Fool enough to almost be it Cool enough to not quite see it Doomed Pick your pockets full of sorrow And run away with me tomorrow June We'll try and ease the pain But somehow we'll feel the same Well, no one knows Where our secrets go I send a heart to all my dearies When your life is so, so dreary Dream I'm rumored to the straight and narrow While the harlots of my perils Scream And I fail But when I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will Mother weep the years I'm missing All our time can't be given Back Shut my mouth and strike the demons That cursed you and your reasons Out of hand and out of season Out of love and out of feeling So bad When I can, I will Words defy the plans When I can, I will Fool enough to almost be it And cool enough to not quite see it And old enough to always feel this Always old, I'll always feel this No more promise no more sorrow No longer will I follow Can anybody hear me I just want to be me When I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will

 

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angel_bob

:: 2006 17 November :: 2.03am

Things that are awesome:

Doing a last minute presentation preparation on Nintendo and procrastinating by watching videos of people playing the Wii for the first time. Tee hee. The old Japanese couple is so cute! It's really funny to see how they react to the controller. I want to see my dad play the Wii. That would be hilarious.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 15 November :: 10.58pm

Things that are awesome about Ashland, Oregon:

They have a Tree Commission.

Said commission votes on a Tree of the Year.

They had a Car Free Day that encouraged people to seek other forms of transportation apart from cars.

Southern Oregon University has family housing and they define a couple as "two (2) individuals of the opposite or same gender who live together in an intimate, long-term relationship of indefinite duration with an exclusive mutual commitment in which partners share the necessities of life and agree to be financially responsible for each other's welfare, including living expenses."


I want to live there. It is such a cute town.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 14 November :: 10.18pm

If we didn't get along, you would tell me, right?

If I got on your nerves, you would tell me, right?

If we snipped at each other, you would tell me, right?

If I grumbled and was annoying and we argued and were horrible friends, you would tell me, right?

Right?



Because apparently you haven't. And I was. And I'm sorry.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 14 November :: 10.23am

"What happens when you're a dog pushed in the corner and you're hit so many times? You start biting back. Then what happens? They go shoot the dog. They don't say the master was beating the dog. Just that the dog bit somebody." - Tori Amos

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cowboy67

:: 2006 13 November :: 12.13am

"I'm not part of this business. I was playing music before [these] people were peeing in their beds." - tori amos, on music industry whores

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angel_bob

:: 2006 11 November :: 12.01am

Last night I stayed on campus.

I stayed up all night. Emily, Claire and I watched seasons 1 and 2 of The Office. All night.

We finished just in time for breakfast.

Emily and I took a nap for about an hour and a half.

I am starting to feel tired. I just felt out of it before and I didn't realize how out of touch I was until I drove home. I really shouldn't have been driving.

There's more but I'm tired.

To tomorrow!

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cowboy67

:: 2006 10 November :: 3.16pm

*sigh*
life is a pigsty and full of cyclic depression.


angel_bob

:: 2006 8 November :: 10.29pm

Cubs win!
We won! I'm glad my first time voting was this awesome.

And Rumsfeld is gone!

It's like a collective Democratic birthday.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 6 November :: 8.08pm

I don't care who you vote for.

Just vote tomorrow!

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angel_bob

:: 2006 5 November :: 9.18pm

I'm having a scary French day.


I don't want to go.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 2 November :: 11.02am

People assume most Christians are heavy-handed, pushy, intolerant bigots bent of dominating any other culture or idea and supplanting it with their own whims because, for the most part, the ones who speak up the most ARE heavy-handed, pushy, intolerant bigots bent on dominating any other culture or idea and supplanting it with their own whims. It sucks. It's horrible. And it's the what everyone of any faith, political idea, or lifestyle has to deal with. People always focus on the loud minority who ruins everything. And like any other group, the only way you can combat this is making your views and, in this case, your kindness and actual testimony louder than the hateful prattle of those hurting your beliefs.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 31 October :: 11.57pm

You stupid emo kids need to shut your mouth and have fun.

Happy birthday, Aerii/Alex/Washington Friend #Awesome!

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angel_bob

:: 2006 30 October :: 9.46pm

I am beginning to get anxious about leaving this country. I met with some of my fellow France travelers and we were all talking about where we're going to go and what we're going to do. It made me so excited that all I want to do is go now.

Updated countdown (to the minute!):

Click Here to get this from pYzam.com!

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angel_bob

:: 2006 26 October :: 2.10pm

So I'm sick or something.

I'm trying to decide whether to go to my last two classes or just the one. Sigh.

I've been watching baby shows all day which made me think about this girl in one of my classes which motives me to buck up and go to the last two.

It also makes me want babies.



I need to get this hygiene stuff under control. I'll just put on my scarf and call it tolerable.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 23 October :: 10.17pm

I forgot how much I loved the Last Days of April.

I think I might be able to live through this paper.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 20 October :: 1.30pm

Schedule
The asterisks mean that it's still tentative. Scary.
Read more..

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angel_bob

:: 2006 20 October :: 1.09pm

We received our flight itinerary for France.

I am no longer excited. I am just scared and anxious.

We also received our finalized schedules for school. They show when we have breaks and everything.

Here is the flight plan:

Read more..

I'll repost this as it gets closer to January. I will post our breaks and things later.


I'm scared.
I love you all.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 19 October :: 10.57pm

what song(s) do you want played at your funeral?

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angel_bob

:: 2006 17 October :: 11.20pm

I am seriously stressing about France. I just completed my housing form and I sound so boring. I like books. I like to read. I am nice and smart. I like writing and playing video games. I have siblings.

I wouldn't want me to live with me.

Plus Nick me manque. I don't know how I'll be able to survive France if I can't survive a day.

