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2003 16 November :: 8.07 pm
I finally met someone new today. That was fun. Not what I was hoping for, but still glad to meet someone other than my regular group of friends.
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2003 16 November :: 12.38 am
:: Mood: cranky
Exhale
Yes, I was bitchy today, but so what? No, I don't know what was wrong, but do I have to? At least I can say that my college project is done. One down, a gazillion to go. Even though I prefer to spend my saturday nights doing homework, sometimes I get to urge to just drive somewhere..like grand rapids.
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2003 15 November :: 11.15 am
The only time I can rent R-rated movies, everything that looks interesting is PG-13. What's up with that? I was so incistent on getting an R movie that I rented Hamlet and Suburbia. Hamlet was okay; pretty much exactly like the play except modernized. Suburbia, which was supposed to be a comedy, was actually a deep movie that makes you think (and I wanted something that would make me laugh, not think). I guess it was kind of interesting because it showed how life goes on in Suburbia even though all the youth have shitty lives with no real promise. The ending lines were something like "Look at you, you just throw your lives away" as a dead girl lays next to the garbage bin. Ah, you gotta love cinematography.
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2003 13 November :: 11.27 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: "this place is a prison" postal service
The things i refrain from saying...
I could pull out my hair, but then I'd still be stressed ...only I'd have bald patches to stress out about too (yes, that would be a humorous site to see). I feel like everyone's problems (including my own) are minimal, perhaps insignificant. And I feel like a bad friend for thinking that too, but so help me, how can high school relationship problems be that important? In addition, AP English......yeah! Got a D MINUS on the quiz (stupid mistake that she let me retake and correct), and I forgot to put all the comma rules in my Gatsby paper that I stayed up late doing the night before. My dad called the credit union today and found out I was denied - REJECTED - on my credit card app. Guess my dad doesn't make enough on unemployment to be a cosigner, and it doesn't help that I don't have a job (stupid economy, stupid unemployment!). Still debating on whether or not to take another college class next semester. Still gotta finish my project for THIS college class. I wish I could go running right now, but then again I'm too tired to go, while at the same time being too awake to go to sleep.
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2003 11 November :: 10.15 pm
:: Mood: tired
All I want to do is sleep, but I have a frickin AP english paper to write on the Great Gatsby. Looks like I'll be up a while! I applied for my credit card today, though. I should find out if I got approved tomorrow. Disturbing moment of the day (lunch table):
KSR(to me): So, what are you doing...I mean...who are you banging this weekend?
KM: He's coming over to my house this weekend.
SICK!
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2003 9 November :: 11.45 pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: postal service "this place is a prison"
I could really use a sick day, or a sick week, to get all my loose ends straigtened out. I still need to do my college project, write my gatsby paper, study calculus, compete for scholarship money, and apply to a million colleges. I've only applied to 3 colleges so far, and of those only 1 is one I am seriously considering. Even though I've been accepted to the other 2, Indiana Institute of Tech and Johson & Wales University, I don't want to go there. Right now I'm too lazy and stressed out to apply to the schools I really want to go to: NYU, Fordham, Northwestern. If I get accepted into Loyola, I'd consider going there...but what if I don't get accepted? And I still haven't applied to any michigan schools. : ( In addition to all of this, I feel like a bad person. Today a woman came to our door asking for any odd-jobs so she could earn food money. True, my dad is unemployed (that's how I rationalized saying no to her in my mind) but we still have change laying around the house that I could have given her. I want to pull my hair out.
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2003 8 November :: 11.45 pm
:: Mood: bitchy
Today was not a good day. I woke up and went to rake leaves for NHS (which in itself was actually fun to a certain degree). But things kinda went downhill from there. I came home and took nap (very much appreciated)...but then I found out that my sister and her friend (very annoying duo) were going to be spending another night together at my house. My parents left for the movies, so i was stuck watching them. Plus, I had to lecture my sister for being a dumbass and inviting a guy she met online to our house. I attempted to do my homework and only got two things accomplished (still have projects to do). I didn't even get the chance to see Jami today, but I hope she's doing better. My family was annoying the heck out of me today. And my dad needs Gas-X. My family is crude. Now I'm here debating if I should watch the Blair Witch project or go to bed.
