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2005 1 August :: 12.35pm
i am such a fucking bitch
i just told him that i don't want him around. i just killed anything that was there because i am afraid that i will wake up and say i love him and hate myself for it. maybe in my heart i already have. i am so scared because i want to be with him, but it's so obvious that there is no way that can ever happen. i didn't want to get hurt, and i just fucking killed myself. and there isn't a damn thing i can do to fix it.
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2005 31 July :: 1.05am
so i have decided that i am scared shitless of flying, and so i will not see mike before at least thanksgiving, mainly because i am afraid of having to fly for my first time all alone. eeks. and i really miss him :(
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2005 30 July :: 4.40pm
You are Pedro Sanchez and love holy chips.
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2005 30 July :: 4.40pm
 | You scored as Mindfuck. Congratulations, you scored Mindfuck. You've probably seen a lot of movies, and have grown to hate mainstream shit. You're looking for the movie that will leave you breathless, and with 21 questions to think about. Check out: Donnie Darko, Being John Malkovich, Pulp Fiction, Memento.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 29 July :: 9.26pm
i hope you all like me with short hair, because i am cutting it off tomorrow. bwahaha
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joslyn_julia
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2005 29 July :: 1.59pm
so i am thinking of liz phair, and mike and ask him if he makes love cause he's in it. he says idk, i've never been in love.
the boy calls my too often but not enough. i'm worried that i'm going to be in love. mom says that it is going to be really hard to detach from him because we've had sex. why is this happening now? it's the question on both of our minds and we seem to ask it too often lately. hmm. anyways. i keep running this in circles.
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2005 29 July :: 9.08am
i can't properly take back what i said.... what i said in my lament is very true, but we are becoming closer. he wasn't drunk, he called and said the offer still stands, but it cannot be next week b/c he is sleeping on someones couch. I might go stay with him in Seattle instead, that way we can see each other before i start school. he was planning on waiting until like november to have me stay with him, but that could only happen if i stayed with him at thanksgiving instead of coming home. i don't know why i am so afraid to love him. he couldn't sleep so he calls me, and we talk for half an hour even tho he had to be on a flight at 4.30am. and he didn't call until far after midnight. i know we have each other but i can't have this happen right now, i want to wake up to him every morning and all i can do is wait silently until christmas, or some vacation every year, and just sit this out for four years. the whole menegerie seems impossible, but i already found a ring i want him to have and i pack down the cases each day looking for a wedding set. i want to get married. it seems too early to me, but you know the only real problem that we have is that we are too far apart. he still tries to call everyday, and the idea that i will give him a massage, even if he is too tired to do anything but lay on the bed makes him so happy. i wish i could record every conversation that we have ever had and put in a box to listen to over and over, because he says too many things that i love, or makes noises that i enjoy far too much because i know that i make him happy. i have disarmed him, and he has disarmed me. it all seems so impossible. *sigh*
oh yeah, he is taking me to a shooting range, and teaching me how to shoot people hunting weapons. yay. LOLercoaster.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 28 July :: 11.51pm
this is my lament...
i thought that i could be everything for you, and i got let down once again.
i am not going to bring you happiness, because i was not put here to be your toy.
happiness fades, so does joy, and even if you call i know that you are just like every other boy... and i was wrong.
maybe someday, you can look back and see your mistakes, and i won't shed a tear, i won't add some light to the situation, because my candle has burnt to the end, and i still lay here alone... with no word from you, and no hope to be in your arms.
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2005 27 July :: 2.54pm
Tell her she's amazing. Tell her why you think she's amazing. Pick her up and pretend youre going to throw her; she'll scream and fight you, but secretly, she'll love it. Hold her hand. Tell her she looks beautiful. Introduce her to your friends as "The most amazing girl I know." Do whatever it takes to make her laugh. Surprise her. Do things that make her smile. Be spontaneous. When she starts yelling at you, kiss her. Hug her. Kiss her more. Hold her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Call her back. Sing to her, no matter how bad you are. Push her on swings. Give her piggy-back rides. Stay up with her all night. And when you fall in love with her, tell her and promise yourself you wont ever let her go
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2005 27 July :: 12.03am
i don't understand what the hell i ever did to crystal but she needs to leave me alone. i never have done a damn thing to her. i hate her, i want her to get the fuck out of my life. i never did anything to her, and she has the audasity to call and wake me up and start swearing at me when she's probably all drugged up. just go the fuck away. don't swear at me unless you have a good reason and don't make me get up just to sit here and cry because idk what the fuck is going on.
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2005 26 July :: 10.11am
I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions. No more and no less. Ask me anything you want. Then, copy and paste this into your Journal allowing the people that read yours to ask you anything, too.
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2005 26 July :: 10.04am
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MIKE IS GETTING ME A PLANE TICKET TO FLY OUT AND SEE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!! and he told kerry that i am the perfect girl *eeek! i get giggley inside when i think about that moment!*
so, that is about all of it, but i thought you guys would be interested. I think it is very possible that in four years i will be getting married maybe not to him but then again, maybe to him....
oh, and how do you kids feel about a pool party?
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2005 25 July :: 2.49pm
:: Music: Lou Reed- Romeo had Juliette
Caught between the twisted stars the plotted lines the faulty map
that brought Columbus to New York
Betwixt between the East and West he calls on her wearing a leather vest
the earth squeals and shudders to a halt
A diamond crucifix in his ear is used to help ward off the Fear
that he has left his soul in someone's rented car
Inside his pants he hides a mop to clean the mess that he has dropped
into the life of lithesome Juliette Bell
And Romeo wanted Juliette and Juliette wanted Romeo
And Romeo wanted Juliette and Juliette wanted Romeo
Romeo Rodriguez squares his shoulders and curses Jesus
runs a comb through his black pony-tail
He's thinking of his lonely room
the sink that by his bed gives off a stink
Then smells her perfume in his eyes and her voice was like a bell
Outside the street were steaming the crack dealers were dreaming
of an Uzi someone had just scored
I betcha I could hit that light with my one good arm behind my back
says little Joey Diaz
Brother give me another tote those downtown hoods are no damn good
those Italians need a lesson to be taught
This cop who died in Harlem you think they'd get the warnin'
I was dancing when his brains run out on the street
And Romeo had Juliette and Juliette had her Romeo
And Romeo had Juliette and Juliette had her Romeo
I'll take Manhattan in a garbage bag with Latin written on it that says
"It's hard to give a shit these days"
Manhattan's sinking like a rock, into the filthy Hudson what a shock
they wrote a book about it, they said it was like ancient Rome
The perfume burned his eyes, holding tightly to her thighs
and something flickered for a minute and then it vanished and was gone
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2005 25 July :: 12.02am
:: Mood: shocked
this is horrid...thats what u get for bein honest
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joslyn_julia
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2005 24 July :: 11.54pm
ROFLcopter
the Cutting Edge
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your humor style:
CLEAN | SPONTANEOUS | DARK
Your humor's mostly innocent and off-the-cuff, but somehow there's something slightly menacing about you. Part of your humor is making people a little uncomfortable, even if the things you say aren't in and of themselves confrontational. You probably have a very dry delivery, or are seriously over-the-top. Your type is the most likely to appreciate a good insult and/or broken bone and/or very very fat person dancing.
PEOPLE LIKE YOU: David Letterman - John Belushi |
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