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I'm coming back to Bentworth as of tomorrow or the next day.. (depending on when my Aunt can go in and sign papers)
I'm no longer speaking to my Mom.. a lot of things have happened over break.
Gabrielle and I staying with my Aunt Loraine for now.. I kinda hate staying out here only because I have to look at the house all the time. I walked down there today to look around. I just started crying. Just to lose everything. It's hard.
Anyways, no longer call my cell phone. My mom was paying for it. So I gave it back to her. new number: 258*6461
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2005 26 March :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Guilty Gear Isuka - The Cat Attached to the Rust
take my quizzlet!
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2005 26 March :: 8.17pm
:: Mood: Waiting...
:: Music: Dir en Grey - Berry
i'm gonna blow your head off like raspberry jaaaaaam
Macabre came today. I am a happy girl.
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2005 24 March :: 9.04pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Dir en Grey - Jesus Christ R'n R
jesus christ rock'n roll
well.. Withering to Death came on tuesday, like i knew it would... and i orderd Macabre (plus some Gauze VCD :D )
in another weekend, (not this one) my mom is making an appointment with Kent for me. (he's the hair-cutter man) I'm thinking of getting it like a wedge cut, only instead of the sides being long and getting shorter as it goes back, it will be short on one side and will get longer as it goes AROUND to the side :D not only that, but i will probably have bangs, too. and pretty soon her i convinced my mom to let my dye my hair black >:]
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2005 23 March :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: crappy
Well, I think I'm going over Jims tomorrow.. I was supposed to go tonight but I just didn't call him back, so I guess I'm not. I have a CAD project to do anyway, it's worth liike 50 points so I really need to do it. But I didn't start yet.
A picture of Gabrielle and one of myself!!Read more..
ahhh, so today Geometery was dumb, we went over PSSA problems that would be on the PSSA test and I didn't know how to do like any of them.. haha. We got this 50 page packet that's due when we go back on Wed. Uhhh.. yeahh
English we didn't do anything-- as usual. All we ever do since I've been here is sit and talk. Anyways, I'm now reading 1984 by George Orwell.
Study Hall and lunch were boring, and long.
PE I walked on the track.. I'm actually exercising and sorta watching what I eat.. I'm losing weight little by little. My goal is like 120. I weigh 145 right now; I still have a long way to go.
Accounting we had to make a Journal on Excel, but yesterday mine didn't save so I had to start all over from scratch- ahhh die.
Child Care this little girl Natelie (I think that's her name) was throwing up all over the place so we had to call her Mom to come get her.. I felt bad because she looked so miserable.
CAD we just talked about cases that were happening all over the us, the one where the husband took the feeding tube out of his wife, the other one where 2 juviniles robbed and killed an elderly lady, and another where a teenager shot up his school just a few days ago.. I really like that class.
After class Greg (cute guy!) came up to me at my locker and was like "Hey Jena, I noticed you don't talk much in class, are you shy or what?" I was like "No, I'm actually really loud I'm just new so I kinda keep to myself." Then he walked me half way to class but had to go himself. He was like "see ya later" and touched my back, whoa. Haha, I'm so dramatic. Anyways, he's really nice.
Bio we just took a test- boring!
Tomorrow I'm going to Jims hopefully. He's gonna be mad at me for not calling him all day. I hate talking on the phone anymore.
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2005 22 March :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: tired
SOOOO I finially got a new computer. Well we're renting one until we move into our new house.. I'm downloading everything right now it's going like 93583094758 miles an hour because I have DSL or whatever, so that's neat.
Canon Mac is okay I guess, people are nice- I have some friends. More guys than girls.. which is suprising. But whatever.. it's cool. There are some reeeeeally cute guys here, that's for sure.
My first period is Geometry Full, then I have English 11, then study hall, lunch, gym, Accounting 1, Child Care 2, CAD [12th grade Gov. and Econ.] ohh yeah me =smart. ha then my Bio class. There is so much walking to do, but it's okay I guess. I do miss everyone from Bentworth. *hugs*
Gabrielle is getting so big. I'd post a pic, but my digi cam was in the fire and it's ruined. But she's getting so much more cute every day. Definitely.
Blah, I just hate having to walk down to the bus stop.. I have to walk down the road. I'm just not used to it. I used to get rode up to the other bus stop, that was nice. Oh well, most of the time my Mom drives me down anyways. ;)
Last weekend was fun- Gabrielle and I stayed over Jims house. Friday we just hung out, Saturday Donna, Jim, Gabrielle and I went to see Jeff. He definitely grew up, he got a little taller, put on some weight, his voice got deeper, and all around looks a lot older. He gets to come home this coming weekend for Easter.. and every other weekend after that. That's cool- I'm actually glad he's coming home.
I just read a really good book, it's called Postcards from No Mans Land by Aidan Chambers
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2005 21 March :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: hey sex-ay bay-bee...
:: Music: Vendetta Red - Shatterday
our days are numbered 666
for the most part i am content, which is pleasing in itself. um. but somehow i still have a part of me empty.
as in the words of the great Courtney Love...
