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dakishime

:: 2005 9 November :: 3.37pm
:: Music: Gackt - Kimi Ni Matteiru Kara

ON A GOOD NOTE. I`m like in EXTREME drawing mode. (=

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 8 November :: 8.51pm
:: Mood: gloomy

So Monday, (yesterday) Jim Gabby and I went to the mall. I had a good time, I hope Jim did too.. I bought a new purse.

Today Becky and I went to Kings.

Tomorrow we're going to get our costumes for Senior Night Thursday.

Pictures::
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impersonality

:: 2005 7 November :: 8.09pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: PENICILLIN - Make Love

to no one in particular:


I Love You More Today
Than Yesterday:
Yesterday You Really Pissed Me Off.

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impersonality

:: 2005 6 November :: 1.36pm
:: Music: The WHite Stripes - My Doorbell

i was thinking about my doorbell and when you're gonna ring it
well, i don't have much anything important to say, or perhaps i just don't have the energy to search my mind to find, or maybe i just don't want to share :P

so... I will just say some random stuff and you're going to just deal with it XP

- in the mornings when i wake up i usually have a headache.

- often in the mornings i also feel like crying

- i had a dream last night with a pink water fountain

- even though i've showered yesterday and the day before i still have red marker on my arm <.<

- on time i had a dream that i was Jesus crusified, and i'm not religious o.o

- when people i don't know too well talk to me i get suspicsious that they're trying to trick me into something or are otherwise trying to get a laugh at my expense.

- lately one thing has been on my mind

- nurses are kinky XD

- people in cars often stare at me when they drive by for like no reason I'm aware of.

- there is so such thing as too much candy

- our lawn of weeds is greener than our neighbor's grass <.<

- the end


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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 6 November :: 11.23am
:: Mood: depressed

So it has been an all around bad weekend. It started off at work Friday, though I really don't want to talk about it.. [friends only entry!]

So I tried to call Jim to see what he was doing, Jeff answered to phone. Our convo:
Jeff Hello?
me Hey, is Jim there?
Jeff Uhh, no he got kicked outta the house last night.
me What? Where did he go?
Jeff I don't know.
then we said bye or whatever.. and I haven't heard from Jim since. What a nice guy, huh? I'm sitting here worrying about him all weekend, and he probably doesn't even care. His mom keeps calling me to see if he called me to tell me where he is.. but I have to keep telling her no, because he really hasn't even called me.

Later that night Becky and I went to the football game at Ringgold. I ate like everything. The food looked soo good. We lost 7-48. We actually left early, so we didn't get to see us score a touch down.

Saturday I went to Gabrielle Brothers. I got some toys for Christmas for Gabrielle, and some shirts for myself. I spent $90.12.. good job on my part. I thought I was going to spend more. <3333
Saturday night Becky and I went to the mall.. for like 3 minutes. LMMFAO. Good times though.. we'll go again, maybe for longer this time.. and maybe I'll actually buy my purse!! We went to Burger King to see TUBBY!! [[Kristen.. love you!!]] Then I took her home, and I came home and went online for a while.

Today I'm just lounging around the house.. I'm gonna post some pictures of gabby today. Later Bridg and I are supposed to go to the movies.

kbye!

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Impersonality

:: 2005 5 November :: 7.21pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: The Horrorpops - Walk Like a Zombie

all the flowers you bring are always dead
Dad: Brooke, come here for a second
Me: Yeah?
Dad: Can you read that sign on the house directly across the street?
Me: No, I can't read it. Why?
Dad: I was just wondering. I can't read it either, but I wonder what it says.
Me: We should find out.
Dad: We will later. We'll either drive up real close or we'll get the binoculars

XD

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Impersonality

:: 2005 4 November :: 10.30pm
:: Mood: cold

yanno what's really gross/weird? close your eyes and put your fingers over your eyelids and roll your eyes around. haha.. yeah. you can tell i'm bored.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 4 November :: 12.47pm
:: Mood: crappy

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:
4
Mind:
3.2
Body:
6.6
Spirit:
3.6
Friends/Family:
4.7
Love:
1.4
Finance:
5.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 3 November :: 9.31pm
:: Mood: apathetic

Nothing new in the life of Jena lately. No new gossip to talk about, Gab is still sick, I am still depressed, and nothing dramatic happened between Jim and I happened.. I haven't even called him since Tuesday.. it's now Thursday.

