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2005 11 March :: 4.43pm
:: Mood: shocked
:: Music: disturbed-down with the sickness
today was interesting. first mod, we had an assembly about the shooting stuff so myers wasted 15 minutes of mr. snyder's class...but hey, i can't complain. when we were walking to the assembly, mr. snyder stopped me and read my shirt - then hannah was like: "OMG, THAT WAS JUST AN EXCUSE SO HE COULD LOOK AT YOUR BOOBS!" haha...so funny...
anyways, the whole assembly, i sat beside joey house...yeah, my ex <3...haha...so anyways, we went back to mr. snyder's class and he read off these jokes...then we read a few pages in some book. then mod two. so mod two, nothing interesting happened. mod three was sad. -everyone- left the class to see 50 minutes of the play. well i was one of the...like...eight that stayed back. it was actually fun; i played hangman with ashley, kylie, josh, and some other people. then i talked to alex k. and just...talked...and then i talked to john about concerts and bands and music and how stereotyping and shit is so overrated. well, it was really fun, and the people that were left back finally got to see the REAL side of me. in german, everyone thinks i'm a conservative little freak; but you can ask any of my friends: i'm a total goof, etc. etc. they finally saw that...and...well, let's just say "some" of the people didn't because they were at the play. okay, okay, one.
so fourth mod came...that was pretty cool, lol. annette, evan, and i all hung out like old times. it was so fun. i really miss that, lol. well i have to say i kinda had my eyes on someone for a lot of the mod, lol, but hey, i can't help myself. HAHA. anyways, at like, 3, we got locked out of the band room with a few other people. that was pretty crazy. well, the rest of the mod was fairly boring...sooooo...then, i met up with leah and tricia and we walked to rita's. omg omg omg mmmmm mango gelati. sooooo good. well then we kept hopping between machen music and the driving school ((since frank like, owns it))...well eventually, guess what happened? here comes NICK MAZZEI into the school. i almost FAINTED. i was like..."omg omg omg" and so we ran back to machen. he kept staring at me though...he totally remembers me. after all...how could he forget our..."relationship?" haha...we might not have really been DATING as to say...but...okay, here's one word; wow. he grew taller. HAHA. he's just more proof i *tend* to like shorter guys. i think that's starting to turn around now...
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2005 11 March :: 8.43am
PS- I love you, John.
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2005 10 March :: 4.46pm
:: Mood: drunk
:: Music: taking back sunday-cute without the 'e' (cut from the team)
today in us studies, it was great. lol. first, hannah, robert, alicia, and me ((and kinda leah and julie)) were talking about the shooting threats...i was like: "i'm wearing a bulletproof vest tomorrow!" and so they were like: "YEAH! ME TOO!" then i was like: "and i'm going to pimp up my car like 50 cent!" haha...so funny...
well, i turned and sat in my desk like i was in a roller coaster and was like: "WOOOO I'M IN A ROLLER COASTER!" then i like, spazzed and was like..."damn i've gotta get on one..." and i started screaming, lol...then i was like: "AHHHH! ADRENALINE RUSH!" and robert was like: "if you want a real adrenaline rush, throw snowballs at cars!"
i was like: "oh. my. god."
so i told them the story about how last year, we were pulling out of northern middle with our new car...and that all of a sudden, BAM!, a snowball hit our windshield by fountain head road. right away, robert looked at me and his eyes got real big...then i went into more detail about how i have never been that scared or seen my mom that angry because she floored it through these back roads, cut through peoples' yards, serious to god rage...well then we found the kids and slammed on our brakes and asked their names. about the part where i said she was flooring it trying to find these kids, robert was like: "OH SHOOT! THAT WAS ME! THAT WAS US!!!"
so i finally know who hit our windshield that day!!! it was robert! ahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
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2005 10 March :: 3.40pm
:: Mood: terrified
:: Music: green day-jesus of suburbia
OH. MY. GOD.
well, the school was put under lock-down. my mom heard about it from my stepdad, who works at the jail. he called my mom right away and TOLD her to pick me up because they were under lockdown, wouldn't let anyone out ((unless their parents came to get them))...also, he said that the school called the police to get more to come to the school...
