just a lil bit of lyrics

the last thing i wanna do right now is read your stupid poetry
why cant you just tell me what you really wanna say
you'd clear your conscience with words so weak and empty
but something in your eyes gave you away

thats right i'm retarded so what?
the story of deer boi and t.i's best friend fo life


IzntLifeSo JUICY (1:58:56 PM): hahaha im so retarded
dragonb44 (1:59:05 PM): wat?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (1:59:27 PM): me just being stupid
IzntLifeSo JUICY (1:59:32 PM): in my wooooooohu
dragonb44 (2:00:16 PM): lol wtf?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:02:10 PM): wa?
dragonb44 (2:04:13 PM): lol i read it lol ur rly bored arent ya?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:04:28 PM): yeah im totally bored
dragonb44 (2:06:34 PM): soo umm wat u need to shop 4?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:06:39 PM): school
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:06:41 PM): clothes
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:06:42 PM): dance
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:06:45 PM): DUHHHH
dragonb44 (2:06:51 PM): well nethign in particular?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:09:18 PM): everythinggg
dragonb44 (2:11:02 PM): riiiiight
dragonb44 (2:11:11 PM): even sox?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:12:05 PM): ew gross
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:12:12 PM): i aint wear socks nigga
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:12:18 PM): u shittin me
dragonb44 (2:12:56 PM): lmao
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:13:02 PM): what?
dragonb44 (2:13:05 PM): u siad everything
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:13:11 PM): whatev
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:13:19 PM): i aint wear socks nigg
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:13:21 PM): that simple
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:13:36 PM): lordy lordy looks whoss forty and a deeer boy
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:13:38 PM): aahahahaha
dragonb44 (2:13:48 PM): wtf lol
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:14:12 PM): yeah you're a deer boi
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:14:37 PM): and you're gonna become road kill if you dont get your liscense what now deer boi what what
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:14:38 PM): ahahaha
dragonb44 (2:15:20 PM): wow haha
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:15:29 PM): thats right
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:16:07 PM): eat your damn sandwhich deerboi
dragonb44 (2:17:16 PM): llmaoklaom
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:17:53 PM): wwaaa
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:18:03 PM): i dont understand yo language deer boi
dragonb44 (2:18:59 PM): lol nothing
dragonb44 (2:20:26 PM): ur funny when ru bored lol
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:21:09 PM): heck yes
dragonb44 (2:22:18 PM): u should b like this more. . often
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:22:31 PM): whyyyy
dragonb44 (2:23:49 PM): cuuuuzzzz
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:23:58 PM): hey guess what deer boi
dragonb44 (2:24:06 PM): wat haha
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:24:12 PM): dont look now but you're on candid camera
dragonb44 (2:24:19 PM): . . .
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:24:21 PM): dont look i said
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:24:32 PM): damn it deer boi you dont listen do you
dragonb44 (2:24:32 PM): lol ok
dragonb44 (2:24:53 PM): where the hell did u get deer boi from lol
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:25:25 PM): hey hey dont ask too many questions deer boi we dont want you to go to get killed now
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:25:36 PM): you got deer spies all over your property
dragonb44 (2:25:44 PM): wtf lol
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:25:57 PM): thats right
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:26:12 PM): dont let them fool you when they ask you to join their deer club
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:26:27 PM): they'll just plant all kinds of devices all over you
dragonb44 (2:26:54 PM): i think u should right a sty abou tme
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:27:14 PM): what deer boi?
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:27:17 PM): speak english
dragonb44 (2:29:21 PM): lolu should write a story about me. . deerboi
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:29:37 PM): oh nah i aint no damn creative writer
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:29:39 PM): you shittin me?
dragonb44 (2:29:59 PM): . . .
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:30:01 PM): ask my daddy he would hes a writer
dragonb44 (2:33:18 PM): yeyeeaa. ..uve told have the stry right already
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:33:46 PM): rigghhhtt
IzntLifeSo JUICY (2:33:54 PM): deer boi has a brain

the end

mOre lyrics niggggg you got a problem.. you aint knoe me i may knoe t.i. but you aint knoe me

Bring back those good ol' days
Nothing feels right, nothing ever goes my way
I threw my future away
Now I walk alone out here in the cold...
Wandering astray
Where's my future?
Gonna need a home
You'd expect the same, now wouldn't you, wouldn't you?

