~*Janice's Life*~

:: 2004 1 November :: 4.28pm

Uh another really shitty day. Some people just really piss me off at our school and they just need to grow up. I am so sick of having shitty days. I need something really good to happen or something to get me excited.

:: 2004 31 October :: 7.24pm

Uh I wish I just knew. I cant keep doing this wondering thing. I need to talk to her, I need to know.

:: 2004 31 October :: 11.27am

I love halloween! This halloween was the best! I had so much fun. I have never gone all out for halloween but last night was great. Me and Katie were flappers. We looked like twins and Jess was a sluty devil. We were all quite sluty looking last night but who cares its halloween. Travis and Jonny were me and Katies pimps hehe I loved it. The best thing about last night was that it was alot of fun and I was still good. I realized that you dont have to do that kinda stuff to have tons of fun. Kinda a point less entry but oh well that was my Halloween!!!

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confused+abused

:: 2004 29 October :: 7.47pm

So Brent wrote me Bleh... if he ever really meant what he said we would still be together and i wouldn't be crushed... So im not one to share my whole life story but I'm going to put the letter on here... okies

Jessica,
I miss you so much and i really hope that you can forgive me for everything that I'v put you threw I could go threw a million pieces ofpaper begging for you back but chose against it because you probably won't anyways. I miss everything about you! I'v dated since August but no one like you, you are the funnest person to be around and I miss that. I sold my car in Sept. and I am planning on getting and apartment soon im hoping you will come and stay with me. i wrote a poem for you so I'll put it in here.
Never again
I don't deserve you i know
every thought become distant your laughter a blur
as my nightmares become reality you really aren't there
i miss your kiss, your touch, i miss the clovers you loved so much,
Id give a million happy moments for just one more with you
i never thought you wouldn't be here
my life seems pointless without you.
Jess iv shared all of my hopes and dreams with you in hopes of living them with you. Every move i made seems like a mistake I just hope you will see beyone those and forgive me I'll love you forever.
miss you,
brent

Yeah so the poem was semi good but the letter all and all made me cry a week later he left flowers on my seat. Brent hurt me so bad 10 months went downt the drain but whatever i guess. Guys do what they have to, to get what they want. I think it may be a while before i date again.

:: 2004 29 October :: 3.48pm

Uh today fucking sucked so bad. I HATE TODAY UHHHH. Nothing happend to even make it bad like no one pissed me off or anything its just I am running on about 3 hours of sleep and well I am a bitch when I dont get sleep. The only good thing about today was I got my new phone. Wow isnt that just fucking great! Thats my excitment for the day..thats sad. Alls I gotta say is I better do something fun tonight or I am gonna hurt someone.

:: 2004 27 October :: 6.46pm

3rd update in one day now thats a record for me but yay I get my new phone on friday this is the best news I have gotten this week other than katie jo's news hehe!!! Oh and I have decided I am over it and moving on...

:: 2004 27 October :: 5.32pm

Another plus for tomorrow.. I am getting my stitches taken out so I won't be at school for prolly the first 3 classes. Those are my least favorite to. Tomorrow is looking like it might just be an ok day!

:: 2004 27 October :: 4.10pm

Yesterday was just a bad day and I think I am just going to forget everything that happend. I seriously cryed like 4 or 5 times over nothing. Things that wouldnt make people cry I cryed over. I cryed when my dad yelled at me I cryed when my mom yelled at me and on the phone with katie then watched a movie and cryed again then went to bed at 8 and cryed myself to sleep. Uh thats so sad I need to get a grip on my life. I never cry. Never. I think everything just got to me cause I have build up all of these emotions and just let them go. Today wasnt much better tho so thats just great.

Well the first time didnt bother me but the second time oh ya it bothers me. I dont even know what to do about it either but for now I guess I will just let it go. But tomorrow should be better. Parents are gonna be gone fo the whole night so I dont have to deal with them. Thats one less thing I dont have to deal with. ok enough of my bitching.

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 27 October :: 1.50pm

what a doushebag.

ashley simpson. did anyone see her lip-synch on S.N.L? im wathcing it and......on national t.v. she screwed up. WHAT AN ASSHOLE!

it just proves my point more that shes a non-talented person who is gaining popularity from her sister.
looks can only get you so far, but you need talent ( yes REAL talent) to make it any further

:: 2004 25 October :: 10.13pm

uh so you really confused me. I like you plan and simple. But the real question is do you like me for more than just a "fling"? Is that all I am to you? Uh right now I just need answers..

wildthing

:: 2004 25 October :: 7.08pm

hey what is up?? well after a whole year of not seein me my mom decided to write my sisters and i a letter, yeah big amazment right?? anyways i have the letter she wrote us and what i wrote back if your interested look here: http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=Torndownthecenter ..........anywhore yeah it explains most of it on there so i really dont have much more to say so i will talk to you laters

:: 2004 24 October :: 9.38pm

So I am really trying to be happy right now. I just feel so helpless. I just want this to work out but deep down I know it won't and its killing me. I just want more, I deserve more...

:: 2004 24 October :: 1.00am

Uh I could seriously go crazy right now!!