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2006 22 November :: 9.36pm
:: Mood: discontent
:: Music: [David Bowie] + [Magic Dance]
Had a stupid dentist appointment again @ 9 today, but, I got my mom out of work for the day D: At least, the nightmares about people with bloody mouths are gone. It was really scary. They weren't out to get me, there were just standing there, against a backdrop of nothingness, afraid and in pain, and bleeding. The girl was crying... I kept waking up and feeling my face.
This time they used permanent cement, and of course when we got home she had to tell everyone on the planet my progress of this stupid shit, and I really didn't want any more people to know than what was necessary. So much for that. My penicillin is almost gone, I'm excited.
She keeps saying that I'm a good kid and she's proud of me, and I'm patient and brave and I've had soooo many people in mouth, and all this stuff I don't want to here. It's not like I really had a choice, the only reason I'm putting up with this shit is because my dad is paying for this, and as this is considered a cosmetic procedure, insurance is useless. I don't want to be a waste of money like some other people in my family.
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2006 20 November :: 11.23pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: [The Smiths] + [Girlfriend In A Coma]
I just got back from an emergency trip to the oral surgeon. My stitchs blew and I was bleeding out of my mouth and it wouldn't stop. I had to cram a towel in my mouth and go back and get more novacaine and stitches. I might have to go back to the oral surgeon again and of course while he was sewing me up the crown became loose again so I have go back to the dentist too. I'm tired of this. I'm tired of dentist, of taking pills, all of it. I'm starting to lose faith in this fucking surgery.
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2006 20 November :: 3.32pm
:: Music: [Rogue Wave] + [Publish My Love]
This week...
Metric
Madonna
Fleetwood Mac
Collide
Kanye West
Emilie Autumn
Six? That's it? One I already this to, one I kinda like some, one I know I don't care fore, one I don't care to know, and... KANYE WEST? Damn ]:
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2006 20 November :: 3.18pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: [Rogue Wave] + [Publish My Love]
And the college conspiracy rages on! Not only do the emails keep coming but I got like fifty ten elevinty million letters in the mail. Maybe I'll read a few. At least the art school one. Yep. ]:
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2006 19 November :: 10.30am
:: Music: SE7EN_Again
:Q
I did a bunch of community service this week. e_____e; About 6 hours. I just need about 9 more before the semester ends. (:
So yesterday I went to downtown San Jose to help with Christmas in the Park. It was ' fun '. They served us donuts and coffee. As if we aren't growing up to fast they serve us coffee. You can tell people didn't know how drink because they just 5 bags of sugar in consectutivly. I had milk. :9
Then I went to piano lessons, which I might add was the worst one ever because I didn't have anytime to practice this week. ): I need to start focusing because I need to take level 5 this coming march. scary. really scary.
So then we go to my grandma's house like every saturday. we stay for awhile and then my mom decides to go to valley fair and i'm kind of hesistant because the fact that i am scared that my grades aren't good enough and yeahyeahyeah. so she takes me anyways. so i was happy. the whole point was to go get jeans. did i get any jeans ? no. i got 4 long sleeves and one gorgeous gap hoodie. :D i need JEANS. holy shit do i need jeans. but jeans are so expensive. ): i haven't bought jeans in a while. like as in maybe 1 - 2 years.
i must say, it was a happy saturday. me and my mom are on the best note ever. & thanksgiving is coming up. yeah 4 day weekend. we aren't going anywhere.
HOW ABOUT YOU GUYS. . going anywhere for thanksgiving.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA. (:
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2006 15 November :: 8.43pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: [Againste Me!] + [Even At Our Worst We're Still Better Than Most (The Roller)]
Recs
Stars
Elvis Costello
Rogue Wave
Sufjan Stevens
The Flaming Lips
Wolf Parade
Goldfinger
Sigur Rós
Beulah
Hot Water Music
Black Flag
The Katies
Guilty Gear Isuka
2, The Ranting Gryphon
The Notwist
Shout Out Louds
Air
Yo La Tengo
Butthole Surfers
Ani DiFranco
Marilyn Manson
Belle and Sebastian
Wilco
Imogen Heap
The Mountain Goats
The Decemberists
The Brian Jonestown Massacre
Stars. Again. Haha.