Your journey back to birth its haunting you its haunting you
Your departure from the earth, its haunting you, its haunting you

Only those who accept will find acceptance in return
When you've been trimmed by like edges
Thrown just aside, and wilt, and spit at each other from a distance
With constant resistant from you
I'm gonna need a home
You'd expect the same now wouldn't you, wouldn't you?

Your journey back to this is haunting you, haunting you
You departure from the end is haunting you, haunting you

It's been ten years strong, thats much too long
It's time to do something good for my health
Time to do somethin' good for myself
It's been ten years strong, thats much too long
It's time to do something good for my health
Time to do somethin' good for myself
I've wasted all this time, I've wasted all this time

Your journey back to this is haunting you, haunting you
You departure from the end is haunting you, haunting you

lyrics.. this song is sweeeet so ihats why its here gosshhh ahahahaha

Lately I'm alright, and lately I'm not scared
I figured out that what you do to me feels like i'm floating on air
I don't need to know right now
All I know is I believe
The very thing that got us here
and now I can't leave

Say anything
But say what you mean
Cause I'm caught in suspension

Now, I'm wanting this for sure
And I'll beg for nothing more
I'll plan all day and drive all night
And love what's in store
Can't seem to stop this now
Even if it's not so clear
And I'll take what I can get
If you want me here

Say anything
But say what you mean
When you whisper you want this
Your eyes tell the same
We are gaining speed
I can barely breathe
Cause I'm caught in suspension

It's enough for me to get excited
It's enough for me to feel whoaaaa ah ah ah oh

Say anything
But say what you mean
When you whisper you want this
Your eyes tell the same
Say anything (suspension)
But say what you mean (oh please don't let me down)
I'm caught in suspension
I'm caught in suspension
We are gaining speed (suspension)
I can barely breathe (oh I can feel you now)
I'm caught in suspension
I'm caught in suspension
Say anything (suspension)
Say what you mean (your eyes tell anything)
I'm caught in suspension

im hunnnnggrrrraayyyy
and i need to go shopping
asap
a-s-a-p
a-s-a-p
ahhh gosh me and t.i. are such great friends
when i see him on the street
he says he "hey i knoe you and you knoe me"
yeah
im sweet
i got it like that
<3

