Yesterday was so much fun, and today I'm sad. At least, I think I'm depressed. I don't know if it's because play is over or what it's from. I have absolutely no motivation to do any of my homework; all I want to do is sleep. I'm not feeling suicidal, but if I died right now, I don't think I'd care. Soccer starts tomorrow, so hopefully the excercise will cheer me up.

Tonight could have possibly been the best night of my life. Okay, maybe that's an exaggeration, but it rocked! It was closing night, and the show was probably the best it's ever been. Despite a dream I had where I entered a scene late, nothing to that sort happened; the show was perfect! My bucket was actually full tnoight! lol..that wasn't important to me, but I was awed that some people went to so much work on the things they got me. Overall, the notes attached to those gifts meant the most.

After the show, we all went over to the Sprague's house for a party. Besides lauren stealing my camera and taking pictures of people I didn't even know, it was fun. I was amazed when they were announcing awards and I got "best actor." Erin, my mom, got "best actress," which she completely deserved! Alexa got "best supporting actress."
It's hard to imagine that it is all over. No more three and half hour practices. No more late-night diners. No more Song of Love. No more acting. No more compliments. No more applause. No more purple costume. No more make-up! The three months of practice was definitly worth the past two weeks of my life. I can now understand how the stage is a place where memories are made.

Tonight's performance was good, but not as great as Opening Night. During one scene, I completely blanked out and there was a long pause before I delievered my line. LOL! It was an awkward moment! Then, some people stumbled over their lines a little bit. I also learned that a few of the guys show up drunk for performances! WHAT THE HELL!!! If that's true, they're morons!
Well, another night filled with compliments. Afterwards, we went out to Topo's Italian resturant and that was fun, besides the fact that I got heartburn now.
Well I'm spent.

CHING CHING! lol...Another great show makes me wanna shout "I did it! I did it!" Who woulda thought shy ol' me could get up on stage and sing, nonethless act!
I don't think that Joslyn could make it to last night's show, but that's alright.
The Jancek family have been really nice to me...they gave me a full-size snicker cake and a bouquet of flowers!
Before the show today, Mrs. McConnel said we had to "have a talk." Okay!?! lol...well we had it. Appearently, a few of the girls in play like me and wonder why I don't date!!! I was tempted to mention my ex-girlfriend, or even Emily, but I didn't.
The weather is great!
I'm out...

I'm EXHAUSTED!!!! But I don't want to go to bed : (
3-Day weekend, but it's jam-packed.

Things are too obvious, or I'm just conceited. Appearently, I'm one of the few students that Mrs. Brooks things highly of. I don't know what I'm doing friday, but I'm looking forward to Saturday.

This has been one big bi-polar weekend for me! lol. Seriously though...
It's really depressing to see people fighting. I learned that sometimes you regret stuff, but the only thing you can do is learn from it and move on.
Play was a lot of fun today with the orchestra!
Friday = NO SCHOOL!
Goodnight

Ahhh..tonight was fun! Maid in Manhattan wasn't that great, but it did have a few funny parts. Nick and Andre came over afterwards, and we found $6.00 in my couch!

Today was better than yesterday. I guess I could have taken my slipping on the ice in the morning as indication of a bad day yet to come. In actuality, it wasn\'t that bad, but I know I went to bed pretty depressed. I said some things, not entirely sure if I meant them or not. And if I did, they weren\'t my main feelings on the matter. Anyways, I\'m glad that communication was exchanged.

I have so much more on my mind, but no words to express the feelings.

For lent, I\'m gonna try to give up sweets, except for treats we get for play...and I\'m gonna get in shape for soccer.

This song reminds me of how I felt a long time ago. Sometimes, i still feel like this:

"How can you see into my eyes
like open doors.
Leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb.
Without a soul
my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home."

Man, I feel like shit today. Family life could definitely be better! Tech Day was long, but it wasn't so bad. I have a few things to polish for the play. Opening night is only 2 weeks away! Yikes!