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2005 23 August :: 12.47am
:: Mood: ouch
:: Music: Dir en grey - Macabre -sanagi no yume wa ageha no hane-
THE MAN FROM NOWHERE
He was a strange one all right . . . just as the authorities said . . . this young man who acted as though he had just dropped in from another world . . .
He was just outside the new gate entrance to the city of Nuremberg, Germany, when an inquisitive policeman first noticed him. He was clean, but so poorly dressed that he was almost ragged. The policeman later told his superiors that he had first been attracted to the young man by the difficulty with which he seemed to walk . . . as though suffering from some deformity which caused him to stumble. His feet were badly swollen; his eyes were squinted against the light . . .
The inquisitve policeman tried to question the lad but he learned nothing . . . over and over the stranger kept repeating . . .
"I want to be soldier like my father was!"
It did not sound like an expression of determination . . . but more like a chant . . . as though the strange young man who uttered it was merely reciting words he did not understand.
The policeman led him to the station, where the Mayor and other local dignitaries gathered to observe and question this unusual visitor. In a monotone the young man continued to repeat his assertion that he wished to be a soldier like his father.
His name? He evidently did not understand what they were saying and he stared blankly. But when a pen was placed in his hand he giggled nervously and wrote in a slow, legible hand . . . K A S P E R H A U S E R. He could not . . . or would not . . . write anything else. But on that quiet Whitmonday afternoon in 1828, the young man had inscribed on the records the name that was to mark the beginning of a puzzle which remains unsolved to this day.
When food was placed before him, he seized it in his hands and crammed it into his mouth as though he were famished. A mug of cold milk was evidently something he had never ecnountered before and he recoiled from it. Water he drank, but not until he had sampled it with a forefinger.
Just before nightfall, while the baffled city fathers of Nuremberg were trying to decide what to do with their enigmatic visitor, he presented them with two more pieces to the puzzle . . . two letters wrapped in rags which he carried inside his tattered vest. One letter purported to be from his mother. Dated sixteen years before, it urged anyone who found the boy to send him to Nuremberg when he was seventeen so he could enlist in the Sixth Cavalry of which his father had been a member, according to the letter.
The other missive was badly written and purported tobe from someone who had found the boy and cared for him but who could no longer support him.
Oddly, both letters wree written on some sort of thin leather or parchment which was not familar to the officials ar Nuremberg.
Kasper Hauser, if that was indeed his name, spent that first night with the city's most learned man, Dr. Daumer, were the young man promptly astonished his host by trying to pick the flame off a candle. Further tests brought out that he had no depth preception whatsoever and, although he seemed to be in full pocession of his faculties, they were as undeveloped as those of a baby.
Although the condition of his feet and legs indicated that he had walked a considerable distance, no one could be found who had seen him on the road. A reward was offered for anyone who could identify him. Pictures were distributed throughout Europe, but to no avail. The more the officials probed, the deeper the mystery of Kasper Hauser became.
Under the kind and patient Tutelage of Dr. Daumer, Kapser Hauser learned quickly . . . first to speak . . . and then to write. He told his new-found friends that he had been raised since infancy in total darkness in a cellar . . . had never tasted anything but black bread and water . . . had never seen the man who brought his food in total darkness. He had seldom heard speech . . . and then only a few words. But how, or why, or where he had spend those years he had no idea.
In October of 1829, Kasper came stumbling out of Dr. Daumer's basement, bleeding from a deep gash on the head which he said had been inflicted be a masked man weilding a long knife. The city officials assigned two policeman to guard him after thtat . . . but while they dozed on the afternoon of December 14, 1833, Kasper Hauser went for a stroll in the park across the street . . a stroll from which he came staggering back a few mintues later . . . dying from a stab wound which surgeons said could not have been self-inflicted.
The snow in the park revealed no footprints other than Kasper's . . . and no trace of the weapon.
The well-documented facts in the enigma of Kasper Hauser etitled it to a place in the records as one of the stangest cases of its kind.
Von Feurbach wrote of him . . . "Kasper Hauser showed much ignorance of the simplest facts of life . . . and such horror of the necessities of civilization . . . that one feels driven to believe that he was a native of another planet . . . transferred by some miracle to our own."
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2005 17 August :: 7.42pm
:: Music: Lee Jung Hyun - [Something in Korean]
I`m better.
Thanks guys. :D I`m feeling a little bit better. My mom still is pretty pissy. But that`s kinda normal.
I like poured my feelings to like 2 awesome friends yesterday, like completely. I`ve never had a person listen to my problems before so that was nice. And cause it`s hard for me to trust people. But whatever.
And tomorrow is registration. :D And I`m walking there with Nikki so I won`t be alone when I get there. P: There is like 800 people there I don`t know so I would feel pretty weird being alone.
