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2004 21 January :: 10.01 pm
:: Mood: blah
sometimez....
i just wish.....
things aren't.....
the way.....
they are....
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2004 21 January :: 7.07 pm
:: Mood: id rather not say...
:: Music: The Long Day is Over by Norah Jones
*humph*
I dont knoe wutz been up with woohu lately... itz been all screwy and itz takin me forever to get to the site... i have a old xanga acount that i mite switch too if woohu cant get itz act together! it just takes awhile to set up xanga.. kinda confusin.. i ono my brain haznt been operating correctly.. i have A LOT of things on my mind...
Today wuz VERYVERY slow... the smarty party wuz today.. i went to get out of class... all A honor roll... thatz me yeahyeahyeah hoo cares.. it wuz boring but the muffinz were REALLY good.. i just sat with jamison and then i talked to ryann and sara for awhile... omg tho.. today between periods... LMAO me and ryann were being um rly.. uh yeah... we were screaming phillip and he would like turn away and pretend we didnt do n e thing and he and hiz friends would look around and it wuz rly funnie... in dance we worked on our peice for childrens concert... ALL OF YALL READING THIS BETTER COME! itz febuary 26 and 27 i think... lol. I didnt pay any attention in biology and i wuz being kind um.. bitchy lol.. sorry yallz... in 4th period we had a test erm jonet lost my notecard! no wait sara did lol... the bus ride home wuz toooooooooo damn long.. sat all by muhself and listened to glen and this other kid rap and "battle" lol.....
ive been doing sum spying hehe naughty naughty gurl!
and the other day i wuz reading random people'z journals and i came across brianne casaca'z.. wut a cuhweenkideenk lol.. it wuz kinda borin tho... but there were sum REALLY interestin ones... so many people have so many problems... and there like 3 kinds of journals.. there r the ones that the person never writes n e thing in it... the ones that people write in but unless u knoe them well u cant rly understand wutz goin on and then there are the ones hoo write like there life iz a book... and they go soooo into detail... and those can be rly interesting.. or really really dull... but itz funnie how sum peoplez lives are exactly like urz... with the same namess az ur friendz and kinda act the same and ur sittin there wondering wut if it actually wuz them...
gosh sumtimes i hate how people can just lie to ur face and u dont even realize it.. and they're living this totally different life than wut u think... and yet u have no idea... and maybe theyre lying bcuz the failed at sumthin and didnt wanna disapoint u... or maybe ashamed of sumthin they're not... butz thatz bull bcuz if u were rly all that close... it shouldnt matter n e way..
and iznt it interesting how not many people live in the moment.. but in what will happen in the future.. and the outcome... but then againif u didnt... u would be either rly screwed or rly broke... lol
too bad u could never get inside muh head
thatz all fer today folks
tahtah
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2004 19 January :: 11.20 am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional
itz raining
I had a confusing nite last nite... it wuz strange... i didnt go to bed till rly late... i wuz listening to dashboard confessional and crying... finally after awhile i decided to go to bed and i wuz gonna sleep on the floor... just my floor, my blanket, my pillow, my stuffed animals and me... but tony kept making all this noise and i had to take him out of my room... and i the strangest dream too omg it wuz sooo weird... i dont wanna say all of it but there were these killer moth/butterflies trying to get everybody becuz they had to lower the population.. and everyone wuz moving north.
but now itz raining and that sux cuz i wuz gonna go on a rly loonnggg walk today... o well. okee well im hungry im go eat now. tootlez
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2004 18 January :: 5.59 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: FEELING THIS BY BLINK 182
OMG I GOT IT!!!!!!!!
OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! my mood just changed like sooo dramatically! like ok my day wuz sooo fucking boring and all i did wuz clean and watch tv and i wanted to go do sumthing with emily or ryann and i wanted to see ryan.... but ok i wuz listenin to danny carey and emily talk about sum crap i ono and i wuz loookin at myself in the mirror and i wuz lookin at my eyes and i said tom myself "hey im gonna roll my tongue" like when u roll ur "r"s ya knoe? and i couldnt get it at first but then i got it!!!!! i saw my tongue get the action!!! and i screamed and i jumped and down and omg i wuz soooo happy! ok ur prolly reading this thinkin "ok thiz gurl got sum issues...gettin excited bout rollin her tongue..." but ive been trying to get this like all my life and i could never get it! so we were all rollin our tongues on the phone and i first i couldnt get the sound rite... and me and danny carey were saying how it sounded like a machine gun or a sprinkler lol but after awhile i got it and omg im so happy! so now my mommy said i have to be able to say "ruffles with ridges" and roll my tongue to rly be able to get it and talk spanish and all wutever and i said it once and now i cant gett it and danny couldnt either and we all sounded so funny ok now im rly hyper but im rly mad that my mom wouldnt let me do n e thing today... ok... my mom just walked in and took sum of my rosemary from that plant emily got me... LMAO emily ur mom wuz rite shez putin in the food! ahahaha ok well ima go watch tv and roll my tongue! HOOHEE!!! tootlez!
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2004 17 January :: 9.05 pm
:: Mood: crazy
Rico's birthday bash
well where should i start...
i woke up late.... after having a wonderful dream about ryan... it wuz weird... i woke up and then went back to sleep and then i woke up again and i swore i thought he wuz talking to me... he wuz like "alyssa come here i have sumthin to show u.." and i wuz like "wa???" lol..hehe and then i took a shower got ready...blahblahblah
after awhile ryann floyd called and i went to walmart and then me and her were gonna meeet up at the mall but when i got there she wuznt there so i went to claires and got sum stuff and den ryann showed up and we went SHOPPIN! i got an outfit at styles and den me and ryann got matchin shirts. i wanna go back and get these rly cute pants at wet seal and get a new purse and sum shoes... but i ono.... then after awhile we headed over to ricos party and had to resist the stores calling us cuz we were late... but when we got there we peeked in and like no one wuz dere and we like walked to some where and called carlos but he just got there so we went back to da island cafe and rico, carlos, tracy and 2 other guys were there... so we got dere and me and ryann raided the party hats lol but them dern things were cheap cuz they kept breaking! lol well then ryan called..(ryan my boyfriend.. dont get confoosed now cuz when i told my mom me and RYANN got matching shirts she maid this weird face and said "o god" and i wuz like wa? and she wuz like "well i think itz a lil strange for a girl and a guy to get matching shirts... and i wuz like "NO MOM RYANN IS A GIRL!" lol...) k well n e hoo he called and wuz at da library gettin dem books maybe... (oo crap i forgot to go to da library..) and he asked me where i wuz and i tole him and hez like o im in walkin distance... and i wuz oooo i c ... i knew he wuz gonna come over here.. i wuznt sure if i wanted to... i wanted to see him and all and i want him to come ova 2moro cuz i knew rico wuz gonna be rly mad and ryann said it would start sum drama...and then he came and ryann saw him coming and shez like "alyssa quick go hide in the bathroom" and i did.. lol ...we were both actin weird... rico ignored me for awhile and wouldnt rly talk to me.. and for awhile ryan didnt either...and he wouldnt come over to where everybody else wuz... he wuz where this hat beanie wut ever cuz he didnt do hiz hair and i wanted to see but he wanted to show me...
:-( ryann kept takin it off and after awhile i felt bad... but after we sang hippo birthday and rico opened hiz gifts we walked around and ryan wouldnt rly talk and i asked him y and he said sumthin but i dont rly remember wut it wuz all i remember iz feelin rly hurt... rico wouldnt talk to meh but me and ryan started talkin like usuall and we were just walkin around it wuz koo until he had to leave... but rite b4 i went to ask rico sumthin b4 they went into express but he snapped at me and i felt like i got slapped...so after ryan left i went int express with ryann and tracy and we lost rico and carlos and everybody... so we walked around 4 like ever all around the mall, got sum dip n dots and then finally carlos called my cell and asked us where we were cuz they were at old navy.. so we had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK cuz we were dere awalla go and then we went into sumother stores and headed back to the cafe and tyler and these 2 gurls showed up and by then i wuz rly tired... but we were gonna go to the movies and they started packin up everythang and all da guys wanted to ride over to amc together so tyler took us.. and we had to walk all the back to the food court to get to hiz car walkin fast u knoe and then when we walked out to the parking lot we walked past towards belk again! grrr so he forgot where he parked and then finally we got into his car and hez puttin hiz music all loud and crap with all this bass and ryann kept turnin it down... but u knoe tyler wanted to look a koo with hiz music goin... but we just drove like back and forth amc and it took us like 10 minutes to park cuz he wuz blind... lol... he turned hiz music down when ryan said turn it up cuz no one wuz around cuz she said it wuz embarrassing...lol but he said no cuz then people will hear u comin and take ur stuff.. like the speakers and wutever... smart thinkin haha. so we went inside and saw "along came polly" it wuz ok.. cute movie. i saw rachels brother matt in dere with theyre mom... then i had to go cuz my parents were there and rico apologized for being a dick,... yeah and ryann met my daddy!