i feel so sick
and i love this song... it used to be my favorite song earlier this year and then i stopped listening to it and then last night i heard it on the radio.
but yeah last night was horrible
i went to ryans house, cuz when his mom got home he asked me to come over. so i got ready and what not and then they picked me up a little before 7. and i got there and sat down with his mom and we were gonna see whats on tv and then we started watching look a like and then ryan came in and put the movie in for us. so we were watching the jacket and i kept asking ryan to come sit by me cuz he wasnt sitting somewhere else and he just kept saying "nah thats ok". i knew he was kidding. it wasnt unusual ryan behavior. but i thought that fter 10 or 20 minutes he woud come sit with me but he didnt. then he left and we went in his room for about an hour doing whatever i dont even knoe. and i was sitting there on the couch alone while his mom was sittin on the other one watching the movie. and the whole time i had to bite my lip to keep from crying cuz he rly hurt my feelings. i had no clue what was going on. his mom went into his room to ask why he was iroom when i was here .. when he had someone over but he didnt come out for a lil bit. and then she asked me why he wasnt her with me when i came over to see him and i was like i dunno and she asked if we were in a fight and i said no cuz we werent. and then shes like "well is he on crack?" yeahhh lol. but then he came out and he sat in the kitchen and ate a banana. and then he came and sat on the same couch as me with a bunch of pillows between us and i gave him a look because by then i was rly pissed off. so then he goes "fine whatever" and he walked off and went back into his room.
the movie ended and me and his mom were watching the bobby brown show cuz i thought it was funnie and he came in and sat in the chair again and i mouthed to him "i love you" but he glared at me.. and i knoe he was kidding but.. it wasnt nice. he went back to his room after liike 20 minutes and in a little bit i went to his room to ask him if he would come sit with me out there and he said "nah thats ok i dont feel like watching that." so i was like "ok.. well you can have the remote and we can watch whatever you want to watch" and he said "no thats ok." and i said " i love you" and he said "as do i" and then i just turned around and went back to watch tv. but then i decided i couldnt be there any more cuz my head was pounding and the tears started to come down.. so i went in his room and i told him i was gonna leave soon becuz i didnt feel good and he waas playin halo2 on his xbox and he was just like ok. and then i went and told his mom i wasnt feeling good and i wanted to go home.. so i went back to his room and i had my stuff and i said im leaving. and he was like ok and i told him i loved him and i gave him a kiss on the cheek and i said bye and then he said bye. and he was still on his xbox so i figured he wasnt coming and me and his momgot in the car and left. and she told me what he did that nigt was entirely rude and unecceptable. and she said "when he calls tonight to apologize dont let him get off easy bcuz if you do he will keep doing it and acting like that.. ryan needds to knoe that when you are in a relationship with someone its give and take. and you need to think about the other persons needs as well as your own.." but yeah
i got home and cried my eyes out and i called aj and cried and then i called mimi and cried some more and she hates it more than anything when i cry and it gets her pissed off and she told me if she calls him and tells him off to not be mad at her.. and 4 months ago i made a promise to her.. and she wrote it down and it said that if ryan ever made me cry again then i had to break up with him. and well i didnt break up with him last night. so i broke a promise to her.. i called aj back and then ryan called and well i dont knoe that whole conversation was a mess. i told him he hurt my feelings bcuz of all that he did and i explained how i felt and all he said was "sorry" it seemed like he didnt have anything to say for awhile. and i told him how rude he acted and how hurt i got.. you just dont invite your girlfriend over.. of 1 year and 9 months over and dont pay any attention to her or spend time with her. i felt totally unwanted and unappreciated. and he said he didnt mean to hurt me.. he said he didnt think i would feel like that. and i was like "ok.. so when you left me out there all by myself you didnt think it was gonna bother me?" and hes like " i knew.. but you could have come in my room and sat with me or whatever.. and besides i was just kidding." and iwas like "well i figured that it wanted to spend time with me then you would come and ask me to come in your room or something. not leave me. and i knew you were kiddng.. but then you never stopped so thats when it got serious." and he said "well i thought you came over to watch the movie and i didnt feel like watching it so i thought i would let you watch it." and then i got rly upset and i was like " the only reason why i would ever come over to your house would be not to watch some movvie but to spend time with you." and i was so upset cuz i felt like he didnt want to be with me anymroe and i started to feel negleccted again.. and he said of course he still wanted to be with me.. and yeah... some more stuff was said i dont feel like typing any much longer.. .and then there was a long time of silence and he said " i love you alyssa. im sorry"
but yeah b4 school starts hes supposed to make it up to me. and it has to be rly good and thoughtful. and he said that if its not good enuff i have to break up with him.
and everyone tells me to break up with bcuz ive put up with so much.. but i just cant get the word out.
im out
<3

i've figured out
that what you do to me feels like
i can't seem to stop this now
even if it's not so clear

2am and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,"

he's just sOoOoOo....

i hate being on my period.
i got it todai at like 11 or 12 when i was at ryanns... and ive cramps ever since. ive been absolutely miserable.
my mom picked me up from ryanns at about 6 and then we went to walmart and i was starving. we like wandered around walmart for like an hour my mom was acting retarded. she was being sooo slow and i just wanted to go home and go to bed. plus i was hungry times like 64978264.
but thennnn after wandering around walmart for like ever we had to go to debbies house... my moms boss to drop off some file... and we ended staying there for liek another friggin hour... i thought i was gonna dieee. i sat there and watched a retarded episode of real word just so my mom could get some fish.. cuz patrick.. debbies son caught some kingfish. and i hateee fish. its soo grosss. and i had to sit there and wait. and then my mom wants to try and be like "oh do you want to say and hang out with patrick." and im like what the hell. hell no i dont even knoe him ive talked to him like once. and yeah so we finnally got home and all i wanted was some potato salad my mom got for me yesterday cuz im the only who likes southern style rly cuz it has eggs in it. so my mom buys me the small one and the bigger on of this other kind for every body else. and i was looking for it and i couldnt find it anywhere in the fridge and my eyes started to water cuz i couldnt find it and then my dad goes "oh i ate it" and i was soo grr... so i went to my room and started to cry and then i came back out to get on the computer cuz i didnt want to sit in my room and cry for no reason. so yeah and then my dads like " you want me to go out and you some?" and by then i wasnt hungry anymore so i said no. but he kept asking and asking and it was soo annoying i was just like noooo leave me alone and i started crying again. like hard this time. and i felt so stupid cuz i didnt even have a reason to cry and i hate being on my period cuz i blow everything out of porportion and i cry alot. i think thats why i dont talk to ryan as much when im on my period lol. but yeah i only talked to him like once today like earlier at like 12 and i havent talk to him since. i tried calling him when i was at ryanns at like 3 or so but he didnt pick u. so yeah.
im gonna go tho
im so tired
and now im laughing
haha for no reason
god im dumb
<3

