Just let me to myself, because I've concluded that I'm a hypacrite, or is that just indecisiveness?

Community College isn't challenging enough for me, or so my school councelor says. Would I go there in the first place??? Today my dad had a meeting with Mrs. Wiewora, and I got to sit in. Basically, my dad wants me to go to the cheapest school possible that will give me a decent education. But I thought you weren't supposed to think of cost when looking for a school you like?? Screw them all...i'll find a way.

I've had a long day, and I have a long night ahead of me! Well, the AP Lit exam wasn't so hard. We just had to write about something that we didn't understand at first and how we came to understand it. I wrote about pleasing yourself, and how it took me 6 years of band to learn to do what makes you happy. I have a 20/23 chance that I'll make it, so we'll have to see.
After school I got to retake my Chemistry test. In my opinion, the retake was a little bit harder than the first. So, I don't think it'll help my grade much. Looks like I'll have to accept an -A.
It only got better when I had to come back up to school at 4:30 to work on one of my songs. I'm actually pleased b/c I think it's my best song. If only I didn't have to do Song of Love...I hate that song! I cannot sing it! I hope everything gets better.
Goodnight.

Today sucked. I just stayed at home and went to church. I learned some cool information though: I'm going to college in NY. Tonight, someone told me I'm "perfect." I wonder if all the girls in my Fan Club think so?

I didn't do anything tonight except hang out with Emily, but we still had a good time.

I don't know if it's because I have nervous anxiety or just get too caught up in the song to sing, but I always miss phrases in my "song of love." Performance is in 3.5 weeks!

So, tonight I learned a lot of new stuff about people I\'ve known for a long time. Kind of changed my perspectives a little, but then again, we all have our vices and virtues and standards.

Daredevil was an okay movie and Jenifer Garner was super sexy in it! Frankenstein was a good book and Victor was a moron! Tomorrow I better have my lines and songs memorized!!!!!

La la la la! My mom won't shut up! La la la la! Honestly though, she was doing pretty well the past week and today she isn't so well. Tonight I went to the NHS induction ceremony. I have to admit, I found the traditions (such as lighting the candle) comical. It's a Secret Socity! I still gotta do my 10 NHS hours! Ahh!
Deciding on what classes to take next year. Still not sure on science. Yearbook should be fun. The Europe Trip better not be cancelled. I think a friend is mad at me b/c I don't talk to him anymore.

Well, it's starting to get scary. Tech day is in only a week and a half away! I need to work on my lines and music a little more. I'm already starting to get stage frieght! When I perform "Song of Love" in front of everyone, I stop thinking and sometimes the lyrics go blank! that's not a good thing! I got twin peaks on my face (pimples) and they're really annoying!

Today I went over to Jen's to work on our lit project. I made a fool of myself in our video, but if we get an A, I'll be happy. Afterwards, I came home and typed our proposal. Then I watched Lilo and Stitch, and now I'm watching Showtime at the Apollo. My life is pathetic! lol I still have to read Frankenstein, type my reflection paper, and study for chemistry. Even though I needed the time to do homework, I would have liked to go to the Mustard Plug show. Maybe I'll see another act in a few weeks?

Nothing special about today. Except, I fell asleep reading Frankenstein and then I had a dream that I was discussing all the "feeling" that the book had with some college professor. Weird stuff. Well, I've decided that next year my school should perform "Little Shop of Horrors" and I should be Seymore!!! I want to see that movie again! lol

Tonight was a LOT better than this afternoon. The Breaks is a very funny movie! I found out something new about myself!

Wow, I feel like a loser tonight. And it's a thursday, so I don't ahve that big of a reason to feel that way. Anyways...Joyeux Jour de Valentin!!!
And...beware of the curse of catholic ; )