so now im talked to emily and aaron on the phone! JIBBERISH! haha hejrunjse herekagyer agoonatay sjgsuhsuhsuh.herskyatherskyat. hehe. aaron said ryan must not trust or sumthin cuz he went to ricos partay... but im perty sure that wuznt y... i love ryan soooooo much and hez on my mind 24/7 baby.
well im tired and i have a monster headache... so tahtah for now!
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2004 16 January :: 10.59 pm
:: Mood: crappy
I'm falling
Can you feel me getting closer
I'm calling
Can you hear me screaming
I'm feeling lost
Will you be there to find me
I think I'm going crazy
I don't knoe what to do
But be here with you
Get lost in the moment
Be able to let go
And I knoe you love me so
I'm giving
giving you all of me
Just think of all that
all that we could be
I'm running
Do you think you can catch me
I'm dying
Do you think you can save me
save me with a kiss
Amoment of true bliss
In your arms forever
Now letz go back
Back to the beginning
Am i really here?
1 *winkwink* |
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2004 16 January :: 10.35 pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Come Clean by Hilary Duff... gosh shez so pretty..
WELL! today wuz a blah day....yeah i woke up way too early...AGAIN cuz i wuz too cold... my fault im the dumbass hoo keeps the fan on 24/7... and then i wuz too tired to go get another blanket...
*gym* we walked around the skool lookin at pollution... boring. coach rivera admitted he forgot to shave his legs... today... er yeah.. me and emily just talked the whole time. eatin pretzels u knoe. o yeah and everything smelled like ryan... weird... smells yummy tho lol..
*HomeRoom* DULL. wrote a note to ryan.. talked to steffy, eric, john, and nicole... funnie stuff... john sqeaked his chair against the floor and eric like made this face.. and john wuz drinkin pepsi and then outta no where he starts laughin and then b4 u knoe it he spit his pepsi all over da place and it came outta his nose... er nasty.
*dance* um... yeah i hate this class... every friday i try to sit out but i think shez catchin on so i danced but it wuz so damn hot and she wouldnt let us open da outside door. i thought i wuz gonna die.
*biology* we did a lab and of course my group's didnt work... i wuz in like a worse mood then i am now.. and i wuz snapping at everybody i felt like i wuz gonna explode... it wuz bad.. but now i feel bad.. sorry u guys. ms. bhowmik yelled her head off at us i have never seen her like that i thought she wuz bout to cry.. and grr we have this lab report to do but i ono..
*lunch* bitchy bitchy bitchy *yawn* wutz new. um it wuz perty boring... carlos stole my ID and we wrestled! lol um yeah he throo me to the ground after i bit him a couple times.. and then i chewed up my yummy pretzel goldfish and spit it out on him... o cant forget ricos shirt he wuz wearin. *o dear*
*algebra* SO BORING!!! we did this review thatz new on wut wed? yeah.. aaron R broke muh ring! cant believe it! jonet better glue it good lol... o yeah and nick? "wut bia?" haha funnie... i bout fell asleep my day sucked ass..
*bus 324* didnt rly do n e thing cept listin to kelly breath when he wuz asleep on my shoulder and stare out the window...
when i got home i went to look at my dance sched to see that i couldnt go to pas de deux cuz it started at 5 instead of 5:30 like i thought. o well hoo cares. went to jazz. it wuz ok. sum girls tried out class... didnt rly like it guess they thought it wuz too hard cuz they left...
ryan just called me from church.. talked to him for exactly 1 minute and 8 seconds o my. um yeah im not feeling to good im gonna go sleep and hope i dont wake up..