Anyone elses life this dull?

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 2 November :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: stressed

I skipped school yesterday and went to Jims.
We talked.
I don't think we'll get back together.
We're seriously just friends now.. I'm gonna try very hard.
I do still love him, but we he thinks were better off apart.
He told me that I was high maintnance..
I cried a lot. He said he didn't know why I wanted him back so much.
He saw my leg.
We'll try this for a while. See how things go.

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Impersonality

:: 2005 31 October :: 9.32pm
:: Music: The Horrorpops - Walks Like a Zombie

and you wanna hold hands in the cemetary
You walk like a zombie
You talk like a zombie
It's not in your head
You're a living dead
Whatever you're gonna do
You're gonna make me cry

You walk like a zombie
You talk like a zombie
It's not in your head
You're a living dead
Whatever you're gonna do
You're gonna make me cry

And you wanna hold hands in the cemetery
And you wanna be lost for all eternity
And everything is dark and kind of scary
And you crave the full moon
But I don't care

And you want a mountaintop with a little castle
And you wanna name our kids Morticia and Fester
And all the flowers you bring are always dead
And you howl at the moon, but I don't care

Six feet under
You make me wonder
You wanna be undead
So you can be hunted
But whatever you're gonna do I'm gonna follow you

Six feet under
You make me wonder
You wanna be undead
So you can be hunted
But whatever you're gonna do I'm gonna follow you

And you wanna hold hands in the cemetery
And you wanna be lost for all eternity
And everything is dark and kind of scary
And you crave the full moon
But I don't care

And you want a mountaintop with a little castle
And you wanna name our kids Morticia and Fester
And all the flowers you bring are always dead
And you howl at the moon, but I don't care

And you wanna hold hands in the cemetery
And you wanna be lost for all eternity
And everything is dark and kind of scary
And you crave the full moon
But I don't care

And you want a mountaintop with a little castle
And you wanna name our kids Morticia and Fester
And all the flowers you bring are always dead
And you howl at the moon, but I don't care

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 31 October :: 11.58am
:: Mood: depressed

Jim called last night.
I answered.
He talked, I cried.
Things are worse than before.
He got mad because I wanted to bring Gab over for tricker treating.. he wanted to be with his friends.
I did something dumb last night.
[[I won't ever tell.]]

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 30 October :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: sad

So Friday around 3:30 I called Jim to see if he wanted Gabby and I to come over.. he said "Sure, call me back at 5:00 because I'm doing something right now." [I knew what he was doing, so I understood] So I called him back and called him back and didn't get ahold of him until like 6:30 by then Gabby was sleeping and he was like "Oh, I'm sorry Jeff said he was gonna stay down here cause he was waiting for a phone call." Okay, whatever. I understood. So then I asked him since Gabby was sleeping if he wanted to go to the movies with me. He said "yeah sure. Call me back at 6:00." So I called him back, he told me to call him back again [because he wanted to make sure his mom wasn't coming home that night.], so I called him back again at 7:30.. no answer. I called him again at 7:45, no answer.. I kept calling until 8:05.. no answer. So I called one last time at 9:00. No answer.

I'm done. I'm putting in my resignation as his friend, and as his wanna-be-girlfriend.

I haven't and won't call him. If he calls me, I'm not answering.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 29 October :: 3.10pm
:: Mood: depressed

Personality Test
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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 28 October :: 10.05pm
:: Mood: depressed

[The Basics]
Full name: Jena Maria Pust
Date of birth: 1-27-88
Gender: Female
Location: PA
Ethnicity: White
Zodiac sign: Aquarius.
Reason for taking survey: Bored, something to get being ditched AGAIN off my mind..