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2006 12 November :: 8.32pm
P.S. THE Tyler likes the Candy Spooky Theatre. He is my new hero <3
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2006 10 November :: 11.31pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: [Dir en grey] + [mazohyst of decadence]
SHIT
is all I have to say D:
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2006 10 November :: 11.24am
:: Music: Younha_Omoide deki nai
HUZZAH.
So let`s just recap the following week.
- My beautiful glasses are gone and now I am depressed.
- My glasses got ran over by a car. ):
- & Now I might get some other one at Costco.
- But I don`t one from Costco. I want my old pair.
- But I don`t want to be spoiled brat and get the old pair cause they are expensive.
- But I really really like those glasses.
- I don`t know what to do. D:
- I`m scared to tell mother a lot of things because I`m always scared she`ll yell at me.
- My mom got mad at me because I had another email address that she didn`t know about. & she got mad because she thought I was talking to boys or something and sharing ' intimate secrets ' or something. -___________-;
- I have never had a boyfriend before.
- She says she can`t trust me but like I have never ever snuck out with a boy, or done anything with a boy.
- I don`t know why she would think that about me.
- I have done nothing in the past to bring her to that conclusion.
- Yeah I have told big lies before when I was younger, but those were mostly about my grades. > n>;
- SO YEAH.
- French field trip was so fun. I laaaaaaaaaaubed it.
- Except a certain someone was there. EWEWEWEWEW.
- I hate how you can`t do anything about the fact that someone you don`t want to like you, TO ACTUALLY LIKE YOU. ):
- ummm. yeah.
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2006 7 November :: 3.42pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: [Youth Group] + [See-Saw]
Like a see-saw, I just need more weight to carry me up
Metric
Orgy
Tori Amos
Never Crazy
ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION
HOME MADE KAZOKU
Sacred Miracle Cave
fOUL
Flow
Soroban
PANICch
Pumpkin Head
Fiona Apple
UVERworld
Fifth Column
Mask
Concrete Blonde
Letters to Cleo
PJ Harvey
Transister
Mazzy Star
Yo La Tengo
The Cardigans
caligari
Sel'm
Guess what! I finally know! I'm passed everything, I think. I'm not interested in getting involved. When you really love someone, I firmly believe that you will just 'know' and it will feel right. None of this has been the case, and it feels good to be free.
Well, almost. D:
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2006 5 November :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: ambitious
:: Music: [Pop Will Eat Itself] + [Love Missile F1-11]
I need to
Clean up my room to take some pictures I have an idea for D:
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2006 1 November :: 3.54pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE. :D
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2006 1 November :: 4.14pm
Recommendz
Stars
Kaya
Nada Surf
Hot Hot Heat
La'cryma Christi
Panic Channel
Metronome
Duel Jewel
caligari
Liz Phair
Wolf Parade
Guniw Tools
Daft Punk
Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
Ghost
Frou Frou
Conjure One
ART-SCHOOL
ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION
Maverick
Sadie
The Yellow Monkey
Nobuo Uematsu
Babylon
girugamesh
Fiona Apple
Tori Amos
The Decemberists
Lisa Loeb
Blue Note Records
Vogus Image
BAISER
Shout Out Louds
Hot Water Music
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2006 1 November :: 4.05pm
:: Mood: Hurt
:: Music: [Garbage] + [Can't Cry These Tears]
You know, at first I didn't care at all. In fact, I thought it was really funny.
But now, I just feel hurt.
I really wanted a cake :/
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2006 24 October :: 10.45pm
Recommendz
LCD Soundsystem
The Strokes
New Order
Gang of Four
Cut Copy
Le Tigre
Bloc Party
Orgy
!!!
Fischerspooner
Boards of Canada
The Flaming Lips (i already like them haha)
Scissor Sisters
Sufjan Stevens
The Album Leaf
Art Brut
Daft Punk
The Magnetic Fields
Liz Phair
Grizzly Bear
Arctic Monkeys
Tim Gunn
Collective Soul
Tori Amos
Stars
Talking Heads
Juliette & The Licks (wtf... i listened to them this week lolz)
The Chemical Brothers
Clor
Shout Out Louds
Wheatus
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