<b>MISTAKING WIRES FOR VEINS</b>

:: 2005 20 September :: 9.03pm
:: Mood: bitchy

Yessssssssss. I'm a bitch. WOOHOO. Tell me something I didn't know.

;)

:: 2005 19 September :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: fearful
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Lucky Denver Mint

you're not bigger than this, not better, why can't you learn?
http://www.yorku.ca/cjp/Summaries3.htm

:: 2005 19 September :: 1.59pm
:: Mood: blah

So I went over Jims.. that's all I'll say. Haha.

I worked yesterday. Haha, a few good stories goes along with that..

Becky wanted an update, so here it is.

Love, Jena

2 CMNT(S) | CMNT.

:: 2005 18 September :: 10.37pm

i have to go do my homework...

also, i'm babysitting again, so i shall get money to buy cd's and kanji and language books and lots of lovely things.

Impersonality

:: 2005 18 September :: 2.54pm
:: Mood: surreal
:: Music: PENICLLIN - English Industrial Students

feel the vibe, sound of life in the air, breaking through that wide and endless sky of asia
hahahahaha... i'm hearing music in my head

well, my stuff arrived from Ebay, and i'm in love with Hakuei more and more all the time :D in one of the videos they're in this cardboard small city and Hakuei is sporting this awesome red jumpsuit with matching eyepatch :D

omgwtflolJAPAN!

:: 2005 14 September :: 9.31am
:: Mood: blah

My Mom finially called me back about my sister. "We found her 1:30 in the morning, she was at some ladies house named Pat. We're going to get her counseling." That was the message she left on my answering machine.

I worked last night.. long boring night. Actually, it was busy except for the last hour or so.

Tonight I have to stay after school for PSSA tutoring. I failed the math part of it. Uhhhh.. yuck. it freakin' sucks. Anyways, I'll do it.

4 CMNT(S) | CMNT.

:: 2005 13 September :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: ack
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Christmas Card

hey hey, still staring, little girl? are you looking at or past me?

i think a mosquito bit my foot and it itches like doom.

:: 2005 12 September :: 9.23am
:: Mood: blah

School started, I got my lisence. My sister ran away. My old house is finially tore down.

Yeah, a lot is going on.

14 CMNT(S) | CMNT.

:: 2005 10 September :: 9.59pm
:: Mood: SOMEBODY PLEASE JUST SHOOT ME NOW

everything's shit :(

2 CMNT(S) | CMNT.

:: 2005 31 August :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: pissed off

i think you got a piece of my heart on your face.
yeah.. today was well, yeah.

there are some things i like about my schedule and some things i don't. i only saw casey ONCE before homeroom started. she isn't in any of my classes and she isn't in my lunch.:( actually on Als is in my lunch.

homeroom i think will be okay, Als is there as well as Bobby, Kristen, and Krystal. Everybody said Mrs. Daub was really mean but i think she's okay so far. when we get our seats moved though it might suck. It's also the only class i have with Stalker in it.

2d period is mostly boring, mostly preppy people, Lye and Hannah J and Kirstie are in it though, so it's not completely bad. Sholtis seems really boring though.

3. Is gym. i HATE gym. Mrs. Walk said this year we do football and basket ball. I will die. Lye is in it, Jarrid is, and Mike K is, those are the only 9th graders. Brandon Butler is there too and he was talking to me O.o shelby said he's a retard, haha. he seems sorta nice O.o Jarrid was talking to me and butler too.

4 is gewd, Ryan M sits right next to me, and Raya and Nichole M are in it. Raya was happy cuz i could be her partner and stuff. who should i chose, ryan or raya? :(

after that is lunch, which is.. eh.. well at least my beloved Als is there. we sat with Jessica and Raya and their friends, Shelby knows Jessica and i think my sister did too O.o i didn't eat today though because the line was really slow and not worth the wait.