"It came from my mom. She's like a therapist and I said "I had a really fucked up childhood" and she said "Well, Courtney, you can't walk around with a big hold inside yourself about it" Then I realized that a lot of different kinds of anger and stuff came from my hole, this hole that needs to be fed-the angst inside a person is like their hole...Like when you feel that human emptiness and you have to feed it..."
this is how i sort of feel, and i when i find what ripped open this hole, i am going to rip IT apart.
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i miss all you guys from bentworth!
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2005 20 March :: 8.04pm
:: Mood: boxed
:: Music: Dir en Grey - YURAMEKI
well, today was a pretty good day.
I went to my grandma's house, and as my mom puts it, she is starting to lose it. Why? well three years ago her husband (my grandpa) died on Easter Sunday (i take this as a good omen :] ) and soo this is going to be a really tough week for her. She started digging out all her old pictures of family (loneliness) and gave my sister and i a box of pictures of us. I don't really want them, but they were kind of interesting to look through. I really don't want to get old and lonely....
Then we went to Wal Mart and my mom bought me things (I'm totally not used to this, so i feel so guilty) I got a new pair of jeans, a black skirt to go with my leg warmers, a pair of pink fishnet tights and a pink hat.
"If the good die young, I am gonna live forever"
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2005 19 March :: 11.13pm
:: Mood: guiltyjealousviolenthateful
:: Music: Dir en Grey - SCHWEIN no isu
eins zwei drei vier...
today was ok. My mom and I went to D&K and she and i bought a lot of things. They were having a sale :] I bought a bunch of glow in the dark shapes for my ceiling, my mom bought me a bunch of beaded curtains (she says she's thinking of something cool to do with them, maybe hang them around my bed) a little magnet with a cute girl on it, chalk for my doors, socks and leg warmers, a new slinky (heh, you bastars keep taking them away, and i will just get more....) and..um.. oh...i think that's it. yeah, i'm pretty sure.
well... withering to death should come on tuesday (if not already, my dad may have it at his house) and then next weekend i am ordering Macabre. that will mean i will have all their major albums! yay! But then i have to get the remix album, (Kai) and Six Ugly. and possibly Missa if i can find it on ebay or something. fuck. then i have to buy the dvds and maybe the photo books...
Well, my mom is thinking of a chore list, so that means pretty soon i will get an allowance from her. cash flow, baby. She says now we can go shopping more because "Mama has a job that she likes and is going to stay with" I'm happy, now that we are getting secure.. she likes this job and it pays well, and the hours are normal so no more late shift :] I'm happy seeing my mom happy.
Certain...things at school have been going great, too...haha.
"As my feet touched the muddy ground on that wet day, my shoes stuck to it as if it were trying in vain to suck me into my own grave. Passing redundant ters of monuments and epitaphs, I stopped at one that was painfully familar. I've been here so many times before, but it looked new to me every time. It was cold when i touched it and the corner had fallen off. It read..
'May we remember you
As you were, not as you
Were on that day'
The date and name has been scratched and marked away, but they can never be removed from my mind
The back said
'Josh+Kayla
4
Eva'
in spraypaint. I wondered who Josh and Kayla were, and how long their forever would actually be.
I was the only one there, that day, whose flesh and blood were intact, which added to my feeling of being an intruder. That's when i remembered that part of me can be found buried in the very plot i am standing on"
If you are confused as to what you just read, you are not alone. I was cleaning my room and found this in one of my old notebooks, so i have no idea what the hell inspired me to write this or when i did it. whatever. it's creepy.
| You scored as Not Liked By All, but Loved By Some.
Not Liked By All, but Loved By Some | | 75% | Youre better than U think | | 67% | You're Liked an Average Amount | | 58% | Nobody likes You, but You, and Thats Okay | | 58% | You're not Liked That Much.... | | 42% | You're a Popular Person | | 25% | You are Loved by All | | 25% | You're Hated Completely (sorry) | | 17% | You couldnt be any More Popular | | 8% | Absolutly, Positively....Hated | | 8% |
What Do People Really Think of You
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 | You scored as Art Freak. You artsy fartsy kid you. You rock my world.
Art Freak | | 75% | Loner | | 50% | Loser | | 19% | Cheerleader/Jock | | 13% | Nerd | | 0% | Punk Ass Kid | | 0% |
What's You're Sterotype?
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You are Kyo.
Which Dir en grey Member Are You?
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i don't really feel sad, but i want to cry.
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 | You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof).
Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.
agnosticism | | 83% | Buddhism | | 67% | Paganism | | 63% | Islam | | 58% | Hinduism | | 46% | Satanism | | 38% | Judaism | | 33% | Christianity | | 25% | atheism | | 21% |
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2005 16 March :: 3.24pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: SHIMMY SHIMMY QUARTER TURN.
i`M kinda boreddd sooo.
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2005 14 March :: 8.23pm
:: Mood: 3...2...1....BOOM
:: Music: Guilty Gear XX - Bloodstained Lineage
ahhhh stress! feels like my head will burst! I need a braindrain! there's just too much.... stuff bouncing around in there XD i wish my mind would just go numb for a while, or maybe bash my brains to bloody pulp with hammer? :P i need aspirin. or ferrets. or something.