I don`t think I`ll be posting in the guild for awhile.
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2005 17 August :: 2.02am
:: Mood: Insomniatic
More Emotional
You have: 55% SCIENTIFIC INTUITION and 62% EMOTIONAL INTUITION |
The graph on the right represents your place in Intuition 2-Space. As you can see, you scored above average on emotional intuition and about average on scientific intuition.Keep in mind that very few people score high on both! In effect, you can compare your two intuition scores with each other to learn what kind of intuition you're best at. Your emotional intuition is stronger than your scientific intuition. |
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Your Emotional Intuition score is a measure of how well you understand people, especially their unspoken needs and sympathies. A high score score usually indicates social grace and persuasiveness. A low score usually means you're good at Quake.
Your Scientific Intuition score tells you how in tune you are with the world around you; how well you understand your physical and intellectual environment. People with high scores here are apt to succeed in business and, of course, the sciences. |
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2005 16 August :: 8.10pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Nothing.
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I feel so unwanted right now. It really sucks. My mom like called me stupid. And it hurt a lot because she was already mad and I knew she actually ment it. And I can`t stop crying.
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2005 15 August :: 8.10pm
:: Mood: back from teh graveeeee
:: Music: The White Stipes - Blue Orchid
you got a reaction, you got a reaction, didn't you? you took a white orchid, took a white orchid and turned it blue
well today i went shaw-pang. well see my grandma has been afraid to shopping alone ever since some boys were teasing her in the parking lot of kmart or something, like calling her old and grandma and stuff. (why does it have to be HER? you see my mom bets that she is bipolar, you know, so like, she's AFRAID of it now...) so my mom took me, her, and my sister up to the crafts place in the mall, after that my sister went off doing her thing in the mall and took the bus home and i stayed with my mom and grandma, then we looking in the other one, and then we finally found Gold Star <3 i bought some strawberry soda, 2 boxes of banana flavored pocky (ate one box already) and two of the those weird jelly drink things like ninamori and naota had in furikuri, only they have like some photoshoped picture of heero yue on them O.o i got a grape one and a pineapple one. My granmda gave me ten dollars and that's what i used it on, before i knew we were going there i was planning on saving it towards jrock but i'm a compulsive spender <.<
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2005 14 August :: 2.38pm
:: Music: Chemistry - Let`s Get Together (Tokyo Calling)
BLEHBLEHBLEH. (:
Registration is next week D: The Orientation is next week. WHY IS THE SUN SETTING ON SUMMER?! How I would love for at least 1 more month. That`s cause I`m lazy. :D
Kirara so lucky. She found what she wants to do. I think. I wish I made a strong decision on what I want to do for a living and work hard for it to come true. But all I can do now is just get good grades. P: BLEH. I have no idea. D:
Well, today I went to develop my Japan pictures which has expired at least 2 months ago. LMAO. Told you I`m lazy. And I got a new Jansport Red backpack for school. eww. School. bleh. Whatever.
I don`t care anymore.
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2005 13 August :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: UGH
:: Music: PENICILLIN - Taiyoo no Kuni
i think this song means "Country of Sun" but i'm not sure if i translated that right...it's a sweet song, though, it was a very uplifting aura about it.
Anyway i got back from that party a little while ago, we didn't see the Amish people though because we left before they came. It was at some farmy place. The DID grill a pig, but what was weird is they also did cook a GOAT, and some guy shot some WOODCHUCKS and cooked them. I only ate pretzels and cookies. There were some girls there around my age, they were okay i guess. They were too much into active stuff, like they were climbing the latters on the huge silos and stuff and running through these old barns, but i didn't trust the rickety stairs, especially with my huge healed shoes, they make me feel unsturdy. We went looking for chickens but we couldn't find any. That's okay because the girl who lives there said the chickens were mean. I was telling them about my school and how all the boys used to wear girl jeans and the one girl was all like "EMO BOYS! They're hot" lol. She liked my shirt (Charlie and the Chocolate Factory) and my shoes, i guess she's supposed to be into gothic stuff or something. She liked anime though, and she said she had a friend who listens to jpop. She commented that my sister looked like one of her ex boyfriends O.o
HELL YEAHHHH!
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XD!!
i got pregnant from my secret lover XD
KIND OF? i would be happy! XD
like sex XD
damn <.<
it's that bad? XD
XD!!! i'd read it..
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2005 10 August :: 8.56pm
:: Music: Otsuka Ai - Himiwari
:D NOTHING REALLY.
