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2004 26 March :: 11.09 pm
Where to begin. I'll start with today. I finally brought myself to sleep in. I only missed first hour and half of second, but the extra sleep was nice. My mom (by the way, things are smoothed over) made me go see the Passion with her and my sister instead of letting me go see Oklahoma. It was a good movie. I got goosebumps during the scouring at the pillar. The movie made me realize how hard it is to be a christian. Sure, it's easy to call yourself a christian, but to really BE one? Throughout the movie I was angry at the Roman soldiers and the High Priests, but that just shows how hard it is to "love your neighbor." Anyways, it was a good, eye-opening movie. Well, I finally asked my parents about Chicago. Oddly, my mom was for the idea. She was a little uncomfortable with me staying in a hotel with Emily, but she trusts me that I won't do anything. My dad objected because of the cost. I guess my parents are struggling financially right now, but just by looking at our standard of living, you wouldn't necessarily think that right away. As of now, I don't know whether or not I'm going to Chicago. It'd be nice, but I guess if we can't afford it, we can't. I talked to my aunt tonight, and we'll at least go out there during spring break. It sounds like Rachael is adjusting pretty well, but she's still "a ham," as my aunt likes to call her. Random notes: Our tire looks like it was slashed, and I had to put the spare on today. The other night I had a dream where I was being chased by this guy because I told the cops he killed some people. Insecurity issues perhaps? My brain is fried. Later.
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2004 26 March :: 2.28 am
Right now it's 2 am and I'm on AOL 9.0 even though my computer doesn't meet all the system requirements. I haven't been able to get online for a few days. My dad had to restore our computer, which means EVERYTHING got deleted. You know how many hundreds of songs I had on the computer? Oh, well. Right now I"m watching The Darkness' music video for "I believe in a thing called love," which I must say, is rather interesting/perverse. I better get some sleep, so I'll update later.
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2004 21 March :: 9.57 pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: goldfinger "pick a fight"
My mom is a fucking bitch. I was actully happy today..HAPPY. But then she has to go and fucking rain on my parade, the bitch that she is. I swear, she's acting like a fucking two year old. The whole sitution is blown out of proportion and now I have a headache. Here's the story. So last night she was "famished" and wanted some of my candy. Alright. I was little agitated, but willing to let her have some. The thing that agitated me is that she just started rummaging through my bin, which I think is kind of rude. Then this morning, yet again, she made another attack on my candy stash. Naturally what do I do? Hide all my gifts under my bed. But when I get back from church, more candy is missng. By this time, if my mother was still famished she should have gone out and fucking bought some food, instead of stealing mine. She said she'd buy me some "Russel stover's chocolates." 1) I don't like R.S. chocolates. 2) It's not the same thing. These are gifts from specfic people that she is taking. I confront my mom about the situation because by that time I was pissed. I was civil about it, but my mom got all bitchy. She called me Satan and bitched that don't sleep, that I "run around like a chicken with it's head cut off." Just because I don't fucking sit on the couch all day! Excuse me, I'm young...shouldn't I be out doing stuff? My mom just wants to be this oppressing dictator! Oh yeah...back to the story...so while I' out getting dinner (since she refused to cook dinner for my dad and I) my mom takes all my gifts out of my play box and throws them on my floor. How childish is that? I can't wait until I escape this hell whole. My family is dysfunctional.
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2004 21 March :: 3.20 am
I am happy. Tonight I made my last appearance on Catholic Cenral's stage. I tried to savor as much of it as I could: the band room warm-ups (energy balls, clapping, the "train"), the prayer before the show, moments off stage, wishing everyone good luck, telling everyong "good job." I'm going to miss it. Play at Catholic is a tradition, and hopefully I have left my mark. During intermission Mr. Powers came into the boys' dressing room (not a good thing considering there were naked boys and "suck on my chocolate salty balls" was playing in the background at full blast). He told me what a good job I was doing and said it's awesome because he sees a lot of kids like me who are quiet at school but then bust it out on stage, or in the band, or in one of the less popular school sports. It's awkward. For all the compliments I got, I didn't really think I deserved them. People seem to think that I'm awesome on stage, but how I see it, I'm not. Nonetheless, the things that people tell me make me feel good. All the unknown strangers after the show who tell me what a good job I've done...it's amazing. Practically Jimmy Gawron's entire family introduced themselves to me. His grandmother said I was her favorite character. His mother said they go around the house saying "There's something wrong here!" Then his father said he was laughing just thinking about my part when he was driving to the show. He also said that he was in theater for four years and (I forget his words, but...) he never saw someone act like I do. To think that I have something special...I definitely wouldn't go that far! Jimmy's one person that I can see like myself, though. I don't know what talent he has, but I started my sophomore year too with a small part. Then my junior year I found myself as a lead. Going from 3 lines to 100 was quite a shock! Now, I feel so comfortable on stage. I don't even get nervous, which is odd for me. I also got a lot of great compliments from frends and people in the cast. Andrea Piotrowski said "maybe I'll see you o broadyway someday." Katie T said "Continue acting, because you really are good!!!" Katie F. said "Never give up acting - you're great at it!" Then, Mrs. McConnell wrote me a note: "I will always remember how easily performing came to you! Your talent shines!!" To top it off, I got the "Best Actor" award. That means I got the most votes from my peers, the people in the show. I think that means the most. Dan got supporting actor; Alexa got best actress; Lena got supporting actress. Too bad Andre didn't get an award. It would've meant a lot to him, I'm sure. Christina got most helpful person award, Gary got Director's Award, and Katie F. got "most likely to fall off ship." Great, great memories. This is the part where it starts to get sad. I graduate in 3 months, and then I start a new life in Chicago. Mrs. McConnel said I should do some community theater. We'll have to see. But one thing for certain: I never want to forget those I left at Catholic Central, those who have supported me and made me who I am. I already await in anticipation for next year's show. Only that time, I'll be able to sit back and enjoy because I won't be on stage.
