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2005 13 October :: 1.15pm
*edited*
im a fucking dumbass...
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2005 12 October :: 11.15pm
well, there are at least 3 very hard things to go through still...
1. Sweetest's Day - which i had a plan for, but ehh, saving money is saving money
2. "the drop" (when we give each other our shit back, im getting computer, some clothes and 6 dollars as well as my class ring, she gets a big fuckin stack of her own pictures that say various things that will make her cry >_<) <===that she wrote btw
3. the hardest one of all...october 23rd...i will be in kentucky then so we will see how THAT goes for me, hopefully i dont remember at all
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2005 12 October :: 12.12am
deleted windows messenger
MSN messenger
and all the install programs for any instant messenger you might ever use
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2005 11 October :: 11.40pm
why did this happen to me...im a good person...right...god?
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2005 11 October :: 10.53pm
Can i?
"The Doctor is IN"
My state of mind: Absent, at best.
Work has kept me busy. Otherwise many thoughts plauge my mind. Like an apple with a worm crawling its way through it.
Things need to be answered, things need to be given time.
School > work But I dont want either.
Id like a nice long vaction, a road trip. Something. I need to find my spot in life. But I cant do it alone. I can manage for now, but I need something more.
Enough psycho babble for now.
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2005 11 October :: 10.32pm
:: Music: Audioslave
Doesn't Remind me.
I walk the streets of Japan till I get lost
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
With a graveyard tan carrying a cross
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like studying faces in a parking lot
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like driving backwards in the fog
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget
I like gypsy moths and radio talk
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like gospel music and canned applause
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like colorful clothing in the sun
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I ilke hammering nails and speaking in tongues
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget
Bend and shape me
I love the way you are
Slow and sweetly
Like never before
Calm and sleeping
We won't stir up the past
So descretely
We won't look back
[Chorus]
I like throwing my voice and breaking guitars
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like playing in the sand what's mine is ours
If it doesn't remind me of anything
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2005 11 October :: 10.19pm
Self-Assessment Checklist
My Results
Listed below are the symptoms of depression that you checked. Please print and share these results with your doctor or healthcare professional. Only he or she can make a proper diagnosis.
I'm often restless and irritable.
I don't enjoy hobbies, leisure activities, or time with friends and family anymore.
I have nagging aches and pains that don't get better, no matter what I do.
Vague aches and pains (e.g., joint or muscle pains)
I have trouble concentrating or making simple decisions.
People have commented on my mood or attitude lately.
I feel that my functioning in everyday life (work and my interactions with family and friends) is suffering because of these problems.
I've thought about suicide.
apparently IM to dependent as well...and the more that time goes on, and the more things i find out, the more it looks like im gonna have to get used to it
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2005 11 October :: 3.38pm
putting 2 and 2 together and then jumping to conclusions sucks...
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2005 11 October :: 3.13pm
gar, i find it really hard not to tell you the things that i am concluding...
space...must give sapce...
edit: and then get spelling lessonz!
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2005 11 October :: 1.13pm
Your Birthdate: January 14
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With a birthday on the 14th of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them.
You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas, and you are also very good at organization and systematizing.
You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel.
You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable.
Your mind is quick, clever and analytical.
A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it.
You have a tendency to shirk responsibility.
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2005 10 October :: 10.46pm
where are you!?! your beginning to scare me w/ all that talk from earlier
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2005 10 October :: 9.28pm
well, its almost time to go home to think about everyone knows who and not be able to sleep till god knows what time in the morning, BUT on the way home i get to listen to the goddamned radio...i listen to country music...lizzy got me back into it...and of course every country song ever is about some guy losing the love of his life or something to that effect. not to mention that every other song makes me think of her...gahh! i cant fucking take this anymore, PLEASE figure it out so we can have an assload of kids live together forever
edit: heh, made it a whole six minutes w/out needing to vent...
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2005 10 October :: 9.22pm
well...tonight she told me that she might see other people...
understandable, yes, but does that make it any easier for me? FUCK NO!!!
like jena said, we belong together. i know this, she knows this, or at least i used to think she did. why would anyone let something so perfect go to waste. now im sitting here, confused and angry about something i know so little about. by the time we got done talking, she was talking about something that would COMPLETELY kill me, she knows what it is, but w/ any luck she wont read this so she can get her shit straightened out earlier. the sooner the better. like i told her, i WILL be waiting, my heart belongs to her and it always will, only problem is, i dont know how much of it will be left
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2005 10 October :: 8.05pm
| Your Birthdate: December 24 |
Born on the 24th, you have a greater capacity for responsibility and helping others than your may have realized.
You may also become the mediator and peacemaker in inharmonious situations.
Devoted to family, you tend to manage and protect.
This birth date adds to the emotional nature and perhaps to the sensitivities.
Affections are important to you; both the giving and the receiving. |
huh...sounds pretty true...
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2005 10 October :: 6.39pm
if i do continue to play WoW i have decided that this is what im gonna look like
http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a38/ElderAMOS/92d48957.jpg
thats right...UBER
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