a bed and a balcony and a gate. this one is just the ones you get at sams for 700 bucs.

no you do...
OMG so today Mario was here and i was like playing some Jack Johnson song on the piano that i heard last night that i learned when i woke up this morn. and i was like 'hey yo wanna see muh rat?' and he was like 'rat...' so i went to my room where Lars was sleeping and picked up Mr.Shadows and Brett was like 'look how big his testacles are' lmao. then i put the rat on Mario and he was like 'eww get it off me!'.
i did my homework in the treehouse today. it was fun. except theres no roof cuz its not done yet.

shmoo
im writing the same exact thing as i did in my livejournal this post cuz i dont feel like trying to paraphrase my weekend. :
my bird is doing such random stuff. shes like 'hi!' and then she makes this kissing noise(where'd she learn that?!...teeheehee), and then she goes 'WEEOOO!'. and now shes jumping in circles. haha! alright. here's what i got fo crixmas(only the stuff i can think of. from everyone):
a rat(i named him lars. and his nickname name is pierr, cuz he looks totally french!. hes bald, and pink, and has pink eyes. and a curly mustache. since he has no hair, i can paint him w/e colors i want!)
mario party 6
2 spongebob controllers
super monkeyball 2
jacket from urban outfitters
clothes from aeropostale and whatnot
stuff for lars/pierr
silkworm farm
a zigzag shelf(thats the best i can describe it)
letter seals(really expensive and really cool)
a moshi frog and cat
billy idol:greatest hits(good cd)
green speakers
$50 sony earphones(the ones that block out outside sounds. theyre so cool)
pinstripe trousers
like $300 cash(double if i add my sister's money. we just put all our money together)
this thing where you grow plants in gel(its pretty cool. my brother got it for me)
my mom got a cello. and my sister can play it really good. i can play godspeed you black emperor's east hastings on it and part of introduction and polonaise
i dont think ill list anymore.

whoa. now my mom's bird is doing random stuff. she said 'hi' 6 times in a row. and then she caughed, and then she like made this weird noise like shes dying, and then she goes 'come here!'. now she laughing.
it took me like a half hour to write this whole thing. i always get so sidetracked. like ill be sitting in my room doing homework, and ill see markers and start coloring my papers. or ill be walking to the bathroom, and ill remember sumthing, and ill just forget about the bathroom and do w/e.

the new and...definitely not improved...
crixmas tomorrow! presents fo me! i saw polar express w/my mom and dad and sister last night. my dad snuck this huge bag of pistaccios in, and he was making all this noise trying to open them, and then he threw them at people.

take it now. right now.
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stupid, stupid humans!
today, i was at pepe's, and i was like 'chocolate stones.' and then i turned around and mario's face was in my face. and eric was like....really really tall like he always is. then later i was walking my dog and mario pulls up crazy-like, in eric's car w/eric and he's like 'dont tell your mom i was driving.' and then i was like 'i have a present for you' and they were both like 'for me?!' and like they both wanted a present, and looked all cute and whatnot, and i gave it to mario and he like turns around so eric wont see what it is, and hes like 'omg. thank you. its soo cool, eric you cant see it.its mild sauce.' and mario's like so happy hes making a big deal, and erics like 'whats so good about mild sauce?' and marios like 'its mild sauce, eric'. marios like so cool. he always keeps stuff instead of throwing it on the ground like its worth nothing cuz its from me. one time i gave him my oatmeal creme pie wrapper and he kept it.

oh you.
i hate the new woohu. its really gay. and when did they change it? cuz i only updated last week or so.

i went to the pa-raid. i got ice cream. and i shot extra-spitty spitballs at: band geeks, a hobo w/a box of cotton candy(maybe he was a vendor), my dad(twice), and some kid's hand that got in the way while i was trying to shoot a passer-by.

f u
i have a really really long post i need to post. so instead of typing the whole thing, im just gonna c&p what ive already told sumone.
my parents made me quit taking violin lessons. i was supposed to have one today, and they called my teacher and told her im not taking anymore. i hate them for that. and i never wanna see them again. last night they woke me up at like 1145 to give me this stupid 2 hour lecture on how, since i have money, i should provide for myself. and then, they came up w/the great idea of not taking any lessons at all, cuz theyre not willing to invest in me anymore, that they shouldve given it all to my brother, who, out of all of us, has become the most motivated, and has never even taken a guitar lesson(and is still better than anyone out there right now). its like their cutting off my education. so i guess im not good enough for them. that 4 years of work, to them, means nothing. and i cried last night(something that doesnt happen often, only once every 6 months). and they think that i spend my days on the computer or watching tv. well how would they know that when theyre not home half the time? plus, we dont even have tv, so how is that possible?! yesterday i spent 2 1/2 hours trying to write an essay on a question that makes no sense at all. see, taking away violin lessons would be a good thing for them to do if they wanted to kill me. last night i woke up 5 times crying, cuz music is the reason i live, and if you take it away, what is there to do but die? of course, i can still play, but they cant expect me to get anywhere with it. so really...if you look at it hard...theyre punishing themselves.

...
ive started drawing. last night i was feeling depressed cuz everyone hates me, so i took a mechanical pencil and drew. i drew weird things. like...the entire backgroung will be all random shapes and shades, and then there will be a door(no one know where i leads, thats the point). or a ripped up heart with bleeding eyes. or a dead tree with and abandoned nest(mostly cuz it looks pretty cool in pencil). and at 2 this morning i drew a horse, and if you look closely, you can see the word 'weakness'. i found out i can also draw impossible things, like the joy of sorrow(i havent figured how yet, but it sounds really cool). like if i gave you the word...raw, the first thing that comes to your mind would be an example of sumthing raw(such as a decaying cow), but it wouldnt be raw itself.

liars...all of you...
my mom said we're not doing anything today. yeah right! now we're having like 15 of her cousins over. i dont even know them. and then we're going to my brother's girlfriend's house for dinner.
i shouldve gone to new york like i was supposed to.

drags down
there was something my friend alex was telling me a long time ago that popped into my mind just now. he was saying that alot of these so called 'friends' will leave you to burn in hell, that you gotta find people you can take with you the rest of your life, that'll raise you higher. and at this point im not sure who goes where. but im pretty sure most of them are dragging me down.

my heart burns only for you
i hate it when my clock lies to me. i woke up and it said 105 so i was like "oh good" and i get up, super-tired, and i go to the kitchen, and the real clock says 1035.
then i was making cornbread muffins for breakfast, and i put them in the oven. the istructions said 'cook for 15-17 minutes', which actually means 'if you want black muffins, cook for 15-17 minutes. otherwise, 12 will do just fine'. so i put it in for 12. 12 minutes later, i get them out of the oven, and the effing hell is burnt out of em.