tomorrow im going to the mall with ryann muh gurl! then we're gonna head over to ricos birthday bash. at least i'll have sumthin to doo... tahtah
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2003 29 December :: 4.47 pm
:: Mood: bored
wsupwsup! i am soooooooooo bored! aahhh this is so not the way to spend my winter break! all ive done all break is just sit around watch tv... BORING!! ah the story of my life. since i havent rly done n e thing nothin interesting has happend... but i did go to my grandma's house yesterday... altho i did not want to go i was forced against my will and i spent 4 and a half hours in a car round trip doing absolutely nothing except for playing mind games... my dad tried to get me to play the license plate game but come on now... but O! I FORGOT! I GOT A HAMSTER!!!!!! omg he is sososososososo cute! i named him tony.. after ryan tony da tiger lol... and hiz nickname is LIL T! AWWWWWWWWWW! iznt that just so cute?? he likes to poop on my moms bed which i think is perty funnay if u ask me...and of course she has no idea... last nite i had a dream that my cat tried to go after my little tony... not goot not goot. but other then that i dont do n e thing...except talk to the loves of my life... BUT IF UR BORED TOO.... (hint hint) u knoe maybe we could do sumthin together... i do need to go find my winter formal dress and ryan said he wuz gonna help me... and if he rly iz he better hurry up.. chopchop! i wansta see him weally bad but i dont knoe when... grrr it sux but im gonna goo nooowwww.
KISSES & HUGS
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2003 25 December :: 6.07 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: solitude by evanescance
bah humbug
I could tell u about how much my christmas sucked. but im not. i could go on and on and complain about all the crap that happend. but im not. lets just say that i didnt rly celebrate christmas this year. in fact this year has been one of the worst out of all of my 14 years on earth. so much crap has happened this year and it wuz rly hard... and i cant wait till its over. 3 never wuz a lucky number for me. well i dont rly knoe wut number iz a lucky number. wutz with every one having sumthing “lucky” n e way. i dont see a difference between n e thing normal or lucky. i bet if u lost ur “lucky sock” and u thought it wuz in ur drawer... u wouldnt even notice that its gone. iz it just that we need to believe in sumthin lucky to give us hope becuz we r so insecure about the future? or do we need it bcuz itz just nice to believe in a little luck once and awhile. have u ever rly found a 4 leaf clover? do u always keep ur horseshoe upside down so that the luck doesnt fall out? do u keep a bunny rabbits foot on ur keys? come on now wut iz so lucky about a dead animals foot? do u eat lucky charms everyday? do u wear ur dead great grandmothers locket? do u catch fireflies? do u believe in unicorns? do u believe in all the fairies? sumtimes... u just gotta wake up and realize that it wuznt just a bad dream. or maybe it is... maybe ur life is just one big nightmare and u just never wake up. hoo knoes? i dont.
My Immortal
by Evanescence
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
[chorus]
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
[chorus]
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2003 3 December :: 6.53 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: over thinkin by relient k
ah ok well today wuz such a BLAH day but it got better when i saw RYAN!!! ahahahaha P SHERMAN 42 WALLABY WAY..SYDNEY AUSTRALIA!!!! ahhhhhhh lol ok well... n e wayz ABOUT RYAN!! ok well i wuz soo happy when i saw my baby's face even fer the short 10 minutes it wuz... BUT IT WUZ THE HOTTEST AND MOST PASSIONATE 10 MINUTES OF MY LIFE!!!! i think they're gonna be sum jrs comin.. lol no.. kidding-joke... like HAHA! ok wwwwweeeeelllllllllllllllll them notes... were prettay cept i dont quite think he understood wut I MEANT!!but i wrote him an EMAIL explaining!!! so ok ok ok... marissa called emily's cell... hmmmm.... u could hear josh going " o no crap marissa..." lolololol... we calleed RICKAY!!! i havent talk to him in ferevereverever! P SHERMAN 42 WALLABY WAY SYDNEY! wait where am i going??? o yeah i REMEMBER! P SHERMAN 42 WALLABY WAY SYDNEY!!!!!
n e hoo.... em yeah i found out rico has both of my lunches.. me and liza were talkin bout him and nicola said sumthin very interesting about all 3 of us.. lol no but GUESS WUT! GARRETT ASKED OUT NICOLA!!!! finally! ah shes so happy and im so happy for her! o i gotta go study fer that quiz 2moro...
