the sun shines but i don't

:: 2007 11 April :: 9.31pm

there's only one woman i would marry without a second thought.

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:: 2007 10 April :: 9.03pm

i hope all of you to watch this and leave me a comment saying you did and that your life is a little bit better for being more informed about the reality of the world.

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:: 2007 10 April :: 7.20pm

my car was stolen today at 10:37am
i went to my parking spot in the structure after class today (around 3:30) and my car wasn't there. i called the wsu police and filed a car theft report with the cop they sent. he, heather, and i went to the parking security office and got permission to watch the video surveillance, and i saw my car being driven out at 10:37am, approximately one hour after i parked it.

it was a sneaky job -- there was no one caught on tape walking up to my car or anything. but, a shady-looking van paulled into a spot near my car about 5 minutes before it was stolen, and then my car was driven off, and then shortly after, someone came and took off in the van.

so, we think what happened is that the thief probably staked out my car and knew i parked in the same general area every day, pulled in, walked in front of the noses of the cars so that he wouldn't get caught on the cameras, stole my car and took it somewhere, then came to get his van.

using the freeze-frame, we weren't able to get a good shot of the driver in my car -- it was way too blurry. you would think with the tuition we pay, the structures would be equipped with like HD quality cameras in case of a mugging, rape, or car theft... but apparantly not. we were able to get the license plate of the van, though.

anyway, it sucks. i liked my car a lot, and it's a big inconvenience. on the bright side, i wasn't injured and nothing of great value was in my car when it was stolen.

please think positive thoughts for me (e.g. that my car is in-tact and they find it soon!).

thanks.

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urhm, utah... despite beautiful geology...not very promising

:: 2007 7 April :: 3.18pm

:: 2007 3 April :: 8.15pm

I am in Italy. We went to Rome and now we are in Florence but we leave tomorrow for Venice. Then Laura, Bekka and I will drift across Europe like crazy backpackers. I am excited for it.

I love you all.

And, Nick, I miss you oodles. And love you even more.

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:: 2007 2 April :: 9.36pm

this is enlightening

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:: 2007 1 April :: 3.56pm

and i know that you're busy, too
i know that you care
you got your finger on the pulse
you got your eyes everywhere
and it hurts all the time when you don't return my calls
and you haven't got the time to remember how it was
it's so cold in this house

:: 2007 29 March :: 8.02pm

why in france? guh.

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:: 2007 25 March :: 12.47pm

:: 2007 18 March :: 1.12pm

cuteness.

:: 2007 15 March :: 3.56pm

I hope your meeting goes well today, Katie!

:: 2007 12 March :: 1.12pm

So my parents are for sure not going to come visit because of some stupid government passport thing. Which means when everyone's parents come to visit the first week of April, Rachel is going to be depressed and alone. In Perpignan, capital of NOTHING TO DO.

We found peanut butter, cherry coke, vanilla coke and taco kits at one store on Saturday. It was a good day.

I got my course schedule in the mail and just emailed the advisors with my class schedule. It is exciting!

Today is Nick and my anniversary so I am sad. He also starts his new job today so wish him luck.

I hope everyone and their lack of wisdom teeth are doing fine. Love love.

:: 2007 7 March :: 11.49am

:: 2007 6 March :: 9.56pm

did she like it? she liked it.
i should have just done the tried-and-true thing it when it happened instead of trying something novel.

where's the pennyroyal tea when you need it?

:: 2007 5 March :: 12.15am

people think you have it so easy when they don't know you.

:: 2007 4 March :: 1.16pm

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:: 2007 2 March :: 1.23pm

paula deen cheers me up, sometimes.

:: 2007 28 February :: 10.13pm

far away
this ship has taken me far away
far away from the memories
of the people who care if i live or die

starlight
i will be chasing a starlight
until the end of my life
i don't know if it's worth it anymore

hold you in my arms
i just wanted to hold you in my arms

my life
you electrify my life
let's conspire to ignite
all the souls that would die just to feel alive

i'll never let you go
if you promise not to fade away
never fade away

our hopes and expectations
black holes and revelations
our hopes and expectations
black holes and revelations

hold you in my arms
i just wanted to hold you in my arms

:: 2007 28 February :: 10.34pm

94 days. I can do this.

I just want Nick.

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:: 2007 28 February :: 8.47am

Hey.

People were right, after three weeks, this thing is so easy. I still want to go home sometimes but it doesn't hurt as much.