5th is.. well.. i dunno about 5th yet, Sure it's art and i have Als with me but once we move to alphebetical order it will be hard. Most of those people are like preppy seniors, who i don't really think care too much about art, they just like Mr. Humes. um.. my mom said i could have made friends because she said the people that take art are a little different but once i told her my observations she agreed with me. we also might have to work the cafeteria worker's appreciation day :(

6th i have Knox, um, Eric Law is there but i don't sit by him. I sit by Bobby though, he is my partner :)

7th i don't like at all. there are only like maybe 10-15 people, everyone being people like abby r, kevin p, kevin forish, bobby martin, kara p, etc. AND I'M RIGHT SMACK IN THE MIDDLE OF THEM. i'm surrounded on all sides and i have no one to talk to <.< the teacher seemed like he sort of got the impression that i'm quiet or something _-_

8th is GREAT. i had study hall with cappozello? (not checking right now) but we had like twice the amount of people we should, so it seemed like all the 9th graders, we got moved to study hall with Mr. Barker. he is by Mr. J's room, he's the other shop teacher. it's good because i sit by Jaletto and we some other people and we were talking and stuff the whole time. and i mean, sit like right next to him ^__^ and unfortunately i'm far away from my locker now, but i'm closer to my bus...

i saw Joe during the day and i said hi and he said hi back but he didn't seem to happy to see me :(

Impersonality

:: 2005 29 August :: 12.49am

The mistletoe hung in the castle hall,
The holly branch shone on the old oak wall;
And the baron's retainers were blithe and gay,
And keeping their Christmas holiday.
The baron beheld with a father's pride
His beautiful child, young Lovell's bride;
While she with her bright eyes seemed to be
The star of the goodly company.

'I'm weary of dancing now," she cried;
"Here, tarry a moment-I'll hide, I'll hide!
And, Lovell, be sure thou'rt first to trace
The clew to my secret lurking place."
Away she ran-and her friends began
Each tower to search, and each nook to scan;
And young Lovell cried, "O, where dost thou hide?
I'm lonesome without thee, my own dear bride."

They sought her that night, and they sought her next day,
And they sought her in vain while a week passed away;
In the highest, the lowest, the loneliest spot,
Young Lovell sought wildly-but found her not.
And years flew by, and their grief at last
Was told as a sorrowful tale long past;
And when Lovell appeared the children cried,
"See! the old man weeps for his fairy bride."

At length an oak chest, that had long lain hid,
Was found in the castle-they raised the lid,
And a skeleton form lay moldering there
In the bridal wreath of that lady fair!
0, sad was her fate!-in sportive jest
She hid from her lord in the old oak chest.
It closed with a spring!-and, dreadful doom,
The bride lay clasped in her living tomb!

:: 2005 28 August :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: confused

So many things are going on right now.. it's confusing. I wish guys would not act so dumb.

Stupid guys.

3 CMNT(S) | CMNT.

:: 2005 26 August :: 12.01am
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Goodbye Sky Harbor

you are. . . smaller, getting smaller but i still see . . . you . . .