toddaaaiiii
i was online most of the day and i was trying to get ahold of ryan but he wasnt picking up and we sure supposed to go the beach. so i went to publix to fill out an application but i for publix but i forgot the first 3 digits of my social soo yeah. then finally ryan called me and soo yeah we went to the beach at 3. and we chilled it was sweet. :) yeah it was fun <333 but yeah he got rly tired right b4 we left i guess cuz he looked sad. and i got funnel cake but it made me sick and then my mom picked us up at like 6 sumthin and the she drove most of the way to his house and then she pulls over at the beginning of townsend cuz she wanted me to drive even tho i rly didnt feel like it but yeahhhh
so i took him home and then floyd picked me up and i'm here now and yeah
angelina jolie...
im out
<3

yeah sooooo
im totally bored
and ryan never called me back i dunno. we were good earlier.. maybe i said something but he said he had to go and that he'll call me later tonight but he never did and usually he woulda called by now but he prolly forgot or fell asleep lol.
but yeah and i rly hope he can go to the beach with me tomorrow cuz i rly wanna go to the beach and yah.
matt and kayla
need to be together again
duh
so matt needs to put his head back on
but yeah
im out
<3

every time i say
i love you
i hope for you
to say it back
but
every time i say
i love you
i end up not getting
what i hoped for
and instead its
my heart
sinking

i've got another confession to make
i'm no fool

to hell with you and all your friends

yeah welllllll
ryan told me today that i cant see him till after august 2nd.... and my heart just sank. he cant see me until he gets all of his community service hours completed... and that wont be till after august 2nd... so yeah that rly sux but hopefully i'll be ok.
today me and ryan were supposed to go to the beach but then his mom said he couldnt see me till he finished it and yeah i was rly disappointed cuz i was rly looking forward to going to the beach with him.. but yeahhhh
so then aj asked if i wanted to go to walmart with him and logan and we went to walmart and then the mall and then to target. i saw aj boorde at the mall.. his hair looked funnie lol but yeahhhhhh i miss him coming over all the time. n e hoo it was sweet. i had fun and then we went to ajs and ate and then logan took me home at like nineeeee.
yeah i called ryan when i got home and he didnt rly talk and i knew something was bothering him.. or maybe it wasnt tho i just had a feeling and i could hear it in his voice. when he called me at ajs i asked him if anything was bothering him and he said no and i asked again and hes like "the only thing that is bothering me is you keep asking me if anything is bothering me" and it kinda felt like he was going off on me but i duunno.
and then last night he said somthing that kinda hurt my feelings..
but ok
whatev

lyrics

I won't suffer, be broken, get tired, or wasted
Surrender to nothing, I'll give up what I
Started and stop this, from end to beginning
A new day is calling, and I am finalizing

Fight!

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack,

I would have kept you, forever, what we had to server
It ended for both of us, faster than a
Kill off this thinking, it's starting to sink in
I'm losing control now, and without you I can finally see
Fight!

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack,

Your promises, they look like lies
Your honesty, like a back that hides a knife
I promise you
I promise you
And I am finally free

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack, I'll attack, I will attack

Run away, I'll attack, I will attack
Run away, I'll attack, I will attack
Run away, I'll attack, I will attack
Run away, I'll attack, I'll attack,

Your promises
(promises, promises)
I promise you

where is your boy tonight.
i hope he is a gentleman.
maybe he won't find out what I know...
you were the last good thing about this part of town.