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2003 8 November :: 12.39 am
I was thinking about things tonight and I think i realized one of the reasons why I'm against drinking is because of my mom. No, not because she's lectured me for years and YEARS not to do it, but because when she is "mental" she is incoherrant...just like drunkards. It's that phase of my mother that I absolutely cannot stand. Just the fact alone that you cannot reason with her is enough to drive YOU crazy. Yep, it's all psychology people.
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2003 7 November :: 1.14 am
:: Mood: ecstatic
I'm not sure how to find the words to describe tonight. Nikki and Mrs. Hodges took me to WMU to see the musical Godspell. Driving through Kalamazoo brought back some old memories, and I got to see how some things have changed over the years. When we met up with Nikki's brother and finally found the right building, the show was starting in half an hour. First off, I really liked the theater and set design. There was a stage, but most of the show took place on the floor. In fact, the whole show was geared towards involving the audience. Antonio was the first character to enter, and he just casually walked in and took a seat like he was a regular patron of the theater (besides for the whole janitor uniform). To be honest, when I first heard what the play was about, I thought it'd be simply a boring religious play, but it wasn't. Who thought that the Bible and its parables could be so entertaining? I liked the simplicity. It took the messages in the Bible and made them simple and straightforward, rather than clouding them up with strict religious rules and force-feeding them to us. What topped the show was it's continuous cultural puns. From "Where is the Love" to Dr. Evil to puns that I didn't completely understand, it was chaulk full of them. Well...I better get some sleep so that I can function tomorrow.
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2003 6 November :: 12.22 am
lol, isn't this pathetic?
My life is rated PG.
What is your life rated?
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2003 6 November :: 12.02 am
:: Mood: chipper
I think I will be a model for a living. Okay, not really, but it's still fun posing for senior pictures. Today I went in for my black and whites. I haven't seen them yet, but I think they'll look pretty cool. The photographer said one of the poses looked like it could become a "sample pose" or something like that because it was a new pose for her. Later on tonight, I went to the hospitable to see Jami (and write out her math quiz for her!). It's scary that she keeps on having seizures and dying, but doctors dont' know what's wrong yet. I told her that whatever she does, not to walk toward the light!
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2003 4 November :: 12.54 am
Don't look now...but I think people are being nice to me? Not just nice, but excessively nice...or just extremely supportive. I've realized that I do have some pretty great friends out there, even though i seem to forget that from time to time. Anyways, today I was excused after 3rd hour for my senior pictures. The photographer was a nice guy even though he tried the corniest things to make me smile. ("Say..Mmoney!") I got to preview the last shot he took, and I actually liked how it looked. I cancelled my outdoors, so I'm going to get black and whites taken instead. Nikki invited me to see the play Godspell on thursday. All I can say is Kalamazoo, zoo, zoo, zoo, zoooo! Gettin out of muskegon is always nice.
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2003 2 November :: 11.27 pm
I'm grateful for my friends that actually take the time to listen to my petty little problems and give me the best advice they can. I know how stressful it can be to listen to people like me bitch about nothing, so I appreciate them even more.
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2003 2 November :: 12.34 am
Spent most of the night filling out Northwestern's Application, but I still gotta do the essay. Stupid essay questions. I actually have to think. Anyways, I told Kymberly that I'd call her tonight, so I think I'll do that.
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2003 1 November :: 1.06 am
I think emily and other people will agree that I was none too chipper this afternoon. Fortuneately, things got better after I went to Brandi's and the haunted house. It was better than I thought it'd be...not that I thought it'd be bad, just that I thought it wouldn't be very fun. I'm tired, so I'm gonna go watch my movie and go to bed. later.
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