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sugarjackj

:: 2004 31 December :: 4.56pm

Jessie Hazen,
i still love you too.

you and Wilde need to remeber all the fights you have been in before and how you bolth said "it will never be the same again"

but it will work out.

and if it does not, im truly sorry.

lovelovelove,
Jackie

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 31 December :: 4.53pm

I still love you Jessie Wilde.

You keep looking at the positave things.

like me being your friend.
you should come visit sometime that would be great.


love love love.,

Jackie

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 29 December :: 10.09pm

The best present i got was him, at my doorstep, with a care bear.

:)



So im thinking about comming to cedar for a weekend or something, anyone want to hang out?
if not, thats cool too.

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twiggypuff

:: 2004 29 December :: 4.33pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Matchbox 20

I guess it would just be easier if I forgot about all that has happened and say good-bye with a smile.

I don't understand why we do the things that we do; why we pretend so much and don't say what we need to say. Life is too short to hide from what we want... yet we do it anyway.

I have too much on my mind right now.
I wish I were able talk to someone.

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 29 December :: 12.37pm
:: Music: My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

Ba ha!
Ok, so I have a story for my dearest Kate.. and whoever the fuck else reads this.

Well, around like 2am Kate and I decided to only communicate by writing words on our stomach then taking a picture and sending it to eachother. Yeah.. it was stupid, but we were bored and it was late. Anyway.. so this morning my mom asks about my rash (ya know the rash I got from having all that sex). I tell her it's gone, but she asks to see my stomach, so I'm like oook whatever. So I show her and completely forget about all the writing on my stomach. And in nice big black letters, it says "Well, fuck me!" And my mom is all.. *GASP!* "Stacy! What is that?!" And I quickly cover it up, and I'm like.. "It said.. puck.." So she buys it, and is then like, "Well, the meaning is still there! Wash it off." And there's the end of my lovely pointless story.

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lilschaub

:: 2005 29 December :: 12.01pm

Last night was great. He is great. I am just so happy that we are together but there are a couple things that have really been bothering me and I think its time for me to talk to him about it. I have been avoiding it for so long but I cant go though it again so I have to do something about it. It ruined my last realationship and I will not let it ruin this one. I cant I love him way to much.

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lilschaub

:: 2005 28 December :: 6.52pm

hehe so me and Jess are taking Nate and Josh to the movies because me and her are sick of sitting at their houses and just watching movies. Now dont get me wrong but a girl likes to get all pretty and dress nice and go out so we are taking it upon ourself to make them go lol. Nate has taken me to go see two movies but now I wanna do something for him and well in cedar what else is there to do but go to the movies uhh it sucks but hey its something and as long as I am with him I am happy.

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 28 December :: 1.17pm
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie - Song for Kelly Huckaby [Facts Version]

I got bored.. so deal with it.
Things I hate, are stupid, or annoy me.
Read more..

This list could go on and on. Don't worry..I'll add more eventually. :)

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 28 December :: 10.19am
:: Music: L.A. Guns - Time

Hey.. sorry to everyone that tried talking to me yesterday on msn. I guess it somehow signed me on. I checked my chat logs and I had like 6 people pissed off or confused because I didn't answer.. heh. Sorry.

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wildthing

:: 2004 27 December :: 6.41pm

Some poem i randomly made...
So i made this poem outta no where...

The Abuse of Love:

He could hug me

he could kiss me

Will this ever be ment to be?

You could hurt me

Give me a bruise here and there

If this is what it takes

I just want to feel loved

You could smack me you could punch me

As long as i learn my lesson

this is Love

Shake me, make me bleed

Will you at least love me, thats all i plead!

Choke me, you could even rape me, just be mine

I will love you no matter what you do or say

call me names

tell me i'm no good

I dont care

this is the abuse of Love

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lilschaub

:: 2004 26 December :: 12.04pm

So Christmas got better when I was with nate. We watched a movie and then I started crying out of no way about my great grandma and the whole thing with my grandpa uh and he was just so perfect about all of it. He was just so nice and we talked for a long time and then we played a game with his family uhh I love all of them. hehe my boyfriend is the greatest!!

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lilschaub

:: 2004 25 December :: 4.53pm

Overall Christmas was ok. I got lots of good things but Uh on Christmas eve we had my moms side of the family over(about 25 people) and it was hell. I am not gonna get into the details but it just wasn't the best christmas. Well nates coming over and that will hopfully cheer me up! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 25 December :: 3.47pm
:: Music: Switchfoot - You

I got a lot of socks..
like eight pairs.

That's about it.

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wildthing

:: 2004 23 December :: 12.42pm

Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: nope
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
Sleep with stuffed animals? occasionally
Live in the moment?: yup
Think you'll get married?: yes
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: yes
Play an instrument?:no but i wanna learn how to play guitar
Believe there is life on other planets?: Yes
Remember your first love?:yeah
Still love her/him?: no
Read the newspaper?: Occasionally
Have gay/lesbian friends?: Yes
Believe in miracles?: Yes
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yeah but its hard
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yes, very
Fav candy?: reeses?
Believe in astrology?: sure
Believe in magic?: yeah
Believe in god?: yes
Pray?: occasionally
Go to church?:sometimes

MOVING ON
Have any secrets?: Many
Any pets: *sighs* not anymore
College?: someday....maybe
Talk to strangers who IM you?: yeah haha
Wear hats?: yes
HATE YOURSELF?: somtimes when i have noone to talk to
WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE?: sometimes yes
Collect anything?: naw
Have a best friend(s)?: KATIE COLLINS!
Wish on stars?: sometimes
Like your handwriting?: yeah
Any bad habits?: biting nails
Care about looks?: yes
Believe in witches?: idk
Satan?: yes, but dont like him
Ghosts?: yes
Trust others easily?: too easily
Like noise?: yes when is music or talkin, even the sound of the wind

