Last night was fun. I hope that Kristen had as much as we were having (seeing that it was her birthday party!) After tossing around a nerf ball for a while, we went inside and played with the Quija board, which I've never played before. I don't know if I believe it or not. I know that I wasn't moving it. I thought that Andre was, but he swore that he wasn't either. So anyone know a Peter Tesser who is 343 years old?

Just downloading Marilyn Manson songs, thinking about everything else I have to do. (The songs are for my Lit project, so that I can listen to the music that they listened to. Lena and I got a really good idea to create a phsyical notebook filled with entries, scribblings, sketches, and drawings from them.) Things that I need to get done:
-Lit Project (including researching how to make pipe bombs)
-Gov't Assignments
-Service Hours
-Bachlaurette
-Europe Trip Stuff (luggage, sandals, clothes)
-Lit Portfolio (QUOTES!)
-List of Colleges I want to visit this Summer
-Questions to ask colleges
-Talk to Wiewora about taking a business class at community instead of a science class here

First there was the devil, then there was Sanocki
Ugh...So it's not 2:30 in the morning, and I'm not still working on my gov't project with all my homework still waiting for me??? At least I WILL get it done tonight and not have to worry anymore. I found out some interesting info for my lit project: Dylan Klebold's nickname was VoDKa, the attack may have been set for 4/19 not 4/20, both boths kept journals, and Eric Harris kept a yearbook where he 'X'ed everyone he hated's picture. LoL - Kenesha went into my locker today to get her book and saw all these magazines and books about Teen Violence..she asked if I was going to kill myself. And...Lena and I discused who would be capable of commiting real "violence" at our school.

"here's your holiday, FUCK YOU"
I'm judgemental and not in a good mood. Someone at church smelled like poo and the guy next to me would not stop shaking his damn leg! My mom's being her bitchy self. My sister is annoying. People irritate me at times. I explode at random people. But I'll pretend to be happy now...

Too much fun for a friday...I got my first "F" (that I can remember)today...that Gov't project that I rushed to turn in half-hazardly. If I get 100% on this big project and the assignments, I could have a B+/A - going into exam. Chemistry - got a "C" on that test that I didn't study for. Wow, I am a nerd! Well, the night got better. I was falling asleep at Katelyn's house, but the things she laughs about when she's high were enough to keep me awake! "Bunn Gernadie Ultra 2," "Ice-o-matic," "bottom mounting reach-ins fridge." Ahhh..laughter.

Well things seem to be okay today. Everything is in perspective. All I'm really worried about is all the quotes I've put off for literature and the fine details of our Gov't project. The least of my worries is my Lit project which I really like. Lena and I are investigating what happened at Columbine 4 years ago. For some reason, it fascinates me. Not in a sick way, just I see it as a tragedy, very sad, mysterious. I want to know more about what happened and why. For my project, I want to recreate in my mind everything that eric harris, dylan kleibold, and their victims experienced. Enough of that...I still gotta get a lot of stuff for Europe (including underwear, haha). This summer I need to get senior portraits done. I don't know if I'll go with Paris or not - gotta compare prices - but I want a black & white shoot and a shoot at the beach.

There's something like 15 days of school left and with everything that's going on, I feel like I can't handle it all. The Gov't and Lit projects are enough to make me stress out. The addition of Chemistry does not help it. Today we took another chem test, and I seriously think I could have failed that. I didn't even know how to do half the problems on there. I should have studied last night, but nick was over until 11:00. Surprisingly (or not so surprisingly) we didn't get much accomplished on our mini-gov't project. We rushed to get it done today, and turned it in half-hazzardly. On top of that, some friends are having problems. I probably haven't been the best friend to anyone, but it just feels like the same old stuff sometimes..."I'm tired, and if it's more than that I feel that I might break."

Starting out the day, we won our soccer game 5-1, and we had to give the other team some of our players because they were short. Then, Katelyn, Lacie, and I got a lot accomplished for our Econ project. We got pricing information and took some illegal pictures...We're creating an Internet Cafe. I took a little 5 hour nap, but I don't think Kenesha ever called. I don't know how I'm going to survive the temperatures in Europe.

For a while now, I've had this errie feeling that death was upon me. The fact that I'm sick and feel like crap doesn't help much. (But if I do die, I think it could have something to do with my heart - literal, not figurative). Maybe I'm just a morbid person? Even though I've conciously forgotten about my SAT test last weekend, I had a dream that I got the results back, and they weren't at all what I wanted.

It sucks. I can't sleep and I keep coughing. Europe in 38 days and counting. The school had a power surge today (very cool). Seniors are gone.

Aside from being sick all last night and not being able to sleep, still going to school sick, and having to take that horrible medicine, my day has been interesting. The highlight of my day? Someone baked me cookies! And...people have been "weird" lately, which just makes everything "weird." I feel like I'm missing something, but I'll just forget about it and take me and my weezing lungs to bed...