oh my gaawww. i feel like shiiittttttt. i havent been this sick.. in a rly rly long time. usually i get sick and then im over it in like 24 or 48 hours so its no biggie.. but not now.. yikes.
Couldnt go to school on friday i couldnt swallow it succkkeedd. but then i was feelin better and ryan came over.. and he uh.. yeah. but ne ways i wuz like burning up and i was shivering and it sucked.. and on top of all that my aunt linda was about to be here... but i never got after that i just got worse.. and my throat, my tonsills.. wutever hurt sooo bad i cant swallow or eat. ive barely been able to eat n e thing but i have to try cuz yesterday i hadnt had n e thing for 24 hours and my mom gave me something to make me feel better.. but it made me hurl like 20 minutes later. that hurt the worst. it was absolute bitch. cuz there was nothing in my stomach so it hurt so bad like knives in my stomach..
i havent been able to do ne thing for the past couple days and i have so many projects and tests and stuff 2moro and tuesday and wednesday and all that... i alrdy missed 4 A days and 4 B days this quarter and i dont knoe if i'll be able to make it to school 2moro. i highly doubt it unless god sends me a miracle or something. i started crying this morning i couldnt sleep cuz it hurt so bad and then i couldnt breathe and and i wuz freaking out. gaw im such a loser...

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"When you got somebody good, you hold to them and never let them go"

:D i saw him todai

ahhhhh my period it suxxxxx. yeah i pretty much spent 3 hours this morning crying like a baby. i woke up at 5 with cramps... like bad bad bad ones i couldnt move it hurt so bad. i dont knoe wuts wrong with my but its like everymonth this happens and it sux... and they last for like 2 to 8 hours. but todai it was 3... but it hurt like a bitch. i didnt go to school for 1st or 2nd period.. and missed chemistry and we have a test friday that kinda sux but o well. and i came to school during lunch and yeah. boring day. i did my spanish project "the jump off" with fredrick and danielle it was pretty sweet. in our skit i die of aids. haha.
it took forever to get home cuz of this retarded light to get to lavilla was all screwy. so i got home like a half hour late. its all good. but yeah im so tired...

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hmm... i just finished suspect zero... i started watching it saturday and then i tried watching it twice on sunday but i never finished until todai... and it was sooooo good. like yeah. lol. its kinda creepy but its good. makes ya think.

n e hooooo....... ryan called me at like 4:45 and he was walking home in his neighborhood.. and... we talked for like 2 minutes and he was like ill call u when i get home and i wuz like ok... and that was wat how many hours ago? 4? and still no call? and if i dont recall i saw he was on xbox live playin sum game at like 6 something... but i'll give him a ring later.. i rly wanna talk to him... i miss my baby.. ah the phone just rang and i thought it mite be him but its mimi.. she's rly upset. im gonna go help her out and then do my but load of hw...

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damn hiccups... ive had them like 6 times today alrdy. and they last like a half hour or an hour! sooo annoying. todai was ok.. i hate DA. hiccup.

n e hoooooo yesterday i saw my boo he came over at like 8 last nite and we took him home a lil after 9.. yeah it was this whole big thing before all that but i rly dont wanna get into it. i feel rly bad as it is. thanx for laughing kayla.. lol... but yeah it was short yet very sweet hehe and i took some pix of us but none of them were even ok of me. hiccup. i look hideous in everyone. but at least he looks cute. i put one on my myspace.
well i have a bunch of hw to do.. im so stressed...
hiccup

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i guess it seems like i cant keep his attention as much as it can...

ryan just asked if i was cheating on him...

wut kind of question is that?

thats like so low.

i would never do that.

todai was alrite. stressful but alrite. thanx to my love samuel i survived through dance class and most of day cuz she gave me a caffine pill. that stuffs the shit. and i hope samuel that everything turns out to be alrite. but uh yeah.

ryann took me home todai and we went to smoothie king in san marco.. mmm yummy. and we had a nice talk. then she hung out my house for a little while and i called ryan back cuz he called like 5 minutes b4 i got home. he sounded like rly upset but he kept telling me nothing was wrong and then he sounded rly annoyed with me... so i wuz kinda like.. yeah. but yeah then he got over that and he was being so cute. hehe he sounds rly cute when he sings to linkin park. he wuz tellin me how he made a skate video a walla go "when he did skate" to this one song by LP and i wuz like oo i gotta see this. but uh yeah i dunno y he wont admit he still skateboards occasionally. i ono.
i rly wanna see himmmm.....

but i am so stressed out i have to do 2 chemistry assignments and 3 geometry assignments to do b4 2moro and i have a geometry test 2moro and i dont even knoe how to do n e of the stuff thats gonna be on it. cuz i missed those 2 days she gave it. even the stuff she tough i dont knoe. so yeah im like freaking out. plus i have 2 known Bs on my progress report and thats not good. i dont knoe y everything is so hard now...
but i rly need to get started pronto.