...myers said that they didn't find anything, but his voice was so shaky on the intercom, you could tell. if there was nothing wrong...:
why would myers be so uptight? why were we under lockdown? why were they actually excusing students from school if their parents came? ((normally they make a big deal out of it!!!))
anyways...pretty scary shit. i swear to god. every locker break i was so tense and sweaty, just thinking someone was going to get shot. it was scary...
they might close the school tomorrow. i just hope my friends are okay...the school is on lockdown until further notice...
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2005 10 March :: 1.23pm
Well I just woke up a little while ago, I'm about to go to my grandma's house... =/
I had an awful dream last night... And I guess I can get into it with no one's feelings getting hurt, because I doubt anyone will read it... (But yeah now since I've said that, I'm sure someone'll read it... -_-)
But, it started off as a pretty good dream... John was coming down for Spring Break... But then it turned out to where I would only get to see him one time. Regardless, I was still happy that I'd get to see him. Over the course of a few days, I was so excited that I was finally going to get to see him... And when it came to the day when I was supposed to see him, he didn't show. I waited and waited, and he just didn't show up... I found out later that he was out somewhere getting high. That dream... Wow, it hurt really, really bad for a dream.
I'm just tired of losing people to drugs and alcohol...
I did a dumb thing today. I went back and looked over past journal entries. I can see the change. I can see that I'm becoming less and less important, and it hurts... It hurts really bad... But maybe I'm overexaggerating... Maybe I'm just blowing it all out of proportion.
I'm so selfish.
Gomen nasai.
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Well it's love, make it hurt.
The end.
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2005 10 March :: 3.45am
:: Mood: Torn...
:: Music: The Killers- Mr. Brightside
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea...
So I'm not really sure why I just sit here... Caring so damn much about people, knowing I obviously don't mean too much to them.
I mean, every day, I walk on eggshells, trying to make sure I don't do anything to upset anyone... And whenever someone does something to upset me, I just let it slide by. As I'm sure I have said before, I'm just too fucking forgiving.
I don't know why all of this hurts so much...
I'm not sure why the little things upset me, either.
I'm just really fragile... And so much shit has happened lately... I just don't know how to deal with it really. I'm sure I'm not really making sense, but this is all just what's coming to my mind...
I'm so scared, since he's so far away... Some perfect girl is just going to walk into his life and sweep him off his feet... And he'll go back to his old lifestyle... And I'll just fade into nothnig and be forgotten.
I don't know why it bothers me so much... The things he does... (Or used to do, moreso...) It makes him happy, but it fucking tears me apart... I just don't want him to fall apart.
I don't want us to fall apart.
I love him so much... And this just keeps getting harder and harder.
Living my life's not hard enough. Take everything away.
It just goes to show, things can't go right.
The End.
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2005 9 March :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: taking back sunday-bonus mosh pt. II
YESSSS! WHAT NOW?!? I GOT THE MUSIC TO WORK!!!!
yeah, i changed the layout again...but this is the original one i had; just no music. well, i didn't have music to the bonus mosh pt. II layout either. but anyways. now. NOW. NOW, i have music. averagely nice colors. and a kick-ass icon. BOOYAH.
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2005 9 March :: 9.32pm
:: Mood: scared
i'm scared to go to school tomorrow. anyone who knows...well...you know why.
i really hope it's just rumors...and that it's not true that this is going to be "the next columbine."
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2005 9 March :: 6.39pm
:: Mood: aggravated
just because i put stuff like *he* and "you-know-who" in my entries, people automatically think i like someone???
WRONG-O!!!!!!
single. and. LOVING it. i don't like anyone. believe me. if i did, i'd be screaming it to the world.