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2003 2 December :: 9.18 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: you dont even knoe my nameby alicia keys
today wuz not that great of a day... it wuz just llllooooonnnnggg and boring... i got like no sleep... but when i didnt sleep...but when i got sleep i had the craziest dream... at my studio.. with ms giles... ew yuck. lol.. so i woke up late... then my mom yelled at me fer not waking up my brother on time. *ooo big whoop* like itz my responsiblity n e way... ahhh yeah so i got to skool... it wuz cold... jamison tried to rape me again!!! haha..and ive had that alicia keys song stuck in my head... cuz ryan makes me feel oooooooooo lol... herez my boring scedule..
1st period *gym* bout fell asleep... learned about calories.. need to get a diet.. fell asleep.. oo-oo and emily gave me these necco wafers and they were sooo good! TOKENS!.. we dressed out.. and we tried to play PING PONG but gosh darn emily u gotta hit LITE!
2nd period *dance* BORING! i wuz tired... ahh and ms giles needs to get sum non monkey combinations.. we were all so loud and i felt kinda bad cuz she wuz trying to teach and we all ignored her but she has the most boring classes..
3rd period *biology* WHAT??? & i dont understand.. iz like the main thing i say in that class... i dont even knoe wut went on in that class... i wanted to sleep.. but noooo.. o yeah and we got a vocab quiz on thursday.. wut r the words n e way????
C *Lunch* THE DARN BEES!!! ahhh i want to kill the bees.... if i wuznt so scared of them lol.. ate lunch with rico eh hem yeah lol... me and emily 13 nites o yeah baby ROAR
4th period *Algebra* we reviewed the worksheets.. BORING.. i fell asleeep.. we have a quiz on thursday.. blah... o yeah and mr. allen sure knoes wutz goin on... wut things do u tell him rico??? but n e hoo... mr allen gave us 40 minutes to finish the green sheets but i alrdy did it over the weekend so i just sat there and colored on my id... with ashley's markers looks pretty..
*Bus 324* i fell asleep... and talked to patrick to a lil bit.. but i mostly slept and i think sum1 wuz pokin me... lol
*now* well im rrrrrlllyy bored and rly tired and i feel rly sick!!! i just got off with rico and im talkin to emily and aaron... boring boring emily iz rambling....ahhh i misss ryan so much.... i havent talked to him in a couple days.. dont rly feel like doin n e thing.. im gonna go nnooooooowwwww
buh byez
gimme a *winkwink* |
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2003 21 November :: 10.01 pm
:: Mood: blah
erm
my day started out rlly well... we went to my elementary skool... field trip!!! ETHNIC ROX MY SOX!!! yum bee ba bum bum bee hump!!! the trip wuz soooo AWESOME! all the lil kids were so cuhute! we did horrible.. but it wuz still kool! I SAW MRS. UPSON. she wuz like "hey baby!" and i dont think she rly reconized me until after awhile... ms maida did tho and i missed her so much.. i actually cried and nicola and liza r like "omg alyssa r u crying?!" and i wuz like nah nah but then i admitted i wuz.. and then we went to subway... but me and kristen got jonet to get her mom to take us to wendy's and these guys walk in.. and they be skippin... so they were actin all big and bad... LOSERS! so ya..went back to subway... LAUGHED MY TAIL OFF!!! and we left... we were about to go back... and lavilla wuz comin up and jonet;s mom actually let us go to lavilla! the bell had just rang ending 3rd period... and so we all walkin in.. and i went and hugged MRS BAILEY! yeah thats rite.. i hugged her! ahaha so i had my drink and mrs huffman starts yellin at me and how im not supposed to have a drink in the halls... of cours FROGLADY didnt reconize ME!! i mean i wuz in her 3rd period... gosh. lol well she took it away... i liked my drink too... we stopped by mrs otteleys place.. all them non-dress.. and then i went to ms jackson! MY FAVORITE TEACHER LAST YEAR! ahh i missed her so much i gave her a billions hugs! sumbody told we were in the skool.. so ms peaks started yelling at us.. " r u all the DA kids? u do not have permission to be in the building... so u will have to leave..." we got back to the skool... and we all took forever to change.. and i skipped half of 3rd period and went to a lunch and b lunch and then went back to class... lloll dont u just love ny ghetto jacket jonet? haha... and to top it all of ryan came over! yay! lol but.. after eh my everything changed... er yeah here is the email i sent him today... it perty much explains stuff... since i dont feel like talkin n e more...