Damn music. I don`t think music works on woohu.. ): But yeah. Whatever. My mommy said if I get straight A`s for a year, I can get to go to Japan again. And MAYBE South Korean and Taiwan. But now that I think of it. I don`t want to go there just yet. I would rather get a digital camera first and then go on vacation. (: But I hope I live to see the day. ):
I`m always scared that, I can never see tomorrow. Not that I`m sick or anything. But it`s just scary. D: I hate the feeling. hehehe. o_____o^
I still cry over my dad`s death. Kinda silly since it`s almost a year now. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? A Whole year. Almost. The end of August is approaching. P: And Like yeah. I wonder what I will do on that day. D:
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2005 9 August :: 9.36pm
:: Music: PENICILLIN - Hate
wonderful, special, oh my god,unbelievable, miracle, kiss my ass
Mama is waiting, honey boy
Hey, you're a chocolate parfait
Here's your toy yo nice guy
Hate ***************
The greatest student, teacher's pet
Hey you, finish the homework
Really good job, nice guy
Hate *****************
Kiss my ass
Where's your soul, honey boy?
Hey, you're only a big mouth
Ain't nothing if ain't no fan
Hate ***************
Got a good sense, yo honey boy
Hey, I wanna be guy like you
It's American joke, yo nice guy
Hate ******************
Wonderful, special, oh my God
Unbelievable, miracle, Kiss my ass
Wow wow wow wow wow wow wow
Get out my face, makes me very happy
Wow wow wow wow wow wow wow
You take a chance, Get on bound for Hell
Fantastic, marvelous, oh my God
Congradulation, intellegent, Kiss my ass
Wow wow wow wow wow wow wow
Get out my face, makes me very very happy
Wow wow wow wow wow wow wow
You take a chance, Get on bound for Hell
You Are a Glam Rocker! |
You put the "show" in rock show with your larger than life self.
No doubt, you are all about making good music...
But what really gets you going is having an over the top show.
Glitter, costumes, and wild hair are your thing - with some rock thrown in! |
How You Life Your Life |
You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.
You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. |
You are Agonistic |
You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care.
For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine.
You rather focus on what you can control - your own life.
And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you. |
actually, i'm already putting together the blocks of my own religion, haha, but there are some agnostic elements.. too...XD nevermind
You Are 37% American | America: You don't love it or want to leave it.
But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over.
On the 4th of July, you'll fly a freak flag instead...
And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch! |
| You scored as Emo. Your Totaly Emo!
Emo | | 45% | Goth | | 40% | Rocker, Mosher | | 30% | Prepy | | 25% | Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev | | 20% | Skater | | 20% | Trendy | | 0% |
What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t created with QuizFarm.com |
how the hell did i end up emo? they never have otaku nerd in these quizzess...
| You scored as Cute. You're cute. Like a girly girl. And if you're a guy and you got this result, you must be gay. But anyway. Email me at in_the_depths_4ever@yahoo.com
Are you ugly, cute, or sexy?! created with QuizFarm.com |
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2005 7 August :: 6.04pm
:: Mood: blah
So I ended up NOT being able to even drive to get my lisense. They said because my mom wasn't with me.. Hello- my mom now lives in Flordia. So I'm going on the 11th with the f-ing paper I need notorized. It's bull-shit.
In other good news, I have been getting all kinda cute things for school.. I bought myself a new pair of brown Vans, and some shirts from Delias, one has a cigg. on it crossed out and it says "There are cooler ways to kill yourself" haha, anyways, I have $75 pac bucks to spend at Pac Sun on Aug 14-27 or something, so I still have to get some jeans from there. I have $50 Daisy Dollars from Delias to spend, so I'll def. have fun spending those.
Works been going really good for me lately, Stephanie works with me now- so that's really cool. I like working with her. Cindy and I were talking to and she was like "JEna, you're doing really well, I wouldn't be suprised that if you kept this job that when you became 21 you'd become a shift supervisor then even assistant manager" I was like Whoa, that's cool. It just made me feel good that she said something like that. So I'm happy today.. I just have to get a new computer then I'll be really good. I already have like $1000 saved for one, I'm just looking for one now. A laptop probably.. because theres not a lot of room at my Aunt Loraines. Well.. we'll see how things go!
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2005 6 August :: 9.00pm
:: Mood: drugged
damn i wish my sister would just move out or something.
so, not much has been going on except yesterday i got a Charlie and the Chocolate Factory shirt and some shoelaces. I asked my dad to call me when my cd came but for some reason i think it's already there and he just didn't call. everytime i ever want to call him he's not there. too many people are IM'ing me right now. god school will suck this year. i might have to pestermy dad into taking me to waldameer because my mom said she'd take me but of course we all know how she is with keeping promises.
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2005 5 August :: 9.57pm
This Layout sucks and it`s hard to read. But I`ll put another one up soon, hopefully. (:
Something`s weerd about my PS7 When I save for the web. xD
Like I don`t know what but it gets all fizzy and the picture doesn`t come out smooth. ): But whatever.