[Going Deeper]
If any, name any phobias you have: None that I know of.
Do you drink: Sometimes.
Do you smoke: No.
If any, what drugs have you done: Just smoked some weed.
Now do the same for your family: USA
Are you a junk food person or a healthy eater: Both.
Living arrangements: I live with my Aunt and Uncle.
Name any pets you have: None anymore..
Siblings: Two sisters Samantha and Anna.. and one brother Dustin, all who I miss very much.
Do you like your school: Do you like getting shot in the head? I don’t think so.
What is your favourite class: Career and Office Applications
What is your least favourite: I like all my classes.
What genre of movie do you prefer: Drama.
Are you into self categorization? No, I dress/act different all the time.


[Favorites]
Time of the year: Spring/Fall.
Friend: I don’t pick favorites.
Family member: I love most of my family, [[with a few exceptions]] I don’t have any favs.
Animal: None.
Sweet food: Depends on my mood.
Colour: Green.
Sitcom: Desperate Housewives, Greys Anatomy, Nip Tuck.
Cartoon: Scooby Doo.
TV channel: TNT
Pastime: Being with Jim
Drug: uhh.. none anymore.
Magazine: Cosmo
Games console: PS2.
Website: woohu.com
Swear word: Fuck.
Ice-cream flavour: Oreo.
Clothing brand, if any: Anything from Delias.
Store: Delias.
Place to relax: Jims
Place to shop: South Hills Village.
Place to party: Wherever.

[Do you believe in..]
God: Sometimes.
A counter-god, or devil: Yeah.
Reincarnation: No.
The Soul: Not really..
Evolution: Somewhat.
Angels: Somewhat.
Karma: YES
Do you celebrate Christmas: Yes.
How do you celebrate your birthday: Depends..
What is your religion: I’m not religious.
Does your family have any special customs: No.
Have you ever converted from another religion or atheism: No.
Are you a vegetarian: No.

[For the Older Kids, Sex!]
Are you a virgin: No
If applicable, did you like your first time: Yes..
Ever given head: Yes.
Ever done anal: Haha, yes.
Does S&M appeal to you: No.
Do you watch pornography: Yes.
How often do you masturbate: I don’t.
Ever had sex while drunk: Yes.
Do you regret any sexual incidents that occurred on your part: No.
Do you consider yourself sexually attractive: No.
Favourite sexual position: I have many.
Tell us about any of your personal beliefs regarding sex: I just feel you should only have sex with someone you love.. not just anyone who’s there.

[Your Love Life]
Are you in a relationship right now: No..
Describe your current, or most recent relationship: It was great, until I ruined it.
Are you, or have you ever been in love: Yes.
What's your sexual orientation: Straight.
Are you, or do you plan on getting married: Yeah, someday.
Do you believe in soul-mates: Yes.
Do you think long-distance love is possible: No.
Could you see yourself being unfaithful: No.
What do you notice about the opposite sex first: Hair.
Biggest turn-offs: Yucky teeth.
Taller or shorter than you: Taller.
Ever broken someone's heart: Yes.
Has someone ever broken yours: Everyday anymore.
Do/would you have children: I have a child.

[Your Bad Side]
Do you steal, or have you stolen: Yes [I have]
If so, was it from a store or a person you know: Yes.
Have you been intimate with someone else's significant other: No.
Do you take advantage of other peoples' kindness: No.
Have you lied to your parents: Yes.
Do you get jealous easily: YES. I fucking hate it.
Do you have a bad temper: Oh God, yes.
Have you ever made someone cry: Yes.
Ever physically hurt someone: Yes.
Do you consider yourself racist: No.
Must you always seek vengeance: HAhaha, yes.

[This or That]
Alcohol or Marijuana: Alcohol.
Coca-Cola or Pepsi: Coke.
A quiet evening at home or a wild night out: Depends on my mood.
Extreme intelligence or unbelievable beauty: Half and half.
A permanent, stable relationship or an insane sex life: A permanent, stable relationship.
Christmas without gifts, or Christmas without everything else: Without gifts
Rock or Rap: Rock.
The ability to fly or the ability to be invisible: Be invisible.
Hearing or seeing: Not sure.
Depression or anxiety: They’re both terrible.. so.. neither, please.
Immortality without the ability to die, or mortality: Mortality.
Death by freezing, or burning: Freezing.
Death by suffocation or being stabbed: Stabbed.
Lots of acquaintances or a few close friends: Few close friends.
To be a singer or an actor/actress: Actress
Eternal day or eternal night: Night.
X-Ray vision or psychic abilities: Psychic abilities.
Sweet or savory: Sweet.
To never sleep or to never eat: Never eat.
To eat as much as you want or to sleep as much as you want: Sleep as much as I want.
World domination or infinite knowledge of all things: Knowledge of all things.
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: Neither, thanks.
Bush or Kerry: Bush
To resort to cannibalism or to die: Die.