Today is a good day. Nick got a job, my 8 o'clock class was cancelled and my 11 o'clock might be cancelled too. I am tired but happy.

I think I can do this. Only three more months.

:: 2007 26 February :: 11.50pm

my life is a movie that i don't want to watch any more. i just want to hit "stop" already.

:: 2007 23 February :: 2.24pm

mother, i'm tired
come surrender my son
time has ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still i go

falling with the leaves
falling out of sleep
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

mother, i've tried
wasting my life
i haven't given up, i lie
to make you so proud in my eyes

falling out of sleep
crawling over me
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

tuesday's come and gone
restless still i drive
try to leave it all behind

falling, falling out of sleep
falling, falling with the leaves
i got crawling, crawling over me

once upon a time in my life...

i went falling

:: 2007 22 February :: 12.40pm

Amsterdam was awesome. I want to live there or at tleast go back.

London is alright. It has a different vibe than the rest of Europe. I don't know.

Getting re-used to the keyboard is a pain.

Nick I am online and you aren't. Oh but I just realised that it is almost 8 there. ha ha that is why.

Stupid time difference.

Anyway, having fun, going to a musical tonight.

I love you.

:: 2007 20 February :: 5.17pm

the past 5 months have found me repeatedly asking, "what the fuck?"

:: 2007 15 February :: 11.02am

My parents are adorable.

I talked to my mom and dad yesterday. I mentioned to them both that I am usually on msn messenger after dinner so my mom got a hotmail account and had my sister teach her how to use it.

AND THEN my mom offered to buy Nick Vonage so he could call me.

AND THEN my dad said that after he goes to China and everything, he'll stop by and see me. Like Europe is down the street from Taiwan.

I love them.

:: 2007 14 February :: 9.05pm

I am pretty sure France is trying to kill me.

So far,

I have almost gotten hit by billions of cars (that is sort of my fault as I pull the European and just walk out in the middle of traffic).

I fell down on the bus and now have massive zombie rot on my leg/thigh (so massive that I cannot lay on that side of my body).

I just almost fell out of the 24 yr old's bedroom window (He left his shutters open when he left and it is really windy so I went to shut them. I grabbed one and I sort of left it there and went to stuggle with the other shutter which the wind had an excellent hold of. In my stuggle, I leaned out to get better leverage on the left shutter and the right one swung around and hit me in the arm. Another bruise.)

Maybe the right side of my body is just not meshing well with France.

Anyway, I love you.

:: 2007 14 February :: 8.55am

Well our first class was cancelled which means I got up at 6 to take the bus at 7 for NO REASON. We don't have class until 10.

The weather here is awesome. It rained the other day but then cleared up and was beautiful.

I love you all.

:: 2007 13 February :: 5.22pm

tori amos: blood roses
blood roses
blood roses
back on the street now
can't forget the things you never said
on days like these starts me thinking
chickens get a taste of your meat, girl
chickens get a taste of your meat, yes

you gave him your blood
and your warm little diamond
he likes killing you after you're dead
you think i'm a queer
i think you're a queer
said, i think you're a queer
i think you're a queer
i shaved every place where you been, boy
said, i shaved every place where you been, yes

god knows
i know
i've thrown away those graces

the belle of new orleans
tried to show me once
how to tango
wrapped around your feet
wrapped around like good little roses

blood roses
blood roses
back on the street now
now you've cut out the flute
from the throat of the loon
at least when you cry now
he can't even hear you

when chickens get a taste of your meat
come on, come on, come on, come on
when he sucks you deep
sometimes you're nothing but meat

:: 2007 13 February :: 5.10pm

look, here's the deal:

we're all the same.... we all wish we had more excitement and variation in our lives but don't because we're slaves. we all want to run away and do something new and different. we all wonder what life "could" be like. blah blah blah. but routine is life. and life is routine. get used to it. it sucks. you're either deaf, blind, anorexic, depressed, bi-polar, infertile, alcoholic, overweight, disabled, schizophrenic, obsessive-compulsive, avoidant, dependent, narcissistic, a minority, poor, or someone you care about is, and it makes your life fucked up.

or if you're part of the the lucky 1% of the world, you're rich.

otherwise, you have to work every day for most of your life or you'll be assassinated for not believing in capitalism and/or starve to death. or you'll be blown up by the U.S. military.

people don't commit suicide for nothing.

something funny i stumbled upon...

:: 2007 11 February :: 8.57pm