<b>MISTAKING WIRES FOR VEINS</b>

:: 2005 25 November :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Your New Aesthetic

but it takes more than one person, so everyone jump on
"He makes me happy. Don't let him know that, though."

:: 2005 24 November :: 12.02am
:: Mood: pleased

damn i wish i could sing like Hakuei <.< <333

hm well i really don't have much to talk about but i always say that and then end up talking about crap...

so woah.. took a nap when i got home, around 3:30, woke up at 8 xDDD I had these weird dream in the school and there was like a skie lodge or something, and then we were riding in lazy boy charis through the school o.o

I was attacked by the year book staff!! AHH! they took a picture of me!! no damnit >.< NO!! *cries*

tomorrow is thanksgiving! it doesn't feel like it though, when it comes to this holiday i'm pretty much indifferent... i'd rather just lay around though instead of having to go eat and stuff... hm... yeah.. lazybitch...

All i ate today was CRAP! i'm so mad... when i woke up i had coffee as usuall, and then in 2 period the teacher had left over doughnots he shared with us! with milk too! i felt really bad that i didn't do my homework in that class afterwards ;_; and THEN we made Ice cream in science class >.< it was good though but you have to use rock salk to make it and now there's salt on my hoodi <.< and THEN in 8th period, my studay hall, i go to the art room, he gave me a COOKIE. >.< FREAK'N CRAP! it was funny thought, the teacher was like "Brooke, who's cute?" and i'm just like "um.." and he was like "you are" that is flattering and funny and creepy all in the same time <.< my friend says he's a perv XDD and then when i got home i had a rice crispy treat... >.< i'm so made at myself for eating all that junk... well at lunch i had water though ^^;; and i had a little orange.. um.. i forget what they're called..some lady's name... Clementines.. yeah.. that's it...

I want my music... damn... jrock defficiency going on here...i'm starving for it... >.< it must come in the mail <.< well yesterday my dad said my bang-doll cd's shipped.. so that's good

I WANT AN 80'S DANCING FLOWER TOY YO! and a BUMBLE BALL! those things kicked ass... and i want Madsen's cd xDD German w00t w00t

um... that's it. Hugs?

I can kill you with my brain...

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:: 2005 23 November :: 5.28pm
:: Mood: disappointed

You're all I keep thinking of and I can't get you out of my head. No matter how hard I try it's just never gonna happen. And you know what's amazing to me, that I would do anything to be with you, and you don't see it at all. You just throw me away like I'm some freakin piece of garbage and I just keep running back to you.

Tell me what's wrong with this picture.

:: 2005 23 November :: 10.01am
:: Mood: okay

it's a really good day today.
i'm in a great mood.

ben and i went to rochelles last night
[awwweee love you rochelle!!]

tonight hopefully ben rochelle and i are going to hang out.
depending on if i'm still 'fighting' with my aunt loraine.
and it depends on if it snows.

awwwe.. love you two!!
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impersonality

:: 2005 20 November :: 10.10pm

My angst tastes like...

Black Licorice
Find your angst's flavor

Unique and difficult to place, your angst finds its source in something you keep hidden. You have something serious and possibly traumatic, but you try to hide it from everyone and just tell them to ignore you when you seem troubled, that everything's really OK. You might think that you have good reasons for not telling people, and some of them may in fact be true, but most likely a lifetime of keeping your secrets has led to a resolution fortified by rationalization that nobody else can shake simply because you never give them a chance. Ask yourself if it would really be that horrible to open up to others; nobody says you have to do it all at once, even. But you should at least try getting out of your shell a little. It's not healthy to internalize everything and conceal it. Anyway, if people really care for you, and they probably do, then they'll be loving and supportive regardless of any reason to the contrary.

impersonality

:: 2005 20 November :: 9.53pm

Everything that occurs around you (the good things and the bad things) are all your doing

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impersonality

:: 2005 20 November :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Guilty Gear Isuka - Drunkard Does Make Wise Remarks

hmm i dun have much to say .. well.. lots of stuff happened this weekend but i'm kinda too tired to really explain the details, but i guess i'll try anyway. so saturday was my interview and it when very well IMO. I met a girl, Amber, there who likes anime and draws anime and likes pocky and stuff so i got her screen name but i haven't seen her on yet. And Suicide called me and it was all awesome and stuff. lol. (<33 you) and i talked to josh very very briefly. today i got my dad to order my good report card reward, Bang-Doll's Kuu cd, and i bought their Bang'em All cd myself and payed for the shipping, if i get those next week or so i should have them about the same time Hell Bound Heart arrives, and i REALLY want it! >.< i get a poster and limited edition dvd!!! maybe they did that thing that some places do when they ship so it comes on the day it's released, if that's the case then i shall have it by mid week. Also, the Bang'em All cd comes with a dvd and from the looks of it i think they are like 2 PV's... YES...oh... jrock...*inhales it* And i'm excited to finish my I-no project in art. I'm so proud of it, i never thought my hands could produce something so good. yeah i know i'm being vain but i've never used colored pencils in such a way before, it makes me happy because i'm not good at much else.. Humes is great but it's starting to get creepy when he calls me cute. anyway, yeah.. so.. besides all of that there isn't too much... i wonder if i'll ever get to see josh again? that crap is probably going to go to court and stuff... shit... maybe it was a cosmic lesson. who knows... well, das ist allas....auf wiedersehen...