I love my mom and my dad, by the way. I called home really quickly earlier (forgot my phone charger, I'm stupid) to tell my mom that the new Nancy Drew game was out and the first thing she said was "what's wrong." After a brief discussion about how they popped out this game faster than a baby and faster than the last game, she said my dad wanted to talk to me. My dad said that the son of one of his friends died of a drug overdose last night and I shouldn't do drugs. I assured him I wouldn't and he told me the kid was in Kalamazoo even. I thought back to sirens last night then reassured my father once more before asking him if he would be joining me to see Sherman Alexie tomorrow.

SPEAKING OF WHICH, I am going to see Sherman Alexie tomorrow so if you're in town and want to come along, call me.

I am going to go to the doctor and get my woman parts checked out next week or so. I also am going to stop taking the pill once my prescription runs out. I've been moody for the past month or so and I think the meds are behind it.

Also, once my passport arrives, I will be going to Chicago to apply for my French visa. It is going to be a pain in the ass.

I love you all.

P.S. I am visiting Katie. She is awesome and she knows cool people. Some girl from an apartment next door made a boob holder that didn't fit her so she gave it to me. I am wearing it and it is cool beans.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 16 October :: 10.01pm

hehehe
we are watching patrick's dog for a couple days while he and brienne help his dad move to chicago. the dog is a german shepherd/rottweiler mix named mackenzie. she is so cute! she's very lovey and demands attention, something i am not used to because comet was kind of a loner. she slept with me in my bed last night and right now she's taking a nap on it while i'm typing up a paper. her eyes are shut tight and she looks so cute! my camera isn't working so i couldn't take a picture, so i decided posting an entry about it was the next best thing to do.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 15 October :: 5.45pm

Yesterday was Nick's birthday and stuff.

He's old now. A whole not-teenage-age of 20.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 15 October :: 11.06am

i fixed the link; should work now

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angel_bob

:: 2006 13 October :: 5.08pm

Oh, I forgot to mention this.

Sherman Alexie will be speaking on Wednesday at 7 at GRCC. If I am home, I will be going. Hopefully my father will also attend so I don't have to drive.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 13 October :: 4.56pm

I should really just go home.
For the trip to France, a professor always comes along for any amount of time from a few days to a week or so. I know I haven't expressed to any of you just how stressed I was about this particular situation but I feel that now that it has been resolved, I should fill you in.

The two candidates for the journey were the only two French professors. I will not name any names because this is THE INTERNET and my life is on public display. But I really wanted one professor to take us and I really didn't want the other one.

You see, I had heard stories about this other professor. These stories included multiple accounts of this professor leaving people behind and losing both people and luggage.

I wanted the professor who took people around on a bus all over France and bought them tea at cafes in Barcelona.

Well this week we were told that we would find out who was taking us. Today in class, at the very end, almost sheepishly, we found out who it would be. Thank goodness it turned out to be the one everyone wanted. You don't know how relieved everyone was today when it was announced. There were shouts, cheers and applause. I made sure to call my mom.



In other news, today began Fall Break. On Monday or so, I will be going to see Katie. I will return on Wednesday or Thursday and will work on Friday. I have papers to write so it won't be much fun.

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 13 October :: 10.44am

Learn THE TRUTH about Dick DeVos:
"We're holding our Spring formal and my date is the Truth. Tonight we're going all the way." But before I begin, I'd like to apologize because I just realized that I am being mean to many republicans out there with this entry and that's just not who I am. I'd also like to apologize to Katie's roommate because I just discovered that she wrote this. I'm sorry.

Read more..

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 12 October :: 9.58am

So.

It's snowing and stuff.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 10 October :: 5.31pm

Who is driving?
BEAR IS DRIVING!

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angel_bob

:: 2006 6 October :: 11.36pm

Ok Go is a no go because my car is crap. Stupid college education.

Instead, I shall be going to Red Flannel! Yay for small town celebrations.

I love you all.

P.S. I have been so tired lately that I slept through one of my classes today. I went over to Nick's to take a nap and fell asleep from 11 to 1:15 when I had to go to work. And I'm still tired. It's because of this France STRESS and midterm STRESS. I hate being stressed because I get tired and snappy.

P.P.S. I saw Katie today and I am fulfilled as a human being. I have reached enlightenment and it is named Kittie Katie. I missed her oodles.

P.P.P.S. I found a whole bag full of Christian romance novels I haven't read yet. I am going to go read then sleep.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 5 October :: 6.49pm

per mccarthy's suggestion
tuesday night, i dreamt that i was on the freeway (looked like I-94 around Detroit) and suddenly i saw a downed airplane on the side of the road. people were being rescued from it. then i looked up and another plane in the sky was falling, as if the engines went out and it was free-falling. it crashed 10 feet in front of me. even though it looked normal sized in the sky, when i got close to it, was really small. the size of a car seat, maybe. on the outside were printed the words, "get pregnant." i ripped it open to see what was inside. there was a dog and he was okay, he just jumped up and ran away. there was also a cold styrofoam box. i opened it and there was some kind of human organ covered in bodily fluids - blood, mucus, etc. that was inside of a sealed plastic bag (not a ziplock bag, but industrial/medical type plastic). in the dream, i thought "this must have been a medical transportation plane that brings organs to hospitals for transplants and things. weird." that's all i can remember.


i tend to dream a lot about bodies of water, driving, freeways, and airplanes/aircraft stalling out and then falling to the ground. off the top of my head, i can think of at least 4 other times i've dreamt about planes crashing to the ground right in front of me. it's very strange.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 5 October :: 9.10am

Does anyone have a reliable vehicle we could take to see Ok Go? Nick doesn't think my car's gonna make it and he doesn't trust his either.

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