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2004 20 March :: 1.08 am
That was one frickin great performance if you ask me. (Not being sarcastic, either!) The whole show just seemed to click. Everyone played their parts wonderfully. Mrs. Dornbos was in the front row, and I kept on starring down at her because she was the only person I could recognize in the audience. After the show a whole bunch of us went to Bufflo Wild Wings. I don't know about everyone else, but I didn't have meat...I'm good catholic...well, sorta. Dumb moment of the night: "Please use other door" posted on the DOUBLE DOORS at BWW. what do I do? I keep on walking looking for the "other door." Wow.
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2004 17 March :: 11.18 pm
goof off night highlights:
"Why couldn't be an indian..or a woman?" - Me
"I can get you a salior suit..he's still handcuffed to the bed." -Boonie
"But baby if you're on bottom, I'm on top" -Billy
"Now we've got to have something to cover up that giantic pimple." - Me
"Don't move or I'll beat you with my cane." -Me
"You wouldn't say that if you saw him in ACTION" - Billy
"Getting fresh, eh? I like it!" -Bonnie
Other Random Moments:
-Me foaming at the mouth
-the chorus forming a line
-the chorus surrounding billy & hope
-Ted & David joining the strip poker game
-Kenesha in Public Enemy
There were a lot more, but I'm too tired to think. Tomorrow i have a sanocki "test" that is going to kill me and I need to study. He expects us to talk for a full minute? Ugh!
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2004 17 March :: 12.09 am
googlism.com
justin is old
justin is taking the chris
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justin is our angel's dreambook
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justin is with parents
justin is not over yet
justin is my squeeze toy
justin is runt
justin is bootylicious
justin is a pixie"
justin is a little wacky
justin is in new york
justin is the gayest
justin is over doing it with all of
justin is szólóban
justin is out
justin is cute
justin is hotter than nelly??
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justin is freakin hott
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justin is his quick wit and clowning around
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justin is the 18th most popular boy's name
justin is a pixie"
justin is janet j
justin is the gayest posted on sunday
justin is the gayest date
justin is performing at the vma's
justin is over doing it with all of his tattoes?? mark all forum posts as read
justin is a handsome devil and he's very grown
justin is hit by an andy caddick bouncer justin is hurt after being hit by the bouncer
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justin is currently staying at a nearby hotel and will discuss the incident with host julie chen on thursday's live broadcast
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justin is way hot
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2004 16 March :: 11.44 pm
My calves are soar as hell, but I actually enjoy running on our new treadmill. I'm trying to make a commitment to run on it almost everyday for at least 20-30 mins. Hopefully, I can get in shape for college. Speaking of which, I may have already mentioned that I was accepted into Loyola's honors program. Yesterday they picked finalists for the Ignatius scholarship...that's a full-ride. I wonder if I even have a chance at being considered for it? I guess we'll have to wait and see.
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2004 15 March :: 10.09 pm
I'm tired, but I still have a bunch of calc problems to finish. Grrr. I got some online help with two problems, and that helped me remember how to find the deravative. It's been a while. Tonight I ran on the new treadmill my mom bought. It's not too bad. It has a CD player and fan, and it can check your heart beat. The funniest part of school today: during 5th hour, the office made an unexpected announcement for all sophomores and juniors to go to the aud. They go running out of their classrooms, leaving the teachers stunned. 5th hour I'm in french II, so there were 3 seniors left after the annoucement. It was great. Worst part of play: I think I'm getting another sty. Play make-up sucks!