[The Last]
Person you talked to: Jim.
Person you argued with: Jim.
Person you hugged: Jim.
Person you kissed: Jim.
Person you texted: Chuck.
Person you had sex with: Jim
Phone call: Jim.
Thing you ate: Pepperoni Pizza.
Thing you drank: Orange Juice.
Time you showered: This afternoon.
Time you told someone you loved them: When I got off the phone with Jim about 3 hours ago..
Time someone said they loved you: Yesterday.
Time you laughed: Last night.
Time you vomited: This morning.
Paycheck: Thursday.
Time you had sex: Yesterday.
TV show you watched: Law and Order SVU.
Song you listened to: I don’t remember.
Movie you watched: The Truman Show.
Dream you had: Me running into a tree and dying.
Time you got drunk: Long time ago.
Party you went to: Long time ago.
Item of clothing you bought: Not sure.
Person you would sleep with: Jim.

[Have You Ever Been Called]
Bitch: Yes, all the time.
Bastard: Not that I know of.
Beautiful: Yes, by Jim
Talented: No.
A waste of space: Yes
Liar: All the time..
Geek: No.
Nerd: No.
Loser: Yes.
Peculiar: No.
Intelligent: Yes.
Skinny: Yeah.
Fat: Yeah.
Pretty: Yes.
Preppy: No.
Goth: No.
Emo: No.
Grunger: No.
Fiend: No?
Innovative: No.
Weirdo: No.
Stupid: Yep.
Retarded: Yes.
Annoying: Yes..
Freak: Yes..
Brat: Yes a long time ago.
Cute: Yes.
Interesting: Yep.
Boring: Yes.
Slut: Uh huh.
Whore: Yes.
Skank: Yes.
Asshole: Yeah.
Shitface: Don't think so.
Ugly: Yeah.
Disgusting: Yep.
Shithead: Don't think so.
Cock: No.
Tit: No.
Twat: No.

[Totally Random]
Tell us the first thing you'd do with a million dollars: Build a house for me, Jim and Gabby to live in right next to my Aunt and Uncle.
Why is the sky blue: I forget.. there is some logical reason.
Do you consider yourself to be romantic: Yes.
What's the best thing somebody has ever said about you: That I was the most beautiful thing in the world..
What do you think of P.E.T.A: I don't know what that is.
What do you think of South Park: Used to be funny, now it’s just old.
Do you like candles: Love them.
Do you think emo people are idiots: No.
Do you think goths are idiots: No.
Do you think people who take ridiculously long surveys are idiots: Haha.
Do you believe men and women are truly equal: Yeah.
Do you read books very much: Yes.
Do people consider you to be a bookworm: No.
Describe your mother: No thanks.
What's one thing you would change about your body: I wish I was skinny.
Would you kill one child to save the lives of 1000 children: Never..
What one thing would a person have to do to deserve death: Rape someone.
The most romantic thing somebody's ever done for you: Jim would send me flowers for no reason..
Do you use bittorrent: What's that?
What P2P programs do you use: I just play Jims.
Have you ever skydived: Nope.
List three things you want to do before you die: Be happy [with Jim], Make sure Gabby has a good life, and that’s it.. there is no 3rd thing.
The world ends and you can only save three people and yourself. Who would you save: Gabby. Jim, and I don’t know..
If you could kick anyone's ass, who would it be: TO MANY FUCKING PEOPLE.
If you could sleep with anyone in the world, who would it be: Just Jim.
Are you bored of this survey yet: Very much.
What is the meaning of life: there is none.

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