I knew it.
things have been pissing me off.

1. Found out that my parnets make too much money for me to get that Close up aid that pays for half of it. Yeah for a 5 person family your parnets can only make 42,000 a year I found out that my parnets make 70,000 to 75,000 dollars a year. This really pisses me off I mean that isn't to bad for a year and I always feel we make like 42,000 dollars a year just my parnets just can't organize money very well. I am going to create a budget for our family to use next year.

2. My job has really sucked on how many hours it feels like I am doing then getting my check that's only for $92.00 that's just not enough for me. I shouldn't be angry about that but I am, I mean some people don't even have a job. OH by the way another person is quiting so we are going to hire another CSR so if anyone wants to put in an app. they should.

3. I am sick of these fucking bored weekends. I know this weekend going to suck too just like this weekend. But the weekend after that will be great Dec. 3 Motion City concert I really can't wait for I really need this concert so I can go crazy.

4. Plus my chem. class I really don't get orbitals of eletrons. I am getting an F because but MR. J going to teach me tomarrow so I know how to do it fo the test. So if there is any of you out there that isn't chem. retarted like I am that could help me throught this year so I can graduate I really like if you would. That would be so great.

yeah that's about it.

Radio Station
Today in chem I form an idea about making my own radio station after collage. The station music will be punk, indie, and emo. Matt Wetzel is and came up with one name for it by useing the letters p-i-e( you know p is for punk, I is for indie, and e is for emo). 95.3 WPIE then at the station we would sell pie there I don't think people would get the pie thing at first it will come around. Then we sort of thought of logo of a piece of pis wearing emo glasses and having a mohawk hair cut. This whole pie thing is getting to be a bad idea I know. I just really want a radio station that plays music like that and I also decided on wensdays we would have a local band hour. Yes I was really bored in chem I just don't like the elements orbits it's just not fun.

Co-workers
Today Bruce asks me "Are you going to join the army?" I said "No, I am not the kind of person that could kill another person". He says " Well would you die for country or go to a dictatorship country". I said " Well I guess I would but it will never happen unless Bush fucks up".

Yes many millions soilders died to make america the way it is and I am very thankful for it. I am starting to think that war doesn't do any good...you end one war just to make another (War all the fucking time). Yes I love the life I have... but lets say I had the choice of living in dictatorship to stop all war and have complete world peace...I would do it. I think war fucking sucks and I believe no one should have to go throught it in their lives. This is my opinion.

I feel great no work today...I am really starting to hate it. I hate when you have a job but you have no money because you keep spending it, I really need to stop that. Anyway I have been having this debate in my head the last couple of days about wrestling...should I or shouldn't I that is the question. I really hate the sport I hated practice the meets on saturdays I wanted to quit last year but I did it because my dad enjoys seeing me out there. My parnets already paid the "pay to play" card so if I don't wrestle then I need to pay them $100 bucks which I really don't care if they don't get mad at me for not wrestling. I am planing on giving my dad a well thought out letter explaning why I don't want to I really hope he respects my decision.

Great Day
I liked today not that anything special happen it never does but I just loved how much sun there was its been awhile since I have seen it...gray and rainy days just naturally depress me

My job not doing well at all...I have never made a mistake since yesturday...I didn't show up for work because I didn't know I had it...I got wrote up first I didn't know what they meant by that but I figure it out

And sarah why do you have to be so happy? yeah I heard about three times today you just make think "Why I can't even be happy like that?" it must feel great...I hope everything goes as plan for you it will just make you happier which will make me happier because there will never be unhappy sarah at school anymore

I bought a new book today. Invisible Monsters by Chuck P. I have liked his books so far. The last one I read was Choke which was good, a lot of sex in it though not saying it was bad thing but it seemed a little much. So if anyone has read Invisible Monsters I'd like to know if you liked it or not? I don't know what the next will be, I was thinking lullaby but it sounds sort of dumb.

Why do bands have to be good?

I mean I really liked Incubus and still do but then I started liking Motion City Soundtrack a lot. Now it's Sparta I saw them in concert I thought they were just o.k., but after I bought their cd and listen to their lyrics I can't stop listening to them and singing to their songs.

"I want to be welcomed not just tolerated"

I feel like shit. Nothing is fun.

I like this song
Playing for keeps
by Matchbook Romance

Its so simple
and complicated the way you can crush me
No matter how much this hurts This is through
I get as far as your door before I get caught
I make up excuses just to touch you and I can't stop, I can't stop
So are we playing for keeps These days begin and they don't end for weeks
Leave me left out of anything to do with you Excuse me while I fall apart don't flatter yourself sweetheart Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car
Do you have to make this So hard
Your so good At pretending everything is
alright Your as welcome as cancer but my door is always unlocked
So are we playing for keeps These days begin and they don't end for weeks
Leave me left out of anything to do with you Excuse me while I fall apart don't flatter yourself sweetheart Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car
Do you have to make this So hard
Your so good