long survey without stupid questions
Created by shatteredwidow and taken 66 times on Bzoink
basics
name::	Brooke
age::	14
birthday::	10/18/90
zodiac sign::	Libra
height::	4'11"
weight::	'round 118
shoe size::	6 - 6 1/2
any piercings?	not anymore
any tattoos?	not yet
glasses/contacts::	i chose not to have glasses
do you have braces?	just got them off
hair color::	pink.. well.. yeah.. mostly XD
eye color::	brown and amberish green
race/heritage::	white, origins being german, polish, english-irish and swiss
favorites
color::	pinkxblack
person::	kyo and hakuei XD
band::	dir en grey, PENICILLIN, jimmy eat world, hole
tv show::	wonder showzen
movie::	the dark crystal, labyrinth
number::	9
day of the week::	saturday
season::	autumn
place::	kyo's pants XD
sport::	badminton
singer::	kyo XD
book::	pendragon series, tithe: a modern faerie tale
month	october
flower::	black roses (okay so they aren't really black, but purplish)
candy::	button candy
ice cream flavor::	pandaw paws, whitehouse cherry
restaurant::	200 items buffet
actor::	depp XD
actress::
animal::	poison arrow frogs, flamingos
drink::	Ramune XD
website::	deviantart
instrument::	gee-tawrs
planet::	saturn, mars
ceral::	you mean, "cereal?" um.. the flintsones marshmallow things
store::	amazon japan, jpop help
cartoon character::	goth kids on south park
body part::	shoulders, neck, face
video game::	Katamari Damacy
first
your first word was::	don't know
the age of your first kiss was::	not happened yet
your first time was::	probably never XD
the name and age of your first love was::
have you ever...
gotten drunk::	not that i remember
done drugs::	besides caffeine?
had sex::
done a threesome::
been jelous of a friend::	it's a constant thing
been suicidal::	never
been homicidal::	secretely XD
stole something::	candy,money
fallen in love with a friend and couldn't tell them::	shhh
wrecked a car::	not yet
been held back a grade::	no's
lost a friendship over something stupid::	yes
been single for more than a year without wanting to be::	XD
dumped someone cause you were sick of them::	sounds in character
broken a bone::	never
been in a serious fight::	why? everyone loves me X3
been do depressed it was hard to get up in the morning::	at some point or another
cried over someone::	plenty of times
had a friend who died young::	nope
had to go to a funeral of someone you really loved::	perhaps
this or that
winter/summer	winter
rebirth/death	how bout the inbetween?
coke/pepsi	coke
hot tub/pool	hot tub
dream/reality	dream
cat/dog	cat
flowers/candy	candy
comedy/tragedy	comedy
your view on
politics::	bad
god::	kyo is god.
gay marrige::	go for it
magick::	it works
love::	more often than not is a waste of time
evolution::	could have happened
aliens::	somewhere
abortions::	yes
karma	i believe in it
fate::	yes
legalizing marijuana::	yes
the afterlife::	who knows
do you have
more than 50 cd's?	yes
a car?	no
a motercycle?	no
a job?	if you count babysitting a job
more than 10 pairs of pants?	no
more than 15 shirts?	yes
more than 8 pairs of shoes?	no
love
gay/bi/straight::	straight
are you dating someone?	no
if so for how long?
do you love them?
whats your favorite things about their personality?
do they have any flaws in their personality?
whats your favorite thing about their looks?
what your least favorite thing about their looks?
loves
friends::	all of them
faimly members::	some of them
pets::	most of them
random
do you love yourself?	in times that are few and far between
if you were a mythical creature what would it be?	mermaid or dragon
if you had a wish....	it wouldn't come true ;)
other
anything else not mentioned?	some of my pet peeves are cd's that skip, skinny girls who think they're fat, and people with the same name as me
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:: 2005 24 August :: 7.47pm
:: Mood: blah

So much is happening, and school's just right around the corner. I'm ready though.. I've been ready. I just work all the time and spend the rest of my time with Gabby-doo. She'll be a year on October 1.. I CAN NOT believe it. She's walking now! It's just crazy.

Time is going way to fast.

6 CMNT(S) | CMNT.

:: 2005 24 August :: 12.33am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Dir en grey - 24 Cylinders

sleeping with a kiss to unheated death

well orientation was today, it was mostly stuff i didn't pay attention to about college and grades and careers and all that stuff i'm not ready for. I went basically to see everyone and find my classes, and my friends were there so it wasn't so bad. the first part was terribly boring though, except for stalker. i must say his attempt at getting attention worked for once. my mom took Als and I home, and she showed my mom Boogers. at my dad's house not much went on but we got Arby's and we came over a few hours earlier because dad wanted to get out of work. School starts next wednesday and i don't want to go at all, this will be the worst year ever. the only good thing is i guess my art class, and seeing everyone again. even though most of the people i'm happy to just see don't know it.

this is just a small add on

some people are really deep and stuff, that you have to admire, and it makes me feel inferior because when it just boils down to it, i'm just so damn apathetic (or, for a cover, i say 'neutral') about things, like, things that i want, and people i think i love, way way down inside i know i could live without it all. i'm ashamed.