FIRST THING YOU THINK OF
I see: my comp screen?
I find: my hair tye?
I want: to be loved
I wish: i could read minds
I hate: people who annoy the fuck outta me
I miss: childhood when all you had to do was lie there without a thought
I hear: ppl walkin back and forth and me typing
I smell: like strawberries and cream
I crave: strawberries now that you make me think of it!
I hunt: deer and rabbits?
I wonder: if he will accept me
I regret: telling men that i like them
I cried: last tuesday

LAST TIME YOU.
Bought something: yesterday for xmas
Danced: at the club about a month ago
Were sarcastic: when aint i?
Kissed someone: november 5th
Talked to an Ex: uhhh today
Nightmare: my mom died
Last book you read: Of mice and men
Last movie you saw: stupid movie called, house of the dead, i advise you not to watch it it was the stupidest movie ever made!
you heard: music?
Last thing you had to drink: milk
Feeling this moment: uhhh idk?

DESCRIBE YOUR..
[ x ] Wallet - uhh $140 but keeping it for my trip to chicago
[ x ] Hairbrush -used this morning
[ x ] Toothbrush - used this morning, and need a new one
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - 3 rings, 2 pairs of earings, and 9 bracelets
[ x ] Pillow cover - white
[ x ] Coffee Cup - got a pic of a bass on it
[ x ] Sunglasses - if i had them they'd be pink n black
[ x ] Underwear - do you really need to know?
[ x ] Favorite shirt - my pink one
[ x ]Cologne/Perfume - addidas
[ x ] Tattoos - i want one
[ x ] Piercings - ears
[ x ] In my mouth - cock? I mean, food
[ x ] In my head - weird ideas
[ x ] Wishing - i could move to calidonia
[ x ] Fetishes - umm?
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - my mom
[ x ] Is next to you - a piece of paper...
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - You got served, a walk to remember...
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - if february counts my 18th bday!
[ x ] The last thing you ate - tacos?
[ x ] Something that you are afraid of - graduating
[ x ] Do you like candles - yes
[ x ] Do you like incense - yes
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - never tried and dont plan on it
[ x ] Do you believe in love -yeah
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - idk
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - uhh idk
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - its a pleasant thought, yes
[ x ] Do you believe in God - Yes...
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - organ donor
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - regret
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - my dog back
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - an allnighter with a friend
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - yeah
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - quarter, its worth more lol
[ x ] What are some of your favorite animals -dog, horse, cat
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - my thoughts, my life
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better -my own life
[ x ] Who is someone that you really wish was still around -my grandpa stone...
LAYER ONE:
Name: Heather Renee Rathbun
Birth date: 2-17-87
Nickname: dont really have one
Current Location: Cedar Springs, MI
Eye Color: green/brown
Hair Color: real hair color, brown, dyed = really dark brown soon to be with highlighs
Height: 5'9"
Righty or Lefty: Right
Zodiac Sign: Aqurious how ever you spell it

LAYER TWO:
The shoes you wore today: tennis shoes from wall mart!
Your weakness: love
Your fears: living alone, not bein loved
Goal you'd like to achieve: drivers license

LAYER THREE:
Your thoughts when you first wake up: dont want to get up...
Your best physical feature: my eyes?
Your bedtime: 10ish, weekends as long as i want
Most missed memory: seein my mom

LAYER FOUR:
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: Subway, definately
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: does it matter?
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino

LAYER FIVE:
Smoke: No
Cuss: Yes
Sing: Yes
Have a crush(es): yes...
Do you think you've been in love: yes
Want to go to college: Yes
Like(d) high school: Yes, i love to talk
Want to get married: someday
Believe in yourself: i believe i can try
Motion sickness: naw
Think you're attractive: no sometimes yes,
Think you're a health freak: no
Get along with your parents: dad yes, mom not really for now
Play an instrument: not yet


LAYER SIX: In the past month...
Drank alcohol: yes
Smoked: No
Done a drug: no
Had Sex: no, im a virgin
Made Out: no
Gone on a date: no
Gone to the mall?: yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: ano
Eaten sushi: no
Been on stage: yes
Drama class: no
Been dumped: no
Gone skating: no
Made homemade cookies: yes
Gone skinny dipping: no
Dyed your hair: yup
Stolen anything: no

LAYER SEVEN
Ever... -- Played a game that required removal of clothing:
If so, was it mixed company?: Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes
Been caught "doing something": no
Been called a tease: Yes
Gotten beaten up: naw
Shoplifted:no
Changed who you were to fit in: if i change its to be more me and not what other want me to be

LAYER EIGHT:
Age you hope to be married: ...26?
Numbers and Names of Children: ...2 girl, sierra or Bianka, Boy, idk yet
Describe your Dream Wedding: outside weddin the sun shining
How do you want to die: of old age
Where you want to go to college:idk
What do you want to be when you grow up:Photographer or a family counseler
What country would you most like to visit: Austraillia

LAYER NINE:
Best eye color? green
Best hair color? brown
Short or long hair: long Height: 5'9"
Best weight: thats not something you ask a girl
Best articles of clothing: jeans and a sweater
Best first date location: movies
Best first kiss location: guy on the lips

LAYER TEN:
Number of people I could trust with my life: 3 or 4 tops
Number of CDs that I own: like 15?
Number of piercings: ears, so 4
Number of tattoos:0 want one though
Number of cars you own: one

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fadingfallenstar

:: 2004 23 December :: 10.07am
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Burn Rubber

Let me try this again.
Quotes.
A lot of these are old and I don't really take quotes anymore, but I decided to post what I have anyway. They aren't very good this time, I'm slack'n]

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