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2005 13 March :: 8.19pm
:: Mood: Uncomfortabley Touched. o_o;
:: Music: BUDDDDY HOLY. I dunno` by whooom.
i`M SO FACKiN` NATURE-ISTIC
o_o. We went Hiking todae. It was funn I guess. but BUT BUT. THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY. :BBBBB
K. Like where I went hiking, THE PINACLE, in FRESNO, CALI. Or like I call it THE PINACLE OF DEATH. o_o yeah So the whole thing is about these works that fell and like now form stupid trails for stupid nature people like me. So we made it through the first cave WHICH WAS SCARY AND DARK.!~ And then we had to walk in cold stream water. So it was reallly cold. and like when we got out the first one. We were like let`s just climb this big steep hill instead of going through the water again. WHAT A FCUKING MISTACK. Mistack. SWEET. K. So we started climbing after this one white guy that said it was SAFE. )= BASTARD. So when I got to the middle my foot lost grasp on the rocks. AND I SLID. Like 2 centimeters. IT WAS REALLY SHARP. Yeah and like now I have a scratch on my hand. )= It started bleeding. yeah yeah. SCARY HUH. And like we found out that the waterway had like logs and like rocks to climb over and it was a hell of an easier way to go. STUPID WHITE GUY. I COULD OF DIEDIDIDIDD. and like broken something.
My mom just slapped me. Right across my fcuking neck. Just because I nevermind. She never slapped for that before. JUST CAUSE THE FUCKING PIZZA GUY. SHE`S SUCH A FUCKING BITCH.
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2005 10 March :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Dir en Grey - 24 Cylinders
give me high in a world of contradiction
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001. I miss somebody right now. @
002. I watch more TV than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.@
005. I own a home.
006. I wear glasses/contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.@
008. I've done something illegal. @
009. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I like my handwriting.
013. I have acne-free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. @
017. I have a hobby. @
018. I've been to another country.@
019. I carry my knife/razor/whip/whatever weapon you want here everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.@ (modesty? where?)
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones. @
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. @ plenty
023. I love rain.@
024. I'm paranoid at times.@
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.@@@@@@!!!!!
026. I need money right now. @ (MORE money...)
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.@
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.@
035. I have a twin.@ not physically, but a double of everyone's souls exists somewhere..
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.@
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.@
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.@
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I've been sexually intimate with less than ten people.@ 0.
049. I am currently single.@
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex. @
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.@
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgeoisie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my Xanga.
058. I don't hate anyone.@ not truly, no...
059. I'm a pretty good dancer.
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.@ too young
068. I've rejected someone before. @ a handful, actually o.O
069. I currently have a crush on someone. @ crush is not the word..
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.@
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything.@
077. I have a lot to learn. @
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am (can be) very shy around the opposite sex.@
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved. @
083. I have been rejected by someone. @
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "South Park" movie.
086. I have blown off work to have some fun. don't work
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum. how do you play that? O.O
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I love my best friend(s). @
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist. @
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome! @
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.@
098. I have dated a close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment. not quite the word
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. Had a crush on somebody I had never met. @
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now. @@
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest movies/books ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the TV show “The O.C.”
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.@
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ omg if you only knew....
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often. @@@ @@@@ people need to cheer THE FUCK UP.
114. I think ramen is one of the best foods in the whole world.@
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd.@
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I try not to change who I am for someone. @
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
122. I enjoy smoothies. @
123. I have had major surgery. major? no
124. I have adopted a pet from the ASPCA.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Some people call me by a nickname. @
127. I once stole a music stand. a whole stand??
128. I like pumpkin pie. @
129. I love NASCAR!
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I have mono.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.@
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.@ sometimes..
134. I'm still in my PJs.
135. I'm looking for love in all the wrong places.
136. I have a tendency to fall for the wrong boys, or have them fall for me, so I can't help but reciprocate.@
137. I'll try anything three times.
138. Done drugs other than alcohol or cannabis.
139. I'm having trouble sleeping. cycle's just fucked.
140. I am a cuddler. @
141. I love John Waters films.
142. I have made a pornographic videotape.
143. Sloth is my favorite deadly sin.@@@@@@@@@@
144. One of my boobs is bigger than the other. i don't think so..
145. I know all the words to the "Firefly" theme song.
146. I love Dr. Pepper.
147. I'm a programmer.
148. I can't explain why I'm unhappy at times. @
149. I own and have read all of the Harry Potter books.
150. I like to smell my own hair. @
151. I carry a book with me almost everywhere I go.@
152. I have an eating disorder. does an addiction to sugar/candy count?
153. I have flown to a different country to see a band.
154. Been hospitalized for "mental issues". i can see it eventually
155. I have survived totaling a car I was driving.
156. I am addicted to a Manga/anime.not addicted...
157. Somehow I always seem to get myself into trouble. @
158. I have dated someone for longer than 5 years.
159. I have been hit by flying Eric Szmanda spittle.
160. I have lived in three different countries.
161. I have tattoos.
162. I have lost someone I cared about deeply.
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