Fool enough to almost be it Cool enough to not quite see it Doomed Pick your pockets full of sorrow And run away with me tomorrow June We'll try and ease the pain But somehow we'll feel the same Well, no one knows Where our secrets go I send a heart to all my dearies When your life is so, so dreary Dream I'm rumored to the straight and narrow While the harlots of my perils Scream And I fail But when I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will Mother weep the years I'm missing All our time can't be given Back Shut my mouth and strike the demons That cursed you and your reasons Out of hand and out of season Out of love and out of feeling So bad When I can, I will Words defy the plans When I can, I will Fool enough to almost be it And cool enough to not quite see it And old enough to always feel this Always old, I'll always feel this No more promise no more sorrow No longer will I follow Can anybody hear me I just want to be me When I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will

 

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whipsmart

:: 2008 5 February :: 6.55pm

Jenny Holzer's Truisms

a little knowledge can go a long way

a lot of professionals are crackpots

a man can't know what it is to be a mother

a name means a lot just by itself

a positive attitude means all the difference in the world

a relaxed man is not necessarily a better man

a sense of timing is the mark of genius

a sincere effort is all you can ask

a single event can have infinitely many interpretations

a solid home base builds a sense of self

a strong sense of duty imprisons you

absolute submission can be a form of freedom

abstraction is a type of decadence

abuse of power comes as no surprise

action causes more trouble than thought

alienation produces eccentrics or revolutionaries

all things are delicately interconnected

ambition is just as dangerous as complacency

ambivalence can ruin your life

an elite is inevitable

anger or hate can be a useful motivating force

animalism is perfectly healthy

any surplus is immoral

anything is a legitimate area of investigation

artificial desires are despoiling the earth

at times inactivity is preferable to mindless functioning

at times your unconsciousness is truer than your conscious mind

automation is deadly

awful punishment awaits really bad people

bad intentions can yield good results

being alone with yourself is increasingly unpopular

being happy is more important than anything else

being judgmental is a sign of life

being sure of yourself means you're a fool

believing in rebirth is the same as admitting defeat

boredom makes you do crazy things

calm is more conductive to creativity than is anxiety

categorizing fear is calming

change is valuable when the oppressed become tyrants

chasing the new is dangerous to society

children are the most cruel of all

children are the hope of the future

class action is a nice idea with no substance

class structure is as artificial as plastic

confusing yourself is a way to stay honest

crime against property is relatively unimportant

decadence can be an end in itself

decency is a relative thing

dependence can be a meal ticket

description is more important than metaphor

deviants are sacrificed to increase group solidarity

disgust is the appropriate response to most situations

disorganization is a kind of anesthesia

don't place to much trust in experts

drama often obscures the real issues

dreaming while awake is a frightening contradiction

dying and coming back gives you considerable perspective

dying should be as easy as falling off a log

eating too much is criminal

elaboration is a form of pollution

emotional responses ar as valuable as intellectual responses

enjoy yourself because you can't change anything anyway

ensure that your life stays in flux

even your family can betray you

every achievement requires a sacrifice

everyone's work is equally important

everything that's interesting is new

exceptional people deserve special concessions

expiring for love is beautiful but stupid

expressing anger is necessary

extreme behavior has its basis in pathological psychology

extreme self-consciousness leads to perversion

faithfulness is a social not a biological law

fake or real indifference is a powerful personal weapon

fathers often use too much force

fear is the greatest incapacitator

freedom is a luxury not a necessity

giving free rein to your emotions is an honest way to live

go all out in romance and let the chips fall where they may

going with the flow is soothing but risky

good deeds eventually are rewarded

government is a burden on the people

grass roots agitation is the only hope

guilt and self-laceration are indulgences

habitual contempt doesn't reflect a finer sensibility

hiding your emotions is despicable

holding back protects your vital energies

humanism is obsolete

humor is a release

ideals are replaced by conventional goals at a certain age

if you aren't political your personal life should be exemplary

if you can't leave your mark give up

if you have many desires your life will be interesting

if you live simply there is nothing to worry about

ignoring enemies is the best way to fight

illness is a state of mind

imposing order is man's vocation for chaos is hell

in some instances it's better to die than to continue

inheritance must be abolished

it can be helpful to keep going no matter what