:: 2005 17 November :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: depressed

So now that I wrote about my drama with Jim today.. I figured I'd write about my days.

Yesterday.. [Wed.] Becky Amy and I got in trouble for the whole "Jumping into the trunk" thing. Becky and I got 1 day after school, and Amy got 20 days without her driving pass.. Mr. Telerico laughed about it, said it was funny blah blah blah. The funny thing is, is that the teacher wouldn't have even known if some LOUD MOUTH would have kept her f-ing mouth shut.

Today [Thursday] I presented my graduation project. I went in there, I was prepared.. then I went to put my video in and it wouldn't work. I cried in front of 7 teachers.. But I guess something was wrong with the VCR they used because someone elses didn't work either.. so I went back up like an hour later and showed them my video. I brought Gabby with me, and they were all like "awwww she's beautiful." Yeah, she is. I know. :)

I was just messing around and I took this quiz..
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:: 2005 15 November :: 8.09pm
:: Mood: depressed

So Doctor Beck, Mono is the sickness that I have?
Damn.
School is dumb, I want it to be Christmas break..
I am depressed.. still.

Although we've come to the end of the road
Still I can't let go,
It's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Here, here I am again
And I'm starin at these same four walls
Alone again
And now, all the colors blend
And I'm growing numb
And I've become this empty page
Hold on, its tragic
Stumbling through all this static
I just wanna talk to you
And my broken heart just has no use
And I guess promises are better left unsaid, yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that I'm the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground
When you say love makes the world go 'round

Oh, the things lovers do when it's over
Oh, the things lovers do when it's done
Find a cool bottle or a warm shoulder
Wake up older
And try to move on

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:: 2005 15 November :: 9.47am
:: Mood: depressed

Now everytime I see you
~~I pretend I'm fine~~
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

Late nights, Late nights, playing in the dark
and waking up inside my arms
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

I hate the way I feel.. I hate what I do to myself..

:: 2005 14 November :: 10.32pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: PENCILLIN - Urutoraidaa (Ultrider)

armageddon ga semaru
i love you.

:: 2005 14 November :: 5.15pm
:: Mood: depressed

So yesterday, [Sunday] Rochelle and I went to the mall/movies.

We saw SAW2.

Real good.

I went over Jims.

Jeff made me laugh.
"chilly willy" teehee

Stayed. [yayyyyyyyyyyy. I love being with him!]

Went to school.

And here I am.

What a glorious evening.

P.S.
Yes, Jim, I am jealous.
And you hold it over my head.
I hate it.
And I hate the way you talk to her on the phone.
I love you. I'll wait.

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:: 2005 12 November :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Dir en grey - Berry

pouring out the dark red ice cream
so what's up you? i'm a total freak on a stick :D

so yesterday was shelby's party (really, lol @_@) which was pretty fun. at first i was kinda nervous because i didn't know half the people and stuff.. but it was okay. Amber kept trying to video record me and she was chasing me around and she was all "Brooke is gonna hate me" but then i sheilded myself with Lucas and that was the end of that :D I was playing Katamari Damacy and a bunch of people were just watching in awe at it's wonderful weirdness. and then i was playing magic pengel (aka the doodle game) and i tried to draw shelby and it looked really funny and then one of her friends drew a giant penis on her xDDD

today my mom dragged me to pittsburg with her to a bead show, the car ride was crazy. 2.5 hours each way >.< while we were actually there it was kinda boring and made worse by the fact that i was sleepy, i had a headache from being in a room with tons of people and i was slightly nausiated because of the heat in the room. for a little while i had to step out and stay in the lobby (it was at some holiday inn) which made me feel better but i went back in to be with my mom, she was gonning to let me get something and there was some stuff that was cool but i lacked the desire of actually 'wanting' it so i didn't get anything.. the way back i mostly listened to music and slept. my mom thanked me a lot for going saying i helped a lot but all i really did was read directions off of a paper :O

anyway i'm really bored and i feel like a crappy person so someone please come entertain me : )