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2004 14 March :: 11.38 pm
:: Music: the darkness "I believe in a thing called love"
Was it me or did the weekend go by fast? I guess when you have performances friday, saturday, and sunday it can seem that way. Today's performance! Wow...sara sums it up best when she says it was better than saturday but not as good as friday. First of all, there was hardly an audience. Without a responsive audience (someone ought to have checked if they were breathing) it was hard to get energized. Secondly, the prop girls put away my gun so when I went to get it...it was gone! Improvising, I took a cane, which was very awkward to carry on stage disquising. It sufficed I guess. It was either that or a tamborine or bouquet of flowers! After the show I came home and crashed. I felt crappy tonight, and now I gotta write a stupid essay for AP Lit.
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2004 13 March :: 1.55 am
Tonight was simply awesome. From my perspective, the play was flawless. I don't feel like I have much talent, but I got a ton of compliments. All these strangers told me what I good job I did and how I "stole the show." Dr. Reilly told me I had the audience eating out of my hand, or something like that. I also got to meet Joe Fritz, who played Moonface 8 years ago. We both agreed that it is a great part. There was one point in the show were I stumbled over my lines: "That's more like it! Can we hear from anananother layman?" Lol...I swear, sometimes can't talk. The weirdest part? Besides from a dry mouth, I wasn't really nervous. Unfortuneatly, it wasn't a sold out show, but the audience was great. They laughed at so many unexpected parts. I'm glad that they enjoyed the show. Well, I gotta get some sleep for tomorrow's performance. Now I'm pumped.
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2004 12 March :: 11.54 am
:: Music: hoobastank "the reason"
Opening night tonight...I'm excited. All I hope for is that I won't screw up and that the show will go smoothly.
Yesterday after school I talked to Katie about prom. Ours is the same night as RP, and I told her that I wanted to go to ours. I remember I asked her to christmas dance sophomore year, but a senior had alread asked her. We've got attentitive plans to go, and I think it'll be fun.
Last night I went to Lacie's surpise party at Topos. There were a ton of people there.
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2004 10 March :: 10.02 pm
Despite an overall lack of energy and not feeling well, tonight's practice went alright. It was off to a rough start on my part, but turned around after the first scene. Alexa and I had to do some improving Monday night and it went something like this:
Reno: a monocle?
Moon: Yeah, it must've been THIS big!
Reno: really?
Moon: You know, all these englishmen sound the same. In fact, they sound like they're from another country!
*directors crack up*
It was great. Anyways, that calc test today..I have no idea how I did. Like, I think I knew how to do everything, but I wasn't 100% sure. I probably failed all the volumization questions. See, to me, anything less than an A is "failing." I guess I'll have to wait until tomorrow, which is going to be a wonderful half day.
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2004 9 March :: 11.27 pm
The Student Dress Rehersal was today. Uhm...it was okaaay, I guess. I botched a line or two, and people's ques before "Bon voyage" got totally lost (not my fault). A classic moment from the show...
Purser: Thannk yoo...
Moon: There's something wrong here!?
Purser: Thank yoo...
Moon: May the Lord watch over you and make you better men, although you're pretty damn good already.
Purser: Thank you, doctor, for your help.
You'd probably have to be there to understand. After the performance Mrs. Fritz came up to me and said it was like watching "Joe" (her son) up on stage (he had my part when they last did the show).
Just to prove how stressed I am, I had a dream the other night where I lost it. I was in calculus class. We had a sub. I clearly had my hand raised first, but the sub, who looked directly at me, looked around the room and called on someone else. I was pissed. After class, when I'm getting my stuff together, I said something really sarcastic, in a pissy tone to these two other guys there. It was something stupid, too, like "good LUCK with your HOMEWORK." They just looked at me and one of them made a comment, which I was too angry to even respond to. Then, later in the dream, I was in the gym lobby. There were a lot of people, but this one girl wearing shades started talking to me/hitting on me. She was pretty, but when she took off her shades she was like 12 years old! I'm not a pedofile, I swear!
Before I go...AOL isn't the friendly ISP it claims to be. In the homework help chat room for math, the "teacher" in there said "no more calc tonight." Sweet, so I can get help with my math problems when I need it. Sorry I'm not in algebra. These "teachers" on AOL don't know what they're talking about anyways. I better go study.
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2004 8 March :: 12.57 am
Just some updates...
I'm feeling a little bit run down, but I hope I stay healthy for the show.
I dropped a lot of lines tonight, but hopefully it was just for tonight.
I got accepted into Loyola's Honors Program. Scholarship notification isn't sent out until the 15th...full-tuition. Pray for me.
I need to find a job.
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