it is heroic to try to stop time

it is man's fate to outsmart himself

it is a gift to the world not to have babies

it's better to be a good person than a famous person

it's better to be lonely than to be with inferior people

it's better to be naive than jaded

it's better to study the living fact than to analyze history

it's crucial to have an active fantasy life

it's good to give extra money to charity

it's important to stay clean on all levels

it's just an accident that your parents are your parents

it's not good to hold too many absolutes

it's not good to operate on credit

it's vital to live in harmony with nature

just believing something can make it happen

keep something in reserve for emergencies

killing is unavoidable but nothing to be proud of

knowing yourself lets you understand others

knowledge should be advanced at all costs

labor is a life-destroying activity

lack of charisma can be fatal

leisure time is a gigantic smoke screen

listen when your body talks

looking back is the first sign of aging and decay

loving animals is a substitute activity

low expectations are good protection

manual labor can be refreshing and wholesome

men are not monogamous by nature

moderation kills the spirit

money creates taste

monomania is a prerequisite of success

morals are for little people

most people are not fit to rule themselves

mostly you should mind your own business

mothers shouldn't make too many sacrifices

much was decided before you were born

murder has its sexual side

myth can make reality more intelligible

noise can be hostile

nothing upsets the balance of good and evil

occasionally principles are more valuable than people

offer very little information about yourself

often you should act like you are sexless

old friends are better left in the past

opacity is an irresistible challenge

pain can be a very positive thing

people are boring unless they are extremists

people are nuts if they think they are important

people are responsible for what they do unless they are insane

people who don't work with their hands are parasites

people who go crazy are too sensitive

people won't behave if they have nothing to lose

physical culture is second best

planning for the future is escapism

playing it safe can cause a lot of damage in the long run

politics is used for personal gain

potential counts for nothing until it's realized

private property created crime

pursuing pleasure for the sake of pleasure will ruin you

push yourself to the limit as often as possible

raise boys and girls the same way

random mating is good for debunking sex myths

rechanneling destructive impulses is a sign of maturity

recluses always get weak

redistributing wealth is imperative

relativity is no boon to mankind

religion causes as many problems as it solves

remember you always have freedom of choice

repetition is the best way to learn

resolutions serve to ease our conscience

revolution begins with changes in the individual

romantic love was invented to manipulate women

routine is a link with the past

routine small excesses are worse than then the occasional debauch

sacrificing yourself for a bad cause is not a moral act

salvation can't be bought and sold

self-awareness can be crippling

self-contempt can do more harm than good

selfishness is the most basic motivation

selflessness is the highest achievement

separatism is the way to a new beginning

sex differences are here to stay

sin is a means of social control

slipping into madness is good for the sake of comparison

sloppy thinking gets worse over time

solitude is enriching

sometimes science advances faster than it should

sometimes things seem to happen of their own accord

spending too much time on self-improvement is antisocial

starvation is nature's way

stasis is a dream state

sterilization is a weapon of the rulers

strong emotional attachment stems from basic insecurity

stupid people shouldn't breed

survival of the fittest applies to men and animals

symbols are more meaningful than things themselves

taking a strong stand publicizes the opposite position

talking is used to hide one's inability to act

teasing people sexually can have ugly consequences

technology will make or break us

the cruelest disappointment is when you let yourself down

the desire to reproduce is a death wish

the family is living on borrowed time

the idea of revolution is an adolescent fantasy

the idea of transcendence is used to obscure oppression

the idiosyncratic has lost its authority

the most profound things are inexpressible

the mundane is to be cherished

the new is nothing but a restatement of the old

the only way to be pure is to stay by yourself

the sum of your actions determines what you are

the unattainable is invariable attractive

the world operates according to discoverable laws

there are too few immutable truths today

there's nothing except what you sense

there's nothing redeeming in toil

thinking too much can only cause problems

threatening someone sexually is a horrible act

timidity is laughable

to disagree presupposes moral integrity

to volunteer is reactionary

torture is barbaric

trading a life for a life is fair enough

true freedom is frightful

unique things must be the most valuable

unquestioning love demonstrates largesse of spirit

using force to stop force is absurd

violence is permissible even desirable occasionally