have that song stuck my head for the past 2365934629 days
and i dont even knoe why

soooo
yesterday i woke up freakin early dude at like 5:00 to go to orlando at six but i rly didnt leave till about almost seven.... but thats school. it was me, ryan , his mom and two of her friends and the whole day all i heard rly was spanish that i could barely understand. but it was sweet. his mom wanted to go to a church there and i thought the 2nd service was never going to end... and then the pastor was picking on me.. lol so i had a couple people come up to me and ask me stuff.... but yeah then we went to eat and then after we ate we headed back to the 904. and i slept most of the way home and when i wasnt sleeping i was rockin out to music on ryans psp. i musta listen to spread like a bajillion times. then when we got back i went over to his house and watched diary of a mad black woman with his mom... he didnt rly stay there and watch it with us for the most part he was in his room on his xbox. but yeah the movie was rly good and it was funnie. by the end of the movie i was cryinggg. so then we went to the store to get ice cream but then i decided i didnt want any anymore so we just got some for his mom and then when we got back my mom called and was bitchin cuz i was with ryan the whole day and she "doesnt like it" or doesnt think its "appropriate" ... but whatev. but i had a lot of fun just hanging out with him. when i got home at like 10 i didnt do much talked to aj for a little bit but something wasnt right with him and he wouldnt tell me so he got off the phone and then i went to bed cuz i was rly tired but i still wanted to talk to somebody so i called mimi and we talked for a bit and we were laughing about not being able to remember the harry potter books names so we were gpoing crazy trying to figure it out cuz it was gonna bug us. but then we were both tired and we went to bed and then ryan called at like 11:30 but i was asleep still and i answered but i dont remember what i said.. and then aj texted me but i fell asleep again after i responded onceee
and then todai i watched assault at precinct 13 or whatever it was pretty good. jarrod dropped it off yesterday on his way to emilys while i was at ryans.
and now im bored.
and i cant wait till kristie comes back from orlando i rly rly rly miss herrrrr.
and now im gonna go eat some moose tracks
peace.

thinking too much suxxx...

n e ways.... so i was like grounded and all i did yesterday was fight with my mom and ryan called me cell phone yesterday but then i didnt here it ring and i didnt knoe where he was calling from so i didnt call back... and yeah he never called back. except for this morning he called at 10 and then hung up when i answered and then i called him back and hes all "i'll call you back later bye" sooooo i dont think he was the one who calllledd so early in da mornin.
i totally couldnt sleep last night i donnt knoe why but i woke up at like 5 something and then couldnt get back to bed like like 8 and i got outta bed at 10. but yeah
im rly bored and im not grounded anymore thanx to my drastic ways hahaha. but hey it worked and im off grounding cept i have to clean the house to day and read.. ahhhhh im like on the 4th page of huckelberry finn and its sooo gayyy. and i still got the good earth and the awakening to read. hoo picks these gay ass books anyway? i think they need to replace this person. asappp
but yeah ryan should be getting back tonight from georgia so hopefully he'l lcall cuz i wanna talk to him. and arthur gets back tomorrow from north carolina.. i think.. but yeahh hoo else is away hmm nobody rly k well im out
<3

ryan finally called me on wednesday. after 11 days. i was going insane but yeah its quite a story. hes out of town now... in georgia blah. he gets back tomorrow. oh yeah and yesterday was our 1 year and 9 months. we saw a movie... and uh yeah.. n e ways his mom called me cuz he didnt tell her he was going out.. right when they were doing good too. i told her tho bcuz i was too scared to lie to her... she said she wouldnt tell ryan who told her but i think hell know its me n e way so i hope he doesnt get mad at me.
im grounded... over stupid shit it dont even make n e sense to me. its about dance... the one thing i hate. i wanna go to terry parker soo baddddd. but i dunno.
im gonna go tho
<3

lyrics

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting

i wish i fixed it all
before it even started..

yeah so i still havent talked to ryan yet its been 6 days...
and now i'm starting to really worry cuz its been so long and ive been having these dreams of all the possible reasons why i havent heard from him. my mom said maybe there was a family emergency and they just had to pick up and leave and drive to new york. butttt.... i have a feeling.. well this is what i want to believe that his mom just decided to go out of town for a week or so cuz her birthday was a few days ago. thats what would make the most sense to me. but it just bothers me that he hasnt called me to let me know hes okkk... so yeah
i think ima go watch tv i've been cleaning all day because my moms best friend is coming to stay with us because she lives in the keys and the hurricane might hit there but i dunno. yeah..
<3