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2005 9 March :: 6.28pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
:: Music: simple plan-shut up
well, it must be true...
my mom said that the teen pregnancy thing was on the news and in the paper not too long ago. i must've missed it.
and i couldn't find it online. blaaaaaaaah.
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2005 9 March :: 4.37pm
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: linkin park-nobody's listening
okay...okay...so...YESTERDAY...here i am in my *class* and we're talking about *my teachers'* kids...she was reading a letter her daughter sent her. well, so, *he* was just like: "wow, i hope MY kids are that cute when i have them!"...then a pause. my first thought was: "shit, we can't be together then, i don't want kids...haha!" then he was like: "but WAIT. that's right...i'm not having any! AHAHAHAHAHA!"
it was great.
and today, we talked about teen pregnancy. ((t'was funny...he was like: "getting pregnant at 15 is like, the hottest thing right now!")) washington county is the 5th highest ranked county in the NATION for teen pregnancies. or so, according to my teacher. i'm going to look that up...lol.
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2005 9 March :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: taking back sunday-this photograph is proof (i know you know)
OMG...today for the chair tests, SAXOPHONES HAD TO GO FIRST. it was so god-damn awful. anyways...i was playing the music really good when i was practicing. then i got into the room and k told me to play my d scale. i REALLY fucked up on it. LOL. then he told me to play my f scale. fucked up on that, too.
so he told me to play my piece and i was trying to play and noticed that kenny ((brady; k's helper)) had his head in his hands ((say THAT 5 times fast!!!)), and i stopped and heard k laughing...so i started to crack up...and then k told me "okay that's enough" and so i left.
YESSSSSS! I SOOOOOOOO GOT LAST CHAIR!!!!!!!!
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2005 9 March :: 4.34pm
well...the music doesn't work.
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2005 9 March :: 12.01am
:: Mood: :/
:: Music: Disturbed- Prayer
Let me enlighten you, this is the way I pray.
Meh... Keely and Aisha are here. That makes me happy...
But I feel kinda down... I'm not sure why, really... Actually, I'm pretty sure I know why, but I don't want to say, because it's really dumb and selfish...
:/ I miss John so much... It sucks.
I guess that's just life for you.
I love you, sweetheart...
If you even read this anymore...
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2005 8 March :: 10.20pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: switchfoot...one of their songs
| How to make a wonderelf |
Ingredients:
5 parts mercy
5 parts ambition
5 parts instinct |
Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Serve with a slice of wisdom and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
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2005 8 March :: 10.13pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: mest-rooftops
ow ow OWWWW! (or as the germans say - Au!)
i have a splinter. :'(
goodnight.
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2005 8 March :: 10.07pm
well, if the music * hopefully* works like i think it does...:
LET IT LOAD. IT'S WORTH IT.
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2005 8 March :: 10.07pm
:: Mood: depressed
well, i think i've done it...yahaaaa...music...<3
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2005 8 March :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: the offspring-can't get my head (around you)
SHIT. it's 10:30 pm and i have to read a 30-page story, do a 5 paragraph summary tomorrow...AND finish my 20 sentences for german...blaaaaah...all due tomorrow...looks like i'm sol and going to start the 2nd marking period off really shitty.
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2005 8 March :: 9.39pm
Oh I wish Spring Break could've been later on... ):
Meh.
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2005 8 March :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: angry
here it is...the new layout...
god...it looks like shit...:'( -bawls-
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2005 8 March :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: staind-so far away
chelsea and i did a "report" on hera, since we're starting mythology. here's something interesting we found out...:
all of hera's children were conceived without the help of a man. to get pregnant, she beat her hand on the ground and ate lettuce.
isn't that weird? like. wtf. ahahahahahahahahaha.
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2005 7 March :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: the used-lunacy fringe [again...great great great song <3]
You Will Die at Age 67 |
67
You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
And how you'll die as well. |
You Have Bad Karma |
Ouch! You're not exactly the nicest person around.
You may be proud of your tough edge, but others fear you.
And while some may just stay out of your path...