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2005 5 August :: 1.59am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: GGXX - Haven't You Got Eyes in your Head?
sexy cookies would sell like.. like sexy cookies.
funnest survey eva part 2!!!!! | Created by surveysam and taken 12 times on bzoink! | Name: | Brooke | Age: | 14 | if you had to pick a song that u had to dance to wat would it be: | diru - hydra | did you like part 1: | didn't take it | if you can create a new sport wat would it be called and explain alittle: | glomp the hottie. 'nuff said. | if you can create a new name for a state what would it be called: | Peanut Town | if you can create a dream yummy cupcake what would it be: | a kyo cupcake XD | if you can have any power what would it be: | change gender and appearance at will. | if you can be any celebrity whio would you be: | um.. | if you can create a new show brand what would it be called: | what is a show brand? | having fun???? | no | if you can be any animal which one would u be: | poison dart frog | if you were a general manager on wrestling what matches would u make: | i wouldn't be | if you can create a new kind of cookie what would it be and describe it: | a sexy cookie | if you can pick any member of opposite sex to marry who would ya choose: | KYO XD | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
sunshinebaby's just for fun survey | Created by sunshinebaby and taken 35 times on bzoink! | What is the closest thing on the floor to you? | cd wallter | What can you smell right now? | nothing | What color is your shirt? | lime green | What are you thinking about? | someone | What is the book that is nearest to you? | book on faeries | In that book, go to page 134, line 8, and type the first 6 words. | pages ain't numberd, plus it half one way and half another | Do you have any pictures of anyone? | casey, and my dad when he was my age | If so, are they people you actually like? | yes | What is above you? | a light | when you look to the left, what is the first thing you see? | the cubbard door of the computer thing | Are you wearing any jewelry? | no | Pick up something, what is it? | a pen | Who are you thinking about? | did you already ask this? | Do you have a crush? | yep | Who is it? | can't let that fall into the wrong hands XD | What comes to mind? | Green | my shirt | Love | | Paper | white | Wall | white | Dog | bark | Book | words | Phone | ring | Shoe | lace | Jar | cookies | Drink | alcohol | About you | What is your name? | Brooke | Age? | 14 | Male or female? | f | Do you go to school? | yes | Where are you living? | mom's house | Who are you living with? | mom, Jess, sis*cough*ter | Was this lame? | not entirely | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
About You!! | Created by mandamoo21-05 and taken 9 times on bzoink! | For starters | Name? | Brooke | Age | 14 | Siblings | 1 | Names | val | Favorites | class | art | band | diru | song | can't chose | sport | badminton | activity | sleeping | drink | cold or crozen coffee | store | amazon japan | position...you know! | | movie | edward scissor hands | T.V. Show | aqua teen, robot chicken | Actress | | Actor | johnny depp | Food | pocky | This or That | Summer/Winter | winter | Spring/Fall | fall | Pink/Red | pink | Cat/Dog | cat | Private/Public School | depends on the school | Sex | Have you ever had sex? | no | With someone of the same sex? | no | Anal Sex? | no | Oral Sex? | no | Dugs | Have you ever gotten drunk? | not that i remember XD | Have you ever woke up, not knowing what you did the night before? | no | Have you ever smoke pot? | no | Other drugs? | caffeine is a drug. okay that is lame. | Friends | Who's your bff? | a&c | Funniest friend | billeh | Smartest | dunno | Most benevolent | wtf XD | Lastly | was this enjoyable? | ok | How long did this take? | like a few mintues | Bye... | love ya | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
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2005 5 August :: 1.19am
:: Mood: i'm one sad puppy
:: Music: GGXX - Suck a Sage
damn, i had no idea how boring summer can be <3
god this is lame, same day, in, out.... lately i've been so bored i can't even sleep. i want something to do to occupy my time, but not school, because know i hate hc and i wish i transfered to academy, even though my mom can't afford it, i wish i could still go. well at least when school starts up again, i may be able to babysit for bob and gabby again, that was god money. money that i pissed away on jrock and probably will again this year. i feel caged, somehow, like there's so much i want to do and become, but circumstances i can't control are holding me back, so i'm stuck in this limbo which is giving me horrible pain. i checked my biorythm today, i'm very good for emotional and physical, but my intellectual is really bad. i've been checking my horoscopes lately, and they actually do offer great advice. it told me recently that i'm at a decision point that's causing me stress but whatever way i choose will work out fine. i feel sometype of ease in horoscopes. there's so much i want to accomplish but so far i'm at a dead start, i want to really make myself something meaningful but i don't know how to cultivate whatever type of hidden potenial i have. if any.
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