Chronicles of a Star

:: 2005 19 November :: 10.44am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: fall out boy : dance dance

I cant stop listening to the same songs over and over again. I also cant help but keep making the same mistake over and over again, and yet I still fucking care. For the record, I'm RIDICULOUS.

:: 2005 10 October :: 8.39pm

I miss my woohu!!!!!!

:: 2005 17 March :: 10.30pm

i miss my woohu.

:: 2005 8 January :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: the pixies : i bleed

don't apologize, i hope you choke and die.

I'm so content, but at the same time I'm so unhappy. Is this possible? How can i be feeling two opposite feelings/emotions, so strongly? I'm lonely, but not necessarily for love, for a true friendship. Anyone that I've thought I would be able to trust has let me down one way or another, I have no one anymore, but myself. I just want that one person I can call up and turn to, no matter what, when, or why. I want that person I can tell EVERYTHING to and not have to worry about them saying anythign to anyone else. I have a best friend, who I love dearly, unfortunately I cant trust her..and that's where I get lost. The one person I thought I could trust I can't, it made me question everyone and everything. I'm so very unhappy & I just want to curl up into a ball, and never open up again. I'm off to work, I wish that building would burn down, so I wouldn't have to work there anymore, die steakhouse, die.

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:: 2004 29 December :: 4.40pm

we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get, <3.

:: 2004 18 October :: 7.01am

it just makes me so mad, I can't live through another Victoria, or go through another case of that. I can't lose "him" to a friend, I'd die. I did that for 4 years of my life, I'm not doing it for another year. Im feeling so much regret right now, I just want to curl up in a corner and scream and cry and sleep and just never have to get up. And btw, I don't want to go to Beastie Boys tonight, I don't want to do anything. AHHHH! Alright, I"m done.

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:: 2004 30 August :: 6.47am

I still like him, I still want him around. I miss his 2am phone calls, I miss the beach at ngiht with him, I miss him hanging out w/ me and my friends. And I can't stadn the fact that he won't talk to me, fuck you, immature bitch.

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:: 2004 18 August :: 9.03pm

its official, i was not meant to be happy.

ASDHFJSDK

:: 2004 2 August :: 7.46pm

I miss freshman year so much. I was thinking about it today, and I got sad. I miss my friends from then...the six of us. I miss it so much. fuck growing up.

:: 2004 20 July :: 1.57am

I leave for alaska, tomorrow. dont miss me too much<3333

:: 2004 17 July :: 3.03pm

Going to Alaska in 3 days, and I can't fucking wait!

<3mandy.

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:: 2004 25 May :: 7.59pm

Umm, I dont update this one as much, just sometimes...so yeah.

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BUt I still love my woohu <3

:: 2004 20 May :: 4.12pm

I guess that I can do a "real" update on woohu, for once. Exams are starting on Monday, and I'm getting nervous. This weekend, is going to be insane, but I think that it's just bad timing. Friday night I'm working til 9, than I'm going to Lauren's, cause we made plans a week ago, and I love her. Saturday I was planning on going to the Fishing Rodeo, to help my step-mom, but maybe I'm just going to study, all day. And then Saturday night is a night with Paige, so she thinks. Ya'll know what I'm really talking about though. And then Sunday is the Bahamas, I can't fucking wait. Paige + Mandy + Samahab = daaang, watch out. hahah. But now I'm thinking with exams starting on Tuesday at 1, that I shouldn't do all this, and just go out on Sat night/Sunday day, cause I really need to get atleast c's, on EVERY exam. God, too much to figure out. I'm off to Wal*Mart with Maria, I miss her a lot.

xo

<3mandyy