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Give it to me baby, nice and slow
Climb on top, ride like you in the rodeo
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ahhhh... ok first off... that whole ryan thing. LIES! lies lies! haha no but yeah he was just playin a joke on me but its all good. he called me back at 9 and was like "alyssa im in so much trouble... my mom said to not come back home" and i wuz like "waaaa... wut did i tell you?" and then i went into the bathroom to wash my hands from pettin my dog cuz she was freakin out over the fireworks... and im washin em and im on the phone with ryan and this baby moth flys in up on my face and i screamed and then i breathed in and then i swallowed the moth! it was sooooo sick. it was so gross and ryan was like "ew gross now i cant kiss you i dont wanna get a moth disease" but n e ways after the whole moth incident it was quiet kinda and i heard this beep/chirp every minute. and i wuz like "rryyaannnwhere are you??? are you at your house?" cuz like his smoke detectors always beep and i can always hear it on the phone so i knew. and so yeah then he admitted it all and yeah he wuz just kiddin around... i kinda got mad about it but its ok. so yeah

todai was alrite we were on a weird sched cause of senior showtime... i have so much make up work from thurs and fri.. ah i am stressed. i had to be in spanish for 2 HOURS. but it turned out to be not that bad at all. kayla told everyone bout my moth incident. she practically laughed about all damn day. and then her and jessica *my love* haha kept callin me a mothperson like mothman prophecies lol. we actually didnt rly do n e thing in spanish for THE FIRST TIME EVER. it was a miracle. cuz sra. johnson is like all uptight about giving us "free time" she acts like its a sin or something. but yeah we actually had a convo bout somethin other than spanish. i turned in 50 bravos so now i dont have to take the final. yyeesssssss. i called ryan for bout 10 minutes in spanish while me and kayla were doin some make up work for geomerty. he was on his way to this thing where he helps kids read and stuff with their hw. aww how cute. haha but yeah its his community service and hes there for 3 hours. jessica was being mean cuz just because shes the one wearing the pants in the relationship. i love jessica teeheehee. she tried helpin us with our math work cuz gibbygib is like the worst teacher in the world. but she didnt knoe wut she wuz doin either soo yeah.

but uh yeah i have like 8 make up assignments to do soo ima bounch

tootz

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so xexie

hes the king OG... boi has ran away. and i was like wa? ah ah. he is gonna be in so much trouble when he goes back home. i hope his mom doesnt call me to ask if i knoe where hes at. i dont wanna lie to her. but uh yeah he wuz supposed to call me back like over a half hour ago. i dont like this... he best call me up and say that hes ok! he supposedly stayin at his friend jonathans house or wutever but i dont knoe. kinda hard to believe all of it but u knoe ill take his word for it. but uh yeah i have a lot of work to do...

i love him so much i hope things are ok.

tootz <3

he is sOoOo...mmm yesssss

omg.... i am so freaking bored.. mimi just called i wuz hoping it was ryan... but aw i feel so bad for her... her aunt is in hospice cuz they said she wouldnt make it htroo the nite... shes soo shakin up rite now... but yeah just got off she had to make some phone calls..

n e hoo i havent done n e thing for the past 4 days cept go to the doctors and i am soo BORED! all i did was sit around and eat. so now ima be a fat ass. last nite ryan got into a fight with his mom so he called me up rly rly upset... and i asked if she would let him see me todai but he said i ono.. and then we both fell asleep on the phone so we didnt get to talk about it after that.. then he called me this mornin from his church for like 2 minutes and then he had to goo.. and then he called me from the courtesy phone and the cheescake factory and so he was out with his mom so yeah i didnt think we would be able to do n e thing then. so yeah then finally his mom gave him back his cell at 4 ive been goin crazy with him not havin it lol.. and then he called me at like 5 somethin when he was at walmart and we talked for 10 minutes and then he had to go and he didnt call me back till 7:45 when he was at home. and he was disappointed we didnt get to see eachother todai but it wuz cuz i didnt make plans and if i did then he woulda asked his mom and then they wouldnt have gone out with her todai.. so basically he was saying it was my fault but wutever. i rly rly rly wanted to see him... but i guess ill just have to finda a way to make it throo another week.... and then a lil while ago we were on the phone and it didnt seem like he was rly in the talking mood he didnt say much and then all of a sudden he wuz like "hey can i call u back" and he got off the phone so i ono wutz up.

but im gonna go lay down my head hurts.

tootz <3

my mom is so retarded. i was just sittin here on the computer and she busts in my room askin if i took my medicine this mornin yet and if i remembered to take it last nite too after i ate. then she says " i didnt want to tell you this earlier because i didnt want to scare you.. but cellulitis is life threating because you're skin starts to die.." blahblahblah is all i heard after that. but yeah.

my dads birthday party is today... like 20 days after his birthday. i dont think im going its going to be boring. over a 100 people over 35. no thanx. and its at the studio my dads band records at or some crap like that. my mom said i could take somebody but i rly dont wanna go. i rly wanna lay out it soo sunny but i dont knoe if thats the best idea o well.

tootz <3