Subj: erm...
Date: 11/21/2003 9:40:10 PM Eastern Standard Time
From: Horsemusic
To: Skateventure01@comcast.net
im not sure when u'll get this... im not sure when ill see u next- - or even talk to u.... and i rly hope ur mom didnt get too upset when u got home... but this iz wut happened over herre....
ok so while i wuz hugging u i thought sumthing wuzn't quite rite- and then while we were kissing- i knoe u knew i wuz holding back.. trust meh i did not do wut i wanted to.. hehehehe... haha. erm k see i wuz holding back cuz i felt like sumthin wuz bout to happen.. and it wuz rly strange.. so yeah sorry but n e hoo rite when i got into my house my brother wuz laughing and he wuz like " hahaha ur so busted" cuz ur mom called and left a message...and then my dad called her back. i tried to listen to the whole thing but i couldnt find the other phone... but i listened to my dad and he told ur mom that uve been comin over like twice a week fer like a hour on yer bike and stuff... and that he talked to u and stuff... and obviously she did not knoe and she got rly mad and wuz sayin all this stuff but i couldnt hear.. and then a lil bit later i got on the phone a listened.. and ur mom told my dad bout the cell phone bill... and then she wuz talkin about how she never knew how long u were talking to me and she said " it rly makes me wonder wut they talk about for so long at this age" and then she went into this whole thing about raging hormones or sumthin like that... and she said that she iz not comfortable with u having a girlfriend bcuz ur too immature.. and that im rly sweet and everything but ur too young to date..of course the whole time my dad was going " o yes of course i agree entirely"... awhile later they hung up and then my dad wuz all pissed and crap he said that im not rly supposed to talk to u cuz of ur mom, and im not rly allowed to go out with u and ur mom said if he ever see u here again u have to go straight home... and when i heard that- it took awhile to soak it but when it did it hit me so hard... total flashback...but i couldnt do n ething cuz i had to leave to go to dance.. my mom wuz trying to be nice about she didnt yell at me or lecture me or ne thing.. i think she just gave up awhile ago.. but since then everything went down hill... and i dont knoe if im making this worse than it actually is... i rly rly rly hope so.... and when i came inside i read ur notes and they made me smile cuz they were soooo sweet and i love u sooo much... but they also kinds made me sad... but k let meh answer these questions here... haha hmm ok well lets see... o yeah that thing... well i dunno if i wanna say that rite now- when i talk to u i will... itz not bout u tho.. not rly lol. k well hmm i love kissing u too hunnie hehe...and no baby ur not obsessed...love that stylish signature sign thing lol...and well i dont think we'll be goin to da movies... er yeah... i wanna talk to u so bad rite now and yet i cant...i dont rly feel like doing n e thing rite now i feel like shit cuz ive been sick on and off and then all this... im going to go to sleep... or try to... maybe when i wake up- all of this will go away...
i will always love u no matter wut happends
** hugs** & **kisses**
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«´¨`·.* Alyssa *.·´¨`»
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gimme a *winkwink* |
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2003 9 November :: 7.11 pm
:: Mood: OUCH!