Others will do what they can to make your life miserable. |
You Are 50% Extrovert, 50% Introvert |
You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved
Like most people, you enjoy being social
But you also value the time you have alone
You have struck a good balance! |
You Are 10% Left Brained, 90% Right Brained |
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
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Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male |
Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! |
Your Love Number is |
1
You tend to be a stubborn lover, holding your ground in every argument
You take your time falling in love. You aren't the type to lose perspective.
You are loyal (to a fault), and you require the same loyalty in your sweetheart.
At your best, you are a wise and inspiring partner - who sticks around. |
Your Seduction Style: The Charmer |
You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.
You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.
By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.
And then you've got them exactly where you want them! |
You Belong in 1969 |
1969
If you scored...
1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!
1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.
1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!
1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.
1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!
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Captivating |
O |
is for |
Overwhelming |
R |
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Romantic |
I |
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Important |
N |
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Neat |
N |
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Normal |
E |
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Entertaining |
Your Boobies' Names Are: Betty and Veronica
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Your Porn Star Name is: Tight Cherry
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Your Girl Parts Are Named: The Cock Pit
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It's Not Sex. It's ... :
Filling the Creme Doughnut
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Your Stripper Name is: Muse
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Leo - Your Love Profile
Your positive traits:
You're almost always the center of attention - and easy for potential dates to spot
Your happiness and optimism is appealing to all... and contagious!
You don't hold grudges - getting over little fights is no problem for you
Your negative traits:
You tend to ignore relationship problems, until they are too big to handle
You crave luxury, and you are disappointed with partners who can't provide you with it
If someone does you wrong, you'll coldly and cruely break their heart
Your ideal partner:
Someone high status enough to bring you more attention - but not so great that they upstage you
Makes you laugh and brings excitement to everything you do together
Is aggressive and confident enough to butt heads with you every so often
Your dating style:
High expectations. You need to be impressed with an incredible first date for a second one to occur.
Your seduction style:
You like to make the first move - you're fearless about initiating things
Passionate. You really get into any intimate act.
Aggressive. Most of the time, you find yourself wanting sex more than your partner.
Tips for the future:
Try to not need so much attention. You'll feel less ignored, guaranteed.
Learn to love your parnter for who they are - not how they help advance your life.
Let your partner shine occasionally. You don't always have to be the alpha dog.
Best place to meet someone online:
Platnium Romance - these flirty singles will make sure that you're the center of attention
Best color to attract mate: Gold
Best day for a date: Sunday
Get your free love profile at Blogthings.
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2005 7 March :: 6.19pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: the used-cut up angels
on saturday, i saw the jacket. it was pretty good. the people i was with all fell asleep...lol. but i thought it was alright. definately not as good as the previews. but yeah, good. good, original plot. aaaaaaand let me tell you. adrien brody was mmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmm good! <3 ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaha.
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2005 6 March :: 8.33pm
:: Mood: really really shitty
omg...i had the worst headache today. i started out fine and stuff...then i got into the jacuzzi at my dads...and then, when i got out, i felt like shit. totally. well...i had eaten lunch and actually got to bed early last night so i had no idea why i was feeling like this. so i took an advil and went upstairs to sleep at like, 4 pm.
i woke up at 7 pm in sweat and was like, gasping for air...my head was THROBBING soooooo hard...i have NEVER felt that way before. i couldn't help but just sit and cry so hard, although i KNEW that crying was just going to make it worse...anyways...i called my mom crying begging for her to come pick me up...then i started getting really short and pissy and hung up on her. then she called my dads' house and told him to bring me home...so anyways, tiff was like, freaking out and was like: "omg do you need to go to the hospital?!?" they thought i should go to the emergency room but i hate all of that...so i pretended i was going to be okay...
...well, i got home, and totally pigged out on toast...hahahahahaha. i drank some water too...and eventually i began to feel better. i concluded that i'm just sooooooo stressed about finishing all of that make up work by tuesday...and that slim chance that i might not get the tickets. :( well, my headache's coming back; so i'mma go now. much love. <3
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