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2003 6 January :: 8.13 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: "I'm in love with a girl named Fred" from Once Upon A mattress
Well, I just got back from the audition for my school's musical, Once Upon A Mattress. Although I was nervous, I didn't think I did too bad. Still, I think I could have done better. I should have tried out for Harry and the Prince, but instead I just tried out for the Prince. Too bad Tom and Dan were auditioning for the same parts. I didn't get a callback, but I know I'm still in the play.
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2003 5 January :: 8.10 pm
:: Mood: blah
15 hours of sleep, 3 crazy dreams, 1 boring day...
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2003 4 January :: 11.34 pm
:: Mood: enthralled
:: Music: "I dreamt an emo kid loved me" by Good Clean Fun
Ahh...
Today was fun. I found out the culprit of my car vandalism, had a dream I should not have had, and played M*A*S*H a couple of times (old school fun!haha). I can't believe tomorrow is our last day off : (
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2003 4 January :: 12.19 pm
:: Mood: impressed
Hmmm...
Someone wrote "Put your back into it" and "I love you J-Dawg" on my parents cars. My prime suspect is either a really good liar or didn't do it. But who else knows my ghetto name, J-Dawg? And who else would write "put your back into it?" I admit, I thought it was rather amusing. Bravo, Tu che!
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2003 3 January :: 9.08 pm
:: Mood: bored
So...
Yesterday I went out with Gina to dinner and back to her house. That was fun. Then I came home. I took 6 sleeping pills to drug me out, yet I still kept waking up periodically throughout the night. At about 5:38 my leg started twitching slightly, which made it a hard to fall back asleep. The rest of the day, I basically sat in my house waiting for the day to be over. Looks like I still have a few more hours...
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2003 2 January :: 6.14 am
Ah...Tonight was fun! I had a great three hour chat with Tanya. (I think it'd be wicked-awesome to run around that cemetary at night looking for Gus the Ghost! hA!) Well, I've been up all night long, so I'm a bit looney. Surprisingly, I'm wide awake. I'm also feeling philosophical. I've realized that in real life I can be labeled as a reserved "silent observer," but online, I can have more fun. Why is that?
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2003 1 January :: 11.30 pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: "kids in america" by lagwagon
Somehow, today feels like deja vu...oh yeah, Nicole's. Everyone went there today. I would've liked to go, but I was feeling sick all day. (feeling better now). Exactly 1 year 1 day ago everyone went to her house and I passed that up too. Well, tonight Emily dropped by and we played the Ebay game with my sister. Are we losers or what? lol Tomorrow I'm picking up the application for my passport!
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2003 1 January :: 1.52 pm
Do You have an eating disorder?
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that explains some stuff.
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2003 1 January :: 1.41 am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: "swing swing" by the all american rejects
Damn, I wish I could just rip my lungs and throat out. I should probably go to the doctor, but by this point, I figure recovery should be right around the corner. I've already been sick for a week. Plus, I'm not sure if we even have medical insurance anymore. Oh yeah, Happy new year's everyone. What are your resolutions? See, I haven't even thought of any. I guess my resolution will be to gradually be just a little more open and not as reserved. It's not as easy as it sounds.*cough cough*
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2002 31 December :: 4.00 am
Can't sleep. (keep coughing) Drumline is a good movie. Tonight was fun...
I'm still a reserved person, and sometimes I wonder why anyone doesn't check my pulse just to make sure I'm still alive. I had many opportunities, but I passed them up. Oh yeah, Emily is mad at me, it's all my fault, and I don't know what to say to make her not mad at me.
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2002 30 December :: 3.12 am
:: Mood: giddy
I got my quickcam up and running! (used to not work, but now it does!) So now you can watch me on my all new internet strip show. Seriously though, anyone know where I can use it? Because it seems kind of pointless.
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2002 30 December :: 2.43 am
:: Mood: nostalgic
Looking through some old papers, I stumbled across something I wrote in 8th grade for my religion class. I can't remember if I read this out loud. Please excuse the grammar:
Remember when we were in 4th grade and middle school seemed so far away! Can you believe that it's almost over? I can't, but one thing's for sure. This year has been so incredibly awesome to me! I won third place in an essay contest, got an A at Solo Ensemble, and maintained a 4.0. Despite the high points, there have been many challenges. During these last three years, I've learned more lessons in life than I ever have before. The deepest among these lessons were about friendship. I've learned that you should never take friends for granted. I'm guilty of doing this twice. In once case I was fortunate to still have a friend, but in the other it was too late. I guess I thought that I'd always have all my friends, but I now know otherise. Another lessons in friendship came to me recently. For the past three weeks I become obsessed with what people were saying behind my back. I got the answers I was looking for, but were they really what I wanted? From this I concluded one thing. I was not mad at these people for what they said, but I learned that it's really hard to determine who your real friends are and who aren't. Especially during this year, I've learned more about myself and my classmates. I've learned that we may all seems so different, but we're all human. Right now everyone's struggling to fit in, struggling to find where they belong, and I know how hard it can be. There's a problem among teens that really doesn't help it. Mockery. Besides that, I've learned that it's important to discover what and who makes you feel happy. This is important because this is what can stop people from committing horrible acts such as suicide. For me it's always been close friends and music. Whenever I'm feeling a little depressed I just turn on the radio and my worries disappear. If not that I start joking around with a friend and start laughing them away. I hope you remember what I said and try to stop the mocking of others, or even better, try to help outsiders fit in. I know that you may not want to, but it can make the world to that person.
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2002 28 December :: 10.06 pm
:: Mood: sick
*cough cough* I feel sick. Last night I could hardly sleep even though I took nyquil. So, I got out of bed at 6:00 am. We left for Frankenmuth later that morning. It was my first time being there. Quite the quaint little german village. We went to Bronners, the 80,000 sq feet christmas store. Everything was over priced and it was boring. Comming back, there were a lot of accidents and we had to take a huge-ass detore through Revanna. Basically, the day was boring, but it made my mom happy that we did something as a family.
Regina still wants to talk to me, and I could probably call her tonight, but I'll wait until tomorrow. I'm feeling tired right now and I'd rather talk to her in person. Anyways, I hope I'm not sick on tuesday ; )
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2002 28 December :: 12.52 am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: "cadalic pimpin'" by Young Bloodz
Surprisingly, things seem okay. They're not great, but they're not that bad either. I learned a few guitar notes today (on my sisters guitar). Regina said we "need to talk," but it's not a break-up speech. I actually have a few bucks in my wallet. And for the second time this week, I haven't eaten dinner.
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2002 26 December :: 10.58 am
:: Mood: aggravated
ANOTHER PERFECT DAY TURNED SOUR
WOW, did I speak too soon or what? I don't want to hold this hostility towards my dad, yet I do. This morning seemed hopeful, but when he woke up, it disrupted that hope. First thing he says to me is that he thinks I have an attitude that I'm going to get a part in this year's play because I'm not practicing the lines/music for audition. He doesn't know anything, so he can just cram it! Actually, I have practiced, whether he's heard me or not. Furthermore, I'm not even sure that I care to get a part this year. Next, as I inspect a letter from Fordham University, he tells me to "forget fordham"...because it costs too much. Way to encourage me dad. Nope! I wasn't even sure if I wanted to go there anymore, and he thinks that because a year ago I said I thought it'd be cool, I have my hopes set on it. Yeah, way to make assumptions and believe in me. I guess Harvard is out of the question?
Obviously, my christmas break isn't so great. It's pathetic. I am bored, and I have nothing to do, that's why I keep posting every 5 mins. I'm bitter and resentful. Somebody save me : \
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