my back hurts sooooo bad! every time i walk my back spasms and itz friggin... OOOOWWWW!!! make it go away make it go away! it wuz like this at exactly this time last year cuz i remember crying my self to sleep everynite becuz it hurt so bad.. and josh would always try to make it better... and then at emily's mom's wedding it wuz worse and ben punched me rite in the back... wow that hurt. but yeah saturday is Sid's and Emily's mom's 1 yr aniversary of getting married.. n e hoo.. yesterday i wuz talkin to ryan and hez all " o i mite stop by to meet ur dad" and i wuz o no u dont... but he did... i didnt rly thing he wuz gonna but for sum reason i walked outside while i was talking to mimi.. i guess cuz my house wuz being yucky... but i was walking around on my driveway and i see this kid riding his bike down muh street.. and i wuz like o snap is that ryan... and it wuz.. and he must've spent like a half hour talking to y dad! aahhhh and i wanna knoe exactly wut they said.. but i tried not to listen... and then my mom got on the phone and started yelling at me sayin that i didnt tell her ryan wuz coming over... but i didnt think he wuz gonna but she said that i did. wutever. finally ryan and my dad stopped talkin and me and ryan walked around for like a hour or 2... er yeah i saw kamar again. (er i think thats his name haha) i hadnt seen him since like june. humhumhum... ryan left to go get redy cuz we were gonna go to the movies and mimerz came over and she slept over... then later we decided we were gonsta see scary movie 3! but ryan called me and him and hiz mom got into this whole fight thing and he never called me back and i knew he wuznt goin.. it made me sad but..yeah... aj came over and then we left to go da movies but aj bought the last scary movie ticket and it got sold out! grrrr but we went to see skool of rock even tho aj alrdy saw it like 5 times. haha o well... i wish ryan coulda came cuz i wuz lookin forward to it but itz ok i guess... when we got home at like 11, me and mimi watch 2fast 2furious haha ( i dont knoe cuh) and we went to bed at like 2... then we woke up we watched zoolander and i took a shower.. i talked to ryan online a lil bit and told me wut happend. i felt bad for him.. hiz mom knoes bout *us* now.. er lol. me and mimi went to da mall and we saw danny moody and liza! i got a shirt & earings and mimi got me a new faceplate 4 my phone! it wuz early christmas present. u knoe. haha it looks like there iz a 69 on it hehehe. we dropped mimi off.. and she lives in riverside and we all knoe hooz house wuz down there... and i rly wish we didnt have to go down there cuz it made me so sad. i just had so many memories of driving over there... and we passed the street... and the publix.. with the deli er haha... i dont knoe if it wuz the weather or bcuz it wuz dark and always drove back in the dark from over there... but it felt exactly how it would have been last year... and i started remembering everything and it made me so mad that i wuz feeling like that... i dont knoe if it wuz cuz im pmsing or wut... but i hate it. grrrrrr. and then i started to think... and then all these songs started to make sense.. and o god this is retarded. and i have homework to do ok well ima go now. laterz
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2003 7 November :: 5.57 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
wow... today wuz sort of eventful... kinda sorta haha... well before skool sum1 came up to *bob* and she wuz all im gonna kick ur ass if ur the one hoo called the police on that video... im calling him bob cuz yeah but *bob* iz gonna get jumped and everybody is talking about and this gurl on my bus keeps saying how every one iz gonna jump him.. and how shez so mad and stuff and that they'll make it so he wont wanna come back to skool ever again.. but *bob* iz one of my best friends.. but dont worry *bob* ill stick up fer ya! cuz i luv yaz! i wuz so mad at everybody tho cuz i dont see y itz such a big deal.. john srtickland wuz like "well he almost got mr. hatcher fired.." and i wuz like "well hez not fired so wutz the problem?" N E HOO... i am also SO MAD! cuz i lost me and jared's notebook and i dont knoe how i could have been so stupid! all day i asked peez if theyve seen a BLACK SPIRAL notebook with a 70 on with withe GREEN BOXES & SQUARES.. so u knoe if u see be sure to give it back!!! aaaaaaahhhhhh i still cant believe that happend!!!! then some other stuff happend and inside i wuz like YAY but then it changed i wuz like O WELL.... er ryan came by while i was walking home from da stop... i kinda u knoe.. knew but he said he *just stopped by* so u knoe ryan IM PSYCHIC! thats wut my alien friends told me at least and i believe them.. but u knoe hahaha... ok well i love u ryan and i love everybody else hoo iz reading this...er yeah sure haha ok well g2g to dance... buh byez!
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2003 6 November :: 7.04 pm
:: Mood: blank
LALALALA...
hey peez... er today didnt quite go that well... it was like way slow.. and way boring and then when i got home my mom wuz bitchin... in ms schmid's class we're going to my ole elementary skool... J ALLEN AXON BABY! er yeah we're preforming the tarentella however u spell i dont dont knoe.. sum little italian dance bout spiders.. yeah and RYAN CARTER!! he saw our dance and he made fun of me... :-( im kinda excited tho cuz i havent been to axon in like wut hmm 3 years? or 4? i dunno n e hoo i think dr. penney hated it u shoulda seen her face.. then she gave us this lecture about our expressions.. er... yeah. on the buss i found some interesting information about that video.. yeah the one on the news... but er im gonna keep quiet bcuz u knoe... n e wayz ima go for now bcuz i feel the sticker hitch hiker thing cutting um my insides... ima die! internal bleeding! aaahhhh
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