war is a purification rite

we must make sacrifices to maintain our quality of life

when something terrible happens people wake up

wishing things away is not effective

with perseverance you can discover any truth

words tend to be inadequate

worrying can help you prepare

you are a victim of the rules you live by

you are guileless in your dreams

you are responsible for constituting the meaning of things

you are the past present and future

you can live on through your descendants

you can't expect people to be something they're not

you can't fool others if you're fooling yourself

you don't know what's what until you support yourself

you have to hurt others to be extraordinary

you must be intimate with a token few

you must disagree with authority figures

you must have one grand passion

you must know where you stop and the world begins

you can understand someone of your sex only

you owe the world not the other way around

you should study as much as possible

your actions ae pointless if no one notices

your oldest fears are the worst ones

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angel_bob

:: 2008 4 February :: 8.17pm

I have to choose, for tomorrow, the dance I want to teach for my Folk and Square Dance class.

I have it narrowed down to five dances. I am going to sign up to teach Easy Come Easy Go (a line dance, which everyone but Ashley and I love) but I have the four backups just in case.

I've decided that dancing is my hobby. It's so much fun, I'm going to have to find classes or something once this class is over.

I love you all.

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cowboy67

:: 2008 3 February :: 2.45pm

music is such a huge force in my life. it brings comfort. i feel like my favorite artists and musicians are my friends, in a way. they open themselves up to such an intense degree, it certainly does provide the kind of intimacy that deep friendships attain through reciprocal disclosure. they know nothing of me, but i definitely feel close to these people. i dream about billy corgan, tori amos, and kurt cobain a lot. these are people i relate to and respect, and feel an ethereal connection to that is unexplainable in terms of time and space.

songs maintain familiarity, like the smell of a family cottage or the no-longer annoying creak of an old door hinge. a recording of a song is always going to sound the same (in the most general sense) and the lyrics will always be the same. the vocals will sound the same, too -- even the little mistakes or off-key parts or whispers. it's so nice to listen to something that brought pleasure or kept you sane years earlier and realize that it is still effective today.

i am very sensitive to my surroundings, particularly anything musical. it's like i become part of songs when i listen to them, and i feel everything the singer and instruments are expressing, even if i have never actually experienced those things myself. it's slightly dangerous because i absorb others' emotions quite readily. it's also very beautiful. i'm glad i have this kind of sensory/perceptual experience with music.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 2 February :: 11.07pm

Does anyone need a babysitter or know of someone who needs a babysitter? Or needs help moving or help with anything?

I could use a little extra cash this week and next week. Our bank being stupid sort of screwed us over a lot.

So if you need anything or know anyone who needs anything, let me know.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 31 January :: 7.41pm

I want to go on a vacation this year with Nick so I was looking at train rides yesterday.

Nick and I were thinking of going to Seattle/San Fran/Portland/west coast. Is anything awesome happening anywhere in June or July? I just remembered that I might be working full time in June and July. Okay, anything happening in the Seattle-area in May?

Or does anyone know of anything awesome happening anywhere in May?

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cowboy67

:: 2008 30 January :: 4.22pm

tax tip for the day
you can e-file your taxes AND have your money wired direct deposit to a variety of accounts (checking, savings, other financial institutions) instead of waiting for a check to come in the mail.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 30 January :: 9.46am
:: Mood: ugh

I made Nick drive me all the way to work before thinking that possibly the school was closed. We pulled into the parking lot and I thought: where are all the cars? I called the weather hotline and then Campus Safety who confirmed that "all functions and classes are canceled today" means that all offices are closed too.

And then we realized that our account was overdrafted making us literally poor. My paycheck on Friday, instead of going to food for the next two weeks, will go to paying off all the account fees. And Nick's paycheck will all go to rent, still making us very, very poor for two weeks. And we'd just gotten all caught up. It was ridiculous because none of these charges showed up until yesterday when all of them took place a week ago.

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 29 January :: 11.24pm

Our electricity went out for a few seconds but now it's back on. I almost hope it goes out again because not having electricity is a lot of fun.


Also, birthday laptop = awesome. Rutherford B Hayes be his name.

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cowboy67

:: 2008 29 January :: 6.06pm

lorenzo's tax tip of the day
technically, you are supposed to claim internet purchases made from other states on your MI state tax returns.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 28 January :: 1.36am

It is my birthday. I am 21 years old. This is exciting. I will officially be 21 at 8:25 Chicago time.

I went ice skating for the first time ever on Saturday and it was the most fun I've had in a long time. I was so happy and just smiling the entire time. The skates hurt my feet a lot though and now I have two really gross looking blisters on my ankles. They hurt a little. I have decided that I am going to join an ice skating nomad colony and ice skate for the rest of my days.

I am writing this all on the Wii using a USB keyboard. Jason, you should submit Eddie Izzard to the Check Mii Out channel.

Happy birthday to me! I kind of feel like celebrating with a drink but I have class at 11 and I'm not really thirsty.

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 25 January :: 8.51am

I uploaded what could be called "a shit ton" of photos on flickr the other day but none of them are labeled or anything. If you want to see my unnamed photos go here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/littlewindow/

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angel_bob

:: 2008 24 January :: 4.56pm

Birthday Weekend begins tomorrow.

I don't know how many of y'all are going to be in town but on Saturday we're going ice skating. I don't know what time or anything yet. On Sunday I want to go sledding or tubing or something but at Pando or wherever it's expensive so I might just get a sled and find a hill somewhere. I want to try to go out at midnight but all you school kids will probably be gone and I'll have a hard time finding a place anyway.

Let me know if you want to join the festivities.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 17 January :: 7.33pm

I can now be found at:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/littlewindow/

Hopefully I will get a pro account for my birthday. I'm going to post more of my pictures later when I get the pro account.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 16 January :: 8.34pm

I have noticed that the feeling I get from drinking is the same feeling I get with really bad cramps except the pain is social awesomeness and laughter.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 14 January :: 8.28pm

I am going to start saving up my pennies for this baby stroller.

Srsly.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 14 January :: 7.03pm

My Folk and Square Dance class is getting increasingly more awesome. My leg hurt after the first day but it was fine by the second. We learned the Hukilau and a couple line dances.

Dancing is my kind of exercise.


I have decided that I really don't want children for a while. I'm even okay with not getting married for a while.


I am beginning to freak out about graduating in a year because it turns out, I will graduate on time.


I drank a bit on Saturday. It was fun. I am so excited for my birthday. Seriously. It'll be keen.


I have to think up a topic for a paper for my EU class. I want to do it on Hungary but they were talking about not doubling up and choosing countries out of a hat... I just want to write it on Hungary.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 8 January :: 11.07pm

I am taking a Folk and Square Dance course that is designed for Health and Physical EDUCATION majors. Ashley and I are the only non-athletic people in that class.

Instead of an exam, we have to draw up a lesson plan and teach a dance move that should take about twenty minutes. I was thinking about teaching the hobo dance and making something up or doing the jitterbug or belly dancing but I decided not to.

Instead, I am going to teach the Charleston. I don't know how to do it but I've always wanted to learn. I figure that if I have to teach people, I'll learn it far better than I ever would on my own.


In other news, I am thinking of not working this semester. I have a lot of classes and a lot of work to do. We shall see. I might just cut down to nine hours of work.

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2008 7 January :: 11.59pm

This semester is going to suck.

I had two classes today and I have four tomorrow. My final class tomorrow is what I politely refer to as a semester-long quad. It's a semester-long course that starts at 6:30 and ends at 9:30. Woo.

On the bright side, my French class that I had today is canceled for the rest of this week and the Monday of next week. Also, tomorrow is the first day of my Folk and Square Dance class. Hopefully it will be just fun and not just work.

Here's to an awesome semester!

Also, all of you need to come home on the weekend of January 25 so we can celebrate my big two-one. I am contemplating partying Monday night too and just skipping my 9:25 class. We shall see.

I love you all. I hope everyone is doing well.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2008 4 January :: 8.58am

So, Ben's journal got deleted.

This means we must restart THE COMMENT POST OF DOOM.

Anyone up for it?

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angel_bob

:: 2008 1 January :: 2.12am
:: Music: Mushaboom by Feist

A year in review: month by month
Read more..




Proof that the world falls apart when I leave the country:
Britney shaved her head while we were in Amsterdam.
There was a school shooting while we were in France.
Kurt Vonnegut died.
Anna Nicole Smith died.
Britney hit a car with an umbrella while we were in London.
My dad went into the hospital.
My cat began to fall over regularly.

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cowboy67

:: 2007 27 December :: 2.27pm

i'm in love with your pills
now i can get rid of myself
if all of this kills
why am i so hard on myself?


angel_bob

:: 2007 20 December :: 12.03pm

I got my grades!

The one class I was concerned about (because I had missed a large number of classes (due to illness and the fact that it was at 8) and you can only miss four before your grade drops (the prof took attendance EVERY DAY)) turned out great. It didn't drop at all and I know I missed more than four. I'm not complaining about that.

Also, there was another class I was slightly concerned about that my straight-As-friend got a C- in. But even that turned out fine.

So, my lame ass gen ed semester was okay. Next semester is pretty much the same so...excitement. Not.

And that's it.

Rumor has it my mom and I are going to bake cookies and wrap presents and go shopping today. I haven't heard from her yet so I'm going to go call her in a bit. I love shopping and cookies so I want to go as soon as we can.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 19 December :: 9.30pm

The kitties. I now totally understand those people who don't have children and baby their pets.


Here are my babies.
Read more..

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angel_bob

:: 2007 19 December :: 1.56pm

Christmas stories
My mom would always tell us stories about how forgetful my grandmother would be sometimes. She'd give us the same gifts two years in a row or think she gave us a present that we never got.

One Christmas, she asked my uncle how he liked his new watch. His only response was "what watch?" She forgot to give it to him and found it in the upstairs closet.


Last year, my mom got my brother a cheese cutting board. He likes cheese and kitchen things. A few days after Christmas, we got a big chunk of cheese and Mom suggested Buddy use his new cheese board to cut it. He sort of just gave me and Mom blank looks and said "I didn't get anything like that."

Mom and I exchanged looks and I laughed at her, bringing up the story she always told about my grandma. We searched everywhere for that darn cheese board. I was there when she bought it, it was heavy enough that I remember putting it in the car.

She finally found it in her bedroom closet.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 15 December :: 3.32pm

The best thing I've read in a long time. It gave me goosebumps.

This is what I want for Christmas. I can't decide which would be better, reading the book or listening to that wonderful radio voice reading it to me.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 13 December :: 9.51pm

WHEN TALKING TO OR ABOUT KYLE IT MUST BE DONE IN ALL CAPS.

THIS IS NOW LAW.

I am done with my exams. The cat is awesome. The Baron is jealous.

If any peeps wanna hang, holla.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 12 December :: 11.58pm

We are getting a new cat tomorrow. He gets fixed tomorrow and then I will be picking him up after work.

If he doesn't die. ha ha jk jk

His name is Nick (ha ha ha ha). This name will be changed (it is, ironically, Nick's turn to name the cat.)

I have talked to The Baron about this so he knows he's getting a younger brother and he needs to be nice to him.

These cats are like our children.

WARNING: CAT PRIVATE PARTS. I would censor it but we're all adults here.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 10 December :: 12.33pm

I totally cannot remember the password to my icon journal. Bummer. Not that it really matters but I have heard outcries and grumbles.

In other news, we may get another cat today. More on this developing story coming up during Newz at 11 here on WRHG.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 7 December :: 8.53pm

We're going to see The Golden Compass tonight. I'm very nervous about it and I don't know if I want to see it.

It's my favorite sci-fi book series and I just don't want it to be ruined.

Nick keeps saying that the book will stay the same but it won't. Now I'll forever see those actors when I read the books.

I am, however, excited for the second one. Real excited about how they portray both the knife and the seams in space/time.

End.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 1 December :: 2.44pm

I am published
Hi Rachel,

I am delighted to let you know that your submitted photo has been selected for inclusion in the newly released fourth edition of our Schmap Amsterdam Guide:

Rijksmuseum

Thanks so much for letting us include your photo - please enjoy the guide!

Best regards,

Emma Williams,
Managing